From the New York Times bestselling author of The Monopolists, the incredible story of Olympic sailor Kevin Hall, and the psychiatric syndrome that makes him believe he stars in a television show of his life.
Meet Kevin Hall, brother, son, husband, father, and Olympic and America's Cup sailor. Kevin has an Ivy League degree, a winning smile, and throughout his adult life, he has been engaged in an ongoing battle with a person that doesn't exist to anyone but him: the Director.
Kevin suffers from what doctors are beginning to call the "Truman Show" delusion, a form of psychosis named for the 1998 movie, where the main character is trapped as the star of a reality TV show. When the Director commands Kevin to do things, the results can lead to handcuffs, hospitalization, or both. Once he nearly drove a car into Boston Harbor. His girlfriend, now wife, was in the passenger seat.
In the tradition of Kay Redfield Jamison's An Unquiet Mind, journalist Mary Pilon's The Kevin Show reveals the many-sided struggle by Kevin, his family, and the medical profession to understand and treat a psychiatric disorder whose euphoric highs and creative ties to pop culture have become inextricable from Kevin's experience of himself. Interweaving his perspective, journals, and sketches with police reports, medical records, and interviews with those who were present at key moments in his life, The Kevin Show is a bracing, suspenseful, and eye-opening view of the role that mental health plays in a seemingly ordinary life. Edit
Mary Pilon is a journalist focused primarily on the worlds of sports and business. She is the author of the bestselling books "The Monopolists" and "The Kevin Show," the co-editor of “Losers: Dispatches From the Other Side of the Scoreboard,” and co-host and co-author of the audio series “Twisted: The Story of Larry Nassar and the Women Who Brought Him Down.” Her work regularly appears in the New Yorker, Esquire, Bloomberg BusinessWeek, Vice, New York, and The New York Times, among other publications.
She has worked as a producer with NBC at the 2016 Rio Olympics and on HBO’s forthcoming documentary “BS High.” She is currently co-directing a documentary about pickleball for Peter Berg’s Film 45.
Pilon previously was a staff reporter with The Times on the sports desk and at The Wall Street Journal, where she covered various aspects of business and finance.
A native of Eugene, Ore., Mary started reporting for her hometown paper, the Register-Guard, as a teenager and was a wildly mediocre athlete.
Today, she receives editorial input from her rescue puggle, Pedro, and her grandmother claims to be her biggest fan.
The author's unsubstantiated virtual signalling lost this really good and well-written book a star. She says that "when we equate a person like Trump with mental illness we're creating a false equivancy. While Trump's behaviour is far beyond societal norms (the diagnoses of sociopath or narcissistic personality disorder are most ofen bandied about), Trump isn't representative of the mental health community, most of whom don't share his misogynistic, bigoted, and xenophobic views."
I have three issues with that. 1) Just because you are on the polar opposite site politically and a president goes against all your ideas of 'societal norms' doesn't mean they are far beyond it. Sadly, bigoted, misogynists with xenophobic views aren't uncommon in society at all. These might be despicable views but far from the norm? Not at all. Read or watch any news site, right or left and there they are in their various guises. And anyway the author gives no evidence, no references or anything else to back up her views.
2) The author can't say that Trump wasn't mentally ill and then suggests that he has been diagnosed as a sociopath or with narcissistic personality disorder, as they, certainly the personality disorder are mental illnesses. "Diagnosed" is a medical term and the author knows that. If she just wanted to suggest that is what people thought, then "he has been called" would have sufficed. So she wants to say she thinks he is a narcissistic sociopath but at the same time say it is unfair on the mental health community to suggest they are in the same camp.
3) "Most of whom don't share his misogynistic, bigoted, and xenophobic views." How does she know? She has no idea at all, no more than I do, of how the individuals that make up the mental health community think. She's suggesting that mentally ill people are Democrats and wouldn't vote for Trump. Really? It's mostly Democrats that have mental problems is it? Trump supporters are just nasty people? Neither of these things are true. And what's it got to do with the book anyway? Nothing. Only the author.
