When I get to Heaven…

When I get to Heaven, the first thing I’m going to do is ask the Lord for forgiveness for everyone that I’ve injured by deed or omission, and those I could have helped but refused.

I’m going to as forgiveness for all the women I dogged when I was a young man full of life and evil – not caring about the things that maturity in spirituality brings.

I’ll ask forgiveness for all the bad thoughts I had about my mother and father when I was a child, when I was a teenager, when I was an Adult – for they have been wondrous for me- for they sustained me throughout many years of my escalating stupidity.

Then I’ll do the thing I most wanted to do all my life – hug the living God who created me and hold him tight forever – thanking him again, and again, and one more time for creating my soul, and picking me for construction out of infinite uncountable others – that he loved me enough to want me with him above all the others souls he refused to make.

And then I’ll ask him for Smoky Stephens back – my best friend I’ve ever had, who sustained me and understood when no one else did during the difficult years of growing up; faithful one who loved me endlessly, that I still miss to this day - my faithful loving dog.