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These Dreams: A Pride and Prejudice Variation
An Abandoned Bride
A Missing Man
And a Dream which refuses to die....
Pride and patriotism lend fervor to greed and cruelty, and Fitzwilliam Darcy is caught at the centre of a decades old international feud. Taken far from England, presumed dead by his family, and lost to all he holds dear, only one name remains as his beacon in the darkness: Elizabeth.
Georgiana Darcy is now the reluctant, heartbroken heiress to Pemberley, and Colonel Fitzwilliam her bewildered guardian. Vulnerable and unprepared, Georgiana desperately longs for a friend, while Fitzwilliam seeks to protect her from his own family. As the conspiracy around Darcy's death widens and questions mount, Colonel Fitzwilliam must confront his own past. An impossible dream, long ago sacrificed for duty, may become his only hope.
Newly married Lydia Wickham returns to Longbourn- alone and under mysterious circumstances. Elizabeth Bennet watches one sister suffer and another find joy, while she lives her own days in empty regrets over what might have been. Believing Darcy lost forever, she closes her heart against both pain and happiness, but finds no escape from her dreams of him.
A Missing Man
And a Dream which refuses to die....
Pride and patriotism lend fervor to greed and cruelty, and Fitzwilliam Darcy is caught at the centre of a decades old international feud. Taken far from England, presumed dead by his family, and lost to all he holds dear, only one name remains as his beacon in the darkness: Elizabeth.
Georgiana Darcy is now the reluctant, heartbroken heiress to Pemberley, and Colonel Fitzwilliam her bewildered guardian. Vulnerable and unprepared, Georgiana desperately longs for a friend, while Fitzwilliam seeks to protect her from his own family. As the conspiracy around Darcy's death widens and questions mount, Colonel Fitzwilliam must confront his own past. An impossible dream, long ago sacrificed for duty, may become his only hope.
Newly married Lydia Wickham returns to Longbourn- alone and under mysterious circumstances. Elizabeth Bennet watches one sister suffer and another find joy, while she lives her own days in empty regrets over what might have been. Believing Darcy lost forever, she closes her heart against both pain and happiness, but finds no escape from her dreams of him.
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First published September 4, 2017
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September 1, 2017
"Do not stand at my grave and weep I am not there; I do not sleep." Mary Elizabeth Frye
I am the newest member of the 'I stayed up way to late to finish this book because I had to know how it ended' club– where's my hat and tee shirt?
This is a very long book, 700+ pages. But there is not one line of extraneous or pointless information. This book isn't long because the author is selfish this book is long because the author is brilliant and generous. Essentially there are three full books that entwine their plots to make this book. Warning there are some scenes of sexual violence and violence against women, also scenes of implied torture and imprisonment.
This is a story of so many levels, layers, plot twists and characters I really don't want to even attempt to recap it without multiple spoiler tags. So lets stick with themes. This is a book of love, loss, mourning, redemption, mistakes, honor, bravery, overcoming obstacles, life lessons, secrets, lies, deception, faith, trust, persistence, determination.
It is a murder mystery, an adventure story, a hidden treasure story, a love story, a war story, a family saga and a P&P variation. And all of them work very well. What the author did exceptionally was not waste time with useless information. She skips meetings we don't need to attend, meals we don't need to eat, days of travel or incarceration. The book flows beautifully.
I am the newest member of the 'I stayed up way to late to finish this book because I had to know how it ended' club– where's my hat and tee shirt?
This is a very long book, 700+ pages. But there is not one line of extraneous or pointless information. This book isn't long because the author is selfish this book is long because the author is brilliant and generous. Essentially there are three full books that entwine their plots to make this book. Warning there are some scenes of sexual violence and violence against women, also scenes of implied torture and imprisonment.
This is a story of so many levels, layers, plot twists and characters I really don't want to even attempt to recap it without multiple spoiler tags. So lets stick with themes. This is a book of love, loss, mourning, redemption, mistakes, honor, bravery, overcoming obstacles, life lessons, secrets, lies, deception, faith, trust, persistence, determination.
It is a murder mystery, an adventure story, a hidden treasure story, a love story, a war story, a family saga and a P&P variation. And all of them work very well. What the author did exceptionally was not waste time with useless information. She skips meetings we don't need to attend, meals we don't need to eat, days of travel or incarceration. The book flows beautifully.
June 26, 2022
Excellent book!
So many friends warned me and/or I read in the other readers' reviews that this story was full of angst. Yes, there is angst, but I do love angst and when I finally did pick it up, having found a day not full of appointments or activities, I found the angst bearable. I read this over two days. What I kept in mind (and remember I am a reader of approximately 1000 JAFF books - not all are reviewed as I read them long before I was posting reviews.) is that in this genre we lovers of P&P know that a HEA is a guarantee. I was trying to imagine how this couple would react when they finally do see each other again. Huge Sigh when I did come to that part.
As another readers mentioned Jane Eyre also has a connection over miles between the two would-be lovers. And so it is that we read of both Darcy and Elizabeth living for those dream connections. I was brought to tears more than once in reading of both their thoughts.
Elizabeth and the rest of Darcy's family, friends and acquaintances have been told he is dead. We do learn that the Colonel is the only one who finally doubts this but, as he has no evidence as to why someone wants the world to believe him dead or where they might have taken him, keeps that opinion/knowledge to himself.
The Fitzwilliam family acts unfeelingly and even greedily towards Georgiana, who is now worth so much more that her £30,000 dowry. I hated Lady Catherine who pushed in and intimidates Georgiana and begins to redecorate Pemberley as if she is now the mistress. Thank goodness someone locked off Darcy's study.
Then there are those women from the edges of other stories and canon: Mrs. Younge and Mrs. Annesley. My brain immediately clicked into gear and I was looking for clues as to what role they were playing.
We meet some new characters; ones whose sadism and manipulations will horrify you. Amálie is part of their world but you will come to love her and want a savior for her.
This story actually has three "couples" whose relationships are rough and whose futures are not promised to be "a walk in a rose garden". It is interesting how the author, with twists and hidden connections and/or past history, gives them happy or satisfactory futures. (I reserve my opinion on Lydia.) Lydia is like a bad penny who just keeps turning up but she is written to have more insight into what Wickham actually did do to her. And we read of her on the edge of those love/hate emotions that we know are so closely bound together.
This is a story I would recommend to all JAFF readers. It is long but so well developed. Good work, Nicole.
April 18, 2020: I just finished rereading this story for the second time and am glad I did for I found that I had forgotten some details from the first reading. Loved it all over again.
So many friends warned me and/or I read in the other readers' reviews that this story was full of angst. Yes, there is angst, but I do love angst and when I finally did pick it up, having found a day not full of appointments or activities, I found the angst bearable. I read this over two days. What I kept in mind (and remember I am a reader of approximately 1000 JAFF books - not all are reviewed as I read them long before I was posting reviews.) is that in this genre we lovers of P&P know that a HEA is a guarantee. I was trying to imagine how this couple would react when they finally do see each other again. Huge Sigh when I did come to that part.
As another readers mentioned Jane Eyre also has a connection over miles between the two would-be lovers. And so it is that we read of both Darcy and Elizabeth living for those dream connections. I was brought to tears more than once in reading of both their thoughts.
Elizabeth and the rest of Darcy's family, friends and acquaintances have been told he is dead. We do learn that the Colonel is the only one who finally doubts this but, as he has no evidence as to why someone wants the world to believe him dead or where they might have taken him, keeps that opinion/knowledge to himself.
The Fitzwilliam family acts unfeelingly and even greedily towards Georgiana, who is now worth so much more that her £30,000 dowry. I hated Lady Catherine who pushed in and intimidates Georgiana and begins to redecorate Pemberley as if she is now the mistress. Thank goodness someone locked off Darcy's study.
Then there are those women from the edges of other stories and canon: Mrs. Younge and Mrs. Annesley. My brain immediately clicked into gear and I was looking for clues as to what role they were playing.
We meet some new characters; ones whose sadism and manipulations will horrify you. Amálie is part of their world but you will come to love her and want a savior for her.
This story actually has three "couples" whose relationships are rough and whose futures are not promised to be "a walk in a rose garden". It is interesting how the author, with twists and hidden connections and/or past history, gives them happy or satisfactory futures. (I reserve my opinion on Lydia.) Lydia is like a bad penny who just keeps turning up but she is written to have more insight into what Wickham actually did do to her. And we read of her on the edge of those love/hate emotions that we know are so closely bound together.
This is a story I would recommend to all JAFF readers. It is long but so well developed. Good work, Nicole.
April 18, 2020: I just finished rereading this story for the second time and am glad I did for I found that I had forgotten some details from the first reading. Loved it all over again.
