The Unstable Realms Of Hell discussion

I was crying earlier :D

It was the first time I’ve cried in like 5 months

My ear was hurting really bad and it felt like someone was punching my brain over and over again and it hurt so bad and I couldn’t hear out of that ear at that moment

It also might’ve helped that I haven’t cried in a while bc I always have to be the one who smiles and everyone leans on and can yell at without consequences 👍

Eh I’m used to not crying (maybe why I can’t handle crying people) bc I literally take care of my friends and siblings (who is literally older than me) and all they do is yell and yell and create drama and whenever u make a mistake ur dramatic but when they make a mistake u have to comfort them! So basically I act like I don’t care anymore and keep my emotions bottled up!!! Fun am I right?

Yeah… even when my grandma had a stroke (she’s fine now) they sent us to our rooms and we were like 8 & 9 and my older sibling was literally sobbing and I had to console him the whole time and I couldn’t cry bc I knew that would make it worse. Then once we came out even my mom cried and I had to comfort both even though I was 8.. or 7 I can’t remember

Nah it’s probably nothing compared to what some people have to go through, because it’s like I know they love me and don’t mean to hurt me, but they do.

-hugs-
And that’s why I’m here. Escaping reality!

Same. It’s like u don’t wanna get hurt but you don’t wanna be alone either.

Yeah and this year has been the worst for me. We got um family issues (not like abusive or smth like that just issues) and my whole friend group has turned like toxic. And everyone is fighting and the group (which has been together for almost 2 years now) broke apart and u always have to be in the middle and hear them gossip and rant about each other and face the person with a smile. And you know that one of them at least is talking about you behind ur back but no one acknowledges it because we don’t want to.

Phew that was a lot!

True it’s like u have to be another person in front of them

uh I have chubby cheeks :0

MITSUBA wrote: "uh I have chubby cheeks :0"

But that’s cute 🥰

people in my school bully me for it :D

MITSUBA wrote: "people in my school bully me for it :D"

that's not cute :(

Honestly u don't deserve that, If I were in ur school and I was ur friend I would've adored u for it (I have chubby cheeks friends, they're all my children, u can ask them, I give them too much love)

aw thx bro :D
it so sweet about how caring and loving you are toward your friends🥹

I hope u find urself loving and caring people <3

thx bro but I don't see that happning any time soon(╥﹏╥)
do you have chubby cheeks >? :0 ( you don't have to answer it )

i do.

how is it ? ( Im SRRY , I don't mean in it in a rude way(╥﹏╥))

I do get comments like "you've gained weight" or "your getting fatter"

lex (DNR) wrote: "I do get comments like "you've gained weight" or "your getting fatter""

THESE PEOPLES WHO TELLING U GUYS THIS SHIT R ABSOLUTE DUMMIES. THEY PROBABLY RESORT TO CRITIZING U GUYS BECAUSE THEIR TOO INSECURE ABOUT THEIR UGLY FACES

MITSUBA wrote: "thx bro but I don't see that happning any time soon(╥﹏╥)
do you have chubby cheeks >? :0 ( you don't have to answer it )"

no😭 I have sharp cheekbones, basically the opposite

AND YESS IT WILL HAPPEN BECUZ IM HERE, WE CAN BE FRIENDS <3333

yea I understanded what your going through :(
I'm srry that is happen to you :(

₊‧✩Melody✩‧₊ wrote: "lex (DNR) wrote: "I do get comments like "you've gained weight" or "your getting fatter""

THESE PEOPLES WHO TELLING U GUYS THIS SHIT R ABSOLUTE DUMMIES. THEY PROBABLY RESORT TO CRITIZING U GUYS BE..."

thanks. you're right but I live with most of them.

MITSUBA wrote: "yea I understanded what your going through :(
I'm srry that is happen to you :("

thanks <3

Ur already great becuz u made it this far even with people criticizing u, remember that <3

₊‧✩Melody✩‧₊ wrote: "lex (DNR) wrote: "I do get comments like "you've gained weight" or "your getting fatter""

THESE PEOPLES WHO TELLING U GUYS THIS SHIT R ABSOLUTE DUMMIES. THEY PROBABLY RESORT TO CRITIZING U GUYS BE..."
Don't be sad :(
I bet they look gorgeous :)

You too! and thanks

lex (DNR) wrote: "₊‧✩Melody✩‧₊ wrote: "lex (DNR) wrote: "I do get comments like "you've gained weight" or "your getting fatter""

THESE PEOPLES WHO TELLING U GUYS THIS SHIT R ABSOLUTE DUMMIES. THEY PROBABLY RESORT T..."
Np >3
i hope things get better for u

Ty. I hope things get better for you too!

MITSUBA wrote: "lex (DNR) wrote: "₊‧✩Melody✩‧₊ wrote: "lex (DNR) wrote: "I do get comments like "you've gained weight" or "your getting fatter""

THESE PEOPLES WHO TELLING U GUYS THIS SHIT R ABSOLUTE DUMMIES. THEY..."

Thx :D

I cut again.......hah......i fucking hate my life....

🤕

At least my thoughts are gone......

Why r u hurting?

⛧°.⋆༺♱༻⋆.°⛧௱Λ尺ら ϤΛƓɪ-ㄈнΛØら⛧°.⋆༺♱༻⋆.°⛧ wrote: "At least my thoughts are gone......"

What do you mean?

⛧°.⋆༺♱༻⋆.°⛧௱Λ尺ら ϤΛƓɪ-ㄈнΛØら⛧°.⋆༺♱༻⋆.°⛧ wrote: "I cut again.......hah......i fucking hate my life...."

I'm sorry. Do you know what would make things better? Like specific goals?