Another instance, "The narrative is even more complicated when thinking about the compassion Kevin received from law enforcement. It's a sharp contrast in an era of police shootings and headlines about Trayvon Martin, Eric Garner and far too many other names that are in the news as their middle child, Leo, comes of age, half-black."
Kevin Hall was walking around half-naked without shoes having thrown away his watch and discarded his wallet and acting like he's the star in a movie making no sense at all to anyone else. People like that are not usually dealt with in any other way than to be taken to the nearest hospital. Whilst I see her point, again it has nothing to do with the story, just the author wishing to insert her own views.
I didn't like the style the book was written in at all. There would be a name, sister, mother, Kevin himself, anyone, and then things sometimes from their point of view. I say 'sometimes' because it wasn't obvious to me at all that we were looking at things differently. The writing whilst generally really good, fell down sometimes. The sister plays a very peripheral role, yet there were meaningless descriptions of, for instance, her drug-taking habits (just getting high and doing psychedelics) and how she was resentful it was All About Kevin and other really uninteresting stuff that didn't relate to the story about her brother. Or if they did I missed the point.
Despite these things, once I got past the initial chapters (a chore), the book became interesting, a story well-told and mostly the writing was really good. It is the story of how a very privileged youngster showed talent as a sailor and went all the way to the Olympics despite two very debilitating battles with cancer and a mental illness that sent him away with the fairies for short episodes. His challenge, as it always is, is to take the medication even when he didn't feel he needed to because he didn't like how it made him feel. Much kudos to him and his wife, Amanda. The author told the story well.
It is the second book in a row I've read on bipolar disorder, An Impossible Life: The Inspiring Journey of a Woman's Struggle from Within, both show totally different aspects of it. The only thing they had in common, was that part of the disorder, the wild, high mania, was very grandiose in both of them. The old name, manic depressive, very much fits, even if bipolar sounds politer.
So 5 stars minus the one for the virtual signalling. I read the book because I was interested in Kevin Hall, not in the author's political views. The author was not present in the book mostly, so they were extra jarring because of that. I would, however, read another of the author's books, she writes well and obviously does her research. I do prefer an uninvolved author when they are writing about a person, rather than something they themselves were involved in.
I picked up this biography at the recommendation of my shrink, because the subject, Kevin, is bipolar like me and shares the so called "Truman Show" delusion with me. Basically the delusion is that my entire life is a televised (or possibly radio) show, just like the movie of the same name. In his specific variety of the disease, he gets his instructions from a supernatural Director, whereas mine come directly from God and/or Satan, but it's the same basic idea. Naturally, I think it's real and it's all part of the plot, including my treatment, but isn't that the point of it being a delusion?
About two-thirds of the way through, I realized that I hated Kevin. He's an irresponsible asshole. While falling mentally ill nobody's fault and I've certainly been irresponsible at times, his behavior is inexcusable. It took me longer than it should have to realize that medication and therapy are the answer and not following the "instructions" I recieved, but I learned. After that, it took years for me to find a combination of drugs that don't cure me, but at least bring the delusions to a livable level.
While I learned that medication is an absolutely essential part of dealing with this illness, Kevin never learns. Never. Over and over and over he decides to stop taking his medication and becomes uncontrollably manic, causing untold drama and grief. In the afterword, he declares that he is "off his meds and that he was willing to die trying to stay off of them."
Kevin responds well to medication, going years between episodes in the times he actually takes his fucking meds. He continues drinking both alcohol and caffeine and smoking both pot and cigarettes, regardless of the fact that they are potential triggers. At times I wanted to scream in his face "TAKE YOUR FUCKING MEDS, IDIOT." He knows the consequences, including several times where he comes very close to killing himself or people he loves. Yeah, the meds have unpleasant side effects. I'm over 60 pounds heavier than when I started them and I constantly have trouble focusing, even when doing things that I like. Not great, but better than the alternative. Making that sacrifice is part of being a responsible adult.
