I feel like people are afraid of not being seen. That's really how I feel.

Every day I am bombarded with a "stream of human existence" that I really don't need to see. 

And it's impossible to turn off! Everywhere I look there's a "reel" that plays instantaneously, showing me rubbish I really don't need to know: how someone's dog poops under a tree; how someone's morning begins; how someone's partner dances, sways to the beat of crackling eggs frying on the stove...I don't care about any of it!

And yet I am forced to care, to give thought unto vibrations of existence from human lives that have nothing to do with my own. 

You know what I do want? I do want to have a chat with Charles Bukowski and ask him what he thinks of this madness! Because I am so sure he would blurt out the most glorious abominable language bad enough to trump anything he ever previously said!

How delicious would that be!

I feel like fear is at the root of it all. Everyone afraid not enough people are caring about them; everyone afraid that not enough people see what matters to them...everyone afraid to be overlooked, forgotten...

...and so, they have forgotten themselves. They don't know who they are anymore. If you ask them who they are, they'd have to take a look at their reels to know the answer! 

I never thought I was the kind of person who would want to live in the Alps, or by a river, or in Iceland where no one can find me...but as the days inch forward now in this X-World we inhabit; the probability of that becoming me one day, is growing by an inch each day that passes! 

To wake up and think of nothing but my own life and the lives of those whom I love; to wake up and think nothing of the world other than the world immediately around me; surrounded by the sound of water, birds, and dancing leaves.

I want to forget everything that people are so afraid will be forgotten! Yes, that exactly: I DO want to forget everything that you want me to remember!

The way you put on your socks in the morning...I don't give a shit! What your principles to living life are...I couldn't care any less!

I want to hear what the Earth wishes to say and see what the Earth longs to show me. Enough of this human madness.

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