Aditya Singh's Blog

9th November 2006
Dear Diary,
I cannot believe that finally I'm getting married to my love. This journey was really difficult for both of us but finally we made it. For once I felt that we will never be together but you know what finally its happening.
Yes!Yes!Yes! I'm super excited for tomorrow. I just cannot believe that tomorrow we will be one. Yes, tomorrow I will be called Mrs. Saurav Bharadwaj.
Now when I'm closing my eyes all I can see is I'm sitting with Saurav on the mandap. I just want to dance today. I'm so happy that I'm not being able to sit still at one place. And you know what we are meeting after one hour at the same park. I know according to the Hindu customs we are not allowed to meet each other, but still I want to meet him because this will be for the last time when we will be meeting secretly. We are meeting at the same park where we met for the first time an it all began. I still remember I was taking a walk in the park with my grandma when I saw him for the first time, six years ago. He was playing football with kids. He was soaked in sweat. I still remember for the first time when our eyes met my heart skipped a beat and you know what he missed a goal. Yes! he was unable to stop the shot of a ten year old boy for which I tease him even now.
hey, its time I will have to leave now because I don't want to be late. Bye.

10th November 2006
Dear Diary,
Today finally I'm married and I'm so tired now but still I can't wait to tell you everything. Today When I came down in the hall to the mandap from my room, my friend Asha came to me and she showed me a message. It was a message from Saurav and it was something like that,

"Hi Asha
This message is for Preeti, her mobile is not with her so please show this message to her-
Hey love, you are looking wonderful today. So beautiful, so hot and so sexy. I just can't wait to kiss you. If I was allowed than I would have just picked you up in my arms and I would have locked both of us in my room.
I just cannot until night!"

'Don't you have, even a bit of shame, this is my friend's mobile' I wrote back.
After sending the message from Asha's mobile, I looked towards him. He was already looking towards me. Our eyes met and instead of saying sorry he gave me a flying kiss. I smiled and soon both of us sat down on the mandap.
When he was putting Sindoor our eyes met for the first time. And after putting the Sindoor he winked at me in front of pandit ji. Yes I was shocked but I smiled again.
Finally after the ceremony, now I'm sitting in his room. You know what I'll miss dad, mom and of course my cute home.
I hope everyone will love me here as my mom and dad used to love me.
You know he is in the lawn with his friends. Now I'm thinking how Saurav will do it. Will he touch me today?
It's bad thinking such things right?'
But I think I should tell him that I'm very tired.

24th January 2008
It's now almost one year of our marriage and I just don't know why there is so muh of change in Saurav's behavior. This one year with Saurav was so awesome. There was not even a morning when Saurav have not been woken me up by a morning kiss. There is not even an evening when I have not kept my head on his shoulders and have listen about his day at office.
But I don't know why Saurav is changing so much.
He have even started talking with me rudely. I don't know if I have done anything wrong.
He is away from the town for a meeting but I think I will ask him what's wrong when he'll be back because I love him so much and I even can't imagine my life without him.


28th February 2008
I don't know what the hell is wrong with Saurav. He was drunk when he came home today and he started abusing me. It is strange because Saurav never drink. He threw his office bag on the bed and he started moving outside again but when I tried stop him he slapped me and he moved outside.
I really don't know what's wrong,but I want to cry and I just want to cry.

30th February 2008
It's been two days I've not talked to him. He have apologized for almost million times. My inbox is filled with his messages and even he apologized uncountable times in front of me. But tonight he brought a gift for me and he said sorry again.
He said he was in stress, his promotion was cancelled so he drunk and he was not in his sense.
I don't know but I just hugged him tightly today.
He have promised me that he will never behave like this again. He gifted me a necklace and he even took me out for dinner.
I hope so everything will be better once again.
P.S. He is my oxygen and I even cannot think of being away from him.

15th March 2008
No nothing is fine. He started talking rudely with me again. He started shouting on me on little things. This evening when I served him a cup of tea he even threw that cup away because the tea was not good. I don't know what is wrong with him but he apologized for it. We made love tonight. I felt good in his arms after a long time. I felt good when his lips touched mine. Finally it happened after a long time.
He picked me up in his arms and he made me lay down on the bed. We kissed for a long time. We hugged
each other tightly. I surrendered myself completely to him. He entered inside me, we kissed, we cuddled and finally after making love he dozed off to sleep.
I'm not getting sleep so I thought of telling everything to you. He is in sleep, he is laying on the bed next to me and you know what he looks even more cute while sleeping.
I think he is behaving like because of stress and soon everything will be fine.
I think our life will also be filled with life by the dawn.


20th March 2008
He cheated me! Yes, he is a cheater. Today I got a call from a girl and she told me everything. She told me that they were going to marry soon.
He was not in a stress but he was behaving like this with me because of that girl.
He never told me anything about his relationship. He betrayed me.
Our marriage is over today. I left his home and you know what he neither tried to stop me even for once nor he tried to explain anything. I'm back to my sweet home again.

6th August 2008
I don't know how I spent these days. I locked myself most of the time. I was having a hope that Saurav will come and he'll anyhow say that what that girl told me was not true. But no he didn't. He never came. But instead today I received divorce papers through post. I think I've lost him forever. If that makes him happy than I should sign the papers. I love him and even I want him to love me and be mine forever but I never want to force him to be with me.


10th September 2008
I'll meet him tomorrow in the court for the final hearing for our divorce. Tomorrow is the day when I'll lose him forever legally. I think tomorrow I'll be in the court for few hours but I wish if anyhow this divorce would be cancelled or if anyhow I could stop the time in the court so that I could spent rest of my life just looking at him.

