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I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction
A collection of poetry about depression, survival, and healing: featuring "Self-Love Manifesto" an inspirational poem that became viral on Tumblr which explores what it truly means to fall in love with your being.
164 pages, Paperback
Published June 16, 2018
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About the author
Juansen Dizon
3 books140 followersJuansen Ryne Dizon is a poet and a dreamer. He is a lone wolf and loves to be in solitude and hopes to live in nature where he can kiss the beauty of existence with his words. His work explores the themes of depression, hope, healing, romance, and the love for life.
Juansen lost his life when he fell into depression when he was nineteen years old and lived in isolation where he discovered his love for writing poetry as a means to calm him from being tormented by his demons.
His best friends and family describe him as soft-hearted and sweet, and when he cannot contain the love he feels for you, he will invite you for a dance as his way of saying thank you for being in my life.
Juansen lost his life when he fell into depression when he was nineteen years old and lived in isolation where he discovered his love for writing poetry as a means to calm him from being tormented by his demons.
His best friends and family describe him as soft-hearted and sweet, and when he cannot contain the love he feels for you, he will invite you for a dance as his way of saying thank you for being in my life.
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August 29, 2018
Darkness and light. Spring and Winter. Hope and Disappointment. Rain and Fire.
``I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction`` is a passionately written poetry collection about dark emotions, attempts of self-care, love and everything a soul might endure and go through. Once you start reading, you cannot stop and get more and more deeply into the writing with every page. I was a little sad when it was over. You understand what the author’s feeling and you understand yourself a little better – it’ll enrich your empathy. This book will surely leave its imprint on your way of thinking about certain issues especially when it comes to the pain of growing up. Reading this book is not only time well spent but also an investment in your soul. I suggest you to read it.
``I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction`` is a passionately written poetry collection about dark emotions, attempts of self-care, love and everything a soul might endure and go through. Once you start reading, you cannot stop and get more and more deeply into the writing with every page. I was a little sad when it was over. You understand what the author’s feeling and you understand yourself a little better – it’ll enrich your empathy. This book will surely leave its imprint on your way of thinking about certain issues especially when it comes to the pain of growing up. Reading this book is not only time well spent but also an investment in your soul. I suggest you to read it.
July 31, 2018
This is the second collection of poetry and prose that this author has come out with and I can honestly say that he has outdone his first collection. I innately relate to a lot of what the author wrote in this. He said things I’ve felt, but could never put into words. In my opinion, this is best read at 3AM when you can’t sleep and your thoughts are keeping you up. That’s what I did, and it was musingly powerful. “Healing” is my favorite chapter of the four. All-inclusive, it was a great second collection and I’m glad I get to support this independent author.
September 27, 2018
A beautiful collection of poems that speaks volumes to the emotions... full of hope, love and self healing. I always enjoy this author's works and this collection was by far, undisputedly great. Beautiful work Juansen.
June 21, 2018
I hope you guys loved it. ✿ Wishing you all hope, love, and healing. ✨
September 13, 2018
I Am the Architect of My Own Destruction is Juansen Dizon's second book of poetry. The book opens with a letter to the reader, which begins "It’s hard to write when you want to kill yourself. It’s harder when you don’t really know the reason as to why." Throughout the book I felt like I as a reader was being directly spoken to.
The poems capture the darkness and depth of mental illness, and often I was left thinking wow, that's exactly how I have felt. Thoughts of suicide are shared in a way that feels very genuine and non-triggering. The book touches on a range of topics including body image and the difficulty of self-love. Along with the difficult part of mental illness, Juansen also writes about healing and happiness. This provides a good balance to some of the darker poems.
Many of the poems were quite short, which I really appreciated because as I was reading the book depression was doing a number on my concentration. Some are only one line, but carry profound meaning in those few words, like Numb and Casket. I was impressed by the emotional depth that could be captured in just a few words.
The book explores love and navigating relationships, and how challenging this can be when in the depths of mental illness. Juansen clearly bares his soul as he writes about this. The book also includes touching letters to his girlfriend and his brother.
I particularly liked the one-line poem Seraphim: "Melancholy is an angel that fell in love with a demon." Another favourite was Warriors, which talks about the strength it can take to stay alive.
This book carries the reader on a poetic journey into the author's mind and heart, giving an intimate look at the experience of mental illness. The poems are very accessible, in the sense that even people who don't normally read much poetry would likely find it easy to engage with this book. It's well worth checking out.
Note: I was provided with a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
The poems capture the darkness and depth of mental illness, and often I was left thinking wow, that's exactly how I have felt. Thoughts of suicide are shared in a way that feels very genuine and non-triggering. The book touches on a range of topics including body image and the difficulty of self-love. Along with the difficult part of mental illness, Juansen also writes about healing and happiness. This provides a good balance to some of the darker poems.
