Parul Sharma's Blog

Suddenly, life has
started making more sense.
The cloud of darkness,
transformed to flowers of essence.

Is this a blazing new world,
or the vision has changed?
She finds herself only smiling
after days, that were estranged.

The colours of brightness,
enthu and new hopes on rise.
Streak of events in her life,
are now more precise.

Suddenly, She understands,
the gimmick of destiny.
Series of incidents,
and their meaning in brevity.

A surge of wisdom & energy
tingling through her nerves.
They have been always there,
but it's now that she observes.

After the abysmal fall,
you rise to new height.
that's the lesson found
in secret diary of every wright.

She has begun to relate,
series of misfortune incidents.
That make a major contribution,
to this awakening call.

Thank you Lord,
for this beautiful life.
For She have grown
a little more wise.

Its a new day,
a new vision, She has got.
Everything looks enticing,
'Past' was a wonderful plot.


(c) Parul Sharma
11/06/2017

You gave it enough chance,
    it took quite a long stance.
To accept the change of wind,
    for love turns you blind.

When you made efforts single-handedly,
    but those sacrifices went unnoticed.
Scared to lose your twin soul on earth,
    but, your beloved questions your worth.

Let it go ! Let it go! 

When you place that emotion 'love',
    When you are ready to become a cove.
Above every blessing on this Earth,
    carve yourself, in his life henceforth.
 
And with not a pinch of fear, 
    you are ready to lose your identity, dear.
Still there is no warmth from other side, 
    it's high time for you to realise. 

To, let it go ! Let it go !

Your fear comes in front of you,
   will you again find love that is true.
Tell your heart that is insane,
   Don't give importance to something mundane.

Ask yourself to not dream with open eyes,
   try to see reality, covered with lies.
If really, had his love been real,
   believe me, he wouldn't have easily dwindle.

Let it go! and this time..

Don't hold expectation,
   for it is, the death of relation.
Don't keep your eyes waiting,
   for the love has already been abating.

Once gone, it shall never come back,
   even if returns, would only bring wrack.
It's time for you to realise,
   giving up on it, would be wise.

 So, let it go ! Let it go!

(c) Parul Sharma 01/04/2017

                                                     She has moved on. Not for a quarter of month or a year but for forever, this time. She has woken up, probably from a long sleep. The deep sleep.
She is slow. She realized it slow, when you were into her and she began to love you and she realized it slow too, when you were out of it and had changed. She ignored the 'present you' and continue to live with the fragments of past. She thought that, it's just a tough phase and that you will be the same, the same old you, the moment you’ll come out of all your tensions. She didn’t know, she is living in a fantasy. She thought that you'll make up for every ill-treatment that you gave her and that you were messed up with your life so much that you can’t see her pain. Truly, she was living in a fantasy. You destroyed her mental peace, by your actions and technology. By disconnecting the phone in mid conversation and blocking her from the social apps, you killed her alive. You did it tactfully, you hit the right nerve. You did that because it was fun for you, to rib her reputation, her confidence, her beauty. Naive she was, who couldn’t understand your crafty games and lived with the myth that you love her. I wish, I so wish she knew that love only forgives, heals and care. It doesn’t destroy, it builds. The way she was trying to build the deep relation of trust with you. Alas! She was living in a fantasy.
Dear boy, Can you hurt anyone who doesn't care about you? No, right? So, it was not entirely your mistake. It is she who is to be blamed for caring so much, for gathering all the strength and standing up again, again to plead to you and again to get shatter. Yes! Shatter, is what you wanted her to get. So bravo! You won. Yes, dear boy, you have won the ‘Game of Love’. She lost it to you. This time, she is shattered such that she cannot stand-up one more time to plead to you for that emotion called love that exists on her earth perhaps not for her.