June 1, 2020
Be prepared for a reading marathon when you pick this one up, because it's both long and almost impossible to put down. I lost several hours of sleep because I was NOT going to bed until I finished it. This is one powerful, spellbinding story that's masterfully written.
These Dreams is a semi-sequel to Pride and Prejudice in that it assumes everything happened exactly as in canon right up to the night before Lydia and Wickham marry. On his way back from his final meeting with Wickham confirming all the arrangements, Darcy is overpowered by thugs, transported to an unknown location via boat, and imprisoned for months. His captors terrorize him, asking questions that he can't answer. They are careful not to mark his body, but the isolation, darkness, insinuations about betrayal, bondage, water dunkings, and constant threat of physical torture take their toll. It's pure psychological torture. His only escape during this time is in his dreams, where he and Elizabeth have a peaceful, loving relationship that soothes his soul.
Elizabeth is facing her own private hell. The news has spread that Fitzwilliam Darcy is dead, and it is devastating to her. She mourns him but feels unable to share her feelings about him with anyone else. Lydia returns to Longbourn and is a changed person. Mrs. Bennet continues to pick at Elizabeth because she didn't marry Mr. Collins. Another of the Bennet sisters is getting married, and all the joyous preparations grate on Elizabeth, who finds them difficult to swallow. Like Darcy, she feels more alive when she's asleep and dreaming of him. At times, she daydreams and believes she can see him. Waking from these tricks of her imagination drains her spirits, but even though she knows she must let him go, she is unable to do so.
Georgiana is set upon by her well-meaning(?) family, especially Lady Catherine. All except Colonel Fitzwilliam have their own plans for her. He does his best to shield her from the others, but he is uneasy about the circumstances surrounding his beloved cousin's death and feels compelled to investigate. But how can he do so and still protect Georgiana?
There is so much to admire about this story. It's a mystery- Which characters (both canon and new) are involved in this conspiracy to get rid of Darcy? It's Darcy family history- What transactions involving Darcy's grandfather are affecting the present? It's Napoleonic War history- How will Colonel Fitzwilliam's military experiences in Portugal affect the outcome? It's a story of PTSD at a time long before the symptoms were recognized as such- Considering what Darcy has gone through and what he thinks he knows, how can he trust anyone? And SHOULD he trust anyone until he has proof of exactly who is involved? It's a story of redemption for some characters whose past actions seem unredeemable- Should they be forgiven?
Most of all, it's a story that demonstrates the power of love. This doesn't just pertain to Darcy and Elizabeth, but also between many other characters. One is romantic, but there are siblings and cousins who have each other's backs, and there are friends who do favors without questioning why. There's also love demonstrated by a stranger just because another human being is in torment.
As difficult as much of the book is to read, the last chapters are worth it all. Awesome story. It'll stay with me for a while.
These Dreams is a semi-sequel to Pride and Prejudice in that it assumes everything happened exactly as in canon right up to the night before Lydia and Wickham marry. On his way back from his final meeting with Wickham confirming all the arrangements, Darcy is overpowered by thugs, transported to an unknown location via boat, and imprisoned for months. His captors terrorize him, asking questions that he can't answer. They are careful not to mark his body, but the isolation, darkness, insinuations about betrayal, bondage, water dunkings, and constant threat of physical torture take their toll. It's pure psychological torture. His only escape during this time is in his dreams, where he and Elizabeth have a peaceful, loving relationship that soothes his soul.
Elizabeth is facing her own private hell. The news has spread that Fitzwilliam Darcy is dead, and it is devastating to her. She mourns him but feels unable to share her feelings about him with anyone else. Lydia returns to Longbourn and is a changed person. Mrs. Bennet continues to pick at Elizabeth because she didn't marry Mr. Collins. Another of the Bennet sisters is getting married, and all the joyous preparations grate on Elizabeth, who finds them difficult to swallow. Like Darcy, she feels more alive when she's asleep and dreaming of him. At times, she daydreams and believes she can see him. Waking from these tricks of her imagination drains her spirits, but even though she knows she must let him go, she is unable to do so.
Georgiana is set upon by her well-meaning(?) family, especially Lady Catherine. All except Colonel Fitzwilliam have their own plans for her. He does his best to shield her from the others, but he is uneasy about the circumstances surrounding his beloved cousin's death and feels compelled to investigate. But how can he do so and still protect Georgiana?
There is so much to admire about this story. It's a mystery- Which characters (both canon and new) are involved in this conspiracy to get rid of Darcy? It's Darcy family history- What transactions involving Darcy's grandfather are affecting the present? It's Napoleonic War history- How will Colonel Fitzwilliam's military experiences in Portugal affect the outcome? It's a story of PTSD at a time long before the symptoms were recognized as such- Considering what Darcy has gone through and what he thinks he knows, how can he trust anyone? And SHOULD he trust anyone until he has proof of exactly who is involved? It's a story of redemption for some characters whose past actions seem unredeemable- Should they be forgiven?
Most of all, it's a story that demonstrates the power of love. This doesn't just pertain to Darcy and Elizabeth, but also between many other characters. One is romantic, but there are siblings and cousins who have each other's backs, and there are friends who do favors without questioning why. There's also love demonstrated by a stranger just because another human being is in torment.
As difficult as much of the book is to read, the last chapters are worth it all. Awesome story. It'll stay with me for a while.
June 25, 2023
If you're going through hell, keep going.
~ Winston Churchill
Several reviewers have mentioned marathon reading – unable to sleep until they had conquered this epic.
Not me. I had to take breaks – work on jigsaw puzzles, play solitaire – to control my anxiety. I became deeply involved in Darcy’s imprisonment and Elizabeth’s grief – it was a personal experience for me.
It wasn’t until Darcy returned to England that I embarked on the marathon, finishing at 2 AM.
I think telepathy exists, and I think quantum physics will help us understand its basic properties. ~ Brian Josephson
Darcy and Elizabeth reach out to each other mentally; sharing their dreams and fears across the continent. Their connection was intense and believable.
Another believable connection was between our dear Colonel and his lost love: a great couple deserving a happy ending.
Our silly Lydia was forced from her childishness. She understood her circumstances. She actually began to appreciate her sister Elizabeth and the sisters became close. Lydia’s story was very unusual in the world of JAFF.
This is a 5 Star experience – but be prepared for the angst.
Three hundred years ago a prisoner condemned to the Tower of London carved on the wall of his cell this sentiment to keep up his spirits during his long imprisonment: “It is not adversity that kills, but the impatience with which we bear adversity.” ~ James Keller
6/25/2019 -- re-read. Just as good the second time around!
6/24/2023 -- the audible is great also.
~ Winston Churchill
Several reviewers have mentioned marathon reading – unable to sleep until they had conquered this epic.
Not me. I had to take breaks – work on jigsaw puzzles, play solitaire – to control my anxiety. I became deeply involved in Darcy’s imprisonment and Elizabeth’s grief – it was a personal experience for me.
It wasn’t until Darcy returned to England that I embarked on the marathon, finishing at 2 AM.
I think telepathy exists, and I think quantum physics will help us understand its basic properties. ~ Brian Josephson
Darcy and Elizabeth reach out to each other mentally; sharing their dreams and fears across the continent. Their connection was intense and believable.
Another believable connection was between our dear Colonel and his lost love: a great couple deserving a happy ending.
Our silly Lydia was forced from her childishness. She understood her circumstances. She actually began to appreciate her sister Elizabeth and the sisters became close. Lydia’s story was very unusual in the world of JAFF.
This is a 5 Star experience – but be prepared for the angst.
Three hundred years ago a prisoner condemned to the Tower of London carved on the wall of his cell this sentiment to keep up his spirits during his long imprisonment: “It is not adversity that kills, but the impatience with which we bear adversity.” ~ James Keller
6/25/2019 -- re-read. Just as good the second time around!
6/24/2023 -- the audible is great also.
August 30, 2017
“I think we dream so we don’t have to be apart for so long. If we’re in each other’s dream, we can be together all the time.” A. A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh
Anyone who wishes to read this story… be prepared for the long haul. This is no baby short story and it packs a punch within a few pages. There will be various triggers so gird your loins for a rating of PG-17 due to violence, sexual tensions, torture of ODB [our dear boy], near sexual abuse, and battering. I hate to list them up front; however, they are well done and the author pulls back before it becomes too unbearable.
Our story opens just as Darcy has set in motion the Bennet-Wickham wedding and the scoundrel’s transfer to the regulars in the north. Darcy never made it home as he was literally snatched from the streets, beaten and thrown aboard a fast ship out of London. A severely battered body was presented to his family for our dear Colonel to identify as his cousin Fitzwilliam Darcy, heir to Pemberley, Derbyshire.
