“I'm not asking you to go with me. I don't want you to go with me." That's a straight-up lie, because I have no idea if I have the ability to do this. Even more important than ability is whether or not I have the courage. This revelation makes me feel ashamed. I'm a grown woman, and it's time to prove- if not to everyone else then at least to myself- that I can do things on my own. Janice said that Jonathan needs me to step up, to be the kind of person he can depend on not to retreat when things get rough. This time, I won't hide in my childhood bed hoping the world will right itself. Jonathan would do anything to help me, but now he's the one who needs help, and I'm going to dig deep and be the one to give it to him.”