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~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments So I guess this is my journal....I don't know if I'll ever use this. I guess I just did though, so...yeah. That's it.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Umm....I kind of don't know how to start this off. What am I going to write about?


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Y'all can post on this if you want to...I won't mind. Just be respectful please.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Lala lalallala....I have nothing to write about.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Formal is in May, but I don't have a dress yet, and it's all my dad's fault. I may be short, but I want a long dress, and when He said I couldn't get the dress I wanted, I got mad. But it's almost two months later, and I still don't have a dress, and neither does my sister.

AND THESE STUPID FRIGGIN' PSSA's ARE GETTING ON MY NERVES.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I have homework...but I can't do it...I need help. There's no friggin' figurative language in my friggin' poem and I have to write a friggin' paragraph about figurative language that doesn't friggin' exist in my friggin' peom! Plus, there's the teeny tiny issue of my having to recite my poem in front of the class on Wednesday...no pressure. No pressure at all. Nope. None.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I need somebody to talk to...please, someone come talk to me. I'm lonely. PLEASE, I BEG YOU! I DON'T BITE!


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 Merlin (dogdworianhotmailcom) | 232 comments IM HERE!1


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments HI OMG REAL PEOPLE TO TALK TO*jumps up and down* I'm not going crazy!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Hey guys...I think I'm going to bed now...G'night.


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 Merlin (dogdworianhotmailcom) | 232 comments okay, goodnight!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I'm kind of irritated right now....to the point where I think I might throw something. Or hit someone. Or do both. That would be splendid*laughs maniacally*


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I hope I don't sound like a crazy person...


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I went ice skating for the first time yesterday, and it wasn't that bad. I was actually better at it than at roller skating, if you can believe that. And I suck at roller skating xD


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Everybody hates me, I swear they do. Or at least they have something against me.

Last night I had to sleep over at my aunt's house(she's sick-long story), so one of my dad's friends ended up taking my sisters and I to school. But we were kind of late, so I didn't get to print my stuff for English which is due tomorrow, since my presentation is tomorrow, and we're back to a regular schedule, no more English at the end of the day.

Plus, everyone one in my school is going crazy, there was a crazy number of fights and almost fights today. Ridiculous.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I have one of the worst headaches known to man kind right now...Y'all know I got my stuff printed? My spanish teachers loves me, and she saved me from totally failing English this quarter. I love her so much. I tell People that all the time, they think I"m a creep.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments M sister got in trouble this week, for the stupidest thing ever. I'll tell y'all later, but I will let you know that I think I've got my dress for formal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments ON the bus two days ago, my sister had a headache, and my friend Melanie that we usually ride the bus home with had softball practice, so she sat in the seat behind me. She gave me a copy of the newspaper because it was going to come out the next day and she wanted me to get a sneak peek at it. so I was really concentrating or even listening to her when this boy kept bothering her, and eventually she got mad and yelled something obscene. The bus driver told her he heard her, and she apologized, but then he wrote her up for it. She told our dad so that he wouldn't be mad when the principal called home, but she ended up never calling. I think that was she was preoccupied, but that's another story, involving a boy on probation, stolen money, and a kid going to juvie. Anyway, that's how she got in trouble, and my dad's not even mad this time, just disappointed, which is a lot worse. I feel rally bad for her, especially because it's a friend of the family's birthday, and their whole family is coming down, and they told her that if she gets in trouble one more time, they would do something to her, but I forgot what the punishment was.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments My sister looked up Jeffery Dahmer today...the images were scary, and the things he did were disgusting and gross. I can't believe I've been singing Dark Horse and didn't know who he was.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Oh, about the guy who got arrested...he was already on probation for who knows what, and he and some of his idiot friends decided to steal the zoo trip money from the teacher running it on Wednesday,or Thursday, I can't remember. There aren't cameras in the classrooms, but there are some in the hallways, and they saw one of them leaving her room after hours, and blamed him for it. He admitted to it, but wouldn't say who had helped him, or why he did it. They called the cops on him, and because it was a violation of his probation, he's locked up for now, and probably for a month.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments A girl went "missing" Sunday night. She ran away. In the middle of the night. Can you blame me for saying that she might have been depressed or even(oh my gosh, don't even dare to think it...)Suicidal? And her so called "friends" got mad at me for saying that. What, is there something wrong the the word suicidal? I said it's like rape. You can ignore it, but that doesn't mean it doesn't happen. Just saying. She was found walking home around One in the afternoon on Monday. If I ran away, I wouldn't come back for at least three days. Shoot, I know I'm going to get the ass whooping of a life time, I might as well make it worth it and give them a reason to beat me. Shoot. But then again, that's just me. She came back to school today all nonchalant and her "friends" were all sympathetic and shooting me the evil eye for saying I don't care and going on with my day as normal. Because that's the truth. She was never my friend, and no matter who I asked, they would tell you that I strongly dislike her. She wasn't my problem or concern. If she had turned up dead, my only response would've been, Oh, I knew her. Oh well.