15th November 2008
Today when I logged into the Facebook, I was shocked to see his post in the news feed. He married that girl. I tried control myself but I don't know how tears started rolling down my cheeks.
I want to kill myself, diary.


15th June 2009
I'm leaving India today. I got a job in London. I have decided I'll never return. Mom and dad told me thousand times to marry again but I refused because think I still I still love him. Still he is some where in my heart and he'll always be and I don't want to betray someone as he betrayed me. So finally, Bye-Bye India.

20th October 2010
It is almost a year since I last talked with you. I'm so sorry diary. I hope you'll forgive me. You know there is two good news today. I got my promotion today and second the court has given me permission to adopt a girl. Yes, I'm adopting a girl. I can't believe I'll be her mom very soon. I don't know how is the life being a single mother. I'm so happy today.

Anandita- Our broken dreams

Love. Sex. Career. Betrayal.

It was a Sunday, I went on the terrace after having my lunch and as usual I started taking a walk across the perimeter of the boundary. I saw the road that passes in front of my house and as usual it was also busy full of auto rickshaws, cars, bikes. I was on my yearly leave it was almost a year when I came home. This year also I was not having any plan to come home but on the phone call when mom started crying while talking to me I couldn’t control myself, I just booked a ticket to Chandigarh.
I try to imagine what would be going on in the office right now. Ananya as always she will be missing the presentation deadline and I am sure that tonight she will be calling me and she will surely say to help her with the presentation which I was doing from previous three years. I was in the marketing department but still from three years I am helping her with her presentation of accounts department but today when she will call at night first of all I will say no and after her several pleadings I will agree, by the way these days where do you get a chance to hear a girl’s pleadings all they know is how to order ‘Akaash, please bring my laptop, Akaash please give me my phone’ and one day she even order me to bring a tea for her.
‘What did she think of herself? Is she my boss who can order me or I am a waiter or her personal servant’ I started talking to myself.
‘I am head of marketing department and she was junior consultant and she orders me. I never mind because I think her as a friend but still today when she will be calling me I will only agree after she will be pleading for a hour’ I was continuously talking with myself. When I realized I noticed that I have already taken complete six rounds of the perimeter. My eyes shifted on a woman on the adjoining roof, I was seeing her for the first time. This house was locked from almost a month but then I remember that mom was saying that yesterday a new family has shifted in that house. That aunty was holding a bucket in her hands most probably she was here for drying clothes.
I came back home, it was 2 p.m, mom said ‘Akaash where are you roaming at this hour just sit with me and let’s talk. I said ‘Mom, how can I talk with you, you are watching serials.
She switched off the T.V with the remote, I sat next to her and she started moving her fingers on my hairs. She said ‘Akaash, you are 26 now, when you will marry?’
‘Mom, again!’ I said.
‘What I have said wrong, before dying I want to see my grandchildrens.’
‘Mom, I am going on the terrace again, why you watch serials so much? I am able to see the affects of the serials in you’ I replied.
‘But beta, you will marry someone later, so what is the problem now? You have a job, you are well paid.’
I didn’t reply anything, it was for the fifth time she have opened this topic in front of me from previous seven days.
‘If you love someone than you can say me, I will talk with your dad’ she said again.
‘Mom, I don’t love anyone and neither I will marry at this age, I have lots of work to do, I want to become famous, I still don’t have my own house and lots more.’
‘Beta you can do that after marriage also’ She replied.
I stood up from the bed and I said ‘Mom, I don’t want to talk about this again.’
I moved again to the terrace and I started taking walk, I again looked towards the adjoining roof and I saw a girl this time. She was drying her hairs with a towel, she was wearing a saaree, and she was of my age. I looked towards her properly, she was having a fair complexion, her eyes and her lips were covered with her wet hairs. I was continuously looking at her, after sometime she moved her hairs back and she looked towards me. I looked towards her blue eyes, her pink lips I was almost hypnotized. I looked towards her eyes again but this time she saw me staring at her and she started walking towards the stairs.
‘Oh Shit! She saw me staring at her’ I said to myself.
My eyes followed her till she was out of my sight. I stood there for another five minutes and then I came back.
I asked ‘Mom, I am going to the market, do you want me to bring something for you?’
‘No’ she replied.
I changed my dress and I moved towards the market, it was full of rush. After roaming for half an hour I took an auto to Elante Mall. It is a biggest mall in the Chandigarh. I decided to check the movies that were frequently released. I moved towards the third floor in the lift.
I started exploring the mall; it was such a beautiful mall. I was coming here for the third time. It was a mall having four floors and an underground parking. They were showing Guzaarish on the screen, after roaming in the mall for quite a long time I sat down on a bench. I closed my eyes and again the same face came in front of me, I don’t know why I was not being able to move my mind off her. Her hairs that were kissing the air, and flowing with a rythm, her blue eyes. I was again lost in her. It was happening with me for the first time that I was feeling a kind of attraction towards any girl.
That night after having dinner when I shifted on my bed and again when I closed my eyes the same face came in my mind. I started thinking about her and some question started popping in my mind.
‘What if she is already married?’
‘What if she is having a boyfriend?’
‘What if she is engaged?’
‘She was wearing a saaree, I recalled but she was not wearing a sindoor but it can also be possible that she have not put any sindoor as she have taken bath recently’ there was continuous arguments going on in my mind. For now I just wanted to see her again. I stood up, I wear my sleepers and I came outside and started moving on the terrace. I looked towards her house, and to my surprise she was there, she was busy on her mobile, the screen light was falling on her face which was making it shine even more. She was wearing Salwar suit, she was busy typing on her phone. I checked the time it was 12:30 a.m and at this time she was chatting. I was feeling a kind of jealousy, but that doesn’t mean that she have a boyfriend I started saying it to my heart.
‘Should I talk with her?’ I questioned myself, after several arguments I came to a final decision that I will surely talk with her. I started taking a walk along the boundary so that she will not think that I came on the terrace just to check her. While taking walk slowly I went near the boundary that joins both the terrace together. She was still lost in her mobile phone. She looked towards me but within next nanoseconds she was again lost in her mobile phone.
Again a battle started in my mind ‘Should I talk with her?’
One side of my heart was yes and one side was opposing, my mind said before she will leave just talk with her. I crossed my fingers and I said ‘hi.’ She turned towards me and replied ‘hi.’
‘I am Akaash’ I introduced myself.
‘I am Anandita’ she replied.
‘So whats going on?’ I asked.
‘Chatting with friends and what are you doing here now?’
‘I....I.......I just came here to take the fresh air.’
She kept the phone on the boundary and she came near me and she stood taking the support of the boundary.
‘So you all are new here?’ I asked.
‘Yes’ she replied.
‘From when you are staying here?’ She asked.
‘Actually I am born here but I do not stay here, my parents stay here.’ I replied.
‘Where do you stay?’
‘Delhi’ I replied.
She asked ‘What do you do?’
‘I am head of marketing department in HDFC mutual fund’ I felt proud saying my prestigious post and the company with whom I work.’
She said ‘Good, you are at a good post.’
‘What do you do?’
‘I am a doctor.’ She replied.
We started talking on various topics, while talking I scanned her fingers to check if there is any engagement ring but there was no ring.
At last she asked ‘Are you married?’
‘No’ I replied, she asked me the same thing which I wanted to ask her.
‘What about you?’ I asked.
‘Never’ she replied.
