Jasmine Sandozz's Blog - Posts Tagged "relationships"

You have plenty of time to date
How do you know?
Life comes with no expiration date
Live everyday like your last
Because you never know host fast those days past
You've been young and in love now let me do the same
I wouldn't choose a guy less than a prince, no higher than a king
Together we'll reign
And I'll know him when I see his soul
When I touch his heart it'll be something like liquid gold
All I desire is a guy who knows not to let a good thing go
Once it's gone, it's gone for good.

I'm scared because nobody stays
And that opens a wound in my chest that can't be fixed
It's vulnerability leaking out of me
The answer is no before I ask the question
The question never matters
No one is ever ready and I get tired of trying
I inhale love hoping it will linger in me
The only love I have is from myself
And I'm afraid that's all I'll really have.

I've always been settled in
I thought compromise was the answer
That if I gave you a couple of things, you'd have to do the same for me
Not everyone is raised the same and boy I was mistaken
You didn't see the value in me
I didn't see what I wanted was exactly worth waiting for
I knew I deserved everything, I just wasn't receiving it
Nothing I wanted was out of my reach
The question was who was I dealing with
It's had to find and I'm tired of looking
Tired of names I'll end up forgetting
But that doesn't mean I should settle for anything
It's comforting settling in agreements
I compromise for you and you compromise for me
But without paperwork it's all hearsay anyway
The only thing left compromised is me
Now I know waiting is what's best for me
I am too selfish to let anyone below my worth use me
I love myself too much for settling.

With nothing to say
You walked away
And now every breathe I take is uneasy
I know it wasn't me
But there's not many too places to put the blame since your escape
You burned a bridge that I didn't even know was damaged
I was choking from smoke and you didn't even bother to look at the mess you made
I know I'm just broken pieces of a puzzle looking to be put together
But you ruined the shape
You took things away from me
We shared our dreams
I poured my heart out into your hands
You ran away with it
How does one function without a heart?
The mind is smart, but emotions also play a part
I tried to cry you away
I ended up drowning in my own tears
Swallowing my pain and bitterness through muffled breaths
I wonder how it felt completely tearing me apart
Not ever having to own up to any of it
Your name still burns my tongue
A tear may shed, a strike of pain may rupture through me
But I'll be okay
One day someone will decide to stay.

Attachment --- I'm latched in
I didn't sign up to have feelings for you
Yet here I am feeling everything I do
I'm so confused
I got mad love for you
But it probably isn't mutual
This big heart of mine is dangerous
I give out love, but then it's taken for granted
I'll brush it off and give out more love, more life
My feelings sacrificed
Attached to you
Who is detachable
I'll backtrack and build walls back up
But I've already fallen
So into you
You can't see it
I'm so latched in while you are free.

1. Two lonely people don't create wholeness.
2. Loving you gave me high blood pressure.
3. I didn't want to hate him, so I left.
4. I was his favorite drive-thru. He always went home.
5. I didn't want to leave, but I was too prideful to stay.
6. I stayed because I saw him.
7. I innocently missed calls, but he thought I was being promiscuous.
8. The truth is not something he knows because it requires honesty.
9. He brought wars to my world.
10. He lost a lot, but always gained a drink.
11. I wanted to end the intergenerational trauma.
12. I built a home. He decided to go on vacation.
13. I'm not your help.
14. My mom didn't like you and well mothers really do know best.
15. He was lonely so he wandered.
16. Yes I was insecure, but he nurtured my insecurities.
17. He made me cry and didn't notice.
18. His secrets didn't scare me.
19. He knew how to shut me down until I disappeared.
20. I left emotionally before my body followed suit.
21. My dad is consistent, but he is opposite.
22. I can't sleep because nights were his.
23. I planted a seed in him , but out blossomed thorns.
24. The woman in my family have it all
25. I knew he'd give me nothing
26. I had to leave, his presence was his absence.
27. He's the song I listen to and shed a single tear.
28. He sent me a text '....'
29. His smile reminded me he's human
30. You loved games, but it made me toxic.
31. Forgive me, I'm a lover so I loved you.
32. I left him to love me.
33. I'm enjoying my solitude.
34. I belong to love.