“Her left boob is a lot bigger than her right,” the girl next to me says about the new girl Beth. “I’m getting that fixed on the thirtieth.” Beth is offended. We all are our first time. “This isn’t about judgment, Beth.” The doctor lays her hands bare on Beth’s naked shoulders and smiles at her own reflection. “This is about support. We all have flaws, the point is to help each other find and correct them.” I’m next. “Diana?” The doctor steps behind me as she says my name. I’m looking at Beth’s reflection in the mirror. She is trying to make eye contact but I won’t. I can’t. I can’t think of anything wrong with her body that hasn’t already been said. Beth is now searching my body for flaws. I’m trying to make eye contact with her but she won’t. “Diana, it’s your turn.” “Her right breast is bigger than her left,” I blurt out. “No,” the doctor is being patient with me, “We already decided her left is biggest.” “I’m sorry.” I am. “I can’t tell my left from my right.” I’m lying. The doctor is sighing on the back of my head. “Never mind, we’ll skip you.” Thank God. She starts moving away from me but is suddenly by my side, staring at my vagina. I’m slowly moving to cover it but she stops me. “I thought we talked about your pubic hair?” Some of the students are nodding. “I don’t want to shave it.” I’m too nervous about touching it for that long. “The class took a vote, Diana.” “Yes, ma’am.”
Terminally Beautiful
“Her left boob is a lot bigger than her right,” the girl next to me says about the new girl Beth.
“I’m getting that fixed on the thirtieth.”
Beth is offended.
We all are our first time.
“This isn’t about judgment, Beth.” The doctor lays her hands bare on Beth’s naked shoulders and smiles at her own reflection. “This is about support. We all have flaws, the point is to help each other find and correct them.”
I’m next.
“Diana?” The doctor steps behind me as she says my name.
I’m looking at Beth’s reflection in the mirror. She is trying to make eye contact but I won’t. I can’t.
I can’t think of anything wrong with her body that hasn’t already been said.
Beth is now searching my body for flaws.
I’m trying to make eye contact with her but she won’t.
“Diana, it’s your turn.”
“Her right breast is bigger than her left,” I blurt out.
“No,” the doctor is being patient with me, “We already decided her left is biggest.”
“I’m sorry.” I am. “I can’t tell my left from my right.” I’m lying.
The doctor is sighing on the back of my head.
“Never mind, we’ll skip you.”
Thank God.
She starts moving away from me but is suddenly by my side, staring at my vagina.
I’m slowly moving to cover it but she stops me.
“I thought we talked about your pubic hair?”
Some of the students are nodding.
“I don’t want to shave it.”
I’m too nervous about touching it for that long.
“The class took a vote, Diana.”
“Yes, ma’am.”