OMG! I thought I was going to die, and so did Elizabeth Bennet of Longbourn when she heard the news that Mr. Darcy was dead. After Wickham wed Lydia, he suddenly disappeared leaving her abandoned and high in the belly. When Lizzy heard of Darcy’s part in planning the wedding and military commission, she knew he would only have been in that part of town if he was working on Wickham to marry Lydia. Her despair deepened as she wondered if he had done it for her.
“Deep into the darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.” Edgar Allan Poe
OMG! The angst was as high as my blood pressure. This story was relentless. There was a scene where Darcy, after being tortured, cries out in anguish for Elizabeth. His soul reaches out of the darkness for her. Many miles away… her soul cries out to him, as she laments him. Somehow, they reach out to each other in dreams and it was so touching. It reminded me of Jane Eyre, when Rochester cried out to Jane and she heard him. I nearly lost it. I wanted to weep.
Due to profound circumstances and with the help of another, Darcy escaped and headed home, a nearly broken man. The things he overheard from his captors have made him untrusting and paranoid. He doesn’t know who he can trust.
Villains: “Some people are cowards… I think by and large a third of people are villains, a third are cowards, and a third are heroes. Now, a villain and a coward can choose to be a hero, but they’ve got to make that choice.” Tom Hanks
There will be many choices to be made in this story. But... who are the villains in this story? We could round up the usual suspects: Lady Catherine, Lord Matlock, Wickham and even Caroline Bingley. Each came to this story with motives and goals they wished to accomplish. And each played a part in determining the future of Pemberley and the management of the grieving Georgiana Darcy, now an heiress and the most-wealthy woman in England. You will be hard pressed to figure out all the villains. I was stunned when they started popping up. OMG! I did not see that coming.
“There are three classes of men; lovers of wisdom, lovers of honor, and lovers of gain.” Plato
Darcy had to figure out who he could trust. “It is not titles that honor men, but men that honor titles.” Niccolo Machiavelli
The visiting dignitaries from Portugal and their association to the Fitzwilliam and Darcy families was amazing. The author managed to create a link to the past and that became the main thread to watch as the story progressed.
My emotions were wrecked at every turn. Clarkston used a masterful hand in creating a scene, whether it was a love scene, a fight scene, a death scene, or torture. Love and hate were all wrapped up in a steel fist covered in a velvet glove. This was exquisite torture. I wanted to cry, to scream and to yell but it was 3:00 a.m. and I needed to go to bed.
Darcy struggled with that profound question… what did the enemy want? Something happened during the time of Darcy’s grandfather. Familia honor was at stake and justice was demanded by those involved. The true story was lost within the family history and only a vague journal left by Darcy’s grandmother left any clues.
“I would prefer even to fail with honor than win by cheating.” Sophocles
It is impossible to convey the full force of this story without giving something away. I will not do that. If you enjoy angst and can handle the triggers, this is one story you will not forget. I am still reeling from the punch.
I received an ARC [Advanced Reader Copy] from the author with no expectation of anything other than my reading it. I also purchased the book upon release.
Anyone who wishes to read this story… be prepared for the long haul. This is no baby short story and it packs a punch within a few pages. There will be various triggers so gird your loins for a rating of PG-17 due to violence, sexual tensions, torture of ODB [our dear boy], near sexual abuse, and battering. I hate to list them up front; however, they are well done and the author pulls back before it becomes too unbearable.
Our story opens just as Darcy has set in motion the Bennet-Wickham wedding and the scoundrel’s transfer to the regulars in the north. Darcy never made it home as he was literally snatched from the streets, beaten and thrown aboard a fast ship out of London. A severely battered body was presented to his family for our dear Colonel to identify as his cousin Fitzwilliam Darcy, heir to Pemberley, Derbyshire.
OMG! I thought I was going to die, and so did Elizabeth Bennet of Longbourn when she heard the news that Mr. Darcy was dead. After Wickham wed Lydia, he suddenly disappeared leaving her abandoned and high in the belly. When Lizzy heard of Darcy’s part in planning the wedding and military commission, she knew he would only have been in that part of town if he was working on Wickham to marry Lydia. Her despair deepened as she wondered if he had done it for her.
“Deep into the darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before.” Edgar Allan Poe
OMG! The angst was as high as my blood pressure. This story was relentless. There was a scene where Darcy, after being tortured, cries out in anguish for Elizabeth. His soul reaches out of the darkness for her. Many miles away… her soul cries out to him, as she laments him. Somehow, they reach out to each other in dreams and it was so touching. It reminded me of Jane Eyre, when Rochester cried out to Jane and she heard him. I nearly lost it. I wanted to weep.
Due to profound circumstances and with the help of another, Darcy escaped and headed home, a nearly broken man. The things he overheard from his captors have made him untrusting and paranoid. He doesn’t know who he can trust.
Villains: “Some people are cowards… I think by and large a third of people are villains, a third are cowards, and a third are heroes. Now, a villain and a coward can choose to be a hero, but they’ve got to make that choice.” Tom Hanks
There will be many choices to be made in this story. But... who are the villains in this story? We could round up the usual suspects: Lady Catherine, Lord Matlock, Wickham and even Caroline Bingley. Each came to this story with motives and goals they wished to accomplish. And each played a part in determining the future of Pemberley and the management of the grieving Georgiana Darcy, now an heiress and the most-wealthy woman in England. You will be hard pressed to figure out all the villains. I was stunned when they started popping up. OMG! I did not see that coming.
“There are three classes of men; lovers of wisdom, lovers of honor, and lovers of gain.” Plato
Darcy had to figure out who he could trust. “It is not titles that honor men, but men that honor titles.” Niccolo Machiavelli
The visiting dignitaries from Portugal and their association to the Fitzwilliam and Darcy families was amazing. The author managed to create a link to the past and that became the main thread to watch as the story progressed.
My emotions were wrecked at every turn. Clarkston used a masterful hand in creating a scene, whether it was a love scene, a fight scene, a death scene, or torture. Love and hate were all wrapped up in a steel fist covered in a velvet glove. This was exquisite torture. I wanted to cry, to scream and to yell but it was 3:00 a.m. and I needed to go to bed.
Darcy struggled with that profound question… what did the enemy want? Something happened during the time of Darcy’s grandfather. Familia honor was at stake and justice was demanded by those involved. The true story was lost within the family history and only a vague journal left by Darcy’s grandmother left any clues.
“I would prefer even to fail with honor than win by cheating.” Sophocles
It is impossible to convey the full force of this story without giving something away. I will not do that. If you enjoy angst and can handle the triggers, this is one story you will not forget. I am still reeling from the punch.
I received an ARC [Advanced Reader Copy] from the author with no expectation of anything other than my reading it. I also purchased the book upon release.
September 13, 2017
An epic and riveting tale of a bond that cannot be broken. Nicole Clarkson will have you on the edge of your seat, she’ll make you gasp in disbelief and terror, bite your fingernails as you devour the pages one after the other hoping and praying for the right answers against seemingly impossible odds, and sigh in perfect happiness when the world is finally put right. A gripping, profoundly original and masterfully written novel you’ll want to read all over again as soon as you’ve reached the end.
August 23, 2023
2022 Listened on audible and what an amazing performance. The narrator really made this story come alive.
I still hold that Darcy's recuperation after being tortured was quick, but I guess there was enough going on that couldn't warrant even more effort put in to that aspect of the story.
First- I must rant! Technically and physically, this book should neither be so heavy nor so many pages! The paper was far thicker than most books published these days and the margins - omg, the margins- take up almost as much space as the text on the page. FOR SHAME!!! Dear publisher- was it to make an extra buck? Justify charging more money for a "larger" book???
OK rant over.
As for the book, the writing was superb, if a little draggy at times. My third read by NC and the best so far. I would have liked getting more of a feel of why/how E's emotions changed towards D. We kind of are jumped right with with that when she hears about him.
The building dynamic between E, her sister L and then Georgiana was great, a nice mix of differing characters bonding in their mourning. Nice reading more of C.F. for a change and the rest of the family's actions were spot on to keep you guessing, (but I figured it out fairly early on.)
I also would have liked reading more about E and D realizing and verbalizing to each other the very real/bizarre connection felt via their dreams. Not to mention D needing to heal after his major ordeal, there was some, just not enough real dealing, just fluffy - I love you, you are my life -crap. I mean, if you are going to write a book that is almost 700 pages (unjustifiably-see above rant) you may as well give us all the nitty-gritty stuff too!
I could go on, but needless to say it is definitely a worthwhile read. I would love to read it again in the future, just not sure my hands could hold this tome again! GRRR!!!
I still hold that Darcy's recuperation after being tortured was quick, but I guess there was enough going on that couldn't warrant even more effort put in to that aspect of the story.
First- I must rant! Technically and physically, this book should neither be so heavy nor so many pages! The paper was far thicker than most books published these days and the margins - omg, the margins- take up almost as much space as the text on the page. FOR SHAME!!! Dear publisher- was it to make an extra buck? Justify charging more money for a "larger" book???
