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Well. Here I am. I am here. Welcome. Hello. Help me.

I guess this is my journal. Idk, but I sometimes just need yovrant and people don't seem to like it when I do that to their faces. "Not my problem." "Oh well." Whatever. Just let me be.

I've been up for 14 hours

And it's only 6:00 pm

How am I supposed to make it for 3 more hours? If I go to bed now, I'll just be awake earlier tomorrow morning.

I have book club in 2 days and I'm only 100 pages in

And then like, I also have about 20 books from the library that I need to finish so I can take them back by then

Also; what's with all of the super deep and depressing journal names?
"Nobody deserves to disappear"
"Chin up, you'll drown slower"
"One day we won't feel this pain anymore"

Not to like at anybody. I mean there are ones just called "Pancakes" And that could work also.

Stupid phones. I wish they would just let me say what I want

I don't mean to poke*

What the hell

Never mind. I clearly can't think straight

I just ripped a book. That's like, the forbidden rule. I RIPPED the page almost completely out! And it goes to the library!

Who does that? Why did I just rip it?

I must be mental. I have to be. What the fig tree was I thinking?

Oh right. haha I wasn't. shit

Like I meant to say earlier... I didn't mean to POKE at anybody! Hahaha they were just the only ones that I could remember seeing XD

And hi friend

I broke my nail and it makes me sound like a wimp but it really hurts

It's like the cutical part

Cuticle?

Eh, well just say comfortable

Now I see why Jay write so much

Aside from not being able to rant to my mom or best friend (holy crap I haven't even talked to her for 12 hours!), you don't have to worry about everybody looking at you for talking so much

Like his whole shoe thing? I just want to buy my $80 dollar costume vans, but I don't have a credit card or the money to buy them

Like I make enough money, but I can't afford to spend it on my shoes. I need a car before my 16th birthday, And I'm only half way there.

But then, I'll have a car by January (hopefully) And I can literally use my money to buy as many vans as I want. Lol what's college?

So my nephew is almost three years old. He has beautiful blonde curls, but my sister doesn't brush them out. He was throwing a fit because I would let him have a truck in my mom's closet, so I left him in there to cry and when I went to check on him because he went silent. He was playomg with the toilet brush, so I started giving him a shower and I couldn't wash his hair AT ALL. I sat him down with a toy and brushed his hair for 10 minutes straight. After I FINALLY got them out, I braided his hair. In two French braids. Because he looks like a girl. Why in the frick would you let a boys hair grow out, not brush it, and let it look like he has a chipmunk living there!?

I can sleep now. Thank goodness. I ended up sitting in this super comfy chair with a blanket while uber the ceiling fan, and I could have just fallen there.
But now I have a headache and it feels like I have onions plastered on my eyes

fuck it I'm not even going to fix any mistakes this stupid phone makes

This is stupis

I could have gotten another 40 minutes of sleep

30*

But like, it's also kind of concerning me

The girl I babysit is usually here by 4:55, so I wake up at 4:52 which give me the time to stare at nothing for 2 minutes and then go pee. But the girl still isn't here and it's 5:20

And I always babysit Mon-Wed so I know for a fact that I have her today

Should I turn my light off so the moths aren't swarmed by the time she actually does get here?

It's off

I texted her like 10 minutes ago asking if she was even awake and she hasn't replied

Maybe I should steal my mom's car and drive over there. She literally lives within 5 minutes of walking, 1 minutes of driving

Maybe I should call her?

So I called her twice and she didn't pick up.

And I'm honestly kind of super worried because what if something happened? They live with her parents, so what if she's not here because they had to take them to the ER?

You would think they let the babysitter know that I am in fact NOT babysitting

Here it is 5:34 in the morning and the thing I text her is "Are you still sleeping?"

Somehow I have managed to become so obsessed with twenty one pilots, that I fit it into every conversation I have

I think I need to go wake up my mom and make sure nothing happened while I was sleeping

Whew oh my gosh okay she texted a long string of cuss words. She's on her way now

She's soooo late

I'm just gonna run out there and grab the baby from her so she doesn't have to make the trip inside my house

Turns out her phone was on vibrate and she turned over and said it was suspicious of how much sleep she was getting. Same.