“And maybe, in a way, I started wanting my fantasies about the future to stay fantasies.
Right? Because if fantasies come true, they can't be fantasies anymore.
And then what do you have to fantasize about?
All to say, I got very comfortable living like that.
And everything that happened since I came to LA? It was the opposite of comfortable. And it was certainly the opposite of fantasy. Of course I should seize this opportunity. Of course I should be here and do this! Whatever "this" would turn out to be. There wasn't another reasonable choice. When you finally get your chance, you have to take it.
But it was one thing to live your dreams in theory—and it was absolutely another thing to clumsily, awkwardly, terrifiedly do it for real.”