I will dispense with the usual virtue signaling and get to the truth of it: I am sometimes a lazy, grouchy, moody, impatient, short-tempered jerk with a vicious tongue, but most of the time I am a cheerful, hard-working ,highly imaginative and empathetic person who is kind to animals, small children and the elderly, hates injustice and inequality, would like to see everyone healthy, happy & wearing a brand new pair of shoes, etc, and I suspect that you who are now reading this are not that much different. In short, we are all human. And humans are messy. Our moods fluctuate according to our circumstances and a jillion other infinitesimals. But, hopefully, most of us try to be good people. I have deep shame for the pain I have caused others thru out my life and I have had a lot of time to ponder ethics, morals and other such notions. Without reflection and contemplation, how can one learn and grow and change? All life is about growing. I have changed much since I was a younger person, and I hope, changed for the better.
I am an anti-nihilist. I can look around and acknowledge the negative, indeed, some say I positively wallow in it ( that’s what studying history is?) but I think that means it is even more important to try to be “good”.