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Always With You Duet #1
Never Moving On
I haven't felt comfort in years.
My name is Evelyn Miller, and all I know is pain. I don't know how long I've been in this hell, but I'm not sure how much longer I can last. Nobody has found me, everybody has moved on. Am I ready to move on too, or should I put up one last fight?
It's been 7 years since I last held her.
I still search for her, we all do, but is it already too late? Evelyn has a family waiting for her here; with us. They may have never met her, but I have kept her alive in our home. I hope one day Evie will be able to meet my new family; Amiri, Ryan, and Korren. My name is Nolan Wilson, and I will never move on from my first love.
If you love your men dominating and sweet (and a little bit ridiculous), you will fall in love with Eve's found family. You will find that our main lady is a ball of sass underneath her trauma, and her men work hard to find her fire beneath the ashes.
Authors This is book one in the 'Always With You Duet.' It is a contemporary reverse harem with MM content and MPOV. These books contain dark content that is intended for audiences 18yrs+
Trigger Kidnapping, physical and sexual abuse, PTSD, and loss of a parent.
You will find a more detailed list at the front of the book.
*EDITED 8/18/2023
My name is Evelyn Miller, and all I know is pain. I don't know how long I've been in this hell, but I'm not sure how much longer I can last. Nobody has found me, everybody has moved on. Am I ready to move on too, or should I put up one last fight?
It's been 7 years since I last held her.
I still search for her, we all do, but is it already too late? Evelyn has a family waiting for her here; with us. They may have never met her, but I have kept her alive in our home. I hope one day Evie will be able to meet my new family; Amiri, Ryan, and Korren. My name is Nolan Wilson, and I will never move on from my first love.
If you love your men dominating and sweet (and a little bit ridiculous), you will fall in love with Eve's found family. You will find that our main lady is a ball of sass underneath her trauma, and her men work hard to find her fire beneath the ashes.
Authors This is book one in the 'Always With You Duet.' It is a contemporary reverse harem with MM content and MPOV. These books contain dark content that is intended for audiences 18yrs+
Trigger Kidnapping, physical and sexual abuse, PTSD, and loss of a parent.
You will find a more detailed list at the front of the book.
*EDITED 8/18/2023
432 pages, Paperback
Published July 11, 2023
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August 8, 2023
So disappointed because it had potential but dnf’d at 50%. Can’t tell you how mad it makes me that we have a girl who apparently was raped and tortured for 7 years literally the next day is like damn grey sweats he’s so hot. Just so infuriating when people use this trope without care
August 19, 2023
DNF - 68%
I wanted to like this book so badly. It had everything I am usually looking for and struggle to find... but I just couldn't connect with the FMC... I love reading about damaged FMCs that grow and heal with the support of their men. But she was so cringy to me for some reason. I know one reason was because her sexual personality seemed so forced. Like... her getting turned on by the guys being dominant after being chained and raped for 7 years without taking any time to heal or talk to someone was just so unrealistic to me. Just her getting turned on at all was a lot...
Like I said, love the overall vibe of the book. An FMC that has been through hell and all she has are the men around her to help her heal. But it just wasn't done with the finesse I am looking for.
I wanted to like this book so badly. It had everything I am usually looking for and struggle to find... but I just couldn't connect with the FMC... I love reading about damaged FMCs that grow and heal with the support of their men. But she was so cringy to me for some reason. I know one reason was because her sexual personality seemed so forced. Like... her getting turned on by the guys being dominant after being chained and raped for 7 years without taking any time to heal or talk to someone was just so unrealistic to me. Just her getting turned on at all was a lot...
Like I said, love the overall vibe of the book. An FMC that has been through hell and all she has are the men around her to help her heal. But it just wasn't done with the finesse I am looking for.
January 28, 2024
Sorry just doesn’t work…
There’s just not much to say about this book, except it’s coldly disappointing!!
Nolan and Evie have grown up together, they dated, they were each others first, then Evie is kidnapped!
Seven years later Evie SAVES HERSELF and escapes the Hell she has been living in. A room/basement that was cold, with nothing in it, where she was raped repeatedly for SEVEN LONG YEARS!
Nolan has said that he has never given up on Evie. That he loves her, that he will always love her! But during this time, Nolan went to school, met best friends/roommates, AND STARTED A VERY SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP WITH A GUY, Ryan. Although he has told all the guys about Evie, that hasn’t stopped him from LIVING HIS LIFE, and moving on WITHOUT HER and moving on with his lover Ryan. Nolan claims to have never given up looking for her…but SEVEN YEARS?! And it turns out she was living like less than 1/2 hour away from him trapped in purgatory with a monster!!! While Nolan was living the “good life.”
Evie’s mom died right after she was kidnapped, and it didn’t take her one true love Nolan *eye roll* all that much time replacing her with his “golden boy” (I just threw up in my mouth a little! Stupid nicknames. Gah I hate Nolan) Ryan. Oh sure, they ALL searched for her, kept her pictures in their house (uhm creepy since he’s in this totally sickening sweet relationship with Ryan).
Now Nolan expects (seriously, dumbass) for Evie to just move into his big house with his lover and adopted brothers - as if she hasn’t been through extreme trauma for seven years, and repeatedly abused and raped. Oh, and he’s sad (poor boy - no I don’t feel sorry for him, idiot) when Evie shies away from him and seems hesitant to get close to him since he introduced Ryan as his boyfriend. Well no kidding!! Evie is being wonderful! Her heart is totally broken, I know she sort of expected Nolan to be “waiting” for her, not meeting someone and f’ing like rabbits while she was tortured and raped for seven years!! But the moment she found out about Ryan she wasn’t repulsed, she was just hesitant because she wanted to respect Nolan and Ryan’s boundaries since they’re together. Throwing in the whole “Ryan may fall in love with Evie too,” is just stupid as well and clearly a plot device to let Nolan have his cake and ice cream too, and eat it too!!! Frankly Nolan has only been with Ryan, sooooo uhmmm yeah their relationship is super serious. For Nolan to say “hey I’m going to now divide my heart between you two like I said I would if we ever found Evie,” is a load of Bull - and in the beginning Evie knows it as well.
Yes, yes, it’s a RH, so she comes around, she accepts everyone…yada yada yada…even Ryan who comes off as a totally gay guy not remotely interested in women - just Evie (eye roll). But frankly, Nolan is supposed to be “the star” of this story along with Evie…and I just think he’s a total DOG! I didn’t like him in the beginning of the book when it started out immediately with him and his lover (after the prologue) and despised him when he brings Evie home from the hospital, and instead of staying with Evie, or sleeping in his room, or outside her door, something! I mean, she could have horrible night terrors! No, he sleeps WITH HIS LONGTIME LOVER in Ryan’s bedroom (a room that Evie is of course not going to feel comfortable going into). He’s both an idiot and totally insensitive!!
Truthfully, although I’m sure she’ll end up with them all, even “gay” Ryan and A-hole (pretending to be a good guy) Nolan, I don’t think Nolan deserves her AT ALL!!
Nolan leans on Ryan! He relies on Ryan! He goes to Ryan when he’s upset about Evie. He sleeps with Ryan, he showers with him, shares his home and life with Ryan…THEY ARE 100% together! It doesn’t matter how many times he says he can split his heart 50-50, nahhhh, he’s already proven Ryan is number one, priority one!! Evie went through Hell, and Nolan, even if he doesn’t mean to defers to Ryan always in regards to Evie, just further proving his 100% devotion to Ryan, NOT Evie!
Frankly, the only way I’d be interested in book two was if the author GOT RID OF NOLAN - let him go off into the sunset with his beloved Ryan, and allow Korr, even Mir (but especially Korr, to take care of Evie).
Honestly this book read like two different love stories! The love story of Evie falling in love with and opening up to Korr and Mir, and stupid, selfish, IMPATIENT Nolan (yes impatient, he did not wait for Evie, even though he said he could feel she was alive) he went off galavanting with Ryan and Ryan’s family, and built himself a life where Evie DID NOT EXIST NOR FIT INTO!! Again, doesn’t matter that he talked about her. He lived and THRIVED and was f’ing his boyfriend for years while Evie was being brutally raped, starved, and tortured!!! He CLEARLY DID NOT DO ENOUGH AND WAS NOT AT ALL THOROUGH ENOUGH IF HE COULD NOT FIND THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE WHERE SHE WAS BEING HELD LIKE RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER FROM HIM! Nope. Nolan is scum in my book. And Ryan, well he’s not much better, but at least HE didn’t claim to LOVE HER. He didn’t tell everyone SHE WAS HIS WORLD. He didn’t go around telling people how HE COULDN’T LIVE WITHOUT HER! Obviously Nolan was living without her just fine!
YUCK! What a terrible male main character to have in a RH!! I’m horrified that the author thought setting up a situation like this was acceptable…especially after everything Evie went through…OH and having her live with her ex and his boyfriend?!!! Gross!!!
Nope. I “get” what the author was trying to do, it IS a RH after all…but this was not the way to go about it, and Nolan is NOT A LIKABLE character…frankly neither is Ryan, because Ryan’s focus and concern is 100% on his lover, NOT the traumatized girl he told his lover he’d TRY to like/love for his sake *eye roll* - once again, THERE WAS A HUGE CAVERN WIDE DISCONNECT BETWEEN NOLAN AND EVIE! And this is supposed to be “at its center” THEIR STORY!!