The book gets 5/5 for making me feel so strongly, even if the emotions I get from it are so negative.
Great writing that kept me hooked, and I loved the story. But the more I read, the more I disliked Kevin. Sure I felt bad for him. I knew much of it was uncontrollable. But time and time again, he went off his meds. And time and time again, the same thing happened: consequences that hurt his family. It was frustrating to watch (read). I would, however, like to read his book from his perspective.
Have you seen the movie, The Truman Show? Well, what if your life was like that. I mean, what if you were the center of a hit TV show, and a director was behind the scenes, pulling the strings, making sure everything goes according to plan? What if your ratings were important? How would you change your behavior? Well, as absurd as this thought game seems, Kevin Hall believed exactly that. He has bipolar, and his has manifested in this distinctly unusual manner.
And Kevin doesn't seem like a typical raving hallucinatory. That's what makes his story so intriguing. He was a top sailing athlete who competed in the Olympics and was on an America's Cup team. In fact, sailing is a fairly dangerous sport if one isn't paying 100% attention 100% of the time, so it's a particularly bad sport to have a team member who hallucinates. In fact, the book begins with an America's Cup practice run in which someone dies.
An intriguing look at a peculiar symptom of a mental illness that is more common than most people realize.
Kevin is bipolar. Kevin does weird things when he is manic. Some of those things could have gotten him or someone else killed, but fortunately did not. Kevin ends up hospitalized. Kevin is put on meds. Kevin often decides to not take meds. Kevin then does weird things. Someone comes to Kevin's rescue. Kevin thinks he's starring in a movie where The Director is telling him what to do, and setting things up out in the world for him to react to. Kevin then does weird things in response to The Director's directions. Someone will come rescue Kevin when he gets lost or in trouble. Someone always does. On and on the show goes. And now there is even a book proposing that Kevin's life is fascinating. Apparently, what makes Kevin's life fascinating, as well as more "suspenseful" than the lives of other bipolar individuals, is the fact that Kevin is an "Olympic and America's Cup sailor". Also, the author of the book is not a member of Kevin's family.
(Note: I received a free ARC of this book from Amazon Vine.)
Interesting and well written account of how mental illness effects the person and all those around him. Added aspects of big time sailing and the olympics added interesting color.
Kevin Hall was a champion sailor from a young age and even went on to sail at Brown and in the Olympics. As a college student, he had his first experience on the show, and interesting effect of bipolar disorder that gives him delusions of appearing on his own reality television show. This is a fascinating exploration of a person living with and becoming a successful athlete with a mental illness. At times it did seem repetitive and could have been a little shorter, but it did a good job of humanizing someone living with bipolar disorder. I received a digital ARC of this book through NetGalley in exchange for an honest review.
Interesting story about a competitive sailor and his struggles with mental illness. Learned a lot about sailing and Olympic competition. Also, fantastic insight into his bipolar episodes. Would highly recommend that people with loved ones suffering from mental illness to read this book to help them understand what their friend/family member is going thru. With both the sailing and mental illness, the author does an excellent job of giving enough information to help the reader understand what may be unfamiliar without getting so technical that the details distract from the story.
Kevin's particular delusion of starring in his own reality show is interesting, and its impact of on his life and relationships is heartrending, but this book is rather repetitious, overwritten, loaded with non sequiturs, and formulaic as so much creative nonfiction tends to be.
I read an uncorrected advance edition, and I wanted to mark out a lot of senseless commas.
Really disjointed and clumsy writing made this a tough read. The narrative jumps around from event to event with little fanfare, and all the perspective changes keep the reader at arm's length. I felt like I was observing but not engaging -- I was watching but I didn't care.
Also, the descriptions of sailing were mind-numbingly boring.
I thought Mary Pilon did a good job of illustrating bipolar disorder. Sometimes the timeline felt a little jumbled (specifically when it jumped between individual perspectives) but it was still a compelling read.