‘I hate marriages’ and she started laughing at her own sentence.
‘I am feeling sleepy, see you tomorrow’ she said.
‘Good night’ I replied.
A week passed away, we both became good friends, at the evening we started regularly after she used to come from the clinic. She used to share with me about her day at the hospital; we started sharing each and every thing with each other.
It was Saturday and as usual we were talking with each other on the terrace. She said ‘I want to go to a shopping, will you give me a company?’
‘Of course’ I said.
‘Tomorrow, when?’ I asked.’
‘Let’s go in the evening.’
That day we talked on the several topics and finally we both went to our house.
She called me at 5.30 p.m next day ‘hello’ I said.
‘Where are you Akaash?’ She asked.
‘I am coming down in a second.’
We reached Elante Mall in fifteen minutes, I paid the auto and we moved inside, she said let’s go to that shop. She pointed towards a shop and she started pulling me inside. After a hour she finished her shopping and then we both settled in the food court.
‘You girls are so boring’ I said.
‘Boring! What about boys?’ She questioned.
‘Boys, see we are so cool and handsome.’
‘Who is cool and handsome?’
She questioned.
‘I am cool and handsome.’
She started laughing loudly. She said ‘you, cool and handsome?’ and again she started laughing. After she finished her laughing she said ‘look at your hairs, they are not combed properly, look at your collar, look at your nails they are cut, and handsome? Oh! My god’ and she started laughing again.
‘Then why did you come with me?’ I asked.
She didn’t replied she was just laughing, I stood up from my chair and I started walking back, as I reached the escalators someone caught my hands from back, I was sure that she was Anandita, I turned back towards her.
‘What happen?’ She asked.
I didn’t reply. ‘I was joking’ she said with a tension in her voice.
‘Please come back, I am sorry, I was joking, I really don’t know that it will hurt you.’
I was able to feel tension in her voice and very soon a tear escaped from the corner of her eyes.
‘Excuse me’ a man said, I looked around, we both were standing in front of the escalators and the way was almost blocked because of us. She caught my hands and she took me aside. She put her hands on my shoulders, and said ‘you are the most handsome boy I have ever seen, you are cool, you are intelligent and you know I will love to come with you in this mall throughout my life, another drop of tear rolled down her cheeks. She hugged me tightly and said ‘please forgive me, I was just joking’ I hugged her back and I said ‘It’s okay.’
She said ‘let’s have something’ and she wiped her tears. We again shifted in the food court as we settled down opposite to each other. After ten minutes she broke the silence, she said ‘you know how much I love talking with you, after sharing my problems with you I feel so relaxed, after sharing jokes with you and most importantly after laughing with you when I go back home, I don’t feel that I am tired anymore, almost whole of my tiredness is gone. You know when I am in the hospital I often think that what you will be doing at this moment, I keep on counting time so that I will come back home and I can talk with you again. I really enjoy talking to you and you know Akaash these looks, these words (handsome/beautiful) is nothing in my view. You know our faces; our looks can be ruined one day and its law of the nature that after 60 years from now our face will be wrinkled for sure. I don’t care what people say about me, I don’t care what will people of my age will say seeing me walking with handsome boy or an ugly boy but what I care the most is with whom I am spending my time, if I love that person that person loves me back or not. According to me what is the use of that love, which started looking at the looks of the other person and after having sex love disappears because that other person will find more beautiful girl than me and he will leave me, I want someone who will always be there with me to hold my hands, to scold me at my wrong decisions, to get angry on me, to take care of me, I will love that person and most importantly I will love to be with that person forever. I want to live the person, who just don’t look at my outer beauty but most importantly he will look inside my heart, he will be loyal to me, he will love me how I am. I want to be with a person who is truthful and I am lucky to be with you. She kept her hands on my hands. I smiled and said ‘now wipe your tears and say what you will eat?’
She said ‘I will take MC Chicken and a cake.’
‘And what will you take?’ She asked.
‘MC Aloo ticci’ I said.
I went to the counter and I brought those in a tray. We came home after that.
At night while sleeping, I was thinking about her, I recalled all those words she said today my heart said I was in love with her.
Next day we met on the terrace again, I crossed the boundary and I jumped the other side.
She said ‘now you are not angry na?’
I said ‘no.’
We started taking a walk around the perimeter quietly, the sky was turning inky the sun was setting. I looked towards her, a wind blew, her hairs came on her face and she put her hairs on her ears. I was able to hear temple bells ringing. I caught her hands, she didn’t remove it we took another round along the perimeter hand in hand and finally we stopped. She stood taking the support of the boundary and she started looking towards me, I was standing facing her still her hands was in mine.
She broke the silence and said ‘you know today my mom created my account on matrimonial site, she want to get married.’
I was quiet, I looked into her eyes after few minutes and said ‘I love you’ a silence engulfed us I was still looking into her eyes and she was looking into mine. After a pause of two minutes I said again ‘I want to hold your hands throughout my life, I love you more than the stars in the sky, I want to always be with you, I want to woke you up by serving bed tea, I want to say you “good morning” after a morning kiss throughout my life, the day I saw you for the first time I fell in love with you.’ I paused for another minute and I said again ‘I know that you can get far handsome and better boy than me but please will you be with me?’
Her eyes were moist by now, she came in my arms. That evening we sat in each other’s arms on the floor taking the support of the boundary. There were starts in the sky, her hands were in mine, she locked her fingers with mine and she put her head on my shoulder and she closed her eyes. I removed her hair from her face and I put it back on her ears.
‘Please never leave me alone, I am a little crazy girl, I do crazy things, I become angry more often but please do come to convince me, you can become angry on me, you can scold me but please at the end please come to me, never leave my hands. I never want to lose you’ she said.
‘I promise’ I replied.
The time was passing by, after ten days I went to my grandparent’s home for a day with my mom, I would just spent hours thinking about her in my minds, I would smile whenever her face would come in front of me. She called me at night, I informed her that maybe it can take one more day here as my grandfather have some work, and he wants me to help him in that and finally I disconnected the call after saying goodnight.
Next day grandfather told me that ‘beta, it’s all right I have called my lawyer and he is in the city, so if you want you can go back but I will be more happy if you will stay with me.’
I said ‘no, dadaji, actually I didn’t bring my laptop and I have to do some urgent work, so I will have to leave.’
He blessed me and finally I came back home with my mom, it was evening, I couldn’t wait to see Anandita again, I wanted to surprise her, I quickly went on the terrace but what I saw surprised me she was standing taking the support of the boundary with another boy, he kept his hands were on her cheeks, they both saw me she removed his hands and said ‘Akaash.’
Tears rolled down my cheeks, I went near her and I said ‘that day you were with me and today you were with him.’
That guy said ‘you just mind your own business.’
‘Shut up! Yash’ Anandita shouted at him.
‘Akaash, what you are thinking it’s nothing like that.’ She almost cried.
‘You know girls like you are bitches, they will sleep one day with one guy and another day with another boy’ I shouted.
I came down and I locked myself inside my room. Mom asked ‘Akaash, what happened?’
‘Nothing mom’ I replied.
I cried, I didn’t have my dinner and I slept. Next morning when I switched on my mobile I saw there were 56 missed calls from Anandita there were two messages, I opened it
MESSAGE #1
“Please pick up my call, please”
MESSAGE#2
“I love you, please call me.”