P.S. How Evie recovers from her ordeal is completely unrealistic!! Of course she’d have nightmares and a whole lot of PTSD, but she wouldn’t (seriously, I’ve helped someone through a situation similar to this one 😞) be DROOLING immediately, as in, two days after she wakes up in the hospital after Nolan or any of the guys!! Even if she’d known Nolan her entire life, she wouldn’t be as friendly and easy going as she is to him…and the others…maybe she’d confide a little in Korr, since he’s “quiet” and protective!
P.P.S. She DEFINITELY would NOT be having HEAVY make out sessions With Nolan AND Ryan (totally random “gay” Ryan- who is just not gay for Evie, yeah right). There is no way she’d have an anxiety panic attack, massive nightmare, get talked out of it, and then let herself get led upstairs to make out or have sex!! Are you joking?!!! 1. She said she wasn’t ready (but she’s contradicting herself!) 2. Nolan and Ryan are gross! They act more like sex crazed predators, than friends…and Nolan is supposed to be her best friend. 3. She’s traumatized, AND the readers are supposed to believe she “bounces back” THAT quickly, and is oh-so-happy to see HER Nolan loving all over a guy/boyfriend, the way he used to love on her???
*This entire RH is centered around a seriously traumatized girl who is NOT realistically dealing with her trauma, and two seriously AWFUL male main characters who aren’t fit to lick her boots! I especially DETEST Ryan’s stupid POV’s, though Nolan’s are way up there too!!
There’s just not much to say about this book, except it’s coldly disappointing!!
Nolan and Evie have grown up together, they dated, they were each others first, then Evie is kidnapped!
Seven years later Evie SAVES HERSELF and escapes the Hell she has been living in. A room/basement that was cold, with nothing in it, where she was raped repeatedly for SEVEN LONG YEARS!
Nolan has said that he has never given up on Evie. That he loves her, that he will always love her! But during this time, Nolan went to school, met best friends/roommates, AND STARTED A VERY SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP WITH A GUY, Ryan. Although he has told all the guys about Evie, that hasn’t stopped him from LIVING HIS LIFE, and moving on WITHOUT HER and moving on with his lover Ryan. Nolan claims to have never given up looking for her…but SEVEN YEARS?! And it turns out she was living like less than 1/2 hour away from him trapped in purgatory with a monster!!! While Nolan was living the “good life.”
Evie’s mom died right after she was kidnapped, and it didn’t take her one true love Nolan *eye roll* all that much time replacing her with his “golden boy” (I just threw up in my mouth a little! Stupid nicknames. Gah I hate Nolan) Ryan. Oh sure, they ALL searched for her, kept her pictures in their house (uhm creepy since he’s in this totally sickening sweet relationship with Ryan).
Now Nolan expects (seriously, dumbass) for Evie to just move into his big house with his lover and adopted brothers - as if she hasn’t been through extreme trauma for seven years, and repeatedly abused and raped. Oh, and he’s sad (poor boy - no I don’t feel sorry for him, idiot) when Evie shies away from him and seems hesitant to get close to him since he introduced Ryan as his boyfriend. Well no kidding!! Evie is being wonderful! Her heart is totally broken, I know she sort of expected Nolan to be “waiting” for her, not meeting someone and f’ing like rabbits while she was tortured and raped for seven years!! But the moment she found out about Ryan she wasn’t repulsed, she was just hesitant because she wanted to respect Nolan and Ryan’s boundaries since they’re together. Throwing in the whole “Ryan may fall in love with Evie too,” is just stupid as well and clearly a plot device to let Nolan have his cake and ice cream too, and eat it too!!! Frankly Nolan has only been with Ryan, sooooo uhmmm yeah their relationship is super serious. For Nolan to say “hey I’m going to now divide my heart between you two like I said I would if we ever found Evie,” is a load of Bull - and in the beginning Evie knows it as well.
Yes, yes, it’s a RH, so she comes around, she accepts everyone…yada yada yada…even Ryan who comes off as a totally gay guy not remotely interested in women - just Evie (eye roll). But frankly, Nolan is supposed to be “the star” of this story along with Evie…and I just think he’s a total DOG! I didn’t like him in the beginning of the book when it started out immediately with him and his lover (after the prologue) and despised him when he brings Evie home from the hospital, and instead of staying with Evie, or sleeping in his room, or outside her door, something! I mean, she could have horrible night terrors! No, he sleeps WITH HIS LONGTIME LOVER in Ryan’s bedroom (a room that Evie is of course not going to feel comfortable going into). He’s both an idiot and totally insensitive!!
Truthfully, although I’m sure she’ll end up with them all, even “gay” Ryan and A-hole (pretending to be a good guy) Nolan, I don’t think Nolan deserves her AT ALL!!
Nolan leans on Ryan! He relies on Ryan! He goes to Ryan when he’s upset about Evie. He sleeps with Ryan, he showers with him, shares his home and life with Ryan…THEY ARE 100% together! It doesn’t matter how many times he says he can split his heart 50-50, nahhhh, he’s already proven Ryan is number one, priority one!! Evie went through Hell, and Nolan, even if he doesn’t mean to defers to Ryan always in regards to Evie, just further proving his 100% devotion to Ryan, NOT Evie!
Frankly, the only way I’d be interested in book two was if the author GOT RID OF NOLAN - let him go off into the sunset with his beloved Ryan, and allow Korr, even Mir (but especially Korr, to take care of Evie).
Honestly this book read like two different love stories! The love story of Evie falling in love with and opening up to Korr and Mir, and stupid, selfish, IMPATIENT Nolan (yes impatient, he did not wait for Evie, even though he said he could feel she was alive) he went off galavanting with Ryan and Ryan’s family, and built himself a life where Evie DID NOT EXIST NOR FIT INTO!! Again, doesn’t matter that he talked about her. He lived and THRIVED and was f’ing his boyfriend for years while Evie was being brutally raped, starved, and tortured!!! He CLEARLY DID NOT DO ENOUGH AND WAS NOT AT ALL THOROUGH ENOUGH IF HE COULD NOT FIND THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE WHERE SHE WAS BEING HELD LIKE RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER FROM HIM! Nope. Nolan is scum in my book. And Ryan, well he’s not much better, but at least HE didn’t claim to LOVE HER. He didn’t tell everyone SHE WAS HIS WORLD. He didn’t go around telling people how HE COULDN’T LIVE WITHOUT HER! Obviously Nolan was living without her just fine!
YUCK! What a terrible male main character to have in a RH!! I’m horrified that the author thought setting up a situation like this was acceptable…especially after everything Evie went through…OH and having her live with her ex and his boyfriend?!!! Gross!!!
Nope. I “get” what the author was trying to do, it IS a RH after all…but this was not the way to go about it, and Nolan is NOT A LIKABLE character…frankly neither is Ryan, because Ryan’s focus and concern is 100% on his lover, NOT the traumatized girl he told his lover he’d TRY to like/love for his sake *eye roll* - once again, THERE WAS A HUGE CAVERN WIDE DISCONNECT BETWEEN NOLAN AND EVIE! And this is supposed to be “at its center” THEIR STORY!!
P.S. How Evie recovers from her ordeal is completely unrealistic!! Of course she’d have nightmares and a whole lot of PTSD, but she wouldn’t (seriously, I’ve helped someone through a situation similar to this one 😞) be DROOLING immediately, as in, two days after she wakes up in the hospital after Nolan or any of the guys!! Even if she’d known Nolan her entire life, she wouldn’t be as friendly and easy going as she is to him…and the others…maybe she’d confide a little in Korr, since he’s “quiet” and protective!
P.P.S. She DEFINITELY would NOT be having HEAVY make out sessions With Nolan AND Ryan (totally random “gay” Ryan- who is just not gay for Evie, yeah right). There is no way she’d have an anxiety panic attack, massive nightmare, get talked out of it, and then let herself get led upstairs to make out or have sex!! Are you joking?!!! 1. She said she wasn’t ready (but she’s contradicting herself!) 2. Nolan and Ryan are gross! They act more like sex crazed predators, than friends…and Nolan is supposed to be her best friend. 3. She’s traumatized, AND the readers are supposed to believe she “bounces back” THAT quickly, and is oh-so-happy to see HER Nolan loving all over a guy/boyfriend, the way he used to love on her???
*This entire RH is centered around a seriously traumatized girl who is NOT realistically dealing with her trauma, and two seriously AWFUL male main characters who aren’t fit to lick her boots! I especially DETEST Ryan’s stupid POV’s, though Nolan’s are way up there too!!
October 3, 2023
DNF. Based on what I know about trauma, this book severely missed the boat, which distracted me. Some things were fairly right. But large guys being "pushy" with the girl suddenly helps her start feeling better? Er, no. Should have known better based on the genre.
November 4, 2023
I KNEW THIS FELT LIKE KERRY TAYLOR!
Anyway. Please read.my update for other thoughts on this book.
First off... I would like to say, good job.
This story was horribly sad, and sadly believable.
We don't WANT stories like this but, they happen.. So whether or not this one is true, it COULD happen, and maybe something in one of these book could help someone so either it doesn't happen to them or something in it will help them survive.
