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~Akweley♡Mazarae♥~★☆★oblivion★☆★~I CAN'T BREATHE~
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Mar 21, 2014 06:40PM

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AND THESE STUPID FRIGGIN' PSSA's ARE GETTING ON MY NERVES.





Last night I had to sleep over at my aunt's house(she's sick-long story), so one of my dad's friends ended up taking my sisters and I to school. But we were kind of late, so I didn't get to print my stuff for English which is due tomorrow, since my presentation is tomorrow, and we're back to a regular schedule, no more English at the end of the day.
Plus, everyone one in my school is going crazy, there was a crazy number of fights and almost fights today. Ridiculous.






Sorry if that makes me sound like a cold heated bitch. It's the truth.

I think this boy in my school likes me(I'm so totally not speculating....or at least, I hope not) and I'm not sure how I feel about that...especially because one time he asked me to formal as a joke,and I laughed in his face(not on purpose-I just thought it was funny that anyone asked me) and my sister told me I might've hurt his feelings.
BTW, my dress hasn't come yet. It was in Ohio at 6:00 am yesterday, Eastern time, and left a couple of hours later. At first I thought they had shipped it to the wrong address, but my dad told me that's how they do things. It's supposed to be here by today or tomorrow though.
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(sorry, I know I went overboard on the exclamation marks...I was just so happy!!!!)
I think it was Thursday or Friday, I can't remember which....It was Thursday.
Anyway, it came(which my sister isn't all that happy about since it's purple and sparkly, and sparkles got all over the bedroom floor-oh well), and it fits pretty well, but it's a bit tight in places, so I'm trying to lose a couple of pounds. It's also really long, probably because I'm short, so my dad said he might, might buy me some heels to wear with it.
Here's what it looks like:


I signed up for a music theory class, and even if I can read music a little bit, and can play of couple of (stupid) songs, doesn't mean I'm a music prodigy. A lot of the kids there are "band kids", and some of them know a little more than I do, but not by much. Most of them accept that I'm not on par with them except for this stupid, pesky, little seventh grader who thinks that because he knows more than me(like, not) he can boss me around. Not. Gonna. Happen. I already told him that if he keeps messing with me, I can get almost the whole 8th grade, and some of seventh ton my side...I know everybody, and even if I don't like people fighting my battles, I said I wasn't going to get physical with anyone this year, which means i need people to calm me down. I'm usually a happy person though, and I don't like it when people make me mad, especially when Im trying to be polite.


Plus, this being the first day of spring break, they decided to celebrate with me by giving me a cold. Double Yay! Right before Easter too. Life is just great.


I got my hair done yesterday, I'm so glad I'm only keeping it in for only a month and a half this time, I'm really starting to hate weave. My hands are so sweaty right now, so it's kind of hard to type. Science PSSA's when we go back next week so excited woo-hoo! I think I've decided that I'm going to try to become a better writer. I keep telling everyone that I suck, but I never actually try, so I'm going to try to write more instead of reading. I've been trying to write this stupid essay for this essay contest for about 3 days now...I think I'm in such a good mood because I'm no longer at my cousin's house!!!!!!!
Y'all know how I told you about my dress for formal? Well, now I need shoes, and this is a whole 'nother hassle. I know I'm speaking improper english, it's how everything's running through my head right now. My sister has to get braces, so we spent almost all day today at U of P's Dentist college since our insurance won't cover it at our regular dentist. They wouldn't cover two years ago either, so I don't see what's different about a Dentist college....
Been reading a lot more lately, so glad that reader's block or whatever I had was gone. I'm just plowing through books. I just wish I had more time though...don't we all? *cackles like a maniac* I'm in an insanely good mood and I don't know why, considering that my dad's host family is coming over tomorrow and they're always kind of a bore. At least they'll help fix our sink though. I'm sick of brushing my teeth in the shower. It's starting to drive nuts.
I think I've lost weight, all my clothes feel looser...don't know how either, the way I'm eating. I ate five slices of pizza yesterday...
My mom sent us a box for Easter I guess, and with the expected chocolate bunny, she also sent us Frozen and another movie. I guess I'm a hypocrite now, because I'm going to watch it, even though I told everyone else it was stupid. Mainly because I didn't know what it was about, and that stupid song LET IT GO LET IT GO!!!!!!!!!!! got on my nerves. Ya know. Annoying.
Toodles!*waves goodbye to all her adoring fans*

