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Lyla wrote: "oh gosh, idk I feel like you guys deserve an update and I completely blanked out for a while when it came to this situation

my friend died on her birthday, May 5th.

Her Spotify is gone, but I m..."

Nobody really uses this group anymore and most likely won’t see this, but I talked about this journey here for quite a while and it’s officially been a little over a year since she died. I’m here to say that people aren’t lying when they say “it gets better” because it truly does. The thing is, you don’t want it to. You don’t want it to get better because it feels like there shouldn’t even BE a “better” without the person you lost. But, it gets better.

I turned 17 without her, read last years birthday message.
I watched season two of Arcane without her, she loved that show.
Yellowjackets went on without her, she loved that show too.
Her favorite songs still play on the radio
Her favorite colors still surround me
Her laugh still rings in my ears

I went on everyday without her for an entire year, and eventually I got to a point where I felt like living again. I’m not saying that grief just goes away, because it’s permanent. It hits you hard in small moments, and it feels like drowning. But people pull you up, you pull yourself up, and I genuinely believe that the person you lost pulls you out of that water too. I don’t think anyone will see this or read this, but if you do, and you’re struggling with grief, let it happen. Let all of those horrible feelings wash over you because once they’re gone, all you’ll have is a deep feeling of love. They’re gone, but your love for them isn’t. I know mines not. I love her and miss her every single day, and I will continue to do so.

Okay goodbye now, this’ll be the last update.

what has everyone favorite read been so far this year? 💕💐

personally, powerless, binding 13, and better than the movies have been my favorite books I’ve read this year 🤭

what has everyone favorite read been so far this year? 💕💐

personally, powerless, binding 13, and better than the movies have been my favorite books I’ve read this year 🤭

THE THIRD ONE CURED MY BROKEN HEART UGH

oh? i loved the second book. tbh the series got better and better in my opinion 🤭 maybe that’s because i read them all right after the other? when i originally read the books and took long breaks in between each, the first one seemed to be my favorite. but after rereading one after the other, i loved them more and more.

Zoe, while I was listening to music with you last night I was thinking about my friend. And it was like a little part of me was put back into place, like a missing piece was given back. Thank you so much for letting me know you and get close to you 🩵 you came into my life as I was losing her, and it was as if while one star left my sky, another came. I really appreciate how happy you make me feel 💗

oh gosh, idk I feel like you guys deserve an update and I completely blanked out for a while when it came to this situation

my friend died on her birthday, May 5th.

Her Spotify is gone, but I memorized her favorite songs and still listen to them everyday. Thank you all for your kind words and for listening to me before she passed. She made it 19 beautiful, difficult, brave years in our world, and while it may not mean much to you guys, it’s hard to know I’m living in a world without her in it. When it’s late at night and I’m alone with my thoughts, I remember that at this exact time she’d usually be making me laugh or listening to music with me. She was a wonderful person, thank you all for the support.

I still haven’t read the last book so I’m not fully caught up on the series either! I hope you enjoy battle of the labyrinth, I loved that one so much

Shatter Me is the book that started my love of reading, but it is NOT as good as people say. First of all, the main character is kind of whiny and annoying, which is realistic but it isn’t what people what to read about.

Second, it’s kind of repetitive in the sense that it follows in the footsteps of every other dystopian. I also never really knew what Juliette’s actual powers were, her touch could kill people, but it kind of seemed like the author meant to explore beyond that but never actually explained it.

Honestly, I loved the third book in the series most. It was by far the most entertaining and enjoyable one, the second book is slow for the first half of the book but gets better. As someone who loved the series, it’s definitely way over hyped. Whatever, doesn’t stop me from loving what I love, I’m easy to please. Hand me an enemies to lovers dystopian book and I’m SAT.

@Lanna sameee, I’m not a hater but her music isn’t really for me yk

thank you all, it means so much that you guys listened and care 🩵 i appreciate you guys

PERCY JACKSONNNN

those books OWN MY HEART which one is your favorite so far?

Holly Jackson
Emily Henry
Holly Black

I’m not a big Taylor fan but I love folklore

Cry - Benson Boone
Alley Rose - Conan Gray
Who’s Afraid Of Little Old Me - Taylor Swift
Bad Dream - Wallows

Fireworks & Rollerblades by Benson Boone
Older by Lizzy McAlpine
Found Heaven by Conan Gray
The Tortured Poets Department by Taylor Swift
(these are the albums i thought of that came out this month specifically, they’re all pretty popular)

I’m back again!

Everything’s gotten worse. The doctors think my friend has two weeks to live. She’s paralyzed from the waist down and nonverbal. It’s thought that she’ll at least make it to her next birthday, May 5th.

These past few months I’ve been listening to her Spotify playlists everyday. They help me sleep, eat, do my homework, and pretty much exist without falling apart. I went to listen again about an hour ago and saw she deleted her account. I copied the playlist she made for me, and I memorized her favorite songs. But it was all I had left of her after she shut us all out.

Her sister is giving her a message for me, a final goodbye i guess. I added a song recommendation, a song that reminds me and our mutual friend of her. We used to listen to music till 3am every single night, me, her, and our friend, the three of us. There’s only two of us now, but we still listen and think of her while we do. I can’t really explain the ache in my chest, but it hurts so bad. I know it’ll get better and with time I’ll grieve and get over the pain. But right now it just hurts.

@sammy I LOVED CROOKED KINGDOM BUT IT WAS SUCH A LET DOWN.

I was so invested in the characters and THATS what we get?!? ABSOLUTELY NOTTTT

thank you guys 🩵

she now has a nurse taking care of her full time, I don’t want her to be in pain anymore, but to think I’m about to be walking an earth without her in it is absolutely destroying me