Sorry if that makes me sound like a cold heated bitch. It's the truth.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I'm going roller skating tomorrow! I honestly think it will be kind of fun this time...I definitely think it will be better than last year.

I think this boy in my school likes me(I'm so totally not speculating....or at least, I hope not) and I'm not sure how I feel about that...especially because one time he asked me to formal as a joke,and I laughed in his face(not on purpose-I just thought it was funny that anyone asked me) and my sister told me I might've hurt his feelings.

BTW, my dress hasn't come yet. It was in Ohio at 6:00 am yesterday, Eastern time, and left a couple of hours later. At first I thought they had shipped it to the wrong address, but my dad told me that's how they do things. It's supposed to be here by today or tomorrow though.


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~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments MY DRESS CAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


(sorry, I know I went overboard on the exclamation marks...I was just so happy!!!!)

I think it was Thursday or Friday, I can't remember which....It was Thursday.

Anyway, it came(which my sister isn't all that happy about since it's purple and sparkly, and sparkles got all over the bedroom floor-oh well), and it fits pretty well, but it's a bit tight in places, so I'm trying to lose a couple of pounds. It's also really long, probably because I'm short, so my dad said he might, might buy me some heels to wear with it.

Here's what it looks like:




~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Hey y'all, I haven't been on in a couple of days, sorry.

I signed up for a music theory class, and even if I can read music a little bit, and can play of couple of (stupid) songs, doesn't mean I'm a music prodigy. A lot of the kids there are "band kids", and some of them know a little more than I do, but not by much. Most of them accept that I'm not on par with them except for this stupid, pesky, little seventh grader who thinks that because he knows more than me(like, not) he can boss me around. Not. Gonna. Happen. I already told him that if he keeps messing with me, I can get almost the whole 8th grade, and some of seventh ton my side...I know everybody, and even if I don't like people fighting my battles, I said I wasn't going to get physical with anyone this year, which means i need people to calm me down. I'm usually a happy person though, and I don't like it when people make me mad, especially when Im trying to be polite.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Spring Break officially started yesterday, but to some people it started when school let out...I'm so tired, I just want to sleep...I have all this extra credit work to do, on top of my homework and all that other crap that my teachers gave us because they hate us(but they say they don't-lies, all lies, I tell you!)


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I'm spending most of spring break at my cousin's house! Yay! Not.

Plus, this being the first day of spring break, they decided to celebrate with me by giving me a cold. Double Yay! Right before Easter too. Life is just great.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments My Dad is really irking my soul, trying to be a super disciplined father in front of my aunt and cousins, doing stuff he never would've done at home...everyone's irking me these days. Sighs.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I forgot today was Friday!!!!!!!!!!

I got my hair done yesterday, I'm so glad I'm only keeping it in for only a month and a half this time, I'm really starting to hate weave. My hands are so sweaty right now, so it's kind of hard to type. Science PSSA's when we go back next week so excited woo-hoo! I think I've decided that I'm going to try to become a better writer. I keep telling everyone that I suck, but I never actually try, so I'm going to try to write more instead of reading. I've been trying to write this stupid essay for this essay contest for about 3 days now...I think I'm in such a good mood because I'm no longer at my cousin's house!!!!!!!

Y'all know how I told you about my dress for formal? Well, now I need shoes, and this is a whole 'nother hassle. I know I'm speaking improper english, it's how everything's running through my head right now. My sister has to get braces, so we spent almost all day today at U of P's Dentist college since our insurance won't cover it at our regular dentist. They wouldn't cover two years ago either, so I don't see what's different about a Dentist college....

Been reading a lot more lately, so glad that reader's block or whatever I had was gone. I'm just plowing through books. I just wish I had more time though...don't we all? *cackles like a maniac* I'm in an insanely good mood and I don't know why, considering that my dad's host family is coming over tomorrow and they're always kind of a bore. At least they'll help fix our sink though. I'm sick of brushing my teeth in the shower. It's starting to drive nuts.

I think I've lost weight, all my clothes feel looser...don't know how either, the way I'm eating. I ate five slices of pizza yesterday...


