I'm mostly writing this blog so that my last blog isn't the one that everyone sees on all the pages I have connected to it. I don't really have a reason. But tonight I have been thinking about the German word for bully, on the German amazon page for my book, the category that my book is listed under is MOBBING, now is that not a perfect word for bullying, I mean seriously if I am walking down a deserted street and I see a group of teenage boys, I am more afraid than if I were to see just one, and why is that? Because of MOB mentality, I don't trust mobs, mobs are who gang up and bully others, the ones in school who as a group tortured  those of us who were not apart of their mob. Years ago in one of my psychology classes I began thinking about the idea of "us versus them" people are more comfortable when they can divide the population into enemies and friends. That if someone is different then they are apart of the "other group" and that they should be destroyed, I guess this scares me as I have always been one of those others, and try to see people as individuals instead of as groups, although that is hard during christmas time working at the mall :), hmmm maybe that is why I don't like large groups of people. Anyways, mobbing what an interesting term.

In other news, I have both of my books listed for free on Amazon through Saturday, tomorrow for those of you who have lost track of what day it is, and the first day up the books did really well over 1000 downloads the first day, things have slowed down since then, which kinda worries me about who is downloading the books, are they actual readers or serial book downloaders, that just because a book is free that they should get a copy, that makes no sense to me, but honestly there seems a shortage of GOOD books to get for free, maybe I missed the peak and everybody already posted their books for free, or just maybe not that many people were willing to give exclusive rights in order to have their books in the program, we will see how it turns out. either way, whether people read them or not, there are now 1693 copies of my novel in existence.

1693 copies and I still feel the same as I did with 350 last month, I wonder at what point I will feel accomplished, maybe it is when I have more than two reviews on amazon, or maybe never, maybe I will see millions and still worry about whether anyone wants to read my books.

So I had little to say and ended up saying alot, that's the thing about writing, hard to get motivated to get started but when you do, it really isn't that hard.