Emanuel Xavier

“don’t really care that you live miles away. I just need to know that you think of me sometimes, and that you felt something different when we first kissed. I think it’s great that we were born only months apart. I like that you’re a geek and I’m a diva but, like everyone else, we still believe in love, laughing at ourselves and the joy of life. I don’t really care that all we share on a daily basis is the moon and the stars. I just need to know that you have also overcome great sadness and tears healed your heart and soul with faith, moved past the treacherous roads of life’s journey and no longer walk alone lost in a miserable forest. I just need to know if you could deal with our past histories with no judgment or regret over the decadent and colorful and simply plain stupid. I just need to know that you could be happy, celebrate on the dance floor with sheer abandon and feel the music without drugs, inhibition, shame, aware others are staring enviously at fools in love. I don’t really need to know if you have found comfort with others because of this ill-fated distance between us I just need to know that you are comfortable with me in your heart and that you trust no one could ever take what we share. I just need to know that you would protect us from unnecessary hurt be honest with yourself and not fall apart in the face of human nature. I just need to know that you could feel the sun in spite of the clouds and that you enjoy the rain even if it causes certain damage because there is always something beautiful to look forward to. I just need to know if there is room for disappointment and you are still willing to walk across the bridge with me without trying to jump or push me in to the water down below. I don’t really care that there is a time difference when we speak on the phone, or that the economy is bad and we’re both practically broke. I just need to know that the weight of the world will not hold you down and you will not wait for permission to follow your dreams. I don’t really care to know how many others you have been with or how many times you have fallen in love. I just need to know that you will hold my hand as we are both being stoned for our sins without regret. I don’t really care to know what you may have heard, read, or fancied about me. I just need to know that you believe in how I feel about you when the truths and lies subside. All I really care to know is that you are aware of the beauty within you and that you have somehow changed my life. I really loved you and that is all you really need to know.”
― Emanuel Xavier, If Jesus Were Gay

“Officer, this poem is not a protest It is a prayer as we bury our loved ones Start a revolution to reclaim one ridiculed word Only celebrated by everyone during holidays desired before our last breath– Peace”
― Emanuel Xavier, If Jesus Were Gay