What to do with the bunch of posts sitting in the drafts? Trash them, publish them, or leave them be? How about we scoop them up into one post – one post where you can track my mood as I sunk further into a depressive state. I was trying so hard to fulfil the challenges of blogging a book, while wrestling with my recovery, my demons, and a growing sense of alienation.

On one hand it would be far kinder to put these entries out of their misery – but on the other it’s still a part of the process, part of the recovery journey, and 2017 Bron was doing their best to build an audience, connect with readers and writers, and just to feel like someone cared enough about the process, so it feels cruel to throw all of these notes away.

I’ve made just a couple of tweaks to some of the entries … most are as is. These are all from April 2017.

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Day 6 – short n sweet:

Where #BYBin30 and #campnanowrimo were concerned, short and sweet was the order of today. My energy levels were low and I wasn’t able to spend a lot of time on P.C.T.A and “This is NOT a Fairy Tale”; although I did reach 600 words for #campnanowrimo, which puts me at just over 10% of my goal wordcount for the month.

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Day 7:

I settled on the  name of the book.
I have an idea of the cover.
I’m continuing to read through faerie tales to make sense of manuscript.

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Day 8: [It was almost written as a poem – so I tweaked it just a little, to make it more poem-like. lol]

Today was a day!

An emotional day!

A day when the urge to write is strong but the concentration was lacking.

Do i force myself to write?

Do i throw myself into research?

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Day 9 :

I worked on the story of pussycat … working out a few more details. And I played around with a few new character ideas for NAFT. And topped it off with more writing and editing.

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Day 13 – short n sweet:

new story idea for not a fairy tale
some more words
began writing on pcta

Day 14:

More of the posts remain as drafts as the moment. It’s not the daily blogging that is an issue; I could blog every day about my writing but as I’ve signed up to blog about one book in particular, for #BYBin30, and [the post ended abruptlu and jumped into point form].

more writing for pctamore for fairy takemore general writing

Day 14:

slow progress on both stories[this has gotta be the saddest and yet somewhat still inspiring draft from this time!]

Day 16:

tough day for writing but made made it over the 2500 mark

researching the french revolution and the great cat massacre

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Day 17:

a tough day

i struggled

some writing
some new ideas
some research

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Day 19:

starting to make more progress. by the end of the month both books will have moved forward significantly.

Day 23 – struggling but still here!  [That title says it all, really!]

I’m still plodding along – making some progress on Not a Fairy Tale (NAFT), and doing more research for the Pussycat Through the Ages (PCTA) … and tweaking important details for the latter.

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These updates are more painful than inspiring – which is why I guess they sat in the drafts for so long. It didn’t take long for me to slip back into the mindset from that time … and so much hasn’t changed in a lot of ways. Still trying to share my process, while in recovery and fighting my demons, and feeling alienated! But that brings us to the end of this stroll – or stumble – down memory lane. Don’t forget to leave a review for the tour on yelp