I stopped talking with her, it was almost 15 days since last time I saw her, these days most of the time I lock myself in a room and I should work on the pending presentations and during nights sometimes I should help Ananya. It was tenth day when I got an idea of writing a novel and very next day I started writing. New Year was approaching nearer. I was missing her terribly. I miss her for the first half second and I become angry for the next half.
It was 2 days left for the New Year when mom said that she is leaving with dad as her sister is admitted in the hospital. They left that night. Next day I spend all the time in my room, sleeping, cooking, surfing internet. Finally the day came it was 31st December. After that day she tried to contact me for another 10 days and then slowly her message started slowing down.
I took my lunch outside and I returned in the evening and again I started working on my new novel. I checked the time after completing 35th chapter it was 9.30 p.m. I prepare a cup of coffee for myself and again I shifted on my chair and I started typing. Almost after an hour someone rang the door bell. I checked the time it was almost 10.30 pm. I opened the door, Anandita was standing right in front of me. I looked towards her; she said ‘Can I talk with you for two minutes?’
I gave her the way to come inside and I locked the door. I said ‘what do you want?’
She said ‘Akaash please try to understand it was nothing like that as you are thinking.’
I said ‘I have seen you both from my own eyes.’
She said ‘What did you saw? That day when Yash placed his hands on my cheeks and when I was about to remove it you saw us and I have not told him to keep his hand on my cheeks, he kept it suddenly.’
I was quiet the truth was that even I am not able to live without her. ‘Is it truth?’ I asked.
‘Akaash you know how much I tried to contact you? How much I love you? We hugged each other for five minutes, I saw her face after sometime, and there were tears in her eyes. I said ‘hey, I am sorry, it was simply a misunderstanding please forgive me.’
‘Please don’t say sorry, it was my mistake, I shouldn’t allowed him to come at my home.’
She came in my arms again, I wiped her tears and said are you okay now?’
She said ‘yes, I am fine.’
‘What you were doing?’ She asked.
‘I am writing a book, come I will show you.’
We came inside my room and she started reading the page on which I was working. After reading the last word she said ‘It is freaking awesome, you write fantastic.’
I said ‘leave it when it will be finished I will give it to you for reading.’
She stood up from the chair and she sat on my bed, I sat next to her and I moved my fingers on her hairs. Our eyes met, I asked ‘Do you love me?’
She didn’t reply for few minutes, we keep on looking in each other’s eyes and she kissed me our eyes met, we keep on kissing for three minutes. She said ‘I really love you, please never leave me alone, it was your right to be angry. I am yours but I have not done all that intentionally. I switched off the lights using the side table switch, we shifted on my bed, we started kissing again and after kissing for a long time we broke the kiss, I removed her aanchal, she stood up, she helped me removing her saaree. I said ‘Who told you to wear saaree today? Can’t you wear anything else?’
She said ‘I like to wear saaree, and I am removing it na.’
She kept her saaree on the chair; I started kissing her generously from the back of her neck till her lower back. I embraced her tightly, I removed her blouse and her bra and finally we settle down on the bed. I started kissing her passionately while she was reciprocating with equal intensity. We rolled on the bed, we cuddled. I started kissing her neck, her shoulders, her breast, her stomach. I removed her undergarments and I removed my pant and underwear too. We both were lying on my bed without a piece of clothes on our body.
She asked ‘Do you have a Condom?’
‘Yes, I have a stock in my home’ I replied.
She started laughing and said ‘okay baba, we don’t need a condom.’
We both get into a sexual act, within minutes we started making love as if we were born to make love. We were kissing each other, licking each other’s body. She came on top of me swabbing my upper body with her breast, while intensely caressing my crucial parts with her hand and locking lips all at once.
We heard noises of the crackers, Anandita checked the time it was 30 seconds left for the new year, she started counting and finally the moment came ....3......2.......1 ‘Happy New Year’ she said. We locked our lips again.
I loosed my momentum after an hour, I lied down next to her.
She said ‘Why did you stopped?’
‘I am tired’ I said.
That night we remained awake for rest of the night just holding each other in a tight embrace. It was 5 a.m in the morning when she said ‘Will you marry me Akaash?’
I kissed her and said ‘of course I will marry you but after few years.’
She asked ‘Why?’
I said ‘Anandita, we both have our career, we both have our dreams so after completing it we will marry.’
‘But we can make our career after marriage’ she argued.
I said ‘No Anandita.’
‘Do you love me?’ She questioned.
‘haa baba I love so much.’
‘pakka?’ She asked.
‘Come’ I said and again we started kissing each other passionately, we rolled and I came above her we got into the sexual act again but very soon after reaching the climax she said ‘stop now, see it already noon. She stood up and she started wearing her panty. I was lying on the bed without clothes just looking at her.
After ten days I left for Delhi, we talk with each other very frequently but very soon I got busy with my novel so the frequency of our calls dropped. One day when I called her at night she informed me that she is four months pregnant.
I said ‘What the fuck! Why didn’t you told me before?’
She said ‘What happen? Why you are talking like this?’
‘You should go for an abortion’ I shouted.
‘But why, you said you will marry me, you said you love me, than why?’
‘He is your child Akaash’ she added to the conversation.
I said ‘I don’t want a child now, I have my career and I have my goals.’
She said ‘Please Akaash, I really love you, I can’t live without you’ she started sobbing on the phone and she disconnected the call the next second.
I called her again but the phone was switched off. Again for the next few months I got busy with the publishing and the launching of the book. Six months passed away, I was too busy with my book. I just got a message from her during these days
“Will you marry me? What is your final decision?”
I replied “I don’t have time for all these now”
During night when I should sleep I used to remember her face, I was missing her terribly, I wanted to hug her, I wanted to kiss her. I love her more than anyone else on the earth; I wanted to marry her after the success of the book. I knew she loves more than I love her; I knew it was that difficult for her as it was for me but I was doing it for our future, for the bright future for our chid. Just few days were left and after the launching ceremony of the book I wanted to marry her, I wanted to marry my Anandita, I wanted to make Anandita mine forever.
Finally the day arrived, I was getting ready for the book launching ceremony and tomorrow I was leaving for Chandigarh, I was eager to see my Anandita, to see mom. Thinking of tomorrow a smile came on my face, I wanted to gift her book. My mobile phone buzzed I picked it up and I opened the message.
“I just cannot live without you; I am leaving our baby with my mother as I don’t have enough guts to take a life. He is a boy, ya, boy you know. His face is totally gone on you but eyes are gone on his mamma. During his birth I was in real pain, my eyes were searching for you, I wanted to see you, I didn’t inform you because you said that you don’t have time for all these. But I cannot live without you Akaash, you can marry someone else your type (ambitious or an author like you) I was waiting for your next book eagerly, I wanted to read it but unfortunately I was not able to read it. Be happy. And never cry my baccha. I don’t know where I will go but I will surely pray for you. Unfortunately I am not being able to be your wife. If you want you can meet your son, he will be happy seeing his father.
With a sweet kiss (you know lip lock type)
Ummmmaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Bye.
I immediately called her number ‘hello’ her mom said.
‘Aunty where is Anandita?’ I asked.
‘Beta, she is no more, she hanged herself from the fan’ saying this she broke down into tears.
I took a next flight to Chandigarh, they have already burned her body. Her mom took me to a room where a child was lying on the bed.
Tears were rolling down uncontrollably from my eyes, I took my son in my arms and I just cried hard.
‘Why did you do this? Please come back to me’ I screamed.
No one can replace you from my life, you will always be there inside my heart, I will look after my son, and I will miss you. I will never marry again’ I said to myself.