Secondly... Some of the reviewers Should be smacked with a reality stick!
Who the HE'LL are YOU to say when someone should start making strives for recovery!?
Maybe something bad happened to you and your recovery took longer, or maybe you haven't attempted it yet and for that, I feel bad for you but don't rate a book poorly just because YOU wouldn't be able to red her the same way!
Rate the book on writing style and the delivery of the message.
Which I think was awesome on all counts!
Off to book two.
Anyway. Please read.my update for other thoughts on this book.
First off... I would like to say, good job.
This story was horribly sad, and sadly believable.
We don't WANT stories like this but, they happen.. So whether or not this one is true, it COULD happen, and maybe something in one of these book could help someone so either it doesn't happen to them or something in it will help them survive.
Secondly... Some of the reviewers Should be smacked with a reality stick!
Who the HE'LL are YOU to say when someone should start making strives for recovery!?
Maybe something bad happened to you and your recovery took longer, or maybe you haven't attempted it yet and for that, I feel bad for you but don't rate a book poorly just because YOU wouldn't be able to red her the same way!
Rate the book on writing style and the delivery of the message.
Which I think was awesome on all counts!
Off to book two.
November 11, 2023
Loved it very much, totally my trope: broken, traumatized FMC with totally devoted guys but be aware of the trigger warnings!
December 29, 2023
I can see why other reviews took issue with this book
Our FMC was kidnapped and held captive chained in a basement for 7 years (she spends that time being physically/sexually abused so check your triggers).
Her best friend since birth - and budding romantic interest in their teen years - Nolan has never given up hope of finding her again.
When she escapes her captors, Eve and Nolan are reunited. Nolan now has 3 male roommates who feel like they also know and love Eve already because of how much Nolan has spoken of her over the years.
Here's where it gets iffy for me (light spoilers to follow): Nolan has moved on (despite the actual title of this book!). He's in a fully committed and loving relationship with one of the other men, Ryan. They've been an item for FIVE YEARS. They own a business together, regularly sleep together in the same room, live together, the whole shebang... everything short of sharing an actual bedroom and wedding vows (although at that point they basically share a common law marriage). It just feels so incredibly cruel of the author to do this. Many other reviewers hated this too and I have to agree with them.
Nolan moving on is 100% realistic since 7 years have passed since Eve disappeared, so expecting him to have waited for her is a little ridiculous. HOWEVER.... We as readers KNOW that thoughts of Nolan and her mother literally kept Eve fighting all these years in her captivity. To then have her find him again and he's in a monogamous, stable, loving relationship with someone else and then moving her in to the same home and just down the hall is plain mean.
I really wish it would have been more like: Ryan and Nolan sleep together but there was always something holding Nolan back from fully giving himself to Ryan, and that something is Eve. I wish Eve would have been treated as the missing piece for Nolan and Ryan to be able to finally be together with her. Instead, we are left completely feeling like Eve is the third wheel in Ryan and Nolan's relationship. Ryan comes first for Nolan and it's so uncomfortable to witness because it's so obvious to the reader.
The other part that gave me the slight ick was the FMC herself. She's kidnapped at age 17 so she really hasn't had an opportunity to mature beyond her teenage years. Eve still refers to her mother as "Momma" even when asking someone else about what happened to her ("Where's Momma?" vs "Where's my mom?") which ages her down in my head. She also uses words like "tummy" in her inner monologue ("my tummy flips" "my tummy grumbles" etc) and maybe this is a me-issue but: "tummies" are for toddlers, and I wish the author would have used another word. Now she's living with 4 men, everyone is in their mid-twenties, but due to her trauma they treat her with kid gloves so they speak to her as such, then have thoughts about her being sexy in the same moment. It felt very much like an age-gap thing but in a gross way.
As far as her recovery is concerned (and this is where most 1-3 star reviewers took the biggest issue) I can't really speak to that as I am not a psychologist nor have I ever had to recover from a trauma like this... but it did read as weird to me.
Overall would I recommend this book? No, probably not.
It's a heart-wrenching story, but just as I would be getting emotional and choked up for the FMC, the various typos in the book would throw me out of the story and ruin the vibe.
If the author ever comes across my review (I figure authors either read every word about their work OR the avoid reviews like the plague): I hope she takes my opinions as constructive. Adding in something about how Nolan was never 100% present for Ryan or some kind of difficulty between them that always circles back to Eve would soften the blow that yes, he HAS moved on in a way (maybe he could never confess love for Ryan verbally... maybe "I feel like I'm cheating on Eve" is a common argument between them... maybe Nolan always refuses to sleep overnight with Ryan...). Nolan finding comfort and companionship in Ryan is acceptable. Eve being made into an interloper in their relationship was not ok with me.
Our FMC was kidnapped and held captive chained in a basement for 7 years (she spends that time being physically/sexually abused so check your triggers).
Her best friend since birth - and budding romantic interest in their teen years - Nolan has never given up hope of finding her again.
When she escapes her captors, Eve and Nolan are reunited. Nolan now has 3 male roommates who feel like they also know and love Eve already because of how much Nolan has spoken of her over the years.
Here's where it gets iffy for me (light spoilers to follow): Nolan has moved on (despite the actual title of this book!). He's in a fully committed and loving relationship with one of the other men, Ryan. They've been an item for FIVE YEARS. They own a business together, regularly sleep together in the same room, live together, the whole shebang... everything short of sharing an actual bedroom and wedding vows (although at that point they basically share a common law marriage). It just feels so incredibly cruel of the author to do this. Many other reviewers hated this too and I have to agree with them.
Nolan moving on is 100% realistic since 7 years have passed since Eve disappeared, so expecting him to have waited for her is a little ridiculous. HOWEVER.... We as readers KNOW that thoughts of Nolan and her mother literally kept Eve fighting all these years in her captivity. To then have her find him again and he's in a monogamous, stable, loving relationship with someone else and then moving her in to the same home and just down the hall is plain mean.
I really wish it would have been more like: Ryan and Nolan sleep together but there was always something holding Nolan back from fully giving himself to Ryan, and that something is Eve. I wish Eve would have been treated as the missing piece for Nolan and Ryan to be able to finally be together with her. Instead, we are left completely feeling like Eve is the third wheel in Ryan and Nolan's relationship. Ryan comes first for Nolan and it's so uncomfortable to witness because it's so obvious to the reader.
The other part that gave me the slight ick was the FMC herself. She's kidnapped at age 17 so she really hasn't had an opportunity to mature beyond her teenage years. Eve still refers to her mother as "Momma" even when asking someone else about what happened to her ("Where's Momma?" vs "Where's my mom?") which ages her down in my head. She also uses words like "tummy" in her inner monologue ("my tummy flips" "my tummy grumbles" etc) and maybe this is a me-issue but: "tummies" are for toddlers, and I wish the author would have used another word. Now she's living with 4 men, everyone is in their mid-twenties, but due to her trauma they treat her with kid gloves so they speak to her as such, then have thoughts about her being sexy in the same moment. It felt very much like an age-gap thing but in a gross way.
As far as her recovery is concerned (and this is where most 1-3 star reviewers took the biggest issue) I can't really speak to that as I am not a psychologist nor have I ever had to recover from a trauma like this... but it did read as weird to me.
Overall would I recommend this book? No, probably not.
It's a heart-wrenching story, but just as I would be getting emotional and choked up for the FMC, the various typos in the book would throw me out of the story and ruin the vibe.
If the author ever comes across my review (I figure authors either read every word about their work OR the avoid reviews like the plague): I hope she takes my opinions as constructive. Adding in something about how Nolan was never 100% present for Ryan or some kind of difficulty between them that always circles back to Eve would soften the blow that yes, he HAS moved on in a way (maybe he could never confess love for Ryan verbally... maybe "I feel like I'm cheating on Eve" is a common argument between them... maybe Nolan always refuses to sleep overnight with Ryan...). Nolan finding comfort and companionship in Ryan is acceptable. Eve being made into an interloper in their relationship was not ok with me.
August 1, 2023
I’m not sure where I should start with this one. The first page had me in a choke hold. I was not prepared for that. Nor was I prepared for the horror our Eve had endured. Though Nolan is right about one thing Phoenix is what she is. Though the guys names are even more accurate for her as well. She is so much more than she sees herself to be. She has come a long way. Nolan is her best friend and has loved her for so long. Even though he has Ryan now, he still needs her because she still holds a part of his heart. Though with how he has held onto her memory while she was gone, the guys have grown to love her as well. Someone they have never met before. I love how they pause everything for her. They go out of their way to make sure she is comfortable in every way. Though she has trauma she is living with that may never go away. I could not put this book down at all. I also will say I wasn’t sure if I should cry, scream, or stab something with the last page of the book. Though the to be continued page had me smile a little. Even if I didn’t want to. I will say I need book 2 so badly. I would love to see what comes next. Scratch that. I NEED to see what comes next because Eve deserves the world at her feet. And the demons need to burn in a shallow grave.
October 8, 2023
I think the story has potential, but the constant changes in point of view and the use of flashbacks are distracting. It takes away from the overall flow of the narrative. While I don't typically mind male/male relationships in stories, it feels a bit overwhelming in this case. I empathize with both Eva and Nolan, but the fact that Nolan already has a boyfriend and appears to be happy is heartbreaking for Eva.
