Feeling the pain of life by Sohail Mahmood
Chapter 1 — Updated Dec 17, 2009 — 2,345 characters


Love others not yourself my dearest friend for every one loves himself
What is great in that?
Greatness is to love others
In giving love you gain a world my friend
You receive the pain of love rejected
You receive the pain of lost love
You receive the pain of dejection
But my friend the pain of loss is a must
the pain is part of life itself
what would be life without it
how can you feel happiness without feeling pain
How can you appreciate the joys of life without feeling the pain in it?
A rose but comes with the thorns my friend
The rose delights while the thorn pricking gives pain
They are but one experience my friend
So rejoice in the pain as well as the delight and bliss in your live
For they are two sides of the same coin
One without the other is simply not possible
What is the meaning of light without darkness?
Day without night
Evil without good
Life without death
So my friend live to embrace the pain also
Where there is no pain
Where there is no sorrow
Where there is just love
Just pure love
Where there is just compassion
Where there is just bliss
Where there is no anxiety
No worries
That place exists my dearest friend
We call it paradise
That is not life
We are there not yet
We cannot live here and there
We live in just one place
All that we desire is missing in this life
So my friend learn to accept that love can be rejected
A heart may be broken
There can be life without pain
Like there cannot be night without day
A rain without water
A sea without the dangerous waves
An autumn without the trees shedding their leaves
A winter without cold
So my dear friend life is nothing but a pair of opposites clinging each other in desperation
One without the other makes no sense my friend
So embrace the pain of rejection
The pain of dejection
The pain of lost love
And cry
Cry
Cry
This is life my friend
Just life
Understand this dearest friend
You cannot have one without the other
Such is life
Nothing else
but life itself
We embrace the totality of life
We cannot do otherwise
So my friend cries
You are lucky of u have a shoulder to cry on
Just cry even without one
Such is life
My dearest friend understand
Understand life itself
The pain of life
The pain of life itself
Love it
Live it my friend
Feel the pain
The pain
The pain

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The pain of my heart by Sohail Mahmood
Chapter 2 — Updated Dec 22, 2009 — 3,446 characters
The pain of my heart by Sohail Mahmood
The pain of my heart
Missing u
U left the pain in my heart
Just the pain in my heart
Did not say good bye
Not even a good bye
Not even looked back
Just left
Just like that
To create a pain in my heart
Will never the same again
Never ever
The pain in my heart will not be removed
Never ever
U just left the pain in my heart

U left a gaping hole in my heart
In my soul
Just like that
Without looking back
Without even once looking back

Just left
Just like that
Not even saying good bye
We were so close
Souls united in one
When u left my soul was emptied
It left with you
How I loved you
You cannot imagine
How I admired your beauty
U cannot imagine

The touch
How I miss the touch
We were one soul
You departed and left me
Wandering about
Lost completely lost
My anguish
My pain
U never even looked back
To see a heart broken into peaces
U never cared to even look back
To see a soul in pain
A broken heart
That cannot be mend
Never ever
The gaping hole in the heart that the world cannot fill
Ever
Never
Why
I simply ask why
U touched me
My soul more than my body
We were one soul
The beauty of so dazzling
The voice so soothing
The touch so enchanting
The looks so loving

But u just left
Me standing here all alone
Not knowing why it happened
Not knowing why it happened

Tell me why u just left
Without even saying good bye
Breaking me into pieces
Once the heart is broken
It cannot ever be put together
Life goes on but the gaping hole in the heart remains

The soul dies
It cannot be the same again
Never ever
I know u will read this
I just know
U cannot ever forget me
I know
U know
U will never tell me why u left
I know that I will never know

I also know u can never be complete without me
We both know
But u will never come back
I know
U know

Because u broke a heart
A pure heart which can never be repaired
Will never be the same again

I loved u so much
U loved me so much
I know u know
U left me just like that


Don’t you do it again to anyone else
What is life without love?
U do not leave just like that
Without reason
Without warning
U know u broke my heart
My soul was diminished as a result
How we loved each other
Your looks
Your beauty
Your touch
Only the memories remain
And a broken heart
One day you will realize what u did
I will wait for the day

A broken heart
A soul diminished
A love lost
U left me without even looking back
Tore me into pieces
Life goes on but with a heavy heart
Only I know
No one else

My broken heart
Just my broken heart
I know your heart is also broken
I can feel it
Sense it
But you never looked back
Just left
Just like that
We both will live in pain
Broken hearts that cannot be mend
Ever
Ever
I forgive u
For what u did
This is what love is about
The greatest experience in life
Forgiveness after a heart has been broken
I forgive u
That is what love is about
What remains is just a broken heart
Tormented soul
And memories of you
U have my memories to live by
Your heart is broken also
I know
I can tell
Not knowing why?
Not knowing why?
A broken heart
A broken heart
Not knowing why?
Just a broken heart
Life goes on
The heart remains broken
Cannot be mend
Ever
A broken heart
A broken heart
A diminished life
A diminished soul
A broken heart
Not even knowing why
Why
Why