OK rant over.
As for the book, the writing was superb, if a little draggy at times. My third read by NC and the best so far. I would have liked getting more of a feel of why/how E's emotions changed towards D. We kind of are jumped right with with that when she hears about him.
The building dynamic between E, her sister L and then Georgiana was great, a nice mix of differing characters bonding in their mourning. Nice reading more of C.F. for a change and the rest of the family's actions were spot on to keep you guessing, (but I figured it out fairly early on.)
I also would have liked reading more about E and D realizing and verbalizing to each other the very real/bizarre connection felt via their dreams. Not to mention D needing to heal after his major ordeal, there was some, just not enough real dealing, just fluffy - I love you, you are my life -crap. I mean, if you are going to write a book that is almost 700 pages (unjustifiably-see above rant) you may as well give us all the nitty-gritty stuff too!
I could go on, but needless to say it is definitely a worthwhile read. I would love to read it again in the future, just not sure my hands could hold this tome again! GRRR!!!
January 7, 2022
Wow. Wow. Wow. WOW. wow. Seriously, if you have not read this book you are missing out. It has everything: action, adventure, love, loss, heartbreak, grief, family drama, "who-dunnit," good guys and evil persons, angst galore, and hope. What more could a person ask for, especially in a P&P variation. Yet it was not cheesy or overdone. It was authentic. You felt the emotions of the characters from the beginning. The scenes are so beautifully betrayed. It is a long book but you don't feel like it's so long once you are into the meat of the story. The dreams between Darcy and Elizabeth are EVERYTHING. Oh . . . . (swoon).
My copy did have some small grammatical issues (the wrong word, mad instead of man etc.) but since i ordered it on pre-order i'm sure they have been or will be cleaned up. They did not detract but were out of place as so much is perfect that it took me by surprise.
I will read this again, perhaps yearly. It's so wonderful. I can't wait to see what else one of my favorite authors comes up with.
My copy did have some small grammatical issues (the wrong word, mad instead of man etc.) but since i ordered it on pre-order i'm sure they have been or will be cleaned up. They did not detract but were out of place as so much is perfect that it took me by surprise.
I will read this again, perhaps yearly. It's so wonderful. I can't wait to see what else one of my favorite authors comes up with.
March 18, 2024
When you kill off Darcy right away, I am already loving the story. Add in Colonel Fitzwilliam in large measure, and I am yours. Thank you for a wonderful read.
I wanted to point out since I got the paperback copy that the printing job on this was superior. The paper is lovely to feel and the margins are perfect. I can't tell you how much I appreciated reading this book through. It was so comforting to have those big margins on either side and the heavy paper. I only wish the cover was a heavier weight with a different finish but what a joy to read. Great job.
2nd reading: I think I liked it even more the second time. With all the mystery gone, I was able to enjoy the scenes more. Darcy stood out for me on this reading.
I ran out of room to keep leaving reviews about how much I liked this book!
I wanted to point out since I got the paperback copy that the printing job on this was superior. The paper is lovely to feel and the margins are perfect. I can't tell you how much I appreciated reading this book through. It was so comforting to have those big margins on either side and the heavy paper. I only wish the cover was a heavier weight with a different finish but what a joy to read. Great job.
2nd reading: I think I liked it even more the second time. With all the mystery gone, I was able to enjoy the scenes more. Darcy stood out for me on this reading.
I ran out of room to keep leaving reviews about how much I liked this book!
September 1, 2017
My Rating: 5+++++++
This is a powerful, emotional and at times chilling roller coaster of a read. It is also a strong testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the power of love.
The book description gives a good insight into the premise of this book. However, it cannot encompass the sheer magnitude of how compelling it is. I was completely enthralled from beginning to end and hated being interrupted! All emotions were engaged from shock, anger, heartbreak and at times laughter. I was emotionally drained by the time I finished this book, but in a good way.
During the times I had to engage with the outer world, I would be thinking about all I had previously read, trying to figure out who had betrayed Darcy and where this story might possibly be heading.
Darcy's fate was hanging in the balance due to a fervor of greed, patriotism and revenge. Elizabeth was completely shattered with the news of Darcy's death which intensifies her regrets and guilt over him.
"With the ripple of his influence overspreading and flowing through even the farthest corner of my own life! And to be bereft of him - I can think of no more shattering loss. How is one to go on?"
Georgiana was devastated and her relatives where trying to gain control of her and her fortune. The only one protecting her was the Colonel, and he too was struggling with the loss of this dearest friend and cousin.
"Retreat is impossible, and I know this because I have tried it. There are only two choices; surrender or conquer."
Then there is Lydia, newly married to Wickham after Darcy's help in securing her somewhat questionable future. How all these characters deal with their losses and new found status will leave you reeling and cheering as the story unfolds. I was consumed!
But let's not forget the villains and suspects. There were many. When you thought things might be getting better, another roadblock or encounter would thwart those trying to protect those they love.
However, on top of this gripping story, is the writing...it is emotive and beautiful. Your senses are completely engaged and your heart is breaking as you feel the pain and frustration of each of these beloved characters.
I highly recommend this epic saga that will consume you and stay with you for a very long time.
I would like to note that the cover of this book, back and front, is gorgeous thanks to Janet Taylor. I would also like to thank Janet and Rita Deodato for inspiring Ms. Clarkston in writing this epic tale!
This is a powerful, emotional and at times chilling roller coaster of a read. It is also a strong testament to the resilience of the human spirit and the power of love.
The book description gives a good insight into the premise of this book. However, it cannot encompass the sheer magnitude of how compelling it is. I was completely enthralled from beginning to end and hated being interrupted! All emotions were engaged from shock, anger, heartbreak and at times laughter. I was emotionally drained by the time I finished this book, but in a good way.
During the times I had to engage with the outer world, I would be thinking about all I had previously read, trying to figure out who had betrayed Darcy and where this story might possibly be heading.
Darcy's fate was hanging in the balance due to a fervor of greed, patriotism and revenge. Elizabeth was completely shattered with the news of Darcy's death which intensifies her regrets and guilt over him.
"With the ripple of his influence overspreading and flowing through even the farthest corner of my own life! And to be bereft of him - I can think of no more shattering loss. How is one to go on?"
Georgiana was devastated and her relatives where trying to gain control of her and her fortune. The only one protecting her was the Colonel, and he too was struggling with the loss of this dearest friend and cousin.
"Retreat is impossible, and I know this because I have tried it. There are only two choices; surrender or conquer."
Then there is Lydia, newly married to Wickham after Darcy's help in securing her somewhat questionable future. How all these characters deal with their losses and new found status will leave you reeling and cheering as the story unfolds. I was consumed!
But let's not forget the villains and suspects. There were many. When you thought things might be getting better, another roadblock or encounter would thwart those trying to protect those they love.
However, on top of this gripping story, is the writing...it is emotive and beautiful. Your senses are completely engaged and your heart is breaking as you feel the pain and frustration of each of these beloved characters.
I highly recommend this epic saga that will consume you and stay with you for a very long time.
I would like to note that the cover of this book, back and front, is gorgeous thanks to Janet Taylor. I would also like to thank Janet and Rita Deodato for inspiring Ms. Clarkston in writing this epic tale!
April 4, 2019
Intense, very intense book.
Darcy’s death is faked and spirited away. Then tortured...a lot.
Georgina has rights to all of Pemberley. Her relations scheme to get it through her.
Lizzy and Darcy’s love cannot be broken, even though Lizzy thinks he is dead.
Just a great story. But I was unsatisfied how forgiving Darcy was toward his family.
I recommend this book highly.
Darcy’s death is faked and spirited away. Then tortured...a lot.
Georgina has rights to all of Pemberley. Her relations scheme to get it through her.
Lizzy and Darcy’s love cannot be broken, even though Lizzy thinks he is dead.
Just a great story. But I was unsatisfied how forgiving Darcy was toward his family.
I recommend this book highly.
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November 3, 2017Nicole Clarkston’s These Dreams, a variation of Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice, is a novel I was forced to savor because of my busy schedule, but really I wanted to devour it in one sitting. This was one of the most creative — and angsty — variations I’ve ever read. I loved all the twists and turns, and even though it was hard to see my favorite characters brought so low, Clarkston does a fantastic job getting into their heads.
These Dreams opens as Mr. Darcy is orchestrating the marriage of Lydia Bennet and Mr. Wickham, except he doesn’t show up for the wedding, which pains Elizabeth at a time when she thought they would have a second chance. Darcy is brutally captured as part of a complex scheme dating back generations, and his family and friends believe him to be dead. Both Darcy and Elizabeth are in dark, hopeless situations, grieving what might have been.