I think you would enjoy this book if you're looking for something sad and emotional. It explores themes of lost love and personal struggles, which can evoke strong emotions in readers. It just isn't something I'm looking to read right now.
recommend? Yes
read more from author? maybe
I think you would enjoy this book if you're looking for something sad and emotional. It explores themes of lost love and personal struggles, which can evoke strong emotions in readers. It just isn't something I'm looking to read right now.
recommend? Yes
read more from author? maybe
October 8, 2023
Abuses
I was super confused almost to the middle of this book.(1) She kept referring to her kidnapper as them. As the story unfolds she knows their were two. Anyway the first book was enough for me. I just kept thinking the author did not let up. Her imagination did a big disservice to not let up on the torture of her mind. Anyway I just kept thinking this is just (MAN'S INHUMANITY TO MAN.) the other books in this series, I hope she finds peace. I can't stomach this.
I was super confused almost to the middle of this book.(1) She kept referring to her kidnapper as them. As the story unfolds she knows their were two. Anyway the first book was enough for me. I just kept thinking the author did not let up. Her imagination did a big disservice to not let up on the torture of her mind. Anyway I just kept thinking this is just (MAN'S INHUMANITY TO MAN.) the other books in this series, I hope she finds peace. I can't stomach this.
July 28, 2023
How did Evelyn keep on to that hope for 7 horrendous years… I’m close with my mom so that may help too and Nolan?? There was research done and nothing stepped on or taken lightly. It really is how a survivor gets past somethings.. there are good/great days but you have horrible trigger days. Multiple POVs and reverse harem! The way Ryan and Nolan handled everything was just with understanding. And who took her? Daang!
I received this ARC for an honest review, all thoughts/opinions above are completely my own.
I received this ARC for an honest review, all thoughts/opinions above are completely my own.
August 4, 2024
2⭐️
1🌶️
I wanted to love this, but alas I did not.
I’m going to be brutally honest, I kind of got the ick from this book. The way the relationship between the FMC and the men (specifically Nolan and Ryan) was handled really made me uncomfortable. I don’t even know if I can pin point what about it did that other than I felt like they just pushed too hard for something that maybe she didn’t want?
I really liked the character of Korren, he was a wonderful teddy bear. But his brother Amiri could probably be fully removed from this book and you wouldn’t even notice his character revived 0 attention.
1🌶️
I wanted to love this, but alas I did not.
I’m going to be brutally honest, I kind of got the ick from this book. The way the relationship between the FMC and the men (specifically Nolan and Ryan) was handled really made me uncomfortable. I don’t even know if I can pin point what about it did that other than I felt like they just pushed too hard for something that maybe she didn’t want?
I really liked the character of Korren, he was a wonderful teddy bear. But his brother Amiri could probably be fully removed from this book and you wouldn’t even notice his character revived 0 attention.
August 13, 2023
4 ⭐️
For a debut book it is amazing,,,
The one thing you have to be ready for is you will feel the sorrow deep in your bones🥺🥺
For a debut book it is amazing,,,
The one thing you have to be ready for is you will feel the sorrow deep in your bones🥺🥺
February 14, 2025
DNF (22%)
This is the book that I broke my promise for (to not DNF any book this year). But it is so damn hard to read a shitty book with enthusiasm. If I skim through the pages, that does not mean I am fucking reading it.
Once I realized there was no smooth transition from the main character being kidnapped to the MMC moving into a gay relationship (I don't have anything against this trope, but it is not my favorite), I tolerated that, but a reverse harem 🥲🥲, and them falling in love with her just because the MMC keeps yapping about her—nope, that was way unexpected. I just think it is my fault for not checking the genre of the book here before starting to read it.
This is the book that I broke my promise for (to not DNF any book this year). But it is so damn hard to read a shitty book with enthusiasm. If I skim through the pages, that does not mean I am fucking reading it.
Once I realized there was no smooth transition from the main character being kidnapped to the MMC moving into a gay relationship (I don't have anything against this trope, but it is not my favorite), I tolerated that, but a reverse harem 🥲🥲, and them falling in love with her just because the MMC keeps yapping about her—nope, that was way unexpected. I just think it is my fault for not checking the genre of the book here before starting to read it.
July 26, 2023
I can’t even tell you how excited I have been for this book. As soon as she first posted the blurb for it and I seen it I knew I had to read it.
Multiple POV, first love, found family, FMC dealing with trauma, and the men in her life who help her heal!
I absolutely devoured this debut! I cannot wait for book 2!!!
Multiple POV, first love, found family, FMC dealing with trauma, and the men in her life who help her heal!
I absolutely devoured this debut! I cannot wait for book 2!!!
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June 4, 2025🔴 This is a poly romance, not a RH 🔴
September 2, 2023
yuck
I got 62% in and just could not anymore. “Fan-t-ass-tic booty”, full body yuck reaction. I love when the guys in these stories are emotional or work through social norms to be be ok with expressing themselves but most of the guys in this story feel like a bunch of girls, stereotypical girls crying all over the place. Nolan and Ryan are so into themselves as a couple it seems way unrealistic to ever see Eve with them and being supported and loved. She’s finally back in her best friends life and he can’t spend one night in his own room. I would much rather seen them take a break and get to know her as pairs before just laying it out there that they both wanted her. I don’t believe their story one bit.
I got 62% in and just could not anymore. “Fan-t-ass-tic booty”, full body yuck reaction. I love when the guys in these stories are emotional or work through social norms to be be ok with expressing themselves but most of the guys in this story feel like a bunch of girls, stereotypical girls crying all over the place. Nolan and Ryan are so into themselves as a couple it seems way unrealistic to ever see Eve with them and being supported and loved. She’s finally back in her best friends life and he can’t spend one night in his own room. I would much rather seen them take a break and get to know her as pairs before just laying it out there that they both wanted her. I don’t believe their story one bit.
June 24, 2024
➵ 1 star
When I first started this book I was very excited. I’d been looking for a book with a plot like this one for a while and I’m sad to say that it was underwhelmingly disappointing.
The beginning was okay but after you make it ten or twenty percent of the way through the book kind of just falls apart. The whole book feels very messy and unorganized. The book is supposed to be focused on Evelyn’s trauma after being in captivity for seven years. But instead in situation where I thought she’d have somewhat of a trauma response she gets really turned on. And it doesn’t make much sense considering the type of trauma she went through. Also it’s a reverse harem and it didn’t make much sense as to why all of them were so horny all of the time. This book doesn’t take itself seriously. It feels like the book is trying to be too many things but also doesn’t know what it is. The book does A LOT of telling vs. showing. It would’ve been better if we actually got to see Evelyn heal and grow instead of just telling us. Because us as the readers didn’t really see much of a healing journey. And after seven years of built up trauma? I truly believe that everyone’s healing journey’s are different but I just didn’t find this story believable. The book itself feels like a joke. Not to mention that the writing is unbelievably cringey. But aside from that I never knew where the book was going (in a bad way). There were other things in this book that just felt icky but that goes into spoiler territory. But saying all that this book wasn’t all bad because I did quite enjoy the beginning and some of the quotes. Aside from that this book was bad (in my personal opinion: these are just my thoughts and opinions on this book and is not a reflection of anyone’s personal character).
When I first started this book I was very excited. I’d been looking for a book with a plot like this one for a while and I’m sad to say that it was underwhelmingly disappointing.
The beginning was okay but after you make it ten or twenty percent of the way through the book kind of just falls apart. The whole book feels very messy and unorganized. The book is supposed to be focused on Evelyn’s trauma after being in captivity for seven years. But instead in situation where I thought she’d have somewhat of a trauma response she gets really turned on. And it doesn’t make much sense considering the type of trauma she went through. Also it’s a reverse harem and it didn’t make much sense as to why all of them were so horny all of the time. This book doesn’t take itself seriously. It feels like the book is trying to be too many things but also doesn’t know what it is. The book does A LOT of telling vs. showing. It would’ve been better if we actually got to see Evelyn heal and grow instead of just telling us. Because us as the readers didn’t really see much of a healing journey. And after seven years of built up trauma? I truly believe that everyone’s healing journey’s are different but I just didn’t find this story believable. The book itself feels like a joke. Not to mention that the writing is unbelievably cringey. But aside from that I never knew where the book was going (in a bad way). There were other things in this book that just felt icky but that goes into spoiler territory. But saying all that this book wasn’t all bad because I did quite enjoy the beginning and some of the quotes. Aside from that this book was bad (in my personal opinion: these are just my thoughts and opinions on this book and is not a reflection of anyone’s personal character).
October 3, 2023
Reread before the next book. This is dark but so good. I love Eve and I always love when characters are in therapy to work thru their trauma! That’s a number one pet peeve of mine for darker books. I hate the whole “I can get myself out of this funk” mentality when it comes to any kind of trauma. I love how Larson has written Evie! There are quite a few editing mistakes but it wasn’t enough to go down any stars. The story and characters make up for it. I love Josie 😍
Wow this was so good. I am so disappointed that I didn’t know it wasn’t a finished duology and that I have to wait till October. What a cliffhanger 😳
Wow this was so good. I am so disappointed that I didn’t know it wasn’t a finished duology and that I have to wait till October. What a cliffhanger 😳
July 21, 2024
DNF 24%
I tried but the interactions between the characters was all over the place and kept pulling me out of the story. For example (no spoilers) the mom figure is behaving as if she's mad at the victim for her main coping technique than the next instance she back to normal. To much description of a character instead of showing us through interaction and being allowed to be fleshed out naturally.
