I AM NOT IMMATURE! I JUST KNOW HOW TO HAVE FUN ;) discussion

Hey, I'm Brenda (fake name). Call me Crazy. Hmm…I guess this will be my diary!

I am hating myself, but try to hide it in front of other people.

Hmm…I'll update more when I want to open up more. :)

Love,
~Crazy

Agh!!!! Why is it so hard to deal with hatred? Why do I still hate myself? Why can't I STOP hating myself?
Why? Why?? WHY???!!!

Yeah.

Yeah

Dear Diary,

I'm frustrated.

Dear Crazy,
Throw something, it helps. :D
Otherwise, put music on loud and jump. You hear me correct. Jump. Jumping always makes me happy! And skipping.
Sincerely, Renee.

Going to do that!!! :D

Dear Diary,

I'm super-happy!!!

Dear Diary,

Last night I spoke for an hour with one of my best buddies. That really helped me a lot. I never really realized how much I needed somebody to joke and laugh with until I spoke with her for that full hour.

I'm sick of feeling bad. Most of the time I wish the feeling would go away, but it seems to never leave me. I feel bad for everything, even the things I haven't done. I wish I could take everything back, and I even sometimes wish I weren't me. I wish a lot of times that God would take me. Otherwise I'm scared of death.

Gosh, why do I feel so weird?

And I just needed to say that here because I'm not even sure I want to talk about it to any of my friends. Just try and forget everything.

Love,
~Crazy

Dear Crazy,
Stop feeling bad and do some crazy stuff. You'll feel much more better! TRUST ME!

Noodar. Call me Awesome!