Meanwhile, Colonel Fitzwilliam finds himself in charge of Darcy’s estate and sole guardian of Darcy’s sister, Georgiana, who is heartbroken at the loss of her brother and pulled every which way by family members who believe they have her best interests — and that of the Darcy name and estate — at heart. Fitzwilliam enlists the help of Elizabeth to bring some light back into Georgiana’s life and help her take the reins as mistress of Pemberley, which makes it possible for him to investigate his cousin’s death and unravel the many threads to the conspiracy that ultimately rips the bandage off his wounded heart.
Clarkston did a great job crafting a multilayered story with chaos and possible scandal at every turn. It was impossible to know who to trust, and she handles the healing of these damaged souls in a tender and realistic manner. I loved how Clarkston forged a special bond between Elizabeth and her newly married sister Lydia, allowing them to find some common ground amid their trauma and giving more depth to a character who is usually written off as foolish and unrepentant. There also were plenty of intriguing original characters, especially Amália, who reminded me so much of Elizabeth in her outspokenness and strength.
I absolutely loved These Dreams, even though the pain she caused Darcy and Elizabeth was like a punch to the gut at times. I had no idea how it was going to play out, so I just went along for the ride, and it was so worth it. Trust me, Clarkston doesn’t make you suffer too, too long, and all that pain makes the outcome so much sweeter. Definitely a contender for my Best of 2017 list!
Review originally posted on Diary of an Eccentric
These Dreams opens as Mr. Darcy is orchestrating the marriage of Lydia Bennet and Mr. Wickham, except he doesn’t show up for the wedding, which pains Elizabeth at a time when she thought they would have a second chance. Darcy is brutally captured as part of a complex scheme dating back generations, and his family and friends believe him to be dead. Both Darcy and Elizabeth are in dark, hopeless situations, grieving what might have been.
Meanwhile, Colonel Fitzwilliam finds himself in charge of Darcy’s estate and sole guardian of Darcy’s sister, Georgiana, who is heartbroken at the loss of her brother and pulled every which way by family members who believe they have her best interests — and that of the Darcy name and estate — at heart. Fitzwilliam enlists the help of Elizabeth to bring some light back into Georgiana’s life and help her take the reins as mistress of Pemberley, which makes it possible for him to investigate his cousin’s death and unravel the many threads to the conspiracy that ultimately rips the bandage off his wounded heart.
Clarkston did a great job crafting a multilayered story with chaos and possible scandal at every turn. It was impossible to know who to trust, and she handles the healing of these damaged souls in a tender and realistic manner. I loved how Clarkston forged a special bond between Elizabeth and her newly married sister Lydia, allowing them to find some common ground amid their trauma and giving more depth to a character who is usually written off as foolish and unrepentant. There also were plenty of intriguing original characters, especially Amália, who reminded me so much of Elizabeth in her outspokenness and strength.
I absolutely loved These Dreams, even though the pain she caused Darcy and Elizabeth was like a punch to the gut at times. I had no idea how it was going to play out, so I just went along for the ride, and it was so worth it. Trust me, Clarkston doesn’t make you suffer too, too long, and all that pain makes the outcome so much sweeter. Definitely a contender for my Best of 2017 list!
Review originally posted on Diary of an Eccentric
February 21, 2019
Pride and Prejudice variation.
Unputdownable!
Heart-wrenching, beautifully written book that made my heart pound and my hands tremble while tears was streaming down my face. I absolutely loved it!
Securing Wickham's marriage to Lydia made Darcy venture into the seedier parts of London where he was attacked and shipped out to sea. His clothes was removed and put on another mans body, Darcy was pronounced dead.
Elizabeth's world spiralled into despair at the loss of the love she had not experience and never would. She only had her dreams that haunted her at night with vivid encounters with Mr Darcy...
Meanwhile, the colonel was hunting for Darcy's murders. Georgiana was battling with unwanted, overbearing relatives but found friendship in an unlikely source.
The story took me on a wild adventure of betrayal, greed, love and loss. Grabbed me from the first letter and held my attention in an iron grip throughout. A unique plot and an exquisite storytelling ability, placed this on the top my favourite pile.
Heartily recommend this book!
Unputdownable!
Heart-wrenching, beautifully written book that made my heart pound and my hands tremble while tears was streaming down my face. I absolutely loved it!
Securing Wickham's marriage to Lydia made Darcy venture into the seedier parts of London where he was attacked and shipped out to sea. His clothes was removed and put on another mans body, Darcy was pronounced dead.
Elizabeth's world spiralled into despair at the loss of the love she had not experience and never would. She only had her dreams that haunted her at night with vivid encounters with Mr Darcy...
Meanwhile, the colonel was hunting for Darcy's murders. Georgiana was battling with unwanted, overbearing relatives but found friendship in an unlikely source.
The story took me on a wild adventure of betrayal, greed, love and loss. Grabbed me from the first letter and held my attention in an iron grip throughout. A unique plot and an exquisite storytelling ability, placed this on the top my favourite pile.
Heartily recommend this book!
June 1, 2022
Could not put down!! I stayed up wayyy too late to finish this book. Loved it!
May 6, 2018
What If Mr. Darcy Disappeared the Day Before Lydia’s Wedding?
TYPE OF AUSTENESQUE NOVEL: Pride and Prejudice Variation
TIME FRAME: Begins the day before Wickham marries Lydia
SYNOPSIS: Just at the pivotal moment where Mr. Darcy begins to hope that all is not lost between him and Elizabeth Bennet, he is taken from London and presumed missing. What becomes of Lydia and Wickham – do they still marry? What about Georgiana and Pemberley – who will take care and guard both from greedy opportunists? What about Elizabeth Bennet – will she ever move on and forgive herself? But perhaps the most pressing question needing to be answered is who has taken Mr. Darcy and what do they want from him…
WHAT I LOVED:
- Bewitching and Intricate: Such a daring and unconventional premise! We’ve seen Darcy in peril before – captured or at the hands of nefarious individuals – but I don’t think I’ve come across many tales where he is pronounced dead. With a body confirmed, testimonies given, and a private funeral held, this variation has a most bleak and heart-wrenching beginning. But fortunately, our Colonel Fitzwilliam demands justice for cousin. And his search leads him to cherish a small and seemingly ludicrous hope. I loved how this story kept me guessing! Of course I knew that certain aspects had to resolve in such a way, but there were many twists on twists that I didn’t see coming. And yet I see how Ms. Clarkston dropped all these subtle hints along the way…
- Depths of Love: Oh, talk about soul-piercing! Forget half agony, half hope, this is full agony and no hope! Seeing Elizabeth mourn, fully realize her love, come to cherish Mr. Darcy’s love, and regret every moment of blindness and mistaken assumptions was quite an emotional experience. Agh!! Her devotion to Mr. Darcy and secret suffering wrenched my heart multiple times and brought tears streaming down my cheeks. I loved not just the intensity of Darcy’s and Elizabeth’s love for each other, but its depth. The strength of their love is unfathomable and unbreakable, and it is amazing to see how they drew such comfort and fortitude from their ardent love. Even in the midst of their despair and hopelessness.
- A Myriad of Emotions: Some may be hesitant to read this story knowing that it contains no small amount of angst and grief. However, despair and yearning are not the only emotions readers encounter in this sizable saga. There are loathsome and sinister villains to detest, family secrets that bewilder and arouse suspicion, heartwarming friendships to witness, eccentric behaviors to chuckle at, and enough action and adventure to hold you spellbound. I absolutely adored how Ms. Clarkston evoked so many strong and well-balanced emotions with her story.
- Countless Threads: As I showed in my synopsis there are so many questions needing answers in this tale. I love how Ms. Clarkston revealed the answers with excruciatingly slow deliberateness. 😉 And yet the pace of the story never felt slow because we were constantly switching from each characters’ perspective. The action of the story takes place all over and the key characters are numerous and widespread. The reader jumps from Longbourn to London, from Pemberley to Portugal countless times. I must commend Ms. Clarkston for interweaving these threads so skillfully. Her story created quite the intricate tapestry, and the multiple threads she entwined never felt overwhelming or unnecessary.
- Colonel Fitzwilliam: He is the true hero of this tale and I adored seeing his character fleshed out in this adventure. I loved that Ms. Clarkston gave this strong man of action a romantic story worthy of him, and his devotion to Darcy and Georgiana was heartwarming to witness.
- Lydia Wickham: Plucky Lydia comes into her own in this tale and I found her developing relationships with several characters delightfully surprising. I like when authors draw from some positive traits (confidence and quickness) she shares with her sister.
WHAT I WASN’T TOO FOND OF:
Oh, that this enthralling and epic saga came to an end. I wish it could have continued forever! 😉
NOTE: Since there are a few brief scenes of violence, a short scene of attempted sexual violence, and a few amorous embraces, I’d recommend this tale for Mature Audiences.
