Suicide, a no go discussion

After twenty-eight years (well, twenty-five, considering <3yo kids are kinda mindless), I have been alienated, depressed, angry, unable to cope with environmental stress, to understand people; constantly enraged by the arbitrary and pointless nature of their stupid social games and their inability to see how shallow and incoherent their idiot beliefs are. I almost certainly have an Autistic spectrum disorder, however, my inability to convince any State agency to give me a proper evaluation (and the general incompetence of psychiatrists and people in general to understand/deal with autistic and Asperger disorders) has made it impossible for me to receive any state assistance on this basis, despite the fact that it has led to persistant unemployment, and inability to operate in social situations for a multitude of reasons, and basically an incapacity to remain 'socially acceptable' in any environment. I no longer have a desire to receive such 'assistant'. The run-around of the state agencies, where one has to have money, a home, transporation and blind luck to receive any of their questionably valuable 'aids' makes me loathe them, and I will not fill out another form. In fact, I burnt all of my identification and destroyed all my work CVs. I refuse to work toward these things, which I no longer care about, in order to appease others.

Counselors, mental health Nazis, psychiatric hospitals and the such have been a facet of my life since preteens, and I despise them all. Moralizing, pseudo-scientific, state-funded bureaucratic subhuman cunts, the lot of them. The psychiatric hospitals especially, who think that throwing you in a prison, ignoring you and acting condescending is a 'service'. Frankly, if I had the means, I would go to the psychiatric hosptials and execute all those who forcibly imprisoned me: they are gangsters, and FUCK YOU if you disagree. I'll throw you in my basement and drug you up for 'your own good' and see how you like it!

Although I have considered suicide several times before in my life (I resisted taking the thought seriously into my teens) I am now convinced that the sadistic failure of my parents and State-Indoctrination Prisons ('schools') inflicted on me have done too much damage, and given my other existing difficulties and general opinion on the pointless and painful nature of all life, I will no longer be resisting it: suicide is the preferred resolution. It is life that requires motivation and a purpose; death is inescapable and ordinary.

And please don't mentions stupid, pat cliches like 'permanent solutions to a temporary problem' or 'what about the people you leave behind'.
1) It is an inevitable solution to an intractable problem.
2) I don't give a shit about my family, and my friends know my reasons. Asking me to live in Hell for their sake is far more 'selfish' on their part than them just accepting that I can't take this endless suffering.

I made this post, not because I want to be convinced otherwise (if you do, I will simply ignore you) but because I think it is a hateful bias the way people are demonized or treated like children when they have suicidal aims, as though they were incapable of independent judgment or having their own individual values not subject to your fucking oversight. You pretentious pro-lifers might take a second to think that you have no fucking idea what it's like to be in their shoes, and even if you do, that doesn't commit them to your conclusions.

This point was made a year ago. Calm down. She's not talking about babies anywhere in it.

Pro-lifers as in no doctor assisted suicide (aka a dignified death)
If you are terminally ill, constantly in pain for a desise, some people ask the doctor to help inject something to kill them. So they don't hurt anymore. So they go be at peace and go to heaven, or whatever you believe, and not hurt any live a life of enteral suffering.