The Stark Academy For The Gifted discussion

Natasha ran in and sat down at a desk, sighing. She put earphones in and played classical music while actually doing math equations.

steve walkedin and sat next to her

Natasha noticed him and rested her head on the desk, the classical music still playing in her ears.

he held her hand

Her fingers wrapped around his and she squeezed his hand in return.

he smiled happy

Her head rested on the desk, her eyes closed. A single tear ran down her cheek. Still she listened to the music.

he hugged her

She was limp in his arms. She took out the earphones. "Я не заслуживаю тебя," she whispered.

((I do not deserve you))

"you do tasha"

"I kissed your best friend right in front of you... more than once," she whispered. "I don't."

"I know you kissed him and i love you the same"

"You deserve someone better," Natasha whispered. "Because when I'm like that, my heart goes to him. You need someone better than me."

"no i don't, trust me"

"Yes, yes you do," Natasha said. "When people think of America, they proudly think of you. You deserve someone who will ever be loyal and true, not a psychotic killer like me."

he kissed her

She pulled away and looked down. "Steve, I said this before, I don't want to hurt you."

"I don't care tasha"

"When I hurt you, you will," she said. "I don't want to hurt you."

he looked at her "tasha i love you to much"

"I love you with all that I am," Natasha whispered. "But Natalia will break you."

"I know, thats why me and steph will keep am eye on you to make sure"

"Because I changed today, the changes will come more often," Natasha said. "Kind of like our James."

"I know"

"I can't control it," she whispered.

"shh"

"I am a killer, Steve, and always will be," Tasha said. "My daughter is a killer too." She then closed her eyes, remembering that she hadn't mentioned having a daughter.

he sighed "shh its ok i now"

She put her head on the desk. "You'll have to meet her when she gets back from Russia. She is exactly like me... just blond."

"ok"

She sighed. "And a killer like me."

"I know"

"See, even you agree I am a killer," she whispered. "A cold hearted killer."

"no you only kill when needed"

((night))

"No, I didn't," she whispered. "I am a cold hearted killer."

((night))

"no"

"Yes, I am," Natasha said. "You know it, my kid knows it, Clint knows it, James knows it." She shook her head slowly.

Jax walked in and stood near Steve and Natasha. "I have to tell you guys something. Something about my past."

Steve cal hugged Tasha then looked at jax

Natasha wasn't listening, zoned out.

steve smiled

"I told Fury. He wants me to tell you guys at a meeting but I can't. I told him about HYDRA. About them taking me, and testing on me." Jax told them quietly, her eyes closed. She wasn't sure if they knew or remembered she was blind.

steve nodded

Jax reopens her eyes which are now a mix of purple and green, turning into green. "I told him my whole past, every test that I could remember. When they tested on my eyes, the test that took my vision away. When they made me go through mazes blind, pushing me to my limits. When they released wolf humans on me, to try to kill. When they did everything to me. The mental, physical and sexual abuse. I told him everything, and he wants me to go back so that we can fight Hydra." Jax tells them, with small tears pooling in the corners of her eyes, and her ears drooping while her tail just lay limp, partially on the floor.

Natasha looked up at Jax and stood, putting a hand on her shoulder. "You did the right thing," she said softly. She was out of her gloominess.

Jax flinched at the contact. She still wasn't used to it, after years of being out of Hydra's grasp.

Natasha sat back down. "We'll take HYDRA down," she said. "The Avengers and SHIELD field agents."

steve smiled watching

Jax nodded and blinked her eyes that were now a swirl of the colors of the rainbow. "I just don't know when he wants us to meet with him."

"We can ask," Natasha said.