My mom sent us a box for Easter I guess, and with the expected chocolate bunny, she also sent us Frozen and another movie. I guess I'm a hypocrite now, because I'm going to watch it, even though I told everyone else it was stupid. Mainly because I didn't know what it was about, and that stupid song LET IT GO LET IT GO!!!!!!!!!!! got on my nerves. Ya know. Annoying.

Toodles!*waves goodbye to all her adoring fans*


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments You know what I hate? When People don't listen to me and I'm right. It's like, I TOLD YOU SO! Except, it kind of hurts, that you doubted me.

Anyway, y'all know that I signed up for a Music Theory/Composition class, even though I have limited knowledge. So, we were practicing scale degrees, and for y'all that don't know what that is, it's like each note in a scale has a number. So the first in C major is C. The Second is D. The Third is E. and so on. It gets tricky once you get to Sharps and flats and stuff, but that's the basics. Anyway, he asked us what the fourth of B sharp major was. I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO SAID E SHARP. THE REST OF THE BAND KIDS SAID F OR G! But he said our group had to choose one answer AND OF COURSE WE WENT WITH THE BAND KIDS BUT THEY WERE WRONG AND THE OTHER TEAM GOT THE POINT AND I WAS RIGHT AND I DON'T CARE THAT I'M NOT A BAND KID I DESERVE SOMETHING BECAUSE I WAS RIGHT*stomps foot* This concludes my temper tantrum. Goodbye.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments So I think I might've mentioned earlier that their might be a guy who like me...so, can someone please tell me what this means?

Today in Enrichment(my Music Theory Class), we were watching videos done by BYOS, which stands for Bring Your Own Style. They do their thing to beats of other songs. One really cool one was to Micheal Jackson's Dirty Dianah. They use a lot of sound effects too. Anyway, I was sitting the back, in the teacher's chair, and my friend was standing next to me. Anonymous dude(guess who he is?) was sitting in a folding chair next to him. This is after we'd given my friend his birthday punches, even though it was in January. I was using his sweater as a blanket. When B*tch don't kill my vibe came on, he said he wanted to sit down, and asked me to move over.I told him he was too big for that, but moved over so he could sit. But he couldn't fit, and it wasn't kind of uncomfortable. AD(Anonymous dude) asked if he could "get in on the action". I told him now. Eventually he ended up sitting on my lap, and leaning back so I could see. When I was walking home from the bus stop, he said, "Go Get'em". I asked him what he meant, and he said that he saw him sitting on my lap. I told him that we were just friends, but I don't think he believed me. What does this mean? IDK.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Hey guys, I've realized that I have 17 views, which means that this calls for a Woot Woot!




~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Sorry I haven't been on in a while, I've been helping my sister with her science fair project...This time next week I'll be at the fair!!!!

TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCIENCE PSSA's ISN'T THAT AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TTFN




~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Wanna know what's been stuck in my head all day? Paranoid

Two of my b*tches in the club
But they don't know about each other(yeah)
I said I think they set me up
but Maybe I'm just paranoid


I'm paranoid, I'm trippin'
Been smokin', been sippin'
I'm paranoid...


I think y'all get it. Anyway, there's something wrong with me. It's kind of disgusting, but I'm gonna tell y'all anyway xD

I think I'm there's something wrong with my bowels...my poop came out all watery and clumped together. My dad said it's probably something I ate, but I'm convinced that it's diarrhea.
Bye


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Sorry I had to leave abruptly yesterday, have to go now too, just wanted to post this song that I absolutely love

"Somebody Loves You Baby (You Know Who It Is)"by Patti Labelle

[Chorus:]
Somebody loves you baby
ooh ooh ooh
Somebody loves you baby
ooh ooh ooh
Somebody loves you baby
ooh ooh ooh
Somebody loves you baby
You know who it is

It happened so suddenly
I woke up one morning with you on my mind
No matter what I did
Couldn't stop thinking about you
Wanted instant replay of yesterday

[Chorus]

I'm under your spell
I don't want to break free
You can make a slave out of me
I worship you and nobody else
I pledge my love to you forever

[Chorus x2]

I need you right now
Baby don't say no
Cause you look like you ready to get it on
Whatever you give me
I give it to you back
All the love you'll ever need I'll give it to you

[Chorus x2]


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I really love the Somebody loves you baby(ooh, ooh) even though it's more of an oh, oh, oh. That probably doesn't make any sense, ignore me. I'll probably be on regularly again in about 2 weeks, after I take keystones. My life is crazy right now xD


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I'M DYING I'M DYING I'M DYING AND NOBODY CARES BUT ME I'M DYING...........................