Many of the poems were quite short, which I really appreciated because as I was reading the book depression was doing a number on my concentration. Some are only one line, but carry profound meaning in those few words, like Numb and Casket. I was impressed by the emotional depth that could be captured in just a few words.
The book explores love and navigating relationships, and how challenging this can be when in the depths of mental illness. Juansen clearly bares his soul as he writes about this. The book also includes touching letters to his girlfriend and his brother.
I particularly liked the one-line poem Seraphim: "Melancholy is an angel that fell in love with a demon." Another favourite was Warriors, which talks about the strength it can take to stay alive.
This book carries the reader on a poetic journey into the author's mind and heart, giving an intimate look at the experience of mental illness. The poems are very accessible, in the sense that even people who don't normally read much poetry would likely find it easy to engage with this book. It's well worth checking out.
Note: I was provided with a free copy of this book in exchange for an honest review.
August 11, 2018
I have to say, I didn't know if the first collection could be matched, but it was only a fleeting thought, having read Juansen's work before the books, I knew there was a wellspring of creativity in this man that will not run dry for many long decades, thankfully.
Although driven by a sad but all to often hidden but common issue, the fact that he addresses it directly and honestly is the saving of a mind that so needs preserving and developing in all its glory. I am thankful that I don't have to go through the difficult times and reading his magical words makes me even more so every time. Congratulations again and keep working on the next one !
Although driven by a sad but all to often hidden but common issue, the fact that he addresses it directly and honestly is the saving of a mind that so needs preserving and developing in all its glory. I am thankful that I don't have to go through the difficult times and reading his magical words makes me even more so every time. Congratulations again and keep working on the next one !
August 7, 2018
A jewel of a book from a jewel of a man. Juansen Dizon writes a heartfelt, sometimes heart-wrenching series of poems and prose of the depressing sort. Some are love letters, some are pieces of a soul. Each is very intimate. The total effect is of having met someone in their own shoes, moving through life somewhere out there, and you get a window-glimpse into his life. It's a life I hope will continue to record itself in many future books.
September 11, 2018
Amazing. I could relate to every word that was in these poems. Before I even started the book I was hit in the face of reality in the quotes on the dedication page. Unreal. I'm glad they write this book, now I'm going to back track and read the first one. I'm sure I love it that same as I did this one. Probably inspired me to learn to love myself. To heal by myself to get better. Thank you, Juansen Dizon. Thank you.
September 25, 2018
This is the kind of book you read late at night in bed when it's quiet and you want to be alone with your thoughts for a while. It's essentially a collection of short poems about depression, love and all of lifes emotional ups and downs. What I loved most about it is that its the kind of book any person could pick up and read and find at least one poem to relate to. Its sad but at the same time wonderfully optimistic. A good solid read - I highly recommend it.
October 3, 2018
Juansens writing is powerful and touching. His theme is very much similar to Rupi Kaurs and as such - a few short sentences or phrases is enough to catch your heart and feel the pain he’s intending to portray. Each word is precise and carefully placed making it technically easy to read and understand yet full of meaning. I would 100% recommend to anyone whether they understand or don’t understand the grasp that mental illness can have on someone.
August 5, 2018
I absolutely love this book. Juansen Dizon is one of my favorite poets on Tumblr, I can't say enough wonderful things to convince you to read his work. There's beauty in his words, but also so much honesty an openness about things that many people shy away from. Read his work, you'll find part of yourself in there somewhere.
August 9, 2018
A good read. Full of lovely poignant words. Must be the reason why it took me so long to read this because I'm trying to avoid anything that deals with sadness and feelings. But this one is worth checking out.
November 11, 2018
This book is amazing! I love the poetry and Juansen Dizon makes it lovely!
February 5, 2019
Juansen is a brilliant writer and I love how he can touch my heart in an inexplicable way.
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June 14, 2022
This really resonated with me and I devoured every word in one sitting. I've felt all these same feelings and it feels so comforting to know that others feel these feelings, too.
September 13, 2018
to be honest as one of the people who has a mental illness, reading poems is one of those ways to overcome my depression and my anxiety and also i am really into poetry. i am also writing as the author does. i do really related upon these written poems and about how the author really feel about his mental state or illness.
August 28, 2018
Must read books who are suffering from depression, anxieties,etc.. it will ease your mind and soul too..Go for it.. thanks juansen for this wonderful creation...
September 27, 2018
I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction made me think of my own experiences with love, self hate, self love, mental illness, and many others. It brought back good and bad memories, and it made me wonder how I could do better to love myself and to start healing. It is wonderfully written and has many, many beautiful poems.
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