But, I only wonder why? Why she tried so hard to be with you. Ah! Probably she doesn't know her worth or perhaps she knew, still she want to live with you till eternity. Perhaps, when you were ill-treating her, there were many others waiting to even meet her over a cup of coffee. Perhaps, when you were busy blocking her on social media apps, there were many who have been waiting for her reply of simple 'Hello'. Perhaps, when you were telling her why she isn’t good enough for you, there were many others trying to tell her why she is the best of the lot for them? Perhaps, when she was busy losing her out for you, there were many who wanted to treat her like a queen. But my dear boy, you rock! Because she made you a star, who belittled her to that extent that she forgot that she was a star before she fell for you.
Dear boy, she would have digested the truth, if you would have told her the exact reason of what went wrong, but to hide your own guilt you kept on building new excuses, and that’s when she went crazy to find the logical reason. Dolt she was, to use her logical nerves to crack this Like-Love-Marry puzzle. She might have given up long back, but my boy, your shimmering love painted picture took time to fade away from her eyes. And just when she felt, the light is getting dim; she tried hard to burn it back with the same intensity, forgetting that she has only 50% to give. She made it 100% stretching beyond her capacity. And just when in months, she realized that it's time to give up. You gave her one more ray of hope and she was back with the lighting love. She was wrong! She was wrong to conjoin those wires to light up the fused bulb of relationship.
And are you not inquisitive to know why she will not look back one more time? Because, the count of the bad memories you gave her have twofold the good ones. Because you have profoundly convinced her that you are not a gentleman and definitely not the guy with whom she wants to spend the rest of her life with. You have now made her realize that ‘You were a mistake’ that she committed. Perhaps, she bewildered you to be her soul mate, but you have now acted as a channel to choose the right person for her. She now has her mind more coherent and filters more defined.
And I am perplexed to congratulate you for the fact that 'You once won her love' or to feel sympathy for 'You lost her for this life'

Regards,
“The Restored Time”

It's, a day before, since
    when, she suffers a heartache.
But, for social gathering, she puts
    on perfunctory smile, for name sake.

She wants to lament, for
     the wounds on her heart.
She has no choice then to
     act selfless and extrovert.

For it is her sister's marriage,
     she couldn't spoil her day.
Revering few times,giving that
     superficial smile, reassuring fay.

She smiles..She smiles..

Smiles, to bolster fake expression,
     to celebrate the day of dearest one.
Somewhere she hassles to manifest,
     impossible combo 'soul into dolmen'.

At night, she struggles to sleep,
     those memories bolts in her eyes.
The silent tears, that flows,
     poor pillow that doesn't dries.

She continues to skirmish between
    'quest for answers' or 'let go'.
To tell if she should seek
     those answers or simply forgo.

She smiles..She smiles..

She tells her heart, for
     the present is fine.
She now needs to choose
     between a smile or whine.

For the ones who knows
     her, could read her eyes.
Even if she lies..
     even if she lies..

Something has shattered
     within and is irreparable.
Her nights go sleepless,
     and she struggles to lull.

She smiles..She smiles..

Behind that smile,
     she hides all her pain.
but with million thoughts
     and memories, her smile wane.

She still has question and
      she eats her heart, for truth.
The umpteem false stories,
      she heard from that dude.

She console herself as
      she looks in the mirror,
Smiles ..she smiles,
      with another weak attempt.

She smiles..She smiles..

This time a little bold,
      a little bold play.
She smiles ..
      she smiles..

The quest in her eyes
     somehow wither her smile.
But, she smiles,
     she smiles all the while..


(c)PARUL SHARMA
23/feb/2017

That jive and his attempt to flirt,
somehow, these love games only hurt.

And while she forewarn him to stay away,
little she knew, she is his next prey.

Those tantalizing words, stole her soul,
her eyes now wears, the love as kohl.

'Swing and tango', their love flourished,
world was 'the two of them', rest vanished.

Commitment & wedlock, were the days she dreamt,
'lustful desires' what was he actually meant.

Her goodness overcome the guy's intention,
the evil thoughts, got parked by abstention.

