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about meMy name is Lilly, I'm a 14 year old girl who uses she/her pronouns and lives in the pnw!
It's my first year of highschool this year, and our district is doing it completely online
I like to do sports! Currently, I'm doing volleyball (with school) and martial arts.
Today at martial arts I was doing really bad. I just moved up a class, and most people in the class have been there for a while, so they don't teach the new moves very much at all. We were doing our backwards rolls, and like I said, I was doing very very bad. Nobody said anything though (everyone there is super nice and non judgy). Afterwards, I was getting my stuff to go home, and this guy and I were the last ones. Our stuff was 6 feet apart so we could go get it at the same time. HE COMPLIMENTED ME!! this dude has the highest belt rank in the class and im pretty sure this is the first time he's ever talked to me lmao. He could tell that I was doing bad and kinda beating myself up about it, and he COMPLIMENTED ME! I am not used to getting compliments about anything if that wasn't obvious lol. He said "good work today." which is very nice :) I didn't know what to say so I was silent for a few seconds just processing what he said, and then I whispered (i'm pretty sure he didn't even hear me lmao) "same to you" this isn't important like at all but I thought it was sweet and nice okay
me going off on my science teacher about how humans are stupid
something for english that I want to save but I have another class rn: I don't really know how to organize this so it's actually a paragraph and not just a list of things so I apologize in advance. The first thing I'm thankful for is my ducks. I have three muscovy ducks, and they are super funny. It's really entertaining to watch them, and see their different personalities. They're still young right now, but in the spring they'll start laying duck eggs, which I am super excited to try. The second thing I'm thankful for (this isn't in any specific order by the way) is my dog. She's really sweet, soft (very important I know), and friendly. The third thing I'm thankful for are my friends. Even though I've only seen two of them in the past 8 months, I still try to keep in touch with all of them. One of my friends actually moved 5 hours away to Oregon last summer, but I did get to drive down to stay with her family for a week this summer. It was really fun and I want to do it again next summer. However, since she lives so far away now, I'm basically going to have to wait a year in between each time we see each other from now on. The fourth thing I'm thankful for is books. I really love to read, and quarantine has been super annoying because I haven't been to the library or bookstore since it started, so I've been having to read books that I've read like 4 times before (I don't like reading digital books or listening to audiobooks). This actually isn't good for your brain, but it is comforting to a lot of people. This is because they have no control over anything that's happening, so they learn to be afraid of new things. Reading the same books, watching the same shows, and doing the same exact motions every day create a sense of normalcy because we know exactly what is going to happen at every given moment, so there is no surprises. I've tried to stop reading books I've read before because each time I do, I want to read the book again and again and never read another book because of this very reason. It's not healthy, but there is nothing I can do about it right now, so here we are. The fifth thing I'm thankful for is art. I'm not very good at it, but it's a way to express things that you would feel uncomfortable sharing, or just don't know how to say. This is why I like it so much. You can create a piece of artwork, and everyone who sees it will experience something different while looking at it. Some people will just think it's a beautiful painting, but others will understand the true meaning behind it. Art helps bring people who are experiencing the same thing closer together because the people who need to understand the art will understand, while people who don't, won't but they will still continue to enjoy it even if they don't understand. The sixth thing I'm grateful for is sports. I personally don't enjoy watching them, but rather playing them. There's just something about being able to practice and doing something well that just makes me really happy. It's very hard to explain if you've never experienced it before, but something about sports and exercising is relaxing. This doesn't really make much since because why would you getting up and exercising for 5 hours be relaxing? I don't know how else to explain it though. The seventh thing I'm grateful for is freedom
Well I have a doctors appt tomorrow because I've been having headaches every single day for like a year. This is going to be a hearing doctors appointment which would be fine because I hate having headaches, but I'm scared of the doctors office.
Delphinia (Dhamma ✿) wrote: "How’d it go?💜"ooops sorry for the very late reply, but my hearing is fine <33 i'm still having headaches though :(
hey if your child has adhd maybe don't take their electronics away because if there is not music, a youtube video or a tv show playing in the background at all times, i will just sit there and cry. i am nothing without external stimulation, i cannot do anything at all without other things going on. to focus on one thing, i need to have other things to focus on.
haven't been here in a while, but my school is starting hybrid learning tomorrow! I'll be going into school on Mondays and Tuesdays! I'm a little nervous because the school is huge and I know 3 people total that go there, but excited because I hate online school
i have a boyfriend (i've known him for 3 years but we started dating like 2 weeks ago)! he's super nice and so much better than my last relationship :P I'm going to his house today! I'm so excited hehehe
Getting to know Lilly - factsAPPEARANCE
[] I am shorter than 5'4".
[x] I have many scars
[] I tan easily.
[] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I wear glasses
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears
[x] I have freckles.
[] My eyes change colors
FAMILY
[] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[] My biological parents are together.
[] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday.
[x] I want to adopt someday
[] I have more then 5 siblings
SCHOOL/WORK
[x] I'm in school
[x] I have a job.
[] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I always do my homework.
[] I've missed a week or more of school.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my school.
EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[] I've face planted at school/work in front of many people
HEALTH
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x] I have a disease/impairment.
[] I've broken a bone.
[] I have dislocated something.
[] I've had my tonsils removed.
[] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[] I've had chicken pox.
[] I have/(had) asthma.
EXPERIENCES
[x] I've gotten lost in my city
[] I've seen a shooting star.
[] I've wished on a shooting star.
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[] I've been skydiving.
[] I've gone skinny dipping.
[] I've played spin the bottle.
[] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[] I've crashed a car.
[x] I've been skiing
[x] I've been in a play.
[] I've met someone in person from the internet.
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken.
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've eaten Sushi.
[] I've been snowboarding.
RELATIONSHIPS
[] I've gone on a blind date.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've gotten divorced
[] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've told someone I loved them and didn't get a clear response.
[x] I've felt rejected even if I wasn't.
[] I've loved someone I knew a friend was already in love with.
[x] I'm currently dating someone.
HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[] I've been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[] I regularly drink.
[] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem.
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorders
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I've woken up crying.
DEATH
[x] I'm afraid of dying.
[] I hate funerals.
[] I've seen someone die
[] I've had someone close to me die.
forgot to say that's stolen from tumblr/maya who has a thread in this group
This is either going to be the person I marry or it is going to completely destroy me
things to know about my journal
- anyone can comment on here, so feel free
- i will put trigger warnings on each post that i think could be a trigger to someone, but please be warned ahead of time that this journal will most likely include mentions of abuse, mental illness, suicide, etc. please do not read this journal if this would upset you in any way, as I cannot label everything that is a trigger to everyone all the time. read at your own risk
- there may be light swearing (im on a school device, so there probably won't be much at all, but a heads up just in case)