T. > T.'s Quotes

“I don't want to die without any scars.”
― Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club

“The sadness of the world has different ways of getting to people, but it seems to succeed almost every time.”
― Louis-Ferdinand Céline, Journey to the End of the Night

“Have you heard of the illness hysteria siberiana? Try to imagine this: You're a farmer, living all alone on the Siberian tundra. Day after day you plow your fields. As far as the eye can see, nothing. To the north, the horizon, to the east, the horizon, to the south, to the west, more of the same. Every morning, when the sun rises in the east, you go out to work in your fields. When it's directly overhead, you take a break for lunch. When it sinks in the west, you go home to sleep. And then one day, something inside you dies. Day after day you watch the sun rise in the east, pass across the sky, then sink in the west, and something breaks inside you and dies. You toss your plow aside and, your head completely empty of thought, begin walking toward the west. Heading toward a land that lies west of the sun. Like someone, possessed, you walk on, day after day, not eating or drinking, until you collapse on the ground and die. That's hysteria siberiana.”
― Haruki Murakami, South of the Border, West of the Sun

“I just want to sleep. A coma would be nice. Or amnesia. Anything, just to get rid of this, these thoughts, whispers in my mind. Did he rape my head, too?”
― Laurie Halse Anderson, Speak

“I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.”
― David Levithan, Will Grayson, Will Grayson

“The parts of me that used to think I was different or smarter or whatever, almost made me die.”
― David Foster Wallace

“The trouble about jumping was that if you didn't pick the right number of storeys, you might still be alive when you hit bottom.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

“Çağımızda geçmiş yüzyılların bilmediği, kısa ömürlü bir yaratık yaşıyor. Sinemadan çıkmış insan. Gördüğü film ona bir şeyler yapmış. Salt çıkarını düşünen kişi değil. İnsanlarla barışık. Onun büyük işler yapacağı umulur. Ama beş-on dakikada ölüyor. Sokak sinemadan çıkmayanlarla dolu; asık yüzleri, kayıtsızlıkları, sinsi yürüyüşleriyle onu aralarına alıyorlar, eritiyorlar.”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“Sustu. Konuşmak gereksizdi. Bundan sonra kimseye ondan söz etmeyecekti. Biliyordu; anlamazlardı.”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“- Neden bu kadar kötümsersin?
- Sen neden değilsin? Çevrene bakmıyor musun? En mutlu görünenlerine bile? Bütün bunlar üç oda, bir mutfak, iki çocuk ile başlıyor. Sonra? Haydi bayanlar, baylar! Bu fırsatı kaçırmayın. Siz de girin, siz de görün. Üç perdelik dram. Birinci kısım: Dağlar dümdüz. İkinci kısım: Ne çok tepe! Üçüncü kısım: Ova batak. Bugünlük bu kadar baylar. İyi geceler. Yarın gene bekleriz.”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“Bir gün sana dünya da katlanılacak tek şeyin sevgi olduğunu öğreteceğim.”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“Biliyorum sizi. Küçük sürtünmelerle yetinirsiniz.Büyüklerinden korkarsınız. Akşamları elinizde paketlerle dönersiniz. Sizi bekleyenler vardır. Rahatsınız. Hem ne kolay rahatlıyorsunuz. İçinizde boşluklar yok. Neden ben de sizin gibi olamıyorum? Bir ben miyim düşünen bir ben miyim yalnız?”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“İyi. Gitsin. İlerde, üç odalı evinde sıkıldığında beni düşünmeyecek mi? Yazık.”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“Benim ona tutunabilmem için onun benden başka bir dayanağı olmamalı.”
― Yusuf Atılgan, Aylak Adam

“İçimin mevsimlerine de hiç uymaz şu tabiat.”
― Oğuz Atay, Tehlikeli Oyunlar

“…çünkü yoruldum, çünkü her şeyi birbirine karıştırdım, çünkü bu dünyada gizli mezhep sorunu bile gelip beni buldu fakat sevebileceğim bir kadın, bol para, insan yakınlığı beni hiç bulamadı. Ben de üç yıl, dört ay önce acılaştım, huysuzlaştım, hiçbir şeyi beğenmez oldum; para kazanamayacağımı, insanları sevemeyeceğimi anlayınca uzaklara gittim, kimse beni bulmasın diye. Onlar da beni ciddiye aldılar, gelmediler…”
― Oğuz Atay, Korkuyu Beklerken

“The thought that I might kill myself formed in my mind coolly as a tree or a flower.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

“The instant that the blade tore open his flesh, the bright disk of the sun soared up and exploded behind his eyelids.”
― Yukio Mishima, Runaway Horses

“Part of the problem with the word 'disabilities' is that it immediately suggests an inability to see or hear or walk or do other things that many of us take for granted. But what of people who can't feel? Or talk about their feelings? Or manage their feelings in constructive ways? What of people who aren't able to form close and strong relationships? And people who cannot find fulfillment in their lives, or those who have lost hope, who live in disappointment and bitterness and find in life no joy, no love? These, it seems to me, are the real disabilities.”
― Fred Rogers, The World According to Mister Rogers: Important Things to Remember

“I said nothing for a time, just ran my fingertips along the edge of the human-shaped emptiness that had been left inside me.”
― Haruki Murakami, Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman: Twenty-Four Stories

“Mine could not be a story about the building of character, but about its erosion, about the slow accumulation of small forces and events that ultimately dries the soul and leaves the heart empty.”
― Gonzalo Munevar, The Master of Fate

“It felt like this was never going to end. The world wasn't going to stop crashing down until there was nothing left of me but dust.”
― Keary Taylor, What I Didn't Say

“What people don't understand about depression is how much it hurts. It's like your brain is convinced that it's dying and produces an acid that eats away at you from the inside, until all that's less is a scary hollowness. Your mind fills with dark thoughts; you become convinced that your friends secretly hate you, you're worthless, and then there's no hope. I never got so low as to consider ending it all, but I understand how that can happen to some people. Depression simply hurts too much.”
― Tyler Hamilton

“Don’t tell me you have OCD about this?”
“OCD, ADHD—pretty sure if they come up with some new acronym tomorrow I’d have it.”
― Cyma Rizwaan Khan, I See The Devil

“About a third of my cases are suffering from no clinically definable neurosis, but from the senselessness and emptiness of their lives. This can be defined as the general neurosis of our times.”
― Carl Gustav Jung

“It is as if my life were magically run by two electric currents: joyous positive and despairing negative - which ever is running at the moment dominates my life, floods it.”
― Sylvia Plath, The Bell Jar

“She didn't belong anywhere and she never really belonged to anyone. And everyone else belonged somewhere and to someone. People thought she was too wonderful. But she only wanted to belong to someone. People always thought she was too wonderful to belong to them or that something too wonderful would hurt too much to lose. And that's why she liked him-- because he just thought she was crazy.”
― C. JoyBell C.

“I was always asking myself why. Why am I feeling this? Thinking that if I knew the cause I could find the cure. But of course there was no reasonable why, at least not in the present. I was awash in an accumulation of past feelings and future dreads, all similar, at least as far as my brain was concerned, and so, lumped together as one. But nobody can handle a lifetime of experience in one moment. That's why depression crushes you.”
― Norah Vincent

“Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. The really great men must, I think, have great sadness on earth.”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

“What is hell? I maintain that it is the suffering of being unable to love.”
― Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov