St. Peter's Asylum discussion

It's easier to give an example than to describe. I needed a Rant anyways:

So, we all know what's been going on with my grandma, yes? She has Alzheimer's, had a stroke, was in the hospital. They couldn't take the tests they wanted to take on her for a while because every few minutes she would forget she had a stroke, and why she was there. Sometimes she would freak, sometimes she'd be quiet, sometimes she'd get really angry and start to yell.

And that's not the grandmother I remembered.

So, a few things ima list. News with her, effects on my family, and Christmas plans.

News With Her:
My grandmother has sort of recovered from the stroke. Her left leg is paralyzed, and she can't exactly walk. She's staying at a stroke-rehab place, and is currently using a walker. My grandfather had to make a rather tough decision: he knew she wouldn't manage at their house, which has two sets of stairs and all the beds are up there, and so he found her a really good retirement home. It has four dogs, and is like it's own little town. It specialises in Alzheimer's patients.

Effects on My Family:
Things are tight, tense, and stressed. My dad isn't the same; half the time he's bawling, half the time he's screaming at my mum. He apologises for both. My mum takes it, as she understands, but I've overheard her on the phone mention how sick of it she is. I don't know if she can take much more. She herself is on edge and the verge of tears, because she was close to my grandmother. I simply try not to think about it, and to keep myself busy. That's the reason behind my sudden splurge of characters.

Christmas Plans:
So, we're going to start the day off at home. Do presents, breakfast, etc. We're all going to drive to my other grandmother's house, and drop off the food. Depending on which home my hospitalised-grandmother is in, I may be permitted to go visit her with my mum and dad. After they visit her, we'll enjoy dinner with my other grandmother and grandfather.

I don't think I want to go. I want to remember my grandmother in the way I know her. I don't want to have to face the moment when she looks at me and asks, "Who are you?" So I'm just going to avoid it.

I know I can't run forever, but I have to for now.

....
^^ that's a rant. Comment away~

Poor Iso. :(

Yeah, that really sucks.

You have no idea.

I wasn't allowed to see mine in a somewhat similar situation. I was one of the few she vaugely remembered. But, she died a coulple weeks later from severe burn wounds.

.... This is reassuring.

My parents refuse to deny me access to her, but I... Need to remember her as she was.

Well, yours wasn't severely burned, was she? *laughter*

...…… No.

Aw, man. So sorry, Iso. :(


I went through that kind of thing when my dad's mom had cancer. I feel for you.

Yeah. It sucks. But you just need to focus on other things. Like characters:3

Yes. I NEED MOTHERFREAKIN' INSPIRATION!

CSC? I'll help ya.

:D

Sometimes I swear, I'm doing this to myself just to hurt myself.

Gods, Tucker. I worry about him more now than when we were together. It's not wise to be with him, but every time in away from him, I want to be with him. But I can't do that. He has Allie. At least, for the time being.

He might dump her. He doesn't want to, but what choice does he have when she's pushing him for pregnancy to piss off her parents? Supposedly she's been raped, and now doesn't care about what she does with her body. So yeah, I was his Counsler again. Well, before McKenzie and I chewed him out for still dating her. We trash talked her and called her all kinds of names. Then I told him I didn't want to insult her, he said he didn't even care.

So I held him for practically the whole bus ride. >.> Then he basically poured his heart out to me, saying that he loved her, but he didn't know what to do. He doesn't want to date a slut (he said she was a slut, not me). And then I told him that sometimes you had to dump somebody, even if you don't want to. He kind of smiled even though he was on the verge of frustrated tears. Then I knew he realised about my situation with him. I knew then that he knew what I was too afraid to tell him.

>.< So I told him Allie needed therapy and not a boyfriend. So I guess he's thinking about it and now I'm thinking about my feelings that not even I'm so sure about. Can anybody else make sense if this?!?!

:) *hug*

Silvy, your life is so complicated. I feel bad for you, and I send you infinite hugs, buckets of ice cream and romantic comedies that every girl needs to heal. I would tell you to try to have a fresh start, but that never really works, does it?

But this Allie girl sounds like a wacked up bitch. o.O

Mmmmm, ice cream. Thanks. :') *hug*

Yes, I know. She is a wacked up bitch. She goes out of her way to make my life miserable in some ways, mainly by making it obvious what a ho she is when he's around. For instance, I was walking down the hall, and she walked up behind me with a friend.