CONCLUSION:
In an exceptionally expressive, compelling, and mesmerizing tale, Nicole Clarkston presents a splendidly executed Pride and Prejudice adventure filled with romance, intrigue, history, danger, conspiracy, devotion, and hope. This outstanding and remarkable saga will consume and captivate you!
Austenesque Reviews
TYPE OF AUSTENESQUE NOVEL: Pride and Prejudice Variation
TIME FRAME: Begins the day before Wickham marries Lydia
SYNOPSIS: Just at the pivotal moment where Mr. Darcy begins to hope that all is not lost between him and Elizabeth Bennet, he is taken from London and presumed missing. What becomes of Lydia and Wickham – do they still marry? What about Georgiana and Pemberley – who will take care and guard both from greedy opportunists? What about Elizabeth Bennet – will she ever move on and forgive herself? But perhaps the most pressing question needing to be answered is who has taken Mr. Darcy and what do they want from him…
WHAT I LOVED:
- Bewitching and Intricate: Such a daring and unconventional premise! We’ve seen Darcy in peril before – captured or at the hands of nefarious individuals – but I don’t think I’ve come across many tales where he is pronounced dead. With a body confirmed, testimonies given, and a private funeral held, this variation has a most bleak and heart-wrenching beginning. But fortunately, our Colonel Fitzwilliam demands justice for cousin. And his search leads him to cherish a small and seemingly ludicrous hope. I loved how this story kept me guessing! Of course I knew that certain aspects had to resolve in such a way, but there were many twists on twists that I didn’t see coming. And yet I see how Ms. Clarkston dropped all these subtle hints along the way…
- Depths of Love: Oh, talk about soul-piercing! Forget half agony, half hope, this is full agony and no hope! Seeing Elizabeth mourn, fully realize her love, come to cherish Mr. Darcy’s love, and regret every moment of blindness and mistaken assumptions was quite an emotional experience. Agh!! Her devotion to Mr. Darcy and secret suffering wrenched my heart multiple times and brought tears streaming down my cheeks. I loved not just the intensity of Darcy’s and Elizabeth’s love for each other, but its depth. The strength of their love is unfathomable and unbreakable, and it is amazing to see how they drew such comfort and fortitude from their ardent love. Even in the midst of their despair and hopelessness.
- A Myriad of Emotions: Some may be hesitant to read this story knowing that it contains no small amount of angst and grief. However, despair and yearning are not the only emotions readers encounter in this sizable saga. There are loathsome and sinister villains to detest, family secrets that bewilder and arouse suspicion, heartwarming friendships to witness, eccentric behaviors to chuckle at, and enough action and adventure to hold you spellbound. I absolutely adored how Ms. Clarkston evoked so many strong and well-balanced emotions with her story.
- Countless Threads: As I showed in my synopsis there are so many questions needing answers in this tale. I love how Ms. Clarkston revealed the answers with excruciatingly slow deliberateness. 😉 And yet the pace of the story never felt slow because we were constantly switching from each characters’ perspective. The action of the story takes place all over and the key characters are numerous and widespread. The reader jumps from Longbourn to London, from Pemberley to Portugal countless times. I must commend Ms. Clarkston for interweaving these threads so skillfully. Her story created quite the intricate tapestry, and the multiple threads she entwined never felt overwhelming or unnecessary.
- Colonel Fitzwilliam: He is the true hero of this tale and I adored seeing his character fleshed out in this adventure. I loved that Ms. Clarkston gave this strong man of action a romantic story worthy of him, and his devotion to Darcy and Georgiana was heartwarming to witness.
- Lydia Wickham: Plucky Lydia comes into her own in this tale and I found her developing relationships with several characters delightfully surprising. I like when authors draw from some positive traits (confidence and quickness) she shares with her sister.
WHAT I WASN’T TOO FOND OF:
Oh, that this enthralling and epic saga came to an end. I wish it could have continued forever! 😉
NOTE: Since there are a few brief scenes of violence, a short scene of attempted sexual violence, and a few amorous embraces, I’d recommend this tale for Mature Audiences.
CONCLUSION:
In an exceptionally expressive, compelling, and mesmerizing tale, Nicole Clarkston presents a splendidly executed Pride and Prejudice adventure filled with romance, intrigue, history, danger, conspiracy, devotion, and hope. This outstanding and remarkable saga will consume and captivate you!
Austenesque Reviews
September 17, 2019
These Dreams: A Price & Prejudice Variation.
Nicole Clarkston completely outdid herself with this story. Absolutely one of the very best Pride and Prejudice Variation stories I have ever read. Completely captures your complete attention from the first page to the last! Fitzwilliam Darcy is kidnapped by cruel men and hustled off to Portugal, presumed dead, and Lizzie suffers along with him, in a profound, supernatural kind of communication. Every happening in this story is so smooth, so cleverly put together, you cannot bear to put it down. Once you finish it, you have to go back and read it over again! Great Read, not to be missed.
Nicole Clarkston completely outdid herself with this story. Absolutely one of the very best Pride and Prejudice Variation stories I have ever read. Completely captures your complete attention from the first page to the last! Fitzwilliam Darcy is kidnapped by cruel men and hustled off to Portugal, presumed dead, and Lizzie suffers along with him, in a profound, supernatural kind of communication. Every happening in this story is so smooth, so cleverly put together, you cannot bear to put it down. Once you finish it, you have to go back and read it over again! Great Read, not to be missed.
September 27, 2017
Oh man. The angst in this story. I could not put this book down as it was that riveting. I felt for our dear couple as they had to face trials far away from each other and then once again when they were finally reunited. Ms. Clarkston proves yet again why she is a superb storyteller and one of the queens of JAFF. I will definitely read this book again in the future.
Rating: 4 ½ stars out of 5
Rating: 4 ½ stars out of 5
January 21, 2025
A Favorite
I read this book back in 2018, and before I started leaving reviews. Since I just finished the Audible version, I figured it was past time to write that review. As a side note, this book was the first Pride and Prejudice variation I ever read and it led to my discovery of Jane Austen fan fiction. I haven’t stopped reading since—hundreds and hundreds, in fact. I won’t give a book summary or description. There are more than plenty of those. My review is more about how this book made me feel—the many emotions I experienced while reading and listening to it.
There is much to love about this book. First, it’s very well written, without distracting proofreading errors. It has an outstanding plot, which captured my interest from the first to the last page (including the bonus chapter provided at the end). There is hardly an emotion by which the reader is not touched, especially those that effect the heart. There is plenty of angst, fear, anger, perceived and real betrayals, distrust and hope, heroism, and heartbreaking events that make you ache in compassion for the protagonists, and scream for justice—especially for Darcy. Oh, what that poor man experiences!
Throughout it all, there is a connection between Darcy and Elizabeth that is never broken, even though they believe they are both lost to one another forever. Lydia and Georgiana become friends, and Richard never gives up. We are treated to his love story as well.
This is definitely a book that demands a “tissue alert”! I cried big at times (I’m soft-hearted), and listening to the audiobook version amplified the way it all touched my heart. What a love story! The dialogue by all characters is very good, but the expressions by Elizabeth and Darcy are particularly excellent.
With maybe a little bias since it was my first, this book and Nicole Clarkston remain in my top five favorites list in this genre. I can’t recommend this book and author enough, and also highly recommend the audiobook as well.
I read this book back in 2018, and before I started leaving reviews. Since I just finished the Audible version, I figured it was past time to write that review. As a side note, this book was the first Pride and Prejudice variation I ever read and it led to my discovery of Jane Austen fan fiction. I haven’t stopped reading since—hundreds and hundreds, in fact. I won’t give a book summary or description. There are more than plenty of those. My review is more about how this book made me feel—the many emotions I experienced while reading and listening to it.
There is much to love about this book. First, it’s very well written, without distracting proofreading errors. It has an outstanding plot, which captured my interest from the first to the last page (including the bonus chapter provided at the end). There is hardly an emotion by which the reader is not touched, especially those that effect the heart. There is plenty of angst, fear, anger, perceived and real betrayals, distrust and hope, heroism, and heartbreaking events that make you ache in compassion for the protagonists, and scream for justice—especially for Darcy. Oh, what that poor man experiences!
Throughout it all, there is a connection between Darcy and Elizabeth that is never broken, even though they believe they are both lost to one another forever. Lydia and Georgiana become friends, and Richard never gives up. We are treated to his love story as well.
This is definitely a book that demands a “tissue alert”! I cried big at times (I’m soft-hearted), and listening to the audiobook version amplified the way it all touched my heart. What a love story! The dialogue by all characters is very good, but the expressions by Elizabeth and Darcy are particularly excellent.
With maybe a little bias since it was my first, this book and Nicole Clarkston remain in my top five favorites list in this genre. I can’t recommend this book and author enough, and also highly recommend the audiobook as well.