The story had potential although it reminded me a lot of another. I couldn't finish it.
I tried but the interactions between the characters was all over the place and kept pulling me out of the story. For example (no spoilers) the mom figure is behaving as if she's mad at the victim for her main coping technique than the next instance she back to normal. To much description of a character instead of showing us through interaction and being allowed to be fleshed out naturally.
The story had potential although it reminded me a lot of another. I couldn't finish it.
February 7, 2024
DNF at about 75%. This book should have been everything I like. Dark trauma, healing with the help of her men and a dash of tension because the guys who tortured and raped her haven't been caught yet.
The first few chapters were pretty much what I expected and I loved how Nolan really kept her alive all those years and let all the guys know who she was so they got to know her too. The reunion was very sweet and I also loved how the parents of the guys were involved too and how her doctor was a great woman. It went downhill from that moment on though and it went downhill fast...
First of all, I'm no expert on trauma but it seems like a very weird response to get wet the second you meet a new guy. Like, you've just been raped for 7 years, you have the scarring to prove it... And yet you meet someone with tattoos and call him eyecandy and want to climb him like a tree. Yep, totally convincing, I'm sure that's the first thing coming to everyone's mind after such an experience.
Secondly, again I'm no expert on trauma, but it seems a bit of a stretch when you instantly feel attracted to all the other guys AND they all feel attracted to you. After like, less than a week of living with the guys Nolan and Ryan already tell her they want a relationship with her. And although she doesn't say yes, she's mostly struggling with thinking the guys don't want her when they see how broken she is. Where she should be struggling with why some guy she's never met before would want a relationship with her so soon. This isn't just Ryan though, all the other guys already have feelings as well and blah blah blah. Yeah, not convincing at all.
Oh, also, they just keep going on about how tiny she is and how cute and how even with the scars she's still the most beautiful woman they've ever seen (yes, not just she's beautiful, nope, literally they say the most beautiful woman ever) and she's so strong and she's so sassy and... UGH! We get it, Evie is apparently some kind of insane superwoman who is nothing strong of a goddess. And yes, goddess is one of the words used to describe her. Just SHUT the hell up, what is wrong with these people?!
Thirdly, it makes sense that after 7 years of the hell she went through, she's not the same person she used to be. And it makes sense that she has to find out who she is now. So why doesn't she do that?! The guys all fall for her apparently, within less than a week, but I'm very confused on why. Basically she's a crying blubbering panicky mess most of the time and the guys all just keep gushing how great she is. But it doesn't really feel like her character is taken into consideration at all.
The writer also has a habit of making Evie disassociate whenever things get tough. And I understand that this is a coping mechanism and it makes perfect sense that Evie developed this to deal with what she had to go through. But it feels like the writer more uses it as an excuse to not work through the trauma or feel bad but instead just have everything fade to black. The writer also has a habit of not talking about the difficult things but instead just saying things like 'the last week was difficult since Evie seemed to keep getting worse.' And I'm just wondering, why do we have to read it like that? Why not actually take us through the journey of that week?
And then there is the issue of touch... Does Evie want to be touched? No, except when it's one of the guys or Nolan's mother. Then all of a sudden everything is all lovey-dovey and happy. Nolan kisses her and she just gets lost in what is apparently the best kiss of her life and feels amazing. Now, Nolan kisses her about 2 weeks after she's back, in full view of his boyfriend. So, apparently, the whole touch problem she had with learning he has a boyfriend now is no problem whatsoever anymore.
I stopped reading when she touched Korrens dick. I mean, I just can't, I really can't, this is too ridiculous to put in words. She's tortured with sharp objects so even a pen sends her in a complete panick attack because it's pointy but yet she has no issue with touching someone's dick? Yeah, no, nope, I'm noping out here. I'm just getting more frustrated with every sentence I read.
The first few chapters were pretty much what I expected and I loved how Nolan really kept her alive all those years and let all the guys know who she was so they got to know her too. The reunion was very sweet and I also loved how the parents of the guys were involved too and how her doctor was a great woman. It went downhill from that moment on though and it went downhill fast...
First of all, I'm no expert on trauma but it seems like a very weird response to get wet the second you meet a new guy. Like, you've just been raped for 7 years, you have the scarring to prove it... And yet you meet someone with tattoos and call him eyecandy and want to climb him like a tree. Yep, totally convincing, I'm sure that's the first thing coming to everyone's mind after such an experience.
Secondly, again I'm no expert on trauma, but it seems a bit of a stretch when you instantly feel attracted to all the other guys AND they all feel attracted to you. After like, less than a week of living with the guys Nolan and Ryan already tell her they want a relationship with her. And although she doesn't say yes, she's mostly struggling with thinking the guys don't want her when they see how broken she is. Where she should be struggling with why some guy she's never met before would want a relationship with her so soon. This isn't just Ryan though, all the other guys already have feelings as well and blah blah blah. Yeah, not convincing at all.
Oh, also, they just keep going on about how tiny she is and how cute and how even with the scars she's still the most beautiful woman they've ever seen (yes, not just she's beautiful, nope, literally they say the most beautiful woman ever) and she's so strong and she's so sassy and... UGH! We get it, Evie is apparently some kind of insane superwoman who is nothing strong of a goddess. And yes, goddess is one of the words used to describe her. Just SHUT the hell up, what is wrong with these people?!
Thirdly, it makes sense that after 7 years of the hell she went through, she's not the same person she used to be. And it makes sense that she has to find out who she is now. So why doesn't she do that?! The guys all fall for her apparently, within less than a week, but I'm very confused on why. Basically she's a crying blubbering panicky mess most of the time and the guys all just keep gushing how great she is. But it doesn't really feel like her character is taken into consideration at all.
The writer also has a habit of making Evie disassociate whenever things get tough. And I understand that this is a coping mechanism and it makes perfect sense that Evie developed this to deal with what she had to go through. But it feels like the writer more uses it as an excuse to not work through the trauma or feel bad but instead just have everything fade to black. The writer also has a habit of not talking about the difficult things but instead just saying things like 'the last week was difficult since Evie seemed to keep getting worse.' And I'm just wondering, why do we have to read it like that? Why not actually take us through the journey of that week?
And then there is the issue of touch... Does Evie want to be touched? No, except when it's one of the guys or Nolan's mother. Then all of a sudden everything is all lovey-dovey and happy. Nolan kisses her and she just gets lost in what is apparently the best kiss of her life and feels amazing. Now, Nolan kisses her about 2 weeks after she's back, in full view of his boyfriend. So, apparently, the whole touch problem she had with learning he has a boyfriend now is no problem whatsoever anymore.
I stopped reading when she touched Korrens dick. I mean, I just can't, I really can't, this is too ridiculous to put in words. She's tortured with sharp objects so even a pen sends her in a complete panick attack because it's pointy but yet she has no issue with touching someone's dick? Yeah, no, nope, I'm noping out here. I'm just getting more frustrated with every sentence I read.
January 28, 2024
So many time jumps. I love Kerry Taylor’s work and this author claims to have been mentored by her which makes sense once you read her book. This novel was like diet Kerry Taylor. It wanted to be her Pieces of us series so bad but fell short in every way.
First off I hate MM in RH but I ignored that in hope the book would be good enough to make up for it. It wasn’t. The romance was lacking, we learn nothing about the MMC’s. The trauma responses seem forced and unauthentic. Similar to many reviewers I will note that she gets over her abuse in about 1 weeks time. Yes she hasn’t slept with any of them but she begins having sexual thoughts and fantasies about them in under a week after leaving the hospital. The male characters all fall flat and therefore their relationships with the FMC are as well. It is also odd that she would have nightmares about her abuse when she also states she doesn’t remember it as she was able to dissociate 100% of the time. This just doesn’t seem possible. That kind of dissociation would have to grow over time after the abuse began. It wouldn’t have started immediately. she also mentions there being a window in the room that she escapes from but that she would stare at the ceiling and wonder if the sun was shining. Could she not see out of the window? She mentions being able to easily see everything in the room so why didn’t she know what her captors looked like? Or even know for certain that there was more than one? The inconsistencies are frustrating. Everyone just ignores her stating there was more than one abuser? She goes from being hyper vigilant to freely drinking constantly and stumbling out of the courthouse alone. It makes no sense. She also is said to have been a sassy strong young woman before being kidnapped but she seems like a ditzy shallow girl to me by the end? She went from having a panic attack worried about being able to pay the men back for their hospitality to bouncing around and giggling about gifts. She also doesn’t mention working again when she easily could work with them as they own their own company? So many missed opportunities for personal and relationship growth.
My biggest issue with this book however is the multitude of time jumps. I’m sorry but they are a tool used by lazy writers. I know this is the authors first book but it’s constructive criticism someone needs to point out. You cannot use time jumps to excuse why characters develop deeper relationships all of a sudden. Even going so far as to skip first kisses? Months are skipped and we miss everything important. It is no wonder why the reader is left feeling like the romance is shallow and not genuine.