DREAMS
DO THEY REALLY COME TRUE?

We all have many dreams in our live but do they really come true?
According to me they do come true but only those dreams which we really want in reality and others we cannot say a dream basically we can say it as attraction on a certain goal which we have watched somewhere or we have heard it anywhere. But the things you really want in your life and if you start walking towards it you will find that one day it will be in your hands. No matter if your dream is becoming prime minister of India or your dream is defeating Mr. Bill Gates or your dream is of becoming next zuckerberg but don’t forget friends that once they were also dreamers like us but with their hard working and dedication to their work they have become an inspiration for all of us. The most important thing is first we should start dreaming.
I don’t care that even I am a CEO of a social network company and I am talking about Mark Zuckerberg or I am talking about Mr Bill Gates.
I don’t care at all because I am saying it openly that they are my inspiration and they will be my inspiration forever.
Now as I am writing this article and I am continuously thinking how to expand it so I am able to recall few words by Dr APJ Abdul Kalam-
“Your dreams will come true but first start dreaming.”
I think many of us we read this article on face book and after liking that post we finally scroll down but very few really think and apply those words in our life.
The nonsense we generally say like ‘I want to become a pilot, I want to become a scientist, I want to become an astronaut, I want to become a writer’ but what I see is you are not even putting your even 0.05% Effort in it.
I want to share few incidents that happened with my friends,
I am having a friend from school days and well now also it’s my school days only but she is my friend when I was too young. She used to tell me ‘I want to study science from Sikkim Manipal University’ but now after class tenth when I asked her which stream she choose, she told me that she had taken Arts.
I was having one more friend and he should always used to say I want to become a Dentist but after class tenth he chooses Commerce.
I must say that those are not dreams, if actually you have a dream of becoming a dentist than I am cent percent sure that it will never go away from your heart, you will ignore it but at any point in your life if you will close your eyes and you will ask from your heart you will find that your dream is always there.
It doesn’t matter that your class tenth result will tell you which stream you take, it is never like that, if you believe yourselves than you can achieve anything.
According to me we should never think that in which stream there is a profit like it happens in most of our Indian middle class family where parents usually say ‘stop playing cricket there is no future in this field, or for girls stop dancing not all are enough fortunate for becoming a singer.’
This is not exactly truth, I believe that the things they are saying is correct but I want to say something more that if anything happens like that we should just question ourselves ‘Why I am not fortunate enough? Why I cannot do? ‘
A person can only succeed in a field which he/she loves. So we should always follow our heart and trust me if we gonna do it than definitely one day we will be successful maybe our initial days can’t be as expected or maybe worst but our duty is not losing hope even for a second.
I will discuss about it more in other post.
Aditya SinghAditya Singh