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Okay, for reals now...


My finger tips have been hurting me all day, so I looked it up online, and it said that it could be for multiple reasons, but I should probably get it checked out by a doctor. but one of the things I could possibly have is raynaud's phenomenon. some guy's wife had it before she got Scleroderma.


THAT'S WHY I THINK I'M DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I AM SO SERIOUSLY GOING TO BED NOW EVEN THOUGH IT HURTS TO TYPE THIS MESSAGE I'M SO TIRED AND MY SISTER DOESN'T CARE THAT I'M DYING ALL SHE CARES ABOUT IS THAT STUPID SCIENCE FAIR SHE CAN GO ROT IN HELL I THREW A TEMPER TANTRUM TODAY TELL Y'ALL ABOUT IT LATE GOOD NIGHT LOVE Y'ALL 19 VIEWS AWESOME CONSIDERING I DON'T POST AS OFTEN AS I'D LIKE TO THIS IS MY MINI BLOG I NEED A LIFE I HEART GOODREADS MY FINGER HURTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


nighty night


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Goodness, I just finished reading all of my comments...I hope no one reads this but me, I sound like a total maniac. my finger tips still hurt, but on and off. usually my pointer finger on my my left hand and my thumb on my right. I want to catch y'all up on some things, but I can't right now, and tomorrow I'm going to my cousin's house...for what reason, I don't know. Keystones Monday and Tuesday, and my teacher decided on today to take a personal day....she really cares about us. I have a theme paper due Thursday that I've barely started, and a spanish project that's due in a month, but I know I"m going to forget... I just killed a bug, look at me, the exterminator.


My best friend wasn't here today, oh well. There was an almost fight over pop-tarts that I'll tell y'all about later, I really have to go now, even though I'll probably only end up reading one of Rick's stories, he's a really good writer. Crap, I have that powerpoint to do on authors too, DANG YOU MISS TIFFT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST SHOULDN'T DO IT, THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR TAKING A PERSONAL DAY WITH MS.WATSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I can only be on really quickly, but this is a letter written by one of the first people to take the keystones, about two year's ago. She was also an 8th grader, and fourteen.

STOP KEYSTONES ONCE AND FOR ALL

My Story

By Jordyn Schwartz

Today I have experienced one of the most confidence breaking and mind troubling obstacles in my entire life; the Algebra 1 Keystone exam for the State of Pennsylvania. When I sat down to take this standardized test, I did not know what I was getting myself into. My math teacher had been preparing us for this test, but even with all that drill and practice, my mind could not take it all in. The first 14 questions took me over 10 minutes each when I was trying to solve the unfamiliar equations, long word problems, and words I didn’t even know how to pronounce. I was telling myself that I was going to be fine until all of the stress overwhelmed my body. I was frustrated. “I should know this,” I thought. I wasn’t even half way done when they announced that there were only 10 minutes remaining. I only completed my first set of grueling questions, and still had another set of them and 2 short answer sections containing at least 6 more questions each. I wouldn’t get help from a,b,c or d with these.

At that moment, my mind broke down. I was telling myself that I was stupid, and that these kinds of tests make me feel like I don’t know anything. After hours of work, I still had so much more. It is extremely difficult to continue concentrating at the same intense level as you did when you first started. I was sick and tired of looking at those same boring Algebra problems.

I am an A average student all around, and score advanced on PSSA’s. But I couldn’t even read the next problem without all of those discouraging thoughts spiraling in my mind. I tried telling myself to pull through, but I found myself not caring anymore, and just wanting to circle some letter. I did that for two or three questions and stopped. I dropped my pencil on my desk, tried taking some deep breaths, and thought of ripping my booklet into shreds. I poked holes in my booklet with my pencil, and started squeezing my hands tightly as if I was going to explode. I was that angry, outraged, fuming. I felt so incredibly frustrated that these stupid test companies don’t care what they are doing to the students of our country. All they want is the money, and the worst part is, nothing is being done to stop them. Why don’t the politicians making my generation the most over tested in history try the tests for themselves? I bet most of them would fail or do poorly. I mean, if smart, educated people don’t do well on these tests, than what do they show?

These Keystone tests are breaking kids down, making us feel dumb and not want to learn, instead of making us want to enjoy the wonders and greatness of education. I know that when most people in my grade hear the words, standardized testing, no one is jumping up and down with excitement. I am an 8th grade student in the Lower Merion School District: a district known for their excellent education. When kids here are complaining about how difficult it is for us to take these tests, who knows what kids in struggling school districts are experiencing. Why should these tests be a graduation requirement for high school?