I am surprised that Kerry Taylor was okay with her mentee basically ripping off her most popular series. I gave the pieces of us series by Kerry Taylor five stars and I love those books. That is one of 3 book series I have ever reread. I recommend them constantly. This is a poor excuse of a copy and if you are reading this review I highly suggest you check out that series instead.
First off I hate MM in RH but I ignored that in hope the book would be good enough to make up for it. It wasn’t. The romance was lacking, we learn nothing about the MMC’s. The trauma responses seem forced and unauthentic. Similar to many reviewers I will note that she gets over her abuse in about 1 weeks time. Yes she hasn’t slept with any of them but she begins having sexual thoughts and fantasies about them in under a week after leaving the hospital. The male characters all fall flat and therefore their relationships with the FMC are as well. It is also odd that she would have nightmares about her abuse when she also states she doesn’t remember it as she was able to dissociate 100% of the time. This just doesn’t seem possible. That kind of dissociation would have to grow over time after the abuse began. It wouldn’t have started immediately. she also mentions there being a window in the room that she escapes from but that she would stare at the ceiling and wonder if the sun was shining. Could she not see out of the window? She mentions being able to easily see everything in the room so why didn’t she know what her captors looked like? Or even know for certain that there was more than one? The inconsistencies are frustrating. Everyone just ignores her stating there was more than one abuser? She goes from being hyper vigilant to freely drinking constantly and stumbling out of the courthouse alone. It makes no sense. She also is said to have been a sassy strong young woman before being kidnapped but she seems like a ditzy shallow girl to me by the end? She went from having a panic attack worried about being able to pay the men back for their hospitality to bouncing around and giggling about gifts. She also doesn’t mention working again when she easily could work with them as they own their own company? So many missed opportunities for personal and relationship growth.
My biggest issue with this book however is the multitude of time jumps. I’m sorry but they are a tool used by lazy writers. I know this is the authors first book but it’s constructive criticism someone needs to point out. You cannot use time jumps to excuse why characters develop deeper relationships all of a sudden. Even going so far as to skip first kisses? Months are skipped and we miss everything important. It is no wonder why the reader is left feeling like the romance is shallow and not genuine.
I am surprised that Kerry Taylor was okay with her mentee basically ripping off her most popular series. I gave the pieces of us series by Kerry Taylor five stars and I love those books. That is one of 3 book series I have ever reread. I recommend them constantly. This is a poor excuse of a copy and if you are reading this review I highly suggest you check out that series instead.
August 3, 2023
EXTRAORDINARY!!!
So, where to begin. First off – this book does NOT read like a debut novel. Y.V. has an incredible way of making you feel absorbed in the story and like you’re right there with the characters. It was perfectly paced, engaging, no dull moments, and the flashbacks were set in just the right places for you to really understand how different Eve’s past and present were.
Eve was/is such a fiery woman and I loved her personality throughout the entire book!! Even having gone through all of the horrific traumas she did, she still maintained who she is at her core, and I love that. She took control of her future and she took control of her monsters that haunted her. Even when she was battling those demons when they’d pop up in her mind when she least expected it, she still was able to “pull up her big girl b*tch panties” and keep looking forward.
I adored her and Nolan’s childhood relationship. I’d love to see some more examples of that in book 2 – there were definitely some in book 1 and it really made you realize how much they truly love each other. At first, I worried that her relationship with the other guys would be hindered by her past she had with Nolan, but it didn’t. Not AT ALL. All of their relationships grew at a different pace, some slower than others, which is true to real relationships. The struggles she had with each guy was also unique to their past. For example, her history with Nolan did create some roadblocks between the two of them that were honest and well thought out. It was nice to see Nolan struggling with the Eve he knew and the Eve he had in front of him now.
This first book is a slow burn, but it HAS to be. Her trauma and triggers were handled beautifully. They didn’t overly push her and recognized when they made steps in the wrong direction and quickly tried to circumvent those mistakes and not repeat them in the future.
I don’t want to spoil what happens because I’m sure the author wants you to be just as surprised by things toward the ending as I was when I read. I had hunches on “who done it” throughout, and was right in some sense, but also wrong in others. I will you say you do get a sense of resolution on Eve’s behalf by the end, but…… that cliffhanger…. I’m SO glad it was handled the way it was because lemme tell you…. You don’t see it coming until it’s too late!!!!!
Highly recommend this read!!! Eve is just the right mix of sweet and stubborn. All of the characters were well rounded and I’m anxious to dive into book 2!! I can’t wait to read.
Well done Y.V. and congrats on your debut release!! You’ll nailed it and I’m so looking forward to reading the rest of Evelyn, Nolan, Amiri, Korren, and Ryan’s story!!!! Extraordinary story!!!
So, where to begin. First off – this book does NOT read like a debut novel. Y.V. has an incredible way of making you feel absorbed in the story and like you’re right there with the characters. It was perfectly paced, engaging, no dull moments, and the flashbacks were set in just the right places for you to really understand how different Eve’s past and present were.
Eve was/is such a fiery woman and I loved her personality throughout the entire book!! Even having gone through all of the horrific traumas she did, she still maintained who she is at her core, and I love that. She took control of her future and she took control of her monsters that haunted her. Even when she was battling those demons when they’d pop up in her mind when she least expected it, she still was able to “pull up her big girl b*tch panties” and keep looking forward.
I adored her and Nolan’s childhood relationship. I’d love to see some more examples of that in book 2 – there were definitely some in book 1 and it really made you realize how much they truly love each other. At first, I worried that her relationship with the other guys would be hindered by her past she had with Nolan, but it didn’t. Not AT ALL. All of their relationships grew at a different pace, some slower than others, which is true to real relationships. The struggles she had with each guy was also unique to their past. For example, her history with Nolan did create some roadblocks between the two of them that were honest and well thought out. It was nice to see Nolan struggling with the Eve he knew and the Eve he had in front of him now.
This first book is a slow burn, but it HAS to be. Her trauma and triggers were handled beautifully. They didn’t overly push her and recognized when they made steps in the wrong direction and quickly tried to circumvent those mistakes and not repeat them in the future.
I don’t want to spoil what happens because I’m sure the author wants you to be just as surprised by things toward the ending as I was when I read. I had hunches on “who done it” throughout, and was right in some sense, but also wrong in others. I will you say you do get a sense of resolution on Eve’s behalf by the end, but…… that cliffhanger…. I’m SO glad it was handled the way it was because lemme tell you…. You don’t see it coming until it’s too late!!!!!
Highly recommend this read!!! Eve is just the right mix of sweet and stubborn. All of the characters were well rounded and I’m anxious to dive into book 2!! I can’t wait to read.
Well done Y.V. and congrats on your debut release!! You’ll nailed it and I’m so looking forward to reading the rest of Evelyn, Nolan, Amiri, Korren, and Ryan’s story!!!! Extraordinary story!!!
March 17, 2025
DNF @ 60%
1.5*
Picking this up I thought it would be filled with angst and a raw, emotional FMC that just rips your heart out with her trauma. Because 7 years in captivity...that is brutal! However, this completely missed the mark for me. It felt very light, and not dark at all. The darker parts are glossed over, for example when she gives her statement to the Detective the MMCs sit there and listen to it all, but as the reader we don't get to experience that agony at all so you just feel disconnected. There is also no support for the FMC, no talking to a therapist or trying to have someone help her heal and guide her back into life after 7 years of being locked away from the world.
It also felt disingenuous that as soon as she meets the MMCs, she had flickers of attraction and made comments about how at least that part of her is still working. That felt widely odd that she would go straight to those thoughts when she spent so long being physically abused, rather than show more signs of PTSD and fear of being out in the world and meeting new people. I can understand that people progress at their own rate, but it did feel like the plot focused more on that but skimmed the harder, darker parts.
As well as not liking the FMC, I didn't like the MMCs at all. They came across as disregarding her feelings, more focused on wanting to pursue a physical relationship than trying to support her through recovering. The fact that her best friend, and former boyfriend, spent his nights with his current boyfriend (after saying she can knock on his door if she needs) and didn't seem to care that his relationship and displays of affection made her uncomfortable. I think they all fall to instantly too, all being in love with her from photos and stories told by Nolan? No, not for me. I like more build up and chemistry and not for things to be so instant.
Also I NEED to add that I have never seen so many "giggles", "wiggles" and whatever else mentioned in a book. I asked my husband to giggle to see what it sounded like and NOPE. All the MMCs seem to do is cry. Usually I enjoy a well rounded MMC that can be in touch with their emotions, but I think this just came across as self absorbed most of the time.
1.5*
Picking this up I thought it would be filled with angst and a raw, emotional FMC that just rips your heart out with her trauma. Because 7 years in captivity...that is brutal! However, this completely missed the mark for me. It felt very light, and not dark at all. The darker parts are glossed over, for example when she gives her statement to the Detective the MMCs sit there and listen to it all, but as the reader we don't get to experience that agony at all so you just feel disconnected. There is also no support for the FMC, no talking to a therapist or trying to have someone help her heal and guide her back into life after 7 years of being locked away from the world.