The night of 14th November-

Did I really Slept with my Aunt?

So finally I would like to begin this story and I hope that you all will like it. It’s a true story that happened with me.

I was really sad and depressed that day, I was leaving the very next day for Rajasthan and I was trying to give a letter to someone but I was unable to give that. If that person is reading this than I am sure that she would know about what I am talking about.

Finally when I came home from Police Bazaar I went upstairs and I gave that letter to my aunty as my dad had already arrived and I don’t want to take that letter in front him.

He is very supportive and i was sure that he will not say anything but he will surely gonna tease me so I decided that i will give that letter to that aunty and she will keep it with her. I went upstairs and she was watching Tare Zameen par on the T.V. I gave her the letter and told her to keep it with her and when she asked me about that letter I said that I was unable to give it to her.

She said ‘Why don’t you leave her? I really don’t like the girl with such attitude!’

I gave her a sad smile and nodded.

She often used to say ‘Why you are wasting your time on that person? Why don’t you move on? What you need in your life, Position, money, fame? You all have it, then Why you are wasting time?

And my answer to this was always ‘Aunty, I am trying continuously but I am not able to do it.’

I got a call on my mobile from my dad and he asked me ‘Where are you?’

‘I am upstairs, I am coming.’ And I started moving towards my room.’

After reaching I started discussing ‘Why people drink with my father and I thought that by doing this he will ignore my sad face and he will not ask me any question. But things went opposite he asked me ‘Why you are discussing this topic today? I tried to cut her question in many ways but he is too smart and he said ‘Come to the point and say why you are sad?’

I share almost all of the things with him whether it is about my affair or about my career and he used to support me in everything. I said ‘Please dad I don’t want to share this’ but he was keep on going asking me Why I am sad so I said him again that I will not share it and i said that i am going to motu’s (one of my friend) house and i will talk with him. As I reached their he opened the door before I could ring the bell and we came outside and started talking with him sitting on the stairs and i started sharing my sad tale with him and then we moved towards the boundary and we stood there and started talking again and then his uncle came and questioning him that ‘Why he is not studying? What he is doing here in cold outside his house? And he answered that he had already studies and he is feeling warm and he is talking with me and as his uncle started moving down stairs he said me let’s go up on the terrace and we will talk their and as we both started walking upstairs his uncle returned and went inside his house, we moved on the terrace and came inside Aunty’s house and we both had already understood that What is going to happen next and very soon his mom came on the terrace calling his name and she took him back.

They doubted on me that I am teaching him bad things. We often discuss they behave as if we are planning to go to red light area together.

I really don’t know why people think that with whom I talk I try to spoil them?

My answer to this is ‘because they are fucked up persons, rascals.’