Anyway, y'all know that I signed up for a Music Theory/Composition class, even though I have limited knowledge. So, we were practicing scale degrees, and for y'all that don't know what that is, it's like each note in a scale has a number. So the first in C major is C. The Second is D. The Third is E. and so on. It gets tricky once you get to Sharps and flats and stuff, but that's the basics. Anyway, he asked us what the fourth of B sharp major was. I WAS THE ONLY ONE WHO SAID E SHARP. THE REST OF THE BAND KIDS SAID F OR G! But he said our group had to choose one answer AND OF COURSE WE WENT WITH THE BAND KIDS BUT THEY WERE WRONG AND THE OTHER TEAM GOT THE POINT AND I WAS RIGHT AND I DON'T CARE THAT I'M NOT A BAND KID I DESERVE SOMETHING BECAUSE I WAS RIGHT*stomps foot* This concludes my temper tantrum. Goodbye.

Today in Enrichment(my Music Theory Class), we were watching videos done by BYOS, which stands for Bring Your Own Style. They do their thing to beats of other songs. One really cool one was to Micheal Jackson's Dirty Dianah. They use a lot of sound effects too. Anyway, I was sitting the back, in the teacher's chair, and my friend was standing next to me. Anonymous dude(guess who he is?) was sitting in a folding chair next to him. This is after we'd given my friend his birthday punches, even though it was in January. I was using his sweater as a blanket. When B*tch don't kill my vibe came on, he said he wanted to sit down, and asked me to move over.I told him he was too big for that, but moved over so he could sit. But he couldn't fit, and it wasn't kind of uncomfortable. AD(Anonymous dude) asked if he could "get in on the action". I told him now. Eventually he ended up sitting on my lap, and leaning back so I could see. When I was walking home from the bus stop, he said, "Go Get'em". I asked him what he meant, and he said that he saw him sitting on my lap. I told him that we were just friends, but I don't think he believed me. What does this mean? IDK.

TODAY WAS THE LAST DAY OF SCIENCE PSSA's ISN'T THAT AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TTFN


Two of my b*tches in the club
But they don't know about each other(yeah)
I said I think they set me up
but Maybe I'm just paranoid
I'm paranoid, I'm trippin'
Been smokin', been sippin'
I'm paranoid...
I think y'all get it. Anyway, there's something wrong with me. It's kind of disgusting, but I'm gonna tell y'all anyway xD
I think I'm there's something wrong with my bowels...my poop came out all watery and clumped together. My dad said it's probably something I ate, but I'm convinced that it's diarrhea.
Bye

"Somebody Loves You Baby (You Know Who It Is)"by Patti Labelle
[Chorus:]
Somebody loves you baby
ooh ooh ooh
Somebody loves you baby
ooh ooh ooh
Somebody loves you baby
ooh ooh ooh
Somebody loves you baby
You know who it is
It happened so suddenly
I woke up one morning with you on my mind
No matter what I did
Couldn't stop thinking about you
Wanted instant replay of yesterday
[Chorus]
I'm under your spell
I don't want to break free
You can make a slave out of me
I worship you and nobody else
I pledge my love to you forever
[Chorus x2]
I need you right now
Baby don't say no
Cause you look like you ready to get it on
Whatever you give me
I give it to you back
All the love you'll ever need I'll give it to you
[Chorus x2]


My finger tips have been hurting me all day, so I looked it up online, and it said that it could be for multiple reasons, but I should probably get it checked out by a doctor. but one of the things I could possibly have is raynaud's phenomenon. some guy's wife had it before she got Scleroderma.
THAT'S WHY I THINK I'M DYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nighty night

My best friend wasn't here today, oh well. There was an almost fight over pop-tarts that I'll tell y'all about later, I really have to go now, even though I'll probably only end up reading one of Rick's stories, he's a really good writer. Crap, I have that powerpoint to do on authors too, DANG YOU MISS TIFFT!!!!!!!!!!!!! I JUST SHOULDN'T DO IT, THAT'S WHAT YOU GET FOR TAKING A PERSONAL DAY WITH MS.WATSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