It also felt disingenuous that as soon as she meets the MMCs, she had flickers of attraction and made comments about how at least that part of her is still working. That felt widely odd that she would go straight to those thoughts when she spent so long being physically abused, rather than show more signs of PTSD and fear of being out in the world and meeting new people. I can understand that people progress at their own rate, but it did feel like the plot focused more on that but skimmed the harder, darker parts.
As well as not liking the FMC, I didn't like the MMCs at all. They came across as disregarding her feelings, more focused on wanting to pursue a physical relationship than trying to support her through recovering. The fact that her best friend, and former boyfriend, spent his nights with his current boyfriend (after saying she can knock on his door if she needs) and didn't seem to care that his relationship and displays of affection made her uncomfortable. I think they all fall to instantly too, all being in love with her from photos and stories told by Nolan? No, not for me. I like more build up and chemistry and not for things to be so instant.
Also I NEED to add that I have never seen so many "giggles", "wiggles" and whatever else mentioned in a book. I asked my husband to giggle to see what it sounded like and NOPE. All the MMCs seem to do is cry. Usually I enjoy a well rounded MMC that can be in touch with their emotions, but I think this just came across as self absorbed most of the time.
August 2, 2023
Strength and Love
This had alot of angst. I had teared up a couple of times. I'm happy she was moving forward. I love Nolan for never giving up. I was hoping for more Nolan and Evie tho. She should be the closes to him i feel even of dating all of them. But she seems to gravitate toward 2 of the others. I mean all she did was think about Nolan and getting back to him but you don't see as much of them together she should be mist comfortable with him and feeling safe and protected with him then the others but that doesn't seem to be the case much. I also can't believe that Nolan is so soft that he cries so much. I mean for how she describes him anyways. He weeps and sobs alot and that's not a bad thing just something I didn't expect.i new og was a tragic. Story but I just didn't really get some of it. I get the ptsd part and disassociating part but inter dialog was weird to me. Not necessarily in a bad way more like she was stuck in her 17 year old self. Also 7 years she finally decides to try and break free. Why didn't she before hand do what she did this time. I guess I'm saying I don't understand the need for fight 7 years later vs earlier on when being left along. The all of sudden I'm getting out of here and that it. I'm glad for it but am a bit confused about it. I love her guys. Great guys. Nolan will always be my fav because they truely are ment to be together forever have been since being babies. I'm so happy she found a great friend and the parents there was wonderful and helpful. Why she left the bathroom idk. Stupidity if you ask me but I guess we have to have something to set the next up for this duet. Overall I really did like the book and didn't put it down. I cant wait for the second book and see the Phoenix as Nolan calls her to come to life. I cant wait til the guys get her back and have a HEA. I dont usually do slow burns but the ones I do read like this one with severe trauma I don't mind. Even with the things I've said it's a great story and I hooe you enjoy it as much a I did.
This had alot of angst. I had teared up a couple of times. I'm happy she was moving forward. I love Nolan for never giving up. I was hoping for more Nolan and Evie tho. She should be the closes to him i feel even of dating all of them. But she seems to gravitate toward 2 of the others. I mean all she did was think about Nolan and getting back to him but you don't see as much of them together she should be mist comfortable with him and feeling safe and protected with him then the others but that doesn't seem to be the case much. I also can't believe that Nolan is so soft that he cries so much. I mean for how she describes him anyways. He weeps and sobs alot and that's not a bad thing just something I didn't expect.i new og was a tragic. Story but I just didn't really get some of it. I get the ptsd part and disassociating part but inter dialog was weird to me. Not necessarily in a bad way more like she was stuck in her 17 year old self. Also 7 years she finally decides to try and break free. Why didn't she before hand do what she did this time. I guess I'm saying I don't understand the need for fight 7 years later vs earlier on when being left along. The all of sudden I'm getting out of here and that it. I'm glad for it but am a bit confused about it. I love her guys. Great guys. Nolan will always be my fav because they truely are ment to be together forever have been since being babies. I'm so happy she found a great friend and the parents there was wonderful and helpful. Why she left the bathroom idk. Stupidity if you ask me but I guess we have to have something to set the next up for this duet. Overall I really did like the book and didn't put it down. I cant wait for the second book and see the Phoenix as Nolan calls her to come to life. I cant wait til the guys get her back and have a HEA. I dont usually do slow burns but the ones I do read like this one with severe trauma I don't mind. Even with the things I've said it's a great story and I hooe you enjoy it as much a I did.
February 27, 2025
4 stars because this book has me invested and in my feelings enough that I need to rant!!!!
Nolan is an asshole. I think the point was to make him the hero of the book. He goes on and on about how he never gave up on Evelyn, how much he loves her and was always looking for her to bring her home blah blah blah…. He completely moved on with Ryan. Which I can understand after 7 years but don’t keep saying that you never moved on. You did. Then they get her back and he pretty much led her on at the hospital, not mentioning one thing about his boyfriend. She has to find out when she first walks into a new house surrounded by 4 big men, 3 of whom she has never met. After being raped for years and feeling like the only person I have left has withheld some pretty big information from me while being surrounded by strange men in a house… that would have set me off into a panic. And instead of staying with her and comforting her, he takes her to her room and goes back downstairs to be with them. Then the first night she’s home he goes to sleep in Ryan’s room. Not worrying that her first night in a real bed, alone in a room, she might have nightmares or a panic attack and maybe he should stay in his own room or at least close by. No, he goes to his boyfriend’s room and sleep there every night after. Then there is all the PDA Nolan and Ryan keep doing in front of her. Yes, you love her so much Nolan but you’re so freaking horny that you can’t keep the PDA to a minimum to help make her feel comfortable. It’s pretty clear throughout that Ryan comes first to Nolan, and Ryan is who he cares most about. Pissed me off and broke my heart for Evelyn all at once. And for my last complaint… the way Nolan and Ryan told her they wanted to “share” her. THE GIRL HAS BEEN RAPED AND BRUTALIZED FOR 7 YEARS BY MORE THAN ONE MAN and after just getting back home a few weeks ago you’re basically telling her you want a 3some. Throw the whole damn man away. Both of them.
Nolan is an asshole. I think the point was to make him the hero of the book. He goes on and on about how he never gave up on Evelyn, how much he loves her and was always looking for her to bring her home blah blah blah…. He completely moved on with Ryan. Which I can understand after 7 years but don’t keep saying that you never moved on. You did. Then they get her back and he pretty much led her on at the hospital, not mentioning one thing about his boyfriend. She has to find out when she first walks into a new house surrounded by 4 big men, 3 of whom she has never met. After being raped for years and feeling like the only person I have left has withheld some pretty big information from me while being surrounded by strange men in a house… that would have set me off into a panic. And instead of staying with her and comforting her, he takes her to her room and goes back downstairs to be with them. Then the first night she’s home he goes to sleep in Ryan’s room. Not worrying that her first night in a real bed, alone in a room, she might have nightmares or a panic attack and maybe he should stay in his own room or at least close by. No, he goes to his boyfriend’s room and sleep there every night after. Then there is all the PDA Nolan and Ryan keep doing in front of her. Yes, you love her so much Nolan but you’re so freaking horny that you can’t keep the PDA to a minimum to help make her feel comfortable. It’s pretty clear throughout that Ryan comes first to Nolan, and Ryan is who he cares most about. Pissed me off and broke my heart for Evelyn all at once. And for my last complaint… the way Nolan and Ryan told her they wanted to “share” her. THE GIRL HAS BEEN RAPED AND BRUTALIZED FOR 7 YEARS BY MORE THAN ONE MAN and after just getting back home a few weeks ago you’re basically telling her you want a 3some. Throw the whole damn man away. Both of them.
August 8, 2024
Book 1 ~ 3.75 ☆
Book 2 ~ 4 ☆
This was a very fast-paced rollercoaster that I really enjoyed reading. If I'm being honest I do prefer some of the plot to this duet than the actual romance, which is quite unusual for me. As a debut duet for Larson this was definitely great, I hope to explore more from this author in the future.
The Characters in this duet were pretty great. I absolutely loved Evelyn - she is such a strong character having to adapt to life outside of captivity whilst struggling heavily with PTSD. Her resilience literally knows no bounds and I loved seeing her bounce back with her sass. I did find that some of her internal monologue felt childish at points, which seems possibly unnatural for someone who has experienced such trauma. However, due to the context of her captivity it is fairly acceptable for her not to have mentally been 24. Despite this, I did giggle at some of the monologue. As for the guys, they were extremely caring and loveable. I'm in love with Korren, who is the bad boy of the group so understandable for him to be my favourite 🤭. Amiri is the 'mother' of the group constantly making sure everybody else is taken care of though if you go near his kitchen he may not be so kind 🤣, I just want to give him the biggest hug. Ryan is the funny guy with a bit of a past, he was sweet and I do love him! Then we have Nolan, I can't decide whether I like him or not - I think I'm still mad that he moved on (as much as he said he didn't) whilst Evelyn was enduring what she did.
The reason why I didn't love this romance is because I felt the origin of it was very unrealistic. It doesn't seem probable for these guys to be in love with somebody that they haven't met, idolise? Absolutely but not love.
