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Jun 16, 2025 12:10PM
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love sucks, love hurts, so why do we still try
why did i do that, i could have done that better
I don't wanna be here anymore, someone please take me away, make me obsessed over someone else please. I'm done hurting like this.
i feel like i shouldnt have told him that now....
As long as you don't kill yourself you'll be okay
We were talking so long that he put me to sleep
So my brothers dad came back... He's the one who raised me....I miss him
He always has to get my hopes up then turn around and get depressed and then yell at me and tell me to stop liking him and saying that i should find better people but I don't think he understands that all I want is him.
I saw this coming. I knew it would happen. Turns out he never really like me. Turns out he was leading me on bc he felt bad that if he didn't respond the same way. He officially has made me want to die the most. I don't think he realizes that I would have stopped if he had said something about it but noooo. So I'm hurt way more than my boyfriend breaking up with me. I'm hurt way more than when I found out that my first boyfriend was cheating on me. I'm hurt to the point that if I end my life soon I'll only say goodbye to the people who have kept me here. Maybe I'll get talked out of it again but who knows.
I need to pick out my date that I'm going
I don’t know if I’m allowed to write in here, but I wanted to say, you matter, and there are people who care about you even if it doesn’t seem like it. We want you here. I know it doesn’t feel like ot but things will get better. It may seem like the best option, but trust me, don’t give up. You would regret it. If you ever need anyone to talk to I’m here <333
Things will get better, they always do. I know it’s so hard but they will 🤍
No bc he said that he like me that he wanted to date me but it was all to make me fucking happy. And not that I'm finding out that truth he sitting over here saying "I don't fucking need this rn. Please stop." Like no I won't fucking I need to know the fucking truth. And it's not getting better it keeps getting worse.
And he fucking blocked me wtf I was lied to and fucking hurt and he says he doesn't need this right now and blocks me.
Maddi this is awful. but what he did? It was NOT ur fault. Not even close. He lied. He used you. He played with ur heart like it was nothing. That’s HIS failure. Not urs.U deserve so much more than someone who treats u like an option, like a backup plan, then blocks u when u want answers.Tht’s cowardice. Thats weakness. That’s on HIM, NOT on you.
Ur pain is valid. Your anger is real. u hv every right to feel betrayed and broken rn. But plss hear me, u r more than what he did to u. You are NOT broken bc of him. You are NOT worthless bc of him. You are NOT a burden. Yu r not “too much” or “not enough.” You re EXACTLY enough. MORE than enough.
I know it feels like the world is crashing down. I know ur heart is screaming rn. I know it hurts like hell. I know it hurts sooo much it feels like u can’t breathe. But ending ur life? That would be giving HIM the power over u, a power he doesn’t deserve. To win by hurting u the most. Do NOT give him that power.
U r an amazin person who deserves to fight. To live. To be loved. And you will be.
The pain u feel rn is screaming loud, it feels endless. But its not. It’s a storm. Storms pass. And after the storm? The sun comes back. Brighter than ever.
Hold on. Hold on for the people who love u, who would be lost without u. Hold on for ur future self, the one who’s gonna be so proud u didn’t give up. Im sure there r ppl who would be shattered without u. You don’t owe him anything. You owe YOURSELF EVERYTHING, ur kindness, ur life and ur future.
u matter sm more than this moment or this person’s mistakes. So pls jus hold on, bc ur story is far from over. Better days WILL come, and u deserve every one of them.
Madison Nakajima-Chaos wrote: "I cried after she left...."
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I got four chicks today, and cried a lot
girl did u see tht long mssge i sent u lol 😅just making sure 😅
Yeah sorry I just didn't know how to respond
lolll sry thts alrrr i understand xd
Ahhhhhhh hehehehe I'm actually happy rn
Even if me and him aren't together anymore, he still make me happy (not the other dude I was talking about)
hmm mads you know i'm always here if you need right?..
hes actually so amazing, i really do love him.
Aghhhhh I'm scared, is he gonna send me what I think he's gonna send me orrrrrr idkkkk