This book was certainly interesting and offered a pretty intimate look at how bipolar disorder may affect a person and their friends and loved ones. The book felt a little disjointed, cutting from person to person pretty rapidly. It offered various perspectives, but was hard to follow at times.
Sharp, in-depth and humanizing exploration of madness
Mary does a wonderful job of investigating one man’s intriguing delusions with precision, empathy, and humanity. This leads, as it must, to understanding, which is the best any writer can hope for.
The writing style is like a play as the narrator or perspective changes frequently. This helped me understand the message BY confounding the storyline. I think it was described as a stream of consciousness in the style of (missing reference, lost my draft review, "written in the style of" in my memory is absent from Google Book scan version--inside of rear cover? Is it Jamison's An Unquiet Mind?).
This book was interesting but pretty shallow. It didn’t deeply explore either the sailing aspect, or the Truman Show Delusion. I appreciated that it included perspectives from Kevin and his loved ones. I’m glad Kevin shared his experiences because he’s lived an interesting life. Overall, it was ok, but I wanted a lot more out of it.
After watching the movie, "The Truman Show", I was unaware that there is a real condition called "The Truman Condition" that causes a person to be delusional and believe that he or she is trapped on a reality television show. This book describes the life of Kevin Hall, an Olympic sailing hopeful who faces the mental illness of delusions. Unfortunately, this book becomes a tedious read because it also wades through the perceptions of Kevin's illness through the eyes of his wife and family members. By the end of the book, I was looking forward to reading the list of Recommended Reading and Mental Health Resources and completing the book.
A well-written memoir lets readers inside the author's head, helps them understand the "how" of epic mistakes, the "why" behind one's actions and the "what's next."
Though not technically a memoir, The Kevin Show: An Olympic Athlete's Battle with Mental Illness gets inside Kevin Hall's head, and it's a strange place. Based on interviews and exhaustive research, former New York Times report Mary Pilon writes Hall's life story from his perspective and the perspectives of the people who care most about him, and illumines the challenges faced by the mentally ill and the people who love them.
Kevin Hall is a sailor and cancer survivor. Hard driving, he propels himself into the America's Cup and the 2004 Olympics, despite being diagnosed as bipolar. While manic, his disorder deludes him into thinking he is the star of a reality TV show taking direction from "the Director" who commands him to do crazy things like drive his car into the Boston Harbor or jump off a roof. Like many mentally ill people, he gets arrested, hospitalized, treated and medicated many times and in many different ways, but unlike most mentally ill people, his parents are doctors and he has a good emotional and financial support system (and someone wrote an empathetic book about him).
I found Pilon's narrative to be mesmerizing. She tells a real-life story in a suspenseful way. She is detailed, but she doesn't get bogged down in the medical ins-and-outs, and she doesn't make judgments--she lets the reader come to their own conclusions about Hall's illness and perspective on it.
Of course, if you're interested in sailing or the Olympics, it's an interesting story, but it cultivates compassion so it's a great read for anyone who loves someone struggling with mental illness.
Awesome book! "The Kevin Show" is written with the in-depth reporting and care for detail of Mary Pilon's journalistic experience, and crafted with the language and story-telling of a devoted novelist; together, these aspects of the book gave me a great look into the life of Kevin. 5/5!
Thanks to Netgalley, the publisher. and the author for allowing me to read and review a digital copy of this book. Meet Kevin Hall, brother, son, husband, father, and Olympic and America's Cup sailor. Kevin has an Ivy League degree, a winning smile, and throughout his adult life, he has been engaged in an ongoing battle with a person that doesn't exist to anyone but him: the Director.
Kevin Hall smart gifted a nOlympic Athlete a gifted America’s cuopmsailir a man who has a wonderful family loads of friends his only problem he thinks he’s living in a reality show run by someone called the director.An absolutely shocking true life story. # NetGalley # Bloomsbury thanks for advance readers copy.