According to me they are worst than those prostitutes, because prostitutes sell their body for money because they are in need of it but these persons have even bad thoughts than those prostitutes.

According to me a person can fall in love even with a prostitute rather than falling in love with such persons, one should respect prostitutes instead of respecting such persons.

I was in Aunty’s room and as she was watching T.V so I came out after sometime and started walking on the terrace and i started thinking Why I was sad and I was basically thinking how I can be happy again?

My dad came up and said me to come down as it was very cold and I followed him as I reached down my mom gave me some food and again my dad started with the same thing again and started asking him again ‘Why I am sad? And this time I told him in a loud voice that don’t talk with me for now for god sake’ and he replied that ‘if you want to behave like this than better out from my house’ and I really liked the offer and i went on the terrace again and i started walking alone seeing the moon as I have already shared that moon is one of my best friends and finally after five minutes my friend came up and he went inside Aunty’s house and he talked with her about something and than again we both started discussing, he told me not to go back tomorrow stay here for few more days but I said that I can’t stay back as all is finally ready and he left. I was really feeling very cold as I was shivering so I went inside aunty’s room and I asked her that can I sit inside and he said ‘of course and I started watching tare zameen par on the TV.

And from here started the tragedy………….

Uncle (aunt’s husband) came soon and he started quarrelling with aunty so I came outside and started walking again as I was in no mood to go back home and argue with my dad again. After sometimes they both were quarrelling even more and then uncle came out and started using slangs on me, he often drink so I thought he was drunk so I came back in my home and I started chatting with the reason of my sadness and then I got a call from aunty on my mobile I picked it up and she said ‘Adi, come up now, this man is saying that we both were sleeping together inside my room.’ She was burning with anger.

I was shocked hearing that, I was quiet she said again ‘Adi, come to my room, now’ she ordered.

I replied this time ‘Aunty, please leave now’ and cut the call.

I was really very very tired my head was paining very much and I was really not having any energy to defend myself and argue so I try to sleep.

That night was not very different than spending a whole night in a graveyard for me and I don’t know why tears started rolling down my cheeks, I was trying my best to control but tears were not stopping. I covered my face under the blanket and finally I started crying, I was really crying like that after lot of days. I was really broken with all these. I was really shattered into millions of pieces and I fell into Depression even more. I logged into facebook.com again and texted one of my friend ‘I want to die, yaar.’

She replied

‘Why?’

‘Don’t’

‘Never.’

And she asked me to tell her the whole story I still remember the exact words I replied ‘I want to die because I am a looser and everyone hates me’ and soon I was not able to see the screen properly and my mobile fell down on the floor from my hands.

I was really shocked that till the date i have note even ate Sweety Supari….or whatever is it and that man was saying that I have slept with his wife, with a married woman, with a mother of a child.’

I woke up at six in the morning and again my father started his nonsense argument with me at six in the morning, I was really not having the energy to talk so I put my sleepers and I took my wallet and I came out and I took a taxi to polo and finally I went to the golf link, I reached golf link at 7:00 am and I just slept on the grasses. The grasses were feeling cold under me as they were wet but I didn’t cared and I slept. I woke up at 9:30 am when the sunlight was falling on my face. I looked here and there; people were giving me odd looks as if I was sleeping from whole night after drinking.

And that is the life of Second youngest author of India and World’s Youngest CEO of a Social network Company. I took out my business card from my wallet and started looking at it and again a drop of tear rolled down my cheeks. I stayed their till 1:30 pm and then I came back home and I left for Guwahati. My mom said that in the morning there was a great drama regarding this matter among them, and uncle slapped aunty and he went from the house.

I called my mom recently and i asked about that incident that is everything fine? And she said that after you went the next night Uncle came back home again and now again there is lots of love among them.

And I really don’t know one thing five days before that husband doubted on his wife that she have slept with 16 years old boy and even slapped her and again after five days there is lots of love among them.

When I heard it I laughed on myself for some time.

This was the incidents happened that night and what you all think that

‘I really slept with her?’

But still it is not possible for anyone to be chill if people doubt on him for such bad things. But I was really lucky that everyone trusted me. It was really a good Experience.

First of all I am sorry for the title but yes its true. Let me talk about today’s festival eid right? A Muslim festival. I am not talking bad about them but even it happens in Hindu religion also. I am telling the truth that I am not sure that in today’s festival they should cut the goats or he goat or something but I am sure they should cut them. I didn’t understand why they do it? Did they do so because they have allergies with animals or their god (allah!) say them to cut them. Did they offer it to their god? But I never see that god is coming on the earth and tasting that mutton. Why? I am sorry to say all these but I am not against any religion but it’s my view. Today they had killed many lives just to please their god. Did god or their allah says them that for pleasing me you should kill a life and then I will be happy? No he never say and he will never say so. It is not really right way to celebrate a festival. When people started tigers then our government banned killing the tigers. Why? Why they didn’t took any action before? If they had done it before then definitely we would have saved many lives. But now we can stop such things, we should pray to our god, but doing such thing isn’t it stupid? From all the person who cuts the goat to them who enjoy the sight surrounding it Do you all have lost your humanity? You all cannot feel any pain, that goat should be feeling? Are animals not alive? They are also as important to your allah as you people are, so please feel their pain. And now many will question that then why we should eat meat? Right? So the answer is that according to me this meat ban which was activated for sometime should be active again and for ever. This is cruelty, a real one. Lions and tigers should kill them because they are carnivore and they are actually maintaining the food cycle but why should we? Our ancestors should do it because they don’t know as much we know but now we are taking education and still follow all these things. We should stop showing cruelty to animals. What is the use of keeping pet? I am talking about chickens and goats if you are keeping them that one day you will kill them and boil them and eat. is it some kind of investment? Why you all should not invest in share markets instead of buying meats to offer to your god or you should donate that money to the poor, who are not lucky as you to enjoy luxury like meat because the reality is that till now in India many children should sleep hungry and on the foot path. Many times we heard news that ‘this number of peoples are killed due to cold’. Then why we should not take any action o save them instead of wasting money and doing sins. Today many will enjoy beers or any other alcoholic drinks a night. Did your god said that drink such things to kill yourself on this festival? Where it is written? I think no where. We should stop taking this slow poisons. Instead of wasting your money on beer why not take your family outside? But instead after drinking people beats their wife and children. And today many will be going to red light area or will be calling call girls. Yes it’s true but it is a sin and after that killing a goat next year or prying will not clean your character it will be that bad and even will be more worst because you all will repeat the same things next year. I think Kalyug’s end is arriving us soon. And soon the time will come as we heard many times from our grandparents that Lord Shiva- the destroyer will open his hairs and the whole earth will be covered with water. i really didn’t believe it, i am the person who always believe in science but in common language it will come true if all these things will be continued