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The endless search by Sohail Mahmood
Chapter 3 — Updated Dec 22, 2009 — 2,393 characters
The endless search by Sohail Mahmood

Searching for you
Searching for you everywhere
Everywhere

Everywhere in the sky, the land, the oceans
Looking into the deep blue sky
The deep blue sky

The search in the night

The stars deep in the night sky
The stars in the sky

The beauty of the stars
The beauty of the full moon

But, I search for you everywhere

In the land
In the mountains
In the lakes
The forests

Everywhere, I search

Everywhere, I search

I cannot find you anywhere

Anywhere

I look everywhere
You are nowhere

You cannot be found anywhere
I keep searching for you everywhere
But, you are nowhere

Then, I grief for you
I grief for you

Grief is my destiny
My destiny


I look for you everywhere
And, find you nowhere
You are nowhere
I can only grief for you

Then I suddenly realize

You are looking in the wrong direction
The wrong direction
The wrong direction


Look inside you
Not outside

Inside not outside


There is a universe inside you
You are a soul caged in a human body

You have to search for the light inside you
the divine presence is in your soul


Therefore, more important find the divine inside you
Find the divine inside you

You are a soul caged in a human body
Caged in a human body
Caged in a human body

Your freedom is inside you
Not outside

You were looking in the wrong direction all your life

What a wasted life
A wasted life

The divine was right there in your heart
The divine in your heart

What the heavens and the earth could not contain
It was contained in your heart

You were always looking outside yourself
In the wrong direction

Always, looking in the wrong direction

You were in grief
Because of looking in the wrong direction

Look inside you
Seek solace from your grief inside you
connect with the divine
The divine was always inside you
Always inside you

Everything that happens has a divine purpose
Everything
Everything

Maybe, you have returned from afar
Returned from afar

To your own heart
To your own heart

Rest in peace now
You have returned
You have returned

The divine connection was always there
You were looking in the wrong direction
Never mind, you have returned
Returned

The divine inside you
The divine inside you

A soul caged in a human body
A soul caged in a human body

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The Yearning for the day by Sohail Mahmood
Chapter 4 — Updated Dec 22, 2009 — 2,655 characters
The Yearning for the day by Sohail Mahmood
Yearning for the divine experience
In mediation
In prayer
In the solitude of the late night
In total privacy
In state of prayer
When it will happen?
When will it happen?

The divine experience
Nothing equals it
It is beyond time and space

Longing for it
Yearning for it


Longing for it
Yearning for it

I am surely a spirit caged in a human body

Caged in a human body

How I yearn to be free

To be free

Once and for all
To fly out

To be free of my captivity

Once and for all
To fly out


Alas! My fate is to remain in the cage

Patience
Patience

One day I will fly out of the cage
One day it will happen
One day it will happen

Oh?
How m much I yearn for that day
For that memento of my freedom
For the moment of my freedom

Toe enter paradise
In contentment
In bliss
In happiness

For here is so much sorrow here
So much pain
So much cruelty
So much sorrow
So much pain

And, also so much injustice

So much injustice

One day it will end

For one day it will surely end

I will meet my lord
My creator

Enter into paradise

With dignity
And pride

Eternal bliss
No sorrow
No pain

No anxiety

No sorrow
No pain
No anxiety

Only justice and peace

Justice
Peace

Bliss
Eternal peace
Eternal bliss

One day it will happen
Surely, one day it will happen

Yearn for that day
Yearn for that day

I have to cross over into the valley of death to reach it
Cross over the valley of death

With dignity
And, pride
And faith
And faith in the divine mercy that will carry me

Faith in the divine mercy that will carry me

Not afraid to enter the valley of death
For beyond it, is another land
So fabulous
Unimaginable
Indescribable
They call it paradise

Surely, I will enter it one day
Have faith in divine mercy to make it happen

Not for a single moment will I falter
Not for a single moment will I falter


Just longing for it
Just longing for it

To release me from my captivity

To fly out of my cage
For I am a spirit caged in a human body

The body shall perish
The spirit will not

One day I will escape my captivity

Longing for that day
Longing for that day

Only you are witness
For I yearn for that day

Only you know it

The longing of my heart
The longing of my heart
The longing to get rid of my captivity
To enter paradise

Yearning for it
Yearning for it

The heart desires it
The heart desires it
Nothing else will suffice
Nothing in this world
Nothing in this world

The yearning for paradise

The yearning for the paradise


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