T.M.’s Comments (group member since Jul 26, 2013)

T.M.’s comments from the A Life Not My Own Q&A Group group.

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Does anyone really get over thier first real love? Or does this person, good and bad characteristics, become the criteria by which all who follow are compared?..

The thing is, most of us don't share these kinds of experiences. Not even, with our closest friends. Maybe if we had , we could get out of this cycle.

An excerpt from the book:
"Don't you even try to turn this around?"

"I just need to know, do you really want it to be over?" He said ignoring my last statement. "I'm not going to keep running after you if you really don't want me to. I know I don't have any business being here but I do love you Tina. I can't do anything about that."

"How can that be? You're sleeping with someone else every night. How can you love me and do that?

He didn't answer.

"I thought that we had something special and you just threw it away as if it were nothing. I trusted you, told you things, gave you my body and all the love that I knew how to give and you just threw it away like it was nothing, like I was nothing. How could you do that?" I screamed with tears running down my face.

He lowered his head in shame. "I am so sorry."

"Being sorry doesn't make me feel any better. Being without you doesn't make me feel any better. What do you want?"

"I miss you so much." He said ignoring my question again. "I just had to be near you. I want to hold you. I don't know what I'm doing. He said as he pulled me close to him. I miss you so much, Tina. Please don't turn away from me. I need you baby." He said.

I was more confused than ever. I didn't know what to say now. His touch, his smell, the way he looked at me brought tears to my eyes. I couldn't turn him away. I knew that I should have but I couldn't.

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