Instead of doing such things just help a needy person and allah will be for sure more happy.

And there is a advice for all the religion instead of keeping fast for god we should eat everyday and pray and believe him with our true heart.

Because he had never said that ‘be hungry for me or I will not be happy or i will curse you.’ I think he had said it never.

And there is a quote from Dalai Lama which I can remember while writing this post is-

“If you think you are too small to bring any change in his world than go and sleep with a mosquito”

Please forgive me if I have said something rude or wrong about the religion but what i said about people is truth. Sorry if i have hurt you. I love all the religion and love all the people equally. All are my brothers and sister except my future wife.

So thank you for reading it and spending your valuable time on it, please also give your valuable comments.

Humanity…is vanishing.
I can see that humanity is continuously vanishing from our current generation. We all watch a race between a lion and a deer on discovery channel. Don’t we? Some of us should pray for that deer to our gods and sometimes our prayer is accepted and sometime is not. In the case our prayer is accepted we take a deep breathe and we should keep our hands over our heart to check the heartbeat and we generally we find it faster than before. But in the case if our prayer is not accepted than we see is the lion attacking the deer and we all should close our eyes and should generally say “oh! Shit” and than we forget all these in next few minutes because we generally change our T.V channels and should start enjoying rock musics. We forget all these because we are not in the place of that lion or that deer.than why this show off? I understand they are doing it to maintain their food cycle but why we are doing the same things but indirectly! yes. Its true. Let me tell you all a story of an Indian boy whom I recently met, I cannot open up the name because he had respected me not to open it. He should love a girl name Riya she was her class mate and they had studied together quite for a long time. They should sit together on the same bench and share it. Their knees should always touch with each other and sometimes their hands. According to his statement as he told me that once she asked her ‘by what name will you call your wife?’ He didn’t replied but he wanted to scream and say her name but he didn’t have the guts to say it. And soon that boy heard that he have to leave that school and he will have to prepare for entrance exams so he decided that he will study hard. He started preparing for the test even in the school. He was having four friends and a girl whom he love more than anything else on the earth. He thought that they will understand him and specially Riya will understand him but it was not likely to be come true. He should prepare for the test even in the lunch time but his friends should keep engaging him in chatting and he start feeling that he is not being able to concentrate. So he decided to argue and quarrel with them intentionally so that he can get more time to prepare. But this idea seems not very good. he had done it and now all of them start hating him as if he was a bloody rapist. But he think that Riya will understand him. But he was killed when one day Riya told that he is acting over smart. But still he was handcuffed he continued it. Soon he gave the test and scored well. When he came back again to that school he have to again share his bench with Riya but she should not talk with him but sometimes stares him from the corner of her eyes. He wanted to talk with her tell her sorry but he didn’t did it and according to him it was one of the biggest mistakes of his life. What he should do it sometimes have a look at her beautiful face with her big eyes and a cutest smile and finally her smile and most importantly her talks which was so innocent that he had lost his heart on them. He feel to hold the same hands of her as he do it before but he can’t do it also as Riya was not talking with him. And soon he left the school. But before going on the last day he looked Riya until he was satisfied that from now he was never going to see her and have to live his life with his memories. When he left the school he should always think that weather it would be raining there and if that raindrops were touching her hands doing his work. Whenever he would take his lunch and he should think that might be she would also be taking her lunch but what makes him sad was that he can’t even have a look at her face which makes his whole day awesome and make him fall in love with her even more day by day. Soon after two years this boy proposed Riya and she lied him that she is having a boyfriend and he trusted her and decided not to interfere in her life but he was not able to control he talked with Riya again next year and he found out that she was lying him that time. Soon the boy became little popular, made a record and started his career successfully but the only regret was that for whom he was doing all this, Riya, His parents they were not happy with his success. She start lying him continuously. And soon a time came when boy was in stress, depression due to his work and he wanted to share it with someone he was even feeling that there was no point of living anymore for him. He thought that Riya would definitely support him so he wrote a long message to Riya and started waiting eagerly for her reply but after few days he saw that she had read his message but there was no reply.
This is we call humanity where we even don’t have few minutes for helping a person when it is in our hands. I think so this really not humanity.
To be continued in next part….
Please read it and give your valuable comments.
message but there was no reply.
This is we call humanity where we even don’t have few minutes for helping a person when it is in our hands. I think so this really not humanity.
To be continued….
Please read it and give your valuable comments.