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291 pages, Paperback
First published January 5, 2010
He sucked her tongue and then broke off to kiss her jawline, down her neck, and to her nipples, tugging hard on each ring there, just the way she liked it.
“Let me taste her before you fuck her.” Todd rolled toward them.
“Greedy bastard. You just came,” Ben teased
it was nice to know that after two years of having sex with no one but her hand or her toys, her libido could still rev up at the sight of something so spectacularly male.
Raven, the woman he’d once loved until she’d broken his heart, and then he’d come to like her and realized like was better. Safer.
“Anytime. Momma says we’re part of a community, and community means you help each other.”
“This is exclusive?” Erin looked to Raven, who sat on the other side of the yard. Raven wasn’t Brody’s girlfriend, hadn’t been for years, but they occasionally slept together, or had in the past, and Erin wondered how strong Brody’s feelings still were for their friend.
They shook hands and it was fine, but Elise’s internal radar was flashing red. This was a woman who’d meant something to him once. Still did, if her presence meant anything, and she had no reason to doubt that. The people there were close-knit.
Great, probably an ex- or not so ex-girlfriend.
“So have you retired your bachelor shoes?” Raven’s tone was mocking as she leaned back against the counter, watching him. “No. We’re not going steady. But I’m an adult and I can like the people I’m with. I prefer it that way.” Raven snorted. “You’ll get over it when the novelty wears off.”
“Where was her father during all this? Staring at a canvas while you did all the work? God, sometimes men are such lazy assholes. They can spot a doormat a mile away. He had your number,” Raven said.
“I’ve known Raven for about fifteen years now. She is who she is. You can’t make her anything else.” He shrugged.
She shook her head. “Oh, no way. She’s important to you, clearly an ex of some sort on some level. This is a no-win for me.”
“Even the most well-adjusted woman on the planet would be weirded out by the constant inclusion of the exgirlfriend of the man she’s seeing. It’s petty, I admit it.”
“Where I had all this stuff anchoring me—family, a job, a community—Raven didn’t. She was a free spirit and I couldn’t get enough. She was everything I couldn’t be.
I fell and I fell hard. She told me not to. She told me that she wasn’t into longterm exclusive relationships. And when it came to it, she cheated. Well, not really cheated; she fucked someone else and didn’t hide it. To her, hiding it would have made it cheating.”
So you can probably guess I didn’t end it. I kept at it for a few years on and off. It broke me, or I let it break me. Whatever. But when Adele was killed, she came and ran my shop for months. She refused to let me pay her anything but straight commission. She handled everything up here. She stepped in during the hardest time of my life and she gave me exactly what I needed.
“So she’s just, well she’s just Raven. She’s not perfect. She’s not even likeable half the time. But she stood up for me and my loved ones when we needed it most. She’s been an amazing friend to Erin through all she’s gone through. She’s special to me, but I don’t make the mistake of not knowing exactly what she is and what she’s capable of. She’s not selfish, not really.”
Raven had come on to him at Thanksgiving, and no, she hadn’t understood his promise to Elise. Part of him had been very sad that she’d wanted him to break a promise to anyone else. He’d said no, and Raven would be out of Seattle for a while, but Elise Sorenson was a very smart lady.
“Like I need to play on the Wii when you’re there willing to fuck me. Video games are what men invented to fill the sex void. Any man who’d choose video games over sex deserves to live in his mother’s basement with his mint-condition, in-box Star Wars figurines and his real doll.”
“Hi, Elise.” Raven approached and put her arms around Brody’s waist. It wasn’t unusual, Raven was physically affectionate with most of her friends. At the same time, it made him uncomfortable, it felt forced and for an audience.
“Your girlfriend is like model-perfect.” Raven approached and handed him a soda. “Is that why you’re always needling her?” Adrian asked.
His anger wisped away at the sadness in her tone. Raven was a lost soul. He’d never be her lover again, but he still cared about her. Despite her flaws, she’d helped him when he’d needed it most. He’d never forget that. He smiled, wishing deep down that she’d get her shit together and let herself be loved.
But I’m going to work really hard not to do it too much, and you’re going to try and accept me the way I am. Flaws and all. Because I’m good in bed, and I can carry heavy things and reach high shelves.”
“Hey, Brody.” Raven plopped herself into his lap and put her arms around his neck. He raised his brows at her. “Raven, what brings you to my lap?” “I like it here. It’s just the right size for me. You haven’t played with me for a long time. I feel neglected.”
“Pfft romance. See, that’s what I mean. Before she came along we didn’t need romance. We had fucking. Do you remember fucking?”
“Isn’t it just like Little Miss Helpless to heap her crap on you, the big man who will fix her life for her. The Brody I knew would have steered clear of a woman like that. Is her pussy magic? What is so appealing about her? She’s got a kid. You can’t go out very often because she’s got a kid! You don’t go to shows anymore. You’ve turned into an old married man and your wife is like a freaking PTA president or something. Don’t you miss exciting women?”
She launched herself at him, her lips landing on his, and for one moment he responded because he always had before. And then, just as quickly, he grabbed her by the waist and set her back from him.
“If you just give us another try, I know we can make it. You looked at me like that once, why not again?”
“Oh sure, blame me. We used to have adult fun, now there are kids everywhere and we have to watch our mouths. Boring. By the way, Brody kissed me not too long ago. Don’t think I can’t have him if I want. I have had him. I’ll have him again. You can’t hold him, you have nothing to offer.”
She shrugged. While she was willing to try and see another side of Raven, while she’d actually seen part of that today in the hall near the elevators, she wouldn’t expose Rennie to Raven again anytime soon.
I won’t have her around that sort of instability. I don’t want to be around it either. I dealt with it enough for ten lifetimes and I won’t do it again. She’s something to you, but she’s nothing to me and she doesn’t want to be, so fine. But don’t ever imagine that I’d put my child at risk, because I won’t.”
Raven made a face. “It sucks that she’s so nice.”