One day, he confessed 'his counterfeit emotions'
deep in her heart, he left a commotion.

She now, search ways to fill up  the hole,
oblivious of, what is in her fate, her dole.

(c)Parul Sharma
27/06/2016

When we felt that speck of feeling for each other,
and surroundings acknowledged the chemistry further.

When you couldn't conceal the soft corner,
but wanted to shield my dignity & honor.

When you masked all of a sudden,
and harshly gave me those bidden.

Yes! I began to hate you more and more,
ignorant of your feelings, vested in heart's core.

Those ego clashes, ruined the residual of our relation,
exhibited us as strangers with different destination.

And then I moved on with the clog of hatred on my heart,
one day, everything remodelled when I got the reasons of dart.

No! I don't trust words,  so I repelled the  assertion of a friend,
but, your actions added a torsion, the end is completely transcend.

I regret, I regret the time I lost .. in enmity for  you,
I wish I had ever strived to know the palpable you.

Behind all those derisive remarks, it was an attempt to hide,
I wish I could read between the lines of chide.

I am sorry, I misunderstood you,
It looks like a dream but I am glad it is true.

(c)Parul Sharma
27/06/2016

Don't clarify, some ears are deaf to hear ..
Some preconceived notions are better unclear.

When your conscience supports,  just do it ..
For the world wouldn't be a place free of critics ..

You know your past, you know your present
The denied opportunities, the success imminent

Go on .. go on with your basic instinct
Away from the people who make your dreams constrict

Your journey is unique, with regular veer..
Chill! 'dear tyro', do not fear ..

Trudge or tip-toe, but savour the pleasure..
World will someday surely recognise the treasure.

'World',a hub of opportunities, if you have the vision ..
Else follow the herd and be a part of the prison.

Let your thoughts not flee..let the dream not die..
Call on, before it's late to ponder your own 'Why?'

Follow your instinct! , follow your heart!
They somehow know us more, even than the logical part.

(c) Parul Sharma
      20/08/2015

"It's a bit late,
and u still awake ?
For God's sake,
sleep n don't chase ...

Sorry for the plight,
wish you were right.
Tomorrow will come,
save your talks fulsome.

with modesty,
I m talking to you ,
making every attempt,
curing your luv flu..

now please understand ..
that u stand no chance..
told u , I told u
in the first instance."

(c) PARUL SHARMA
13/08/2015

It takes ..

 tears to understand the beauty of smile,
 simplicity to appreciate the style

 absence to realize the warmth of presence,
 calmness to apprehend emotions which are intense

 noise to feel the peace of silence,
 stupidity to learn the lines full of sense

 distance to crave for closeness,
 sadness to measure the worth of happiness

 darkness to long for light,
 wrong to highlight the right

 betrayal to understand the gravity of loyal,
 ordinary deeds to respect the royal

 real life to distinguish from reel
 hurtful wound to covet for  heal 

 thirst to relish the tasteless water,
 'before' to think of the effects of 'after'

 loneliness to cherish togetherness,
  and some good deeds to get bless 

 Because ..

 We don't value the things & people 
 thinking we have options in multiple

yuun dhoondte jo yahan wahan chale, 
kabhi zameen pe , toh kabhi aasmaan tale
kuch pal jo aasu bahate chale,
phir wo dhundle se raste saaf dikhne lage,

aur samajh aaya ki khud humne...

khud humne hi toh wo dhoond banayi thi..
haste khelte dil se ,mulakat uss tanhai ki..
wo muskurahat bhi khoob mili hame,
istimaal jiska hamne kiya hrr lamhe,

aur samajh aaya ki khud humne...

Khud hamne hi toh bhatakna manzoor kiya ...
aasaan sawalo ka mushkil jawab buun diya ..
jo dhoondne chale thei wo toh paas hi thaa..
bas kabhi iss baat ka ehsaas na thaa..

(c) Parul Sharma
30/10/2014