In summary, I found it was very insta-lovey, which I am not the biggest fan of in general. With this book having such heavy topics it doesn't feel right for their relationship to have progressed that fast. Though, you may feel differently. As for the plot, I thoroughly enjoyed it!! Most of the time I was on the edge of my seat, rooting so hard for Evelyn both in early book 1 and most of book 2. I was literally gasping at every other chapter. Pretty sure book 2 had my adrenaline going haywire. This paired with Evelyn's journey was my favourite!
Book 2 ~ 4 ☆
This was a very fast-paced rollercoaster that I really enjoyed reading. If I'm being honest I do prefer some of the plot to this duet than the actual romance, which is quite unusual for me. As a debut duet for Larson this was definitely great, I hope to explore more from this author in the future.
The Characters in this duet were pretty great. I absolutely loved Evelyn - she is such a strong character having to adapt to life outside of captivity whilst struggling heavily with PTSD. Her resilience literally knows no bounds and I loved seeing her bounce back with her sass. I did find that some of her internal monologue felt childish at points, which seems possibly unnatural for someone who has experienced such trauma. However, due to the context of her captivity it is fairly acceptable for her not to have mentally been 24. Despite this, I did giggle at some of the monologue. As for the guys, they were extremely caring and loveable. I'm in love with Korren, who is the bad boy of the group so understandable for him to be my favourite 🤭. Amiri is the 'mother' of the group constantly making sure everybody else is taken care of though if you go near his kitchen he may not be so kind 🤣, I just want to give him the biggest hug. Ryan is the funny guy with a bit of a past, he was sweet and I do love him! Then we have Nolan, I can't decide whether I like him or not - I think I'm still mad that he moved on (as much as he said he didn't) whilst Evelyn was enduring what she did.
The reason why I didn't love this romance is because I felt the origin of it was very unrealistic. It doesn't seem probable for these guys to be in love with somebody that they haven't met, idolise? Absolutely but not love.
In summary, I found it was very insta-lovey, which I am not the biggest fan of in general. With this book having such heavy topics it doesn't feel right for their relationship to have progressed that fast. Though, you may feel differently. As for the plot, I thoroughly enjoyed it!! Most of the time I was on the edge of my seat, rooting so hard for Evelyn both in early book 1 and most of book 2. I was literally gasping at every other chapter. Pretty sure book 2 had my adrenaline going haywire. This paired with Evelyn's journey was my favourite!
July 18, 2024
Wow. What a debut!
For a debut novel, this was exceptionally done. The emotions it provoked. The reality of victims and their coping mechanisms. The awareness on how each person deals with trauma and healing differently. My goodness. In a little awe over here.
Evie’s story may be dramatic (though, sadly realistic) I really appreciated how in depth the Author went into her healing process and coping mechanisms. I also appreciated her bringing attention multiple times throughout the duet that everyone deals with PTSD in their own way and not always the same every time. She brought awareness to getting the help you need to help you move on, find healthy coping mechanisms and happiness. She went into great detail about all of this and I think that is what I loved most about this story. I don’t read these “depressing” dark romances to live in the dark, I read them to help find the light. I read them as reminders that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. I read them for the love, the support and the happy endings. I read them for the survival stories.
This story was incredibly emotional from the trauma inflicted, the PTSD, the heartbreak of missing a loved one, the healing. It was a tear jerker so bring the tissues.
With it being a debut novel, there were hardly any typos or grammatical errors. Just a few punctuational issues here and there but few and far between. As this is always a pet peeve, I appreciate when new authors go above and beyond with their editing instead of rushing to get it out and over with.
*having read the second book as well, it was wrapped up very cleanly with no unanswered questions and a great ending 🖤🖤
Very well done. 100% recommend 🖤
For a debut novel, this was exceptionally done. The emotions it provoked. The reality of victims and their coping mechanisms. The awareness on how each person deals with trauma and healing differently. My goodness. In a little awe over here.
Evie’s story may be dramatic (though, sadly realistic) I really appreciated how in depth the Author went into her healing process and coping mechanisms. I also appreciated her bringing attention multiple times throughout the duet that everyone deals with PTSD in their own way and not always the same every time. She brought awareness to getting the help you need to help you move on, find healthy coping mechanisms and happiness. She went into great detail about all of this and I think that is what I loved most about this story. I don’t read these “depressing” dark romances to live in the dark, I read them to help find the light. I read them as reminders that there IS a light at the end of the tunnel. I read them for the love, the support and the happy endings. I read them for the survival stories.
This story was incredibly emotional from the trauma inflicted, the PTSD, the heartbreak of missing a loved one, the healing. It was a tear jerker so bring the tissues.
With it being a debut novel, there were hardly any typos or grammatical errors. Just a few punctuational issues here and there but few and far between. As this is always a pet peeve, I appreciate when new authors go above and beyond with their editing instead of rushing to get it out and over with.
*having read the second book as well, it was wrapped up very cleanly with no unanswered questions and a great ending 🖤🖤
Very well done. 100% recommend 🖤
September 2, 2024
Heartwrenching
First before I go into my review that cliffhanger is horrible. Larson....how could you. I mean I feel like I saw it coming but I really hoped not.
Now onto the review!
The book was a page turner. I screams out and pulls your heart strings on every page. All you want is for Evelyn to be healed by her amazing men. You Want her to be treated like a princess.
For the most (except the cliffy) that's all you get. While reading Evelyn's trauma slowly shift from frightened kitten you see a tiger trying to come out too.
The guys are perfect. I think my favorite is Kor. He is amazing. In a fashion he is every girl's dream. Tattooed, giant and a teddy bear...with a deep voice. I am hoping in future books we see more of there back stories. This one definitely focused around Evelyn's main source of trauma but in reality that makes since.
The overall plot was amazing. The author gave a few chuckles and heart swoon moments. I am extremely grateful for how she put the steam in the book. I thought it was masterful.
There were areas where it felt like Larson cut out scenes but personally I thought it was smart. The book would have been extremely long.
Overall, love the characters. I also loved the random toss of view from the odd character like the best friend. Those moments were refreshing and gave more perspective than us readers normally get.
I definitely reccomend.
First before I go into my review that cliffhanger is horrible. Larson....how could you. I mean I feel like I saw it coming but I really hoped not.
Now onto the review!
The book was a page turner. I screams out and pulls your heart strings on every page. All you want is for Evelyn to be healed by her amazing men. You Want her to be treated like a princess.
For the most (except the cliffy) that's all you get. While reading Evelyn's trauma slowly shift from frightened kitten you see a tiger trying to come out too.
The guys are perfect. I think my favorite is Kor. He is amazing. In a fashion he is every girl's dream. Tattooed, giant and a teddy bear...with a deep voice. I am hoping in future books we see more of there back stories. This one definitely focused around Evelyn's main source of trauma but in reality that makes since.
The overall plot was amazing. The author gave a few chuckles and heart swoon moments. I am extremely grateful for how she put the steam in the book. I thought it was masterful.
There were areas where it felt like Larson cut out scenes but personally I thought it was smart. The book would have been extremely long.
Overall, love the characters. I also loved the random toss of view from the odd character like the best friend. Those moments were refreshing and gave more perspective than us readers normally get.
I definitely reccomend.
October 14, 2023
I don’t read books that make me cry!!
Ever. I hate them. Books, movies, songs that make me cry.. I just don’t want them in my life. I have no clue what even caused me to grab this book but I’m so glad I did (even though it made me cry several times). I love Evelyn, absolutely love her fire, her enduring will… everything about her. I was prepared to be mad at Nolan for moving on but when he loses it you really can’t be even a little mad. I wanted to hate Ryan but I can’t, he’s incredible also, really didn’t get a lot of interaction with Amiri yet but hopefully that comes in book 2. Now Korren/Koko… I need for him to be a real person.
The ending was a gut punch and I’m not sure I’m emotionally ready for the next book (it takes a bit for me when reading anything like this) but as soon as I finish this review I’ll be grabbing it.
I can’t remember if there were trigger warnings at the beginning of the book or not but if there are, trust me, be warned. Our girl goes through a LOT of abuse and while I have no triggers I can say I had to put the book down several times to either wipe the tears off my face or to get my nerves back under control.
This is my first time reading anything by this author but I will DEFINITELY be looking to see what else she has out, right after I get my heart untwisted from this series.
Ever. I hate them. Books, movies, songs that make me cry.. I just don’t want them in my life. I have no clue what even caused me to grab this book but I’m so glad I did (even though it made me cry several times). I love Evelyn, absolutely love her fire, her enduring will… everything about her. I was prepared to be mad at Nolan for moving on but when he loses it you really can’t be even a little mad. I wanted to hate Ryan but I can’t, he’s incredible also, really didn’t get a lot of interaction with Amiri yet but hopefully that comes in book 2. Now Korren/Koko… I need for him to be a real person.
The ending was a gut punch and I’m not sure I’m emotionally ready for the next book (it takes a bit for me when reading anything like this) but as soon as I finish this review I’ll be grabbing it.
I can’t remember if there were trigger warnings at the beginning of the book or not but if there are, trust me, be warned. Our girl goes through a LOT of abuse and while I have no triggers I can say I had to put the book down several times to either wipe the tears off my face or to get my nerves back under control.
This is my first time reading anything by this author but I will DEFINITELY be looking to see what else she has out, right after I get my heart untwisted from this series.
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