Friend: "There you are! I thought you already went down [to poil]."
Allie: "Nope. I was giving Tucker a hug. I JIST LOVE SQUEEZING THAT BOY!"
Me: -.-

I hope he dumps her skanky ass, but then I doubt he'd date me again. No matter how many times he flirts, likes to refer to our old relationship, and tells me he still likes me. >.>

Sil, the fact that you're willing to help Tucker with things he's frustrated with is really, really compassionate. It shows just how awesome you are. Maybe Allie's messed up because of what happened to her, and if she's trying to fake it, then that's just messed up.

On another note,

Didja slap Parker for me? XD

Either that, or just hoping it'll rub off on him. Or something like that. Sh/t happens when you're in love. :/

And no, but I did deliver your guys' message. Everyone but him laughed. XD

*~Silvypoo~*(Chaser of Artemis) wrote: "Mmmmm, ice cream. Thanks. :') *hug*

Yes, I know. She is a wacked up bitch. She goes out of her way to make my life miserable in some ways, mainly by making it obvious what a ho she is when he's a..."

e.e I would just slap her. That's aggressive me, though.

If I got to go out with [You Know Who] and then break up with him, and there was a bitch like that, and I knew that he depended on me for emotional support, I would probably just tell him how I feel about her and the things that she does. If you haven't already. You don't want him to believe that she's a sweet angel, because then he'll never dump her skank ass.

Silvy, ily. Was he all like, O.o? And were you like, "Da/n straight!" XD

Something along the lines of, "If you bother Silvy again, we will kick your @ss."

But with better wording by Kat. XD

Oh, he knows she's not an angel. He's pissed because she's suddenly acting like a slut around him and everybody else. Not to mention she's very self-absorbed with her own body. <--------------WTF?

But yes, I depend on him sometimes too. But rarely. I've told him how I feel... McKenzie and I totally scooped trash on her to him, but he said he doesn't even care. So why in the hell is he torturing me and still dating her? There's no way he can "love" her when he's do angry about her and her actions.

Well, you've done your part, and if he can't break up with her, than that's his problem.

Yes, we'll I'm not the only one who told him that, but I'm the only one he wants to listen to. And the only one who lets me comfort him. Jesus, why can't I just tell him?!

I get that. I had a friend who "dated" this guy, and they never talked or anything. It's so annoying, and also awkward. e__e

Mhm. I had a bf who wouldn't talk to me. It was annoying and I was pissed.

But the thing is, my friend wouldn't talk to him. It was awkward for everyone, and I was just like, "Look, if you like his company, SPEND TIME WITH HIM! If you don't, BREAK UP WITH HIM."

He's also a family friend, and when I asked him about it after they broke up, he goes, "Oh, yeah. I don't really mind, I was gonna break up with her that same day.

What the....

Yeah, people suck. And have serious issues. :/

Totally agree.

Amara *I didn't mean to, but what is done is done* wrote: "Something along the lines of, "If you bother Silvy again, we will kick your @ss."

But with better wording by Kat. XD"

Why thank you!

:)

No seriously Silvy, it sounds like a romantic chick flick. The guy goes out with the slutty cheerleader, she makes fun of it to the nice girl, the guy breaks up with the cheerleader and then goes out with you!

You've just hit a few bumps in the road. And if it doesn't work out, hey, it's life. You'll find someone new. I think you should watch 500 Days of Summer, it might help you a little. It's sad but at the end your all like: d'aww

I honeslty wish, I could put my story on the Internet. I can't though, so why does it matter?

Why not? Just turn it into a story and post it on your page, no one will know unless you tell them.

I had ice cream, no joke. :)

Yeah sounds close... Except I'm the cheerleader and he dated her a couple days after we went out. Probably as an attempt to get over me, but who knows.

I hope so. This is getting ridiculous, and I'm completely annoyed with myself, but I can't help myself. I can't fight my heart.

Lucky.

:( I would just smack him and be like: 'Get your shit togetha bro or imma pop a cap in yo ass'

All gangsta like. I taught a sixth grader how to talk gangsta. He thought I was the most hilarious person on earth... I love youth.

I had ice cream; no joke.

Well, it's pretty close. Except that I'm the cheerleader- not a slutty one, though. The football players are my bros<3-, and Tucker went out with Allie a couple days after we broke up.

I hope so. This is starting to get ridiculous. I'm actually starting to become annoyed with myself, but what can I do? I can't fight my heart.

Oh, Jesus. I'm kind of living the Elin/Zach/Penny paradox. But I'm Tucker's "prince" instead of the princess who needs him for everything.

Wanna hear Kat's young love story? It will make you feel much better about yourself.

When I was younger I liked this guy, Evan. He was actually quite a douchebag, but I loved him nonetheless. He was intelligent, but loved to gloat about it. He had shaggy lead-colored hair, pale skin and sparkling blue eyes under wire frame glasses.

I sat next to him in class, and we would pass notes. Back then I was friends with this girl, Ellie. She was 'going out' with this guy Jack. He was exactly like Ethan, and they were best friends. She knew that I liked him. Basically I swooned over him for two years. Then, a few weeks before this big field trip, I caught him staring at this girl, Jessica. (Who later turned out to be one of my good friends, as well as Jack.)

I told him: "I know you like her." And he denied it. I then told him: "If you did I'd be heartbroken." But it was in a whisper-like thing. He didn't hear me all the way.

We went on this fieldtrip thing, and everyone was getting together. Back then I was this toughie that didn't even cry when she slammed her hand in the door. We were on the bus back to the school, and it was dark. I sent Ethan a sticky note that said something like: I like you, do you like me?

He said I like you like a friend.

I was crushed. I cried.

A few months later, things were back to normal and we were friends again. Then we were talking about relationships and he was like: "I just don't have the mind capacity to have a relationship."

Then Ellie said: "You have like a 400 IQ, you definetly could go out with a girl. Why not this girl?"

Then things got all weird. :/ Then two years later he moved away and I never heard from him again.

TEEHEE (Kat) wrote: "Lucky.

:( I would just smack him and be like: 'Get your shit togetha bro or imma pop a cap in yo ass'

All gangsta like. I taught a sixth grader how to talk gangsta. He thought I was the most hila..."


XD ily. But I think he depends on me too much. I'll talk to him tomorrow. I can't make these decisions for him.

TEEHEE (Kat) wrote: "Lucky.

:( I would just smack him and be like: 'Get your shit togetha bro or imma pop a cap in yo ass'

All gangsta like. I taught a sixth grader how to talk gangsta. He thought I was the most hila..."


XD ily. But I think he depends on me too much. I'll talk to him tomorrow. I can't make these decisions for him.

...o.o Boy needs to learn how to live.

Without the supposed pot and drug-dealing? I agree.

I'll sleep on it. >.< G'night, love. Thanks for your help. :)<3

LOL WHUT? This guy is sounding more and more like my neighbor. I believed his act for a year, and then I just decided: fuck you. I don't need your drama.

Night.

Okay, so I have this fricking AWFUL cold or something, and it is driving me insane. Almost literally. I've only had it a day, and it is screwing with my life. Music lessons this week? Cancelled, against my heavy protests. I can't breathe, sleeping doesn't look fun either, and my voice is starting to go again. The one thing that really sucks? I still have school. Being homeschooled really sucks sometimes.
This thing has also decided to screw with my brain. I don't feel like reading, writing, or even listening to music because I'm so miserable. I'm so busy sneezing my brains out and coughing up a lung to most anything, or so it seems. I just wanna be all like, 'Screw this, I'll take some meds and soldier through' but my dad bought crappy meds I have to take every four hours. Not to mention my mom's sick too, so we will have to buy more at a fairly quick pace. My day's been pretty sucky, thanks to this brilliant thing we call a cold.

My mom thinks I may have something else on top of it, specially desgined to screw up my vocal chords. Great. That's gonna mess me up majorly. I love to talk to my friends, even just through the phone, and if it supremely messes up my vocal chords, I'm trapped in my house with no way to communicate with my friends besides texting. Bleep. When I'm sick, I'm not fun to be around, so I'm currently weighing the pros and cons between locking myself in my room until I feel better. Yay.

:/ I hope you feel better, hon. I send you good fly medicine, tissues, and love. :)

Wish me luck girls~

OOH YAY ISO'S LOVE STORY~

I have only liked four boys in all of my years of life, and only one of them I haven't gone out with. I guess I'm pretty or something?

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The first was in 4th grade. His name was Jake. Jake was one of those students who come in halfway through the year. Our teacher assigned him to sit next to me, and we clicked instantly.

It wasn't long before we were the class couple, hanging around behind the pillars at lunch and kissing, talking about out days. I'm the (shameful) kind of girl who dreams immediately what my name would sound like with his. Annie Poblano just sounded weird to me.

Then the book fair came. And Jake made me steal from it.
Before you say anything, I loved the boy and would do anything for him. And the book fairs were a big thing in 4th grade.

I got caught, but I didn't rat on Jake to the principal. My parents were pissed, and it was months before I told them. They called his mum, and I haven't talked to Jake since.

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Then, in 6th grade, there was TJ. I've known TJ for the longest time, and he is the sweetest kid-- sometimes. It was shocking when he Salem me out in 6th grade, but in front of your entire class you can't say no. So I felt required to say yes instead of my usual "maybe later, I can't date right now."

It was awkward, lemme say that. The only time TJ ever approached me was on a run day, when he suggested we kiss because everyone was bugging us about it.

I said yes, and after school that day I kissed him.

Two days later I wrote him a letter and we broke up. I know that's cruel.

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In 8th grade, there was Auggie. I sort of liked him, but the minute I told our group of friends they pushed for him to ask me out.

I knew it was coming, just by the way they were acting. But I said nothing.

It was so stupid. He typed it in the Google Taskbar on the computers in the library. I wrote back "sure".

It was even more awkward with Auggie. We never kissed, and didn't even sit by each other at lunch. So, I sent him a text (I know, awful again) saying I just wasn't ready for a boyfriend.

We're still really close friends.

~
And now, for as long as I know him, there will be Seth. He's, like, the perfect guy: he's musical, he cooks, he pushes me to exercise to lose my itty bitty belly fat, he's funny....

And I can't tell him I love him. Because I don't want to ruin our friendship.


There's my love life;)

Well, this is my department. I am the queen of broken families. My whole family is practically all divorced or widowed. Don't worry, Faith, I know your parents aren't divorced. :)

I say go for it. You're happier in GA, and you need to take a little break from your mom. Trust me, I get that. It will also be time for you to finally say your good-byes. You can't hold on to Jake forever. Plus what I've learned about him, he's such an asshole towards you!

So, put your foot down. You're a very strong and independent young lady, and you seriously need to put this guy in his place. Give him one last talking to and then end it. For good. A long deist since relationship wouldn't work out, anyway.

UPDATE!

Jesus, people just can't keep their f/cking mouths shut at my school! But for once, I was actually happy about it.

He knows, he knows, he knows, he knows! Did I mention to you guys that Tucker knows I still like him? ;)

Nine people that I'd talked to told him! And he asked one of our friends about it (Tom). Tommy tried getting Tucker to tell me, and I did too. Finally the little bastard let Tom tell me (Wuss). I told him it wasn't a big deal, who cared? He could talk to me about anything, I tried making that as clear as I could. And I got a hug. *swoons*

But he still can't find it in his heart to dump Allie. I told him I knew it was hard, especially if you still think you love them. Then I said, "But Tucker, I haven't heard any shit about her being nice to you at all! All I've heard is that she's a fucking slut and a bitch to you. You should really dump her." Then we talked about the other two girls he likes.

He likes McKenzie more than all three of us, but Kenzie refuses to date him. She says that even though she can't stand Allie, the little brat thinks that she's her friend, so she can't do that. And she also told him, "No, absolutely not. You dated one of my nearest friends and I don't do that to her." Not to mention she doesn't like him. So that leaves me, but his likeness of me has sort of dropped because I dumped him. I apologized I don't know how many times, but it's okay. He's not made at me anymore,

Who knows, maybe in time something will happen. I can only hope. :)3

YAY! I'm happy for you, that he knows how you feel. But what's the whole thing with him liking three girls who are all either friends/enemies with each other? That's.....interesting, to be polite?

Faith I think if you're having that much of a trouble with your mom, the pros sorta weigh out the cons. I don't have any experience, and don't make a decision just on my opinion, but if it's your old school it'd probably easy to slip back into the schedule. If the curriculum is harder, I'm sure you could ask one of your old friends to tutor you on what you missed. And if you're home alone, you could always go over to a friend's house and catch up on what you missed while you were gone.

Iunno, Allie is like me and McKenzie sort of, she just hates us because we are always talking or with her boyfriend.

And by the way, she put on quite a show. If Tucker do much as walked past me, she was all over him and hugging him. He got soo annoyed, and she got so pissed because we were talking in the hall and she came up and hugged him. He hugged her back, but he didn't stop looking at me, and it was as if she wasn't even there. That really pissed hr off... :)

That makes more sense.

Were you trying not to laugh at how angry she was? I would've started cracking up.