I'm working on no less than 10 stories right now. Actually, a lot more. I know it's too much. But here I am. Writing too much.

I need to take a step back. Look what I'm working on. And start to prioritize. I'm torn between this inability to stop writing, and this need to work on directing. I miss directing. I really do. And I have projects lined up, but directing, for me, has always come with the problem that I can't keep a cast together. I don't know what happens. I just start to lose actors. It's been the curse of my existence. And every time it happens, it deflates my will.

I don't lose all of my actors. Just a number of them. It happens every time, and I ask myself, "What am I doing wrong?" I think my latest streak of non-stop writing is related to my frustrations as a director. I can control my writing. My characters don't abandon me.

I feel terrible because I know a number of actors who don't leave. They are always there, but I can't make these ideas with just them.

Alright. With all that negative stuff thrown out there, let's get some positives out there too. With the writing being what it is right now, I am making great progress (somehow) on all these stories. It is nice, and a problem pure writers would like to have, that I have so many ideas. It feels good in that regard. And when I feel like I'm drying up on one project, there's another that feels fresh. It's a nice cyclical process of moving easily from one story to another and seeing where they go.

I have a feeling that one of these stories is going to grab me at some point, and I'll have to focus on that story until it's finished, but that's fine. I'm ready for that to happen.

Current music: Hotline Miami Sountrack.
Current beverage: Dr. Generic.
Current mood: An odd mix of frustrated and triumphant.