January 30, 2018
4.5 stars. Great plot with a very well thought out mystery.
October 15, 2018
I hesitated about burrowing this book because I am not a fan of angst. I read through some trusted reviewers and I became intrigued. I love a vulnerable h/H and so I bit the bullet and started. I did take breaks here and there for my own piece of mind. It had chilling moments seeing Darcy tortured and kept in darkness.
I loved watching him suffering from PTSD and Lizzy helping him through. The colonels loyalty to his cousin and fetching Elizabeth to help him get through the night. It was so romantic and humanizing to witness their love for the other.
The colonel also had his own love story throughout and there is a bonus chapter dedicated to him. I wish that we would have had an epilogue further down the road. I wanted to see the colonel a father. I loved the take on his portrayal as well as Mr.Bennet, Georgiana, even Lydia showed maturity which is rarely shown. There are more complete reviews that give much more detail and worth reading before hand. Enjoy!
I loved watching him suffering from PTSD and Lizzy helping him through. The colonels loyalty to his cousin and fetching Elizabeth to help him get through the night. It was so romantic and humanizing to witness their love for the other.
The colonel also had his own love story throughout and there is a bonus chapter dedicated to him. I wish that we would have had an epilogue further down the road. I wanted to see the colonel a father. I loved the take on his portrayal as well as Mr.Bennet, Georgiana, even Lydia showed maturity which is rarely shown. There are more complete reviews that give much more detail and worth reading before hand. Enjoy!
December 4, 2017
Several stories woven into one, so it is a bit taxing to read and has inevitable slow sections. Well executed in spite of this, yet still much too long for its intention. A few modernisms in the Regency prose, which otherwise is well done. I would not hesitate to read more by this author as I like everything she writes in JAFF.
May 10, 2018
A great saga that takes our beloved Darcy to Portugal as a prisoner. However Elizabeth and all his family believe him dead. A mystery of why and how unfolds as to his kidnapping—but how will he ever make it back to England? This totally out of the box reimagining takes its time developing characters we recognize from “Pride and Prejudice” as well as the many new key figures, and does not disappoint when the happily ever after does come. 4.5 stars
October 2, 2017
They already are very good reviews about this book. I just want to recommend this book to all Pride and prejudice lovers. This long story doesn't follow Jane Austen's book but relate another story with all our favorites characters plus some more. I would like point the beautiful cover of this book, bravo. If I could I will give more stars to this book.
October 9, 2017
In this variation crime, love, history, family, legacy, mystery, religion, conspiracy meets. Not a rushed, patched up story where the author gives a little bit of everything for the sake of a good story, but it is a very well developed, well-thought-out story, where everything and everyone has its place and part. The book is longer than usual, but the story requires the length. It has at least 3 action threads which eventually come together and lead to the solution. In the first 20%-30% of the book, you might think that a few things you read is a subplot, but it will become vital for the grand finalé.
When I made notes for the review, I have realised that I put a few hearts in the end of a couple of notes. My “hearts” were behind the notes on conversations. In the beginning of the book there is a very heart-breaking conversation between Jane and Lizzy (one of the bests I’ve read); not long after that the conversation between Lizzy and Caroline Bingley is priceless (very funny and entertaining), then towards the end of the book we have Darcy and Lydia’s conversation which is the mixture of the previous two. Darcy being Darcy with his awkwardness and Lydia being herself this dialogue is funny, clumsy, emotional and a clever touch from Ms Clarkston. I have to say, the author knows how to write perfect dialogues.
Ms Clarkston characters are rather interesting. There is Amália, Lady Catherine, Wickham and Mrs Annesley I would mention. Mrs Annesley is full of surprises, Amália is the “person” I hated at the beginning of the story, then something clicked or changed and I started to like her. At the end of the book, it turned out that she became one of my favourite characters. I’m beyond words with Lady Catherine… If you think she is overbearing in Pride and Prejudice or other JAFF books, you will find her more than that at here. I hated her with a passion and wanted to throw a book at the author. At the same time I like- well, more like feel for – Lady C in the end. And then there is Mr Wickham… Just like with Her Ladyship… I had hated him, and then I fell for his lies and by the end I almost like him or forgive him.
I find the scenes where Elizabeth is dreaming, hallucinating or thinking of Mr Darcy are the most clever, well-written, most heart-breaking and powerful scenes. As bad as it sounds, seeing Elizabeth suffering inside and her dealing with madness, grief, and qualm is more distressing and touching than watching Darcy suffer physically. Most of the time Elizabeth and Darcy are apart, but their love is so energetic, that you don’t realise or are not bothered by the fact. Especially that the author makes it up for the time spent apart and when they are together it is quality time.
Ms Clarkston did a brilliant job with These Dreams and I definitely recommend it especially that I hadn’t read anything like this before. I have always longed to read a book where 2 regency worlds meet: England and Portugal here. It is a very emotional book, prepare yourself. Because it is so disturbing, I couldn’t read it in one go. You might need time to process some of the scenes.
When I made notes for the review, I have realised that I put a few hearts in the end of a couple of notes. My “hearts” were behind the notes on conversations. In the beginning of the book there is a very heart-breaking conversation between Jane and Lizzy (one of the bests I’ve read); not long after that the conversation between Lizzy and Caroline Bingley is priceless (very funny and entertaining), then towards the end of the book we have Darcy and Lydia’s conversation which is the mixture of the previous two. Darcy being Darcy with his awkwardness and Lydia being herself this dialogue is funny, clumsy, emotional and a clever touch from Ms Clarkston. I have to say, the author knows how to write perfect dialogues.
Ms Clarkston characters are rather interesting. There is Amália, Lady Catherine, Wickham and Mrs Annesley I would mention. Mrs Annesley is full of surprises, Amália is the “person” I hated at the beginning of the story, then something clicked or changed and I started to like her. At the end of the book, it turned out that she became one of my favourite characters. I’m beyond words with Lady Catherine… If you think she is overbearing in Pride and Prejudice or other JAFF books, you will find her more than that at here. I hated her with a passion and wanted to throw a book at the author. At the same time I like- well, more like feel for – Lady C in the end. And then there is Mr Wickham… Just like with Her Ladyship… I had hated him, and then I fell for his lies and by the end I almost like him or forgive him.
I find the scenes where Elizabeth is dreaming, hallucinating or thinking of Mr Darcy are the most clever, well-written, most heart-breaking and powerful scenes. As bad as it sounds, seeing Elizabeth suffering inside and her dealing with madness, grief, and qualm is more distressing and touching than watching Darcy suffer physically. Most of the time Elizabeth and Darcy are apart, but their love is so energetic, that you don’t realise or are not bothered by the fact. Especially that the author makes it up for the time spent apart and when they are together it is quality time.
Ms Clarkston did a brilliant job with These Dreams and I definitely recommend it especially that I hadn’t read anything like this before. I have always longed to read a book where 2 regency worlds meet: England and Portugal here. It is a very emotional book, prepare yourself. Because it is so disturbing, I couldn’t read it in one go. You might need time to process some of the scenes.
June 6, 2021
Awww
Such an amazing story. For a while there I thought everyone was working cross purposes towards each other but it all worked out in the end.
Such an amazing story. For a while there I thought everyone was working cross purposes towards each other but it all worked out in the end.
March 1, 2018
These Dreams is unequivocally, one of the best books I have ever read. It left me thinking about it for days. The author wrote a story that vividly portrays love, heartache, agony, feelings of betrayal, desperation, fear, joy, hope, romance, oh, the romance, and so much more. The narrative moved along at a steady pace, and there was nothing artificial in the solutions to the plot twists. It kept me on the edge of my seat, experiencing a multitude of emotions.
The story begins with Darcy arranging the marriage of Wickham and Lydia. While doing a kindness to an unknown person, he is knocked unconscious, kidnapped, and transported to Portugal. A body, found in the streets and dressed in Darcy’s clothes, leads his family to believe he is dead! This was such a difficult part, and I could hardly wait for answers. Thankfully, we are quick to learn that he lives, but his family is not as fortunate as the reader.
The one thing that keeps Darcy going is Elizabeth. No matter how horribly he is treated, no matter how alone he feels, he has hope in the darkest of those moments. He sees Elizabeth in his dreams, he hears her in his thoughts, and he feels her touch.
Elizabeth, in despair of all that could have been, grieves for the loss of the best man she has ever known. Her feelings for Darcy had changed but she had not the opportunity to tell him. That alone, increases her anguish thinking he never knew of her love. Life for Lizzy becomes almost unbearable. Lizzy’s only comfort comes in her dreams, asleep or awake. There she hears and sees Darcy. She feels his arms around her. She talks with him. What can this mean? Is she losing her mind?
