Introverted Writers Group discussion

Hi, are there any creative introverts here?
Where do you get your inspiration from?
What/who inspires you?

I am a creative introvert, but I need inspiration..

I write poetry, so I am usually inspired by pain, or suffering of some kind. When I feel utter despair is usually when I feel the most inspired, artists suffer for their art. I usually write poetry when I am mutilating myself, it helps to vent my frustration/to gain control. Music especially if it is written by Trent Reznor inspires me, also some of his instrumental music/soundtracks are inspiring to listen to. Sometimes classical music, helps me to think, I find it soothing, to listen to something that I can relate to. I live in my head a lot, so I think a lot, going for a walk, or when i'm out at night time, it helps to get the creative juices flowing so to speak.

Inspiration strikes me at the best and worst of times, like you mentioned about being in a meeting but you feel inspired. I get hit with inspiration in the shower, when i'm talking to other people, when i'm out by myself, when i'm sleeping, I have to suddenly get up and scribble down the words onto paper otherwise I will forget. I have given up self-harming which is really difficult, but I don't know an alternative way to write, because I write well when i'm depressed/suicidal/or mutilating myself.I feel like I need to be in some kind of emotional or physical pain, to be able to write in a way that helps me to vent my frustration.

I write to express myself,to vent frustration. I have been bullied my whole life, men have been abusive, i'm lonely, depressed I have no friends or a boyfriend..
I started writing poetry when I was a teenager, the counselor I saw suggested that I do something besides cutting myself, but i've seen loads of counselors and taken anti-depressants but it doesn't really help.

Everyone in the town I live in knows that I self-harm, because I told someone at school that I thought I could trust, but it turns out that they weren't trust worthy. Now everyone knows about it, and people hate me for it, but their the cause of it partly :/ I don't talk to anyone, I just keep my head down, and get on with things. I don't draw attention to myself. It's hard for me to trust people, and relate to them. I have never been much of a happy person, but due to all of these things happening in my life, i'm even more shy, and introverted...I don't know if this helps you to understand me better..

I can't afford to move, I don't have a passport, money or a job. Why would it better in another country, when it is bad here? I can't get this qualification (and i'm struggling to get it anyway) it wouldn't be valid here, if I did it in another country, I would still have to do it here..
Plus a lot of stuff is going on with my current and new friend, and I went to a job interview today, and I didn't, get it I can't this anymore! The past few days have been really shit, and i've had enough.
I know, your trying to help, and I really appreciate that, but i've just had enough of my life, I struggle so much, but never get anywhere in life...

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Julia

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Hello fellow introverted writers!

I just wrote a blog you might be interested in reading. It's about how my introversion affects my writing, specifically my INFJ personality type: https://elkesilvarain.co.uk/2017/01/08/an-infj-writer-the-pros/

I'm hoping to connect with other introverted writers!