After my big meltdown from the frustration of not knowing how in the world to do these problems, I didn’t continue my test. I told the guidance counselor I couldn’t take it any more, and how it made me feel horrible inside. Although I kept calm on the outside, on the inside I was bomb about to explode. I was holding back my tears. I bet many other kids felt this same way, even if it wasn’t as strongly as I felt. I will tell you one thing, I am never taking one of those tests again. No test shall ever make me feel as low and deflated as I did today. I don’t care what alternative project I have to do in exchange for the Keystone test. Let me be exempted. No one should experience what I have experienced today. Standardized testing needs to be stopped.


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments These are the score ranges for the Keystones:

I have no idea what this is, but some information about Algebra 1 Keystones specifically:



~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I spent almost all day today either worrying about these stupid tests, dancing and listening to music to get my mind off of these stupid tests, or talking about them. And No offense, that girl Jordan was right, even though I TOTALLY took offense to what she was saying about struggling districts. I am not in a wealthy district, and I know that because of that I am sometimes looked down upon, but she has no reason to say that we will do worse just because it stressed her out. I didn't start stressing about the test until today, when I was talking to my cousin about it. I will say this though, I'm scared. Shitless. I'm not scared shitless that I'm going to fail, I'm scared shitless that I'm going to cause other people today. When I told my sister that I plan on going to extra time, and don't plan on finishing before sixth period, I scared the crap out of her. She says that if I go to extra time, especially on the first day, I will
1.)freak out everyone who didn't go to extra time, and
2.)cause almost everybody to want to go to extra time the next day. I don't mean to do that, but I have to pass this test to graduate from high school, and that's all that's on my mind. I'm sorry that I'm stressing y'all out and scaring you, but hey, i'm scared too. AND THAT BITCH THAT IS MY TEACHER NEEDS TO STOP TEACHING THE TEST AND TEACH ALGEBRA 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


What I mean by that is, all the teachers are teaching us is what is on the test, what I need to pass the Keystone. As worried as I am about Keystones, I'm more worried about completing Algebra 1. I want to know all the information so that when I go to Geometry next year and Algebra 2 year after, I'll know everything I have to to pass. They give the Keystones 3 times a year, and there are four years of high school...I'll have another twelve times after this to take it again. I guarantee that by that time I'll have passed at least once.


One of the reasons I think I might fail, or at least not do as well as I would like is that Ms.Watson is the one giving the test. During PSSA's we were with Ms.Sherrick and she's a no nonsense kind of person. She doesn't take shit from anybody. I know i'm cursing a lot, it's just my mood. Sorry y'all.

Second reason? We're in a different room. And the room we're going to be in is stuffy, hot, and too small for our class. I'm sure as hell sitting by the window in the corner, and away from all distractions.


Know what I wish? That I could have talked to the students who took it last year and how they felt about it and what their scores were.


I think I would do well on the Keystones if I could listen to some R&B right before...That's what I did all day today, rocking out to some old Mariah Carey, Beyonce, and R Kelly. DJ Casper cha-cha slide...and a whole bunch of other oldies y'all know nothin' about. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH









Night!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments My life's been crazy, and I don't really have time to talk right now because I have a theme paper due in two days, along with a bunch of other stuff. I just wanted to let y'all know that I finished the Keystones, though I don't know if I passed or not. Two people asked me to formal today(I said no to one, and I'll think about it to the other), and I'm catching a cold, along with my allergies. Great, right? Still need shoes for my dress, I'll try and talk more later, BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments I haven't been on in awhile, a bunch of crazy things have happened, just know I have a date to formal and shoes! LONG story!


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~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Hey! I don't even come on here anymore, it's kind of sad. Right now I am sweating like crazy, there is something wrong with this. It's September, and even though it's technically still summer, it rarely ever was this hot during the summer. I'm watching 20/20 with my sister.

Did any body see that Stand Up 2 Cancer Program? I just watched it, it was really encouraging, and if I could, I would give money too.

I started High School!!!!!! Though so many people didn't come with us....*frowny face* Good night!


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments Don;t mind my username, I was in a really happy kind of philosophical mood I guess.

20/20 is about Joan Rivers...


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments My computer is getting on my nerves right now, but it's all good. I'm too tired to rewrite everything, so I'm going to bed. Night y'all. I'm burning up though


~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~ (nala13) | 2142 comments LALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALA


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