The deep emotions that both Darcy and Lizzy experience and the unfathomable love they share, connect them in a way that is poignant and thrilling. I shed tears many times as these scenes evoked strong feeling and touched me deeply. They were tormenting and enchanting at the same time.
Colonel Fitzwilliam cannot get past the feeling that Darcy lives. Thankfully, he never gives up his quest for the truth. At Colonel Fitzwilliams’ request, Elizabeth stays with Georgiana at Pemberley, and Lydia tags along. Lydia is a light spot in this tale and totally unpredictable. She was refreshing and fun. In the search for what happened to Darcy, dear Colonel Fitzwilliam meets up with his past. What a thrill it was to have him play such a leading role. At times, he stole the show and it was delightful!
When Darcy makes his way back to England, the author allows Darcy time to heal, to learn to trust again, to regain his strength of character, his physical strength, and once again, to be the Darcy who is ready to fight for those he loves and for what is his. Watching him go from near broken back to confident and strong because of love, was both heart-wrenching and inspirational. The story comes full circle when the author reveals the who and the why of Darcy’s capture and imprisonment, bringing a satisfying conclusion to an awesome novel.
Nicole Clarkston was not afraid to tackle a tough premise, and she did it skillfully, with ease and authenticity. The story flows and never skips a beat. I didn’t want to put it down. If you have yet to read These Dreams, I cannot recommend it highly enough. Get it and read it as soon as you can. It is a book you will not soon forget. Well done, Nicole Clarkston!
The story begins with Darcy arranging the marriage of Wickham and Lydia. While doing a kindness to an unknown person, he is knocked unconscious, kidnapped, and transported to Portugal. A body, found in the streets and dressed in Darcy’s clothes, leads his family to believe he is dead! This was such a difficult part, and I could hardly wait for answers. Thankfully, we are quick to learn that he lives, but his family is not as fortunate as the reader.
The one thing that keeps Darcy going is Elizabeth. No matter how horribly he is treated, no matter how alone he feels, he has hope in the darkest of those moments. He sees Elizabeth in his dreams, he hears her in his thoughts, and he feels her touch.
Elizabeth, in despair of all that could have been, grieves for the loss of the best man she has ever known. Her feelings for Darcy had changed but she had not the opportunity to tell him. That alone, increases her anguish thinking he never knew of her love. Life for Lizzy becomes almost unbearable. Lizzy’s only comfort comes in her dreams, asleep or awake. There she hears and sees Darcy. She feels his arms around her. She talks with him. What can this mean? Is she losing her mind?
The deep emotions that both Darcy and Lizzy experience and the unfathomable love they share, connect them in a way that is poignant and thrilling. I shed tears many times as these scenes evoked strong feeling and touched me deeply. They were tormenting and enchanting at the same time.
Colonel Fitzwilliam cannot get past the feeling that Darcy lives. Thankfully, he never gives up his quest for the truth. At Colonel Fitzwilliams’ request, Elizabeth stays with Georgiana at Pemberley, and Lydia tags along. Lydia is a light spot in this tale and totally unpredictable. She was refreshing and fun. In the search for what happened to Darcy, dear Colonel Fitzwilliam meets up with his past. What a thrill it was to have him play such a leading role. At times, he stole the show and it was delightful!
When Darcy makes his way back to England, the author allows Darcy time to heal, to learn to trust again, to regain his strength of character, his physical strength, and once again, to be the Darcy who is ready to fight for those he loves and for what is his. Watching him go from near broken back to confident and strong because of love, was both heart-wrenching and inspirational. The story comes full circle when the author reveals the who and the why of Darcy’s capture and imprisonment, bringing a satisfying conclusion to an awesome novel.
Nicole Clarkston was not afraid to tackle a tough premise, and she did it skillfully, with ease and authenticity. The story flows and never skips a beat. I didn’t want to put it down. If you have yet to read These Dreams, I cannot recommend it highly enough. Get it and read it as soon as you can. It is a book you will not soon forget. Well done, Nicole Clarkston!
June 9, 2020
I can hardly believe that I read over 700 pages in 3 days but, as other reviewers have stated, I couldn’t put this book down. This P&P variation begins in London just as Darcy has finished negotiating the marriage of Wickham and Lydia. They are to wed the next day with Darcy and the Gardiners as witnesses. But Darcy doesn’t make it to the wedding, he has been attacked and kidnapped. The story varies greatly from cannon but is brimming with action and angst. However, it’s not all action. There is ample time for relationships and reflection. All of the usual characters are present and accounted for, some taking on decidedly different roles. I liked nearly everything about this story.
November 28, 2017
I agree almost 100% with other reviewers. This is a very high quality JAFF with a lot of unique spins on the story starting when Darcy is arranging Lydia's marriage to Wickham in a less than desirable part of London. Darcy is attacked and presumed dead, although actually kidnapped and taken by someone looking for revenge and financial gain.
The Darcy and Fitzwilliam familys are thrown into chaos and terrible grief. Georgiana does not know where to turn and who to listen to. Elizabeth is devastated and inconsolable. Lydia is abandoned by Wickham. Colonel Fitzwilliam begins to question everything.
Meanwhile, Darcy is held captive and unceasingly questioned on something of which he has no knowledge. His only hope to retain his sanity are his thoughts of a possible life with Elizabeth when he gets home to England. But, will he?
The author has created a history for the Darcy's and Fitzwilliam's that leave Darcy with an unrealized enemy and consequences he will suffer in their name, despite his innocence and ignorance. Past experiences of Colonel Fitzwilliam heavily come into play as he becomes a very central character seeking answers. This intricate story takes the reader to Portugal, to Pemberley and back in time with a puzzle to be solved, wrongs to be righted and actions to be taken. And, of course, love to be won or lost.
One criticism, however: I did find some of the passages became unnecessarily long at times. My rating is really a 4 1/2 rounded up to 5 because it could have used a bit of editing. Otherwise, I loved it. But, I ocassionally found myself skipping over passages.
I highly recommend These Dreams and I look forward to more from this Nicole Clarkston.
The Darcy and Fitzwilliam familys are thrown into chaos and terrible grief. Georgiana does not know where to turn and who to listen to. Elizabeth is devastated and inconsolable. Lydia is abandoned by Wickham. Colonel Fitzwilliam begins to question everything.
Meanwhile, Darcy is held captive and unceasingly questioned on something of which he has no knowledge. His only hope to retain his sanity are his thoughts of a possible life with Elizabeth when he gets home to England. But, will he?
The author has created a history for the Darcy's and Fitzwilliam's that leave Darcy with an unrealized enemy and consequences he will suffer in their name, despite his innocence and ignorance. Past experiences of Colonel Fitzwilliam heavily come into play as he becomes a very central character seeking answers. This intricate story takes the reader to Portugal, to Pemberley and back in time with a puzzle to be solved, wrongs to be righted and actions to be taken. And, of course, love to be won or lost.
One criticism, however: I did find some of the passages became unnecessarily long at times. My rating is really a 4 1/2 rounded up to 5 because it could have used a bit of editing. Otherwise, I loved it. But, I ocassionally found myself skipping over passages.
I highly recommend These Dreams and I look forward to more from this Nicole Clarkston.
December 6, 2017
This is not your typical Pride and Prejudice variation. Just after Lydia and Wickham's wedding, Darcy is found dead and this sets off a chain of reactions. Joyful Elizabeth is caught in melancholy so deep even her father is frightened. She feels connected to him through her dreams. Georgiana is now the heiress of Pemberly and Richard Fitzwilliam is her sole guardian. He is determined to discover what happened to Darcy who is, of course not dead, but kidnapped! The deed to land in Portugal is the lynchpin to a mystery causing havoc in 2 countries.
The author does an amazing job with the twists and turns of the story. The emotions expressed between the couples is torturous and wonderful. The story is long but keeps your attention.
The author does an amazing job with the twists and turns of the story. The emotions expressed between the couples is torturous and wonderful. The story is long but keeps your attention.
January 14, 2019
Loved this variation! Definitely was a nail-biter at parts, and kept me up late reading!
My only complaint is that the actual "dreams" part was a bit weird. I mean the concept was fine, but when they saw each other in their dreams they never spoke of anything substantial - like "hey...I am alive, btw, just stuck in a cell being tortured". All they ever spoke of was their love for each other. Which is great, but I felt like there was a missed opportunity there.
Also, Darcy was annoying about halfway through the book, but it doesn't last too long.
But overall, this was a fantastic variation! I definitely recommend!
My only complaint is that the actual "dreams" part was a bit weird. I mean the concept was fine, but when they saw each other in their dreams they never spoke of anything substantial - like "hey...I am alive, btw, just stuck in a cell being tortured". All they ever spoke of was their love for each other. Which is great, but I felt like there was a missed opportunity there.
Also, Darcy was annoying about halfway through the book, but it doesn't last too long.
But overall, this was a fantastic variation! I definitely recommend!
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