Bonny Capps's Blog
June 7, 2015
Deliverance for Amelia
I’ve had people ask me what inspired me to write Deliverance for Amelia.
That’s a hard question to answer, really.
We were riding along in the truck one day, and I was working on another manuscript when I stopped suddenly and looked at my husband.
I plucked out my headphones and I said, “I want to write something dark, but I want it to be different.”
My husband smiled and said, “Well, do it.”
And… I did. I typed my little butt off, and the first draft was finished within a month. It was crazy because I have never written a book so quickly – it just came to me. Gabe and Amelia wanted their story to be told, and they were in my ear every waking - and sleeping - moment. Now, how a story as dark and twisted as this one “just came to me” is beyond me. I’ve never quite allowed myself to go to the part of my brain that I had to go to when I wrote this story.
Now I’m addicted. The dark side swallowed me whole.
I will say, I did question my own sanity when I wrote it. I actually wrote the 2nd chapter before I wrote the first. I didn’t plan on having three POVs total. The reason that I did that was because I wanted each character to speak for themselves.
Now, I’ll talk about Gabe first. I knew going into it that Gabe would not be a knight in shining armor. Gabe is evil. He’s a psychopath. He kills people and he enjoys it.
“Even if I tried to feel compassion, it wouldn’t be a possibility. Those emotions just do not come to me. Not for the human race, anyways. I’ve always related to animals, but not humans. I hate people. They call it misanthropy; contempt or hatred for the human race. I’ve got demons, but I’m not sure why. I’ve never allowed myself to delve too deep into the ‘why’ of why I am the way that I am. I just… am.”
Gabe would not change throughout the book. It was never an option. If he did somehow learn how to love and change, he would not be a psychopath and I would have failed his character terribly.
On to Amelia. She was an interesting character because she definitely comes from a different background than myself. She’s wealthy, she’s talented and she’s driven. She is a people pleaser (easy prey for Gabe? Possibly…) However, she’s also biting at the bit for her life to get a shakeup. Well, she gets it… and she’s not entirely happy about it.
“I maintained a high GPA in high school and I’m currently a first year in college, just arrived yesterday in fact. I came from a wealthy background and am currently struggling to find myself outside of the mansions, country clubs and flashy cars. I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth, so it was important to me that I earned this scholarship; that I worked to maintain high grades.
So, in turn - my nose remained in textbooks; my childhood merely an appearance. Everything had to be perfect, otherwise I would be on the news - my mother had warned - and we simply couldn’t have that. Piano lessons, tutors and charity events ruled my life. But now, I’m finally free, and I’m not quite sure what to do with myself.”
The content within this book was incredibly difficult to write at times – from both POVs. I wanted to stay true to Gabe, so that meant that I put Amelia through absolute hell at times. You’ll witness the abuse inflicted on her first hand, just as you’ll witness Gabe’s sick mind.
Ultimately, this is a story about lust, decisions and survival.
Will Amelia get her happily ever after?
Will Gabe ever learn how to love?
You’ll have to see for yourself
Deliverance for Amelia
That’s a hard question to answer, really.
We were riding along in the truck one day, and I was working on another manuscript when I stopped suddenly and looked at my husband.
I plucked out my headphones and I said, “I want to write something dark, but I want it to be different.”
My husband smiled and said, “Well, do it.”
And… I did. I typed my little butt off, and the first draft was finished within a month. It was crazy because I have never written a book so quickly – it just came to me. Gabe and Amelia wanted their story to be told, and they were in my ear every waking - and sleeping - moment. Now, how a story as dark and twisted as this one “just came to me” is beyond me. I’ve never quite allowed myself to go to the part of my brain that I had to go to when I wrote this story.
Now I’m addicted. The dark side swallowed me whole.
I will say, I did question my own sanity when I wrote it. I actually wrote the 2nd chapter before I wrote the first. I didn’t plan on having three POVs total. The reason that I did that was because I wanted each character to speak for themselves.
Now, I’ll talk about Gabe first. I knew going into it that Gabe would not be a knight in shining armor. Gabe is evil. He’s a psychopath. He kills people and he enjoys it.
“Even if I tried to feel compassion, it wouldn’t be a possibility. Those emotions just do not come to me. Not for the human race, anyways. I’ve always related to animals, but not humans. I hate people. They call it misanthropy; contempt or hatred for the human race. I’ve got demons, but I’m not sure why. I’ve never allowed myself to delve too deep into the ‘why’ of why I am the way that I am. I just… am.”
Gabe would not change throughout the book. It was never an option. If he did somehow learn how to love and change, he would not be a psychopath and I would have failed his character terribly.
On to Amelia. She was an interesting character because she definitely comes from a different background than myself. She’s wealthy, she’s talented and she’s driven. She is a people pleaser (easy prey for Gabe? Possibly…) However, she’s also biting at the bit for her life to get a shakeup. Well, she gets it… and she’s not entirely happy about it.
“I maintained a high GPA in high school and I’m currently a first year in college, just arrived yesterday in fact. I came from a wealthy background and am currently struggling to find myself outside of the mansions, country clubs and flashy cars. I was born with a silver spoon in my mouth, so it was important to me that I earned this scholarship; that I worked to maintain high grades.
So, in turn - my nose remained in textbooks; my childhood merely an appearance. Everything had to be perfect, otherwise I would be on the news - my mother had warned - and we simply couldn’t have that. Piano lessons, tutors and charity events ruled my life. But now, I’m finally free, and I’m not quite sure what to do with myself.”
The content within this book was incredibly difficult to write at times – from both POVs. I wanted to stay true to Gabe, so that meant that I put Amelia through absolute hell at times. You’ll witness the abuse inflicted on her first hand, just as you’ll witness Gabe’s sick mind.
Ultimately, this is a story about lust, decisions and survival.
Will Amelia get her happily ever after?
Will Gabe ever learn how to love?
You’ll have to see for yourself
Deliverance for Amelia