STOP KEYSTONES ONCE AND FOR ALL
My Story
By Jordyn Schwartz
Today I have experienced one of the most confidence breaking and mind troubling obstacles in my entire life; the Algebra 1 Keystone exam for the State of Pennsylvania. When I sat down to take this standardized test, I did not know what I was getting myself into. My math teacher had been preparing us for this test, but even with all that drill and practice, my mind could not take it all in. The first 14 questions took me over 10 minutes each when I was trying to solve the unfamiliar equations, long word problems, and words I didn’t even know how to pronounce. I was telling myself that I was going to be fine until all of the stress overwhelmed my body. I was frustrated. “I should know this,” I thought. I wasn’t even half way done when they announced that there were only 10 minutes remaining. I only completed my first set of grueling questions, and still had another set of them and 2 short answer sections containing at least 6 more questions each. I wouldn’t get help from a,b,c or d with these.
At that moment, my mind broke down. I was telling myself that I was stupid, and that these kinds of tests make me feel like I don’t know anything. After hours of work, I still had so much more. It is extremely difficult to continue concentrating at the same intense level as you did when you first started. I was sick and tired of looking at those same boring Algebra problems.
I am an A average student all around, and score advanced on PSSA’s. But I couldn’t even read the next problem without all of those discouraging thoughts spiraling in my mind. I tried telling myself to pull through, but I found myself not caring anymore, and just wanting to circle some letter. I did that for two or three questions and stopped. I dropped my pencil on my desk, tried taking some deep breaths, and thought of ripping my booklet into shreds. I poked holes in my booklet with my pencil, and started squeezing my hands tightly as if I was going to explode. I was that angry, outraged, fuming. I felt so incredibly frustrated that these stupid test companies don’t care what they are doing to the students of our country. All they want is the money, and the worst part is, nothing is being done to stop them. Why don’t the politicians making my generation the most over tested in history try the tests for themselves? I bet most of them would fail or do poorly. I mean, if smart, educated people don’t do well on these tests, than what do they show?
These Keystone tests are breaking kids down, making us feel dumb and not want to learn, instead of making us want to enjoy the wonders and greatness of education. I know that when most people in my grade hear the words, standardized testing, no one is jumping up and down with excitement. I am an 8th grade student in the Lower Merion School District: a district known for their excellent education. When kids here are complaining about how difficult it is for us to take these tests, who knows what kids in struggling school districts are experiencing. Why should these tests be a graduation requirement for high school?
After my big meltdown from the frustration of not knowing how in the world to do these problems, I didn’t continue my test. I told the guidance counselor I couldn’t take it any more, and how it made me feel horrible inside. Although I kept calm on the outside, on the inside I was bomb about to explode. I was holding back my tears. I bet many other kids felt this same way, even if it wasn’t as strongly as I felt. I will tell you one thing, I am never taking one of those tests again. No test shall ever make me feel as low and deflated as I did today. I don’t care what alternative project I have to do in exchange for the Keystone test. Let me be exempted. No one should experience what I have experienced today. Standardized testing needs to be stopped.


I have no idea what this is, but some information about Algebra 1 Keystones specifically:


1.)freak out everyone who didn't go to extra time, and
2.)cause almost everybody to want to go to extra time the next day. I don't mean to do that, but I have to pass this test to graduate from high school, and that's all that's on my mind. I'm sorry that I'm stressing y'all out and scaring you, but hey, i'm scared too. AND THAT BITCH THAT IS MY TEACHER NEEDS TO STOP TEACHING THE TEST AND TEACH ALGEBRA 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What I mean by that is, all the teachers are teaching us is what is on the test, what I need to pass the Keystone. As worried as I am about Keystones, I'm more worried about completing Algebra 1. I want to know all the information so that when I go to Geometry next year and Algebra 2 year after, I'll know everything I have to to pass. They give the Keystones 3 times a year, and there are four years of high school...I'll have another twelve times after this to take it again. I guarantee that by that time I'll have passed at least once.
One of the reasons I think I might fail, or at least not do as well as I would like is that Ms.Watson is the one giving the test. During PSSA's we were with Ms.Sherrick and she's a no nonsense kind of person. She doesn't take shit from anybody. I know i'm cursing a lot, it's just my mood. Sorry y'all.
Second reason? We're in a different room. And the room we're going to be in is stuffy, hot, and too small for our class. I'm sure as hell sitting by the window in the corner, and away from all distractions.
Know what I wish? That I could have talked to the students who took it last year and how they felt about it and what their scores were.
I think I would do well on the Keystones if I could listen to some R&B right before...That's what I did all day today, rocking out to some old Mariah Carey, Beyonce, and R Kelly. DJ Casper cha-cha slide...and a whole bunch of other oldies y'all know nothin' about. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH
Night!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wish me luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Did any body see that Stand Up 2 Cancer Program? I just watched it, it was really encouraging, and if I could, I would give money too.
I started High School!!!!!! Though so many people didn't come with us....*frowny face* Good night!

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