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Titled: When life gives you lemons...



You make lemonade right?

But what if life doesn’t give you lemons? What if you actually have to search for those lemons? What if it seems as though there are no lemon trees for you to find? What happens then?

You start to wonder if you are even good enough to have a lemon tree. Everyone around you friends, family, peers is picking up lemons left and right and here you are struggling to find one, just one measly little lemon.

As of right now I am that person who is struggling to find the one. I try and try and try and it seems that trying really doesn’t get me anywhere. Many people say that you can try and learn from your failures and that eventually you will get it. But it seems that I am the exception.

You see, to me, we live in a world where jobs and other lemons are given by knowing someone who in the workforce. Whether it be a friend or family, it seems that in today’s society it is very hard to find a job with out the inside support. I have witnessed this first hand. I have a friend who not only found a job once using this method, but TWICE. This friend knew two family members in the work place who could get them a job there and guess what happened? They got the job. Well it just so happen’s that the first time around I had also applied for the job and did not get a call back. And it destroyed me.

There were a million questions running through my mind at the time and it felt like I was breaking from the inside out. What did I do wrong? What could I have done better? I filled out the same application as my friend…we filled it out together…what did he have that I didn’t? And that’s when it seemed to hit me. His brother had worked there for many years and knew the family well. It had nothing to do with skill, (which I had job experience where he did not) It had nothing to do with job experience. It had to do with who you know.

Soo…people of the internet. I find myself stuck in a similar self destructing situation. This friend has now moved to another state, Utah to be specific. And he was planning on giving himself two weeks to do a job search. Well the day he got to Utah, he went out to dinner with his family who happened to work at the place they were eating and before you know it BAM! he has a job interview the next day and will be making 2 dollars more than I made.

I am extremely happy that he will be able to make the money that he wanted to and that he has a job. But at the same time I am upset because it seems like life is just being handed to him on a silver platter. That all of the lemons are just falling from the tree and landing into his basket for him to make a great big glass of lemonade to keep him successful for a long time.

And then there is me…I don’t have connections. I have tried to find jobs yet have failed. And it seems that I am unable to get lemons or all the lemons that fall into my basket are moldy and rotting.

So this whole saying “When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.” is a bit overrated for me.

Because life does not hand you lemons. Life does not give you chances. It just doesn’t.

Life gives you connections, if you are fortunate to have one or two, who then give you lemons to make lemonade.

But keep your head up, because some day…a lemon might just end up falling from the tree hit you on the head and land in your basket for your chance to shine. And when it does…you will be more than ready:)

Until then,

Lexi

Yay!!!!!!! Bella's journal!!!!!!!

I just love this group. I'm a genius. lolz

Yes. I love it too! :D

It's perfect:D

*mind blows up*

I just realized I have over 800 comments in this group O.0

Wow! I love your journal so far, Bella!

PETIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hug tackles Petie*

MAPLE! *hugs back*

*rolls with Petie over to the chat thread*

Let's go to chat xP Im corralling everyone in there

Ok

Whoa, that was awesome

I've tried to know lemons and only found limes in an endless drink of time where I found too late that I was destined to never be, so my ambition is cold and I am old, but I suppose you're young and could still plunge into fate with a joy for the unknown where maybe there could be a lifeline that pulls you to success.

Douglas, how do you write like that? I just don't know what to think. I think I'll think that it rocks xD

I agree with Maple and so do my subjects.

**slow claps**

Thanks everyone:p

Douglas that was beautiful!

HELLO EVERYONE:D

I will be writing again soon, just had so much going on in the past two weeks that my head feels like it is going to fall off my shoulders and roll into the sewerXD

I will have another entry for you on Friday <3

Hello people of the internet!!!

To get you caught up where I am at my life lets start from about a week ago shall we......

Once upon a time....in the magical place that is hot as hell called Palm Desert....

There lived a princess.....who really isn't a princess but in her mind she is so just freaking deal with it okay!!!!

Who was having trouble finding who she was in life.....


Okay so basically School started for me on Friday! 2nd year of College woohoooo!

I am taking 5 classes which adds up to 15 units so I am a full time student. And I have a life lesson to teach.




Alright...So as you may or may not know, I had a hard time finding true friends in school...people who I thought were true friends ended up being completely worthless and backstabbers when I needed them the most.

Senior year of high school was the worst of them all, I was on a medication that had a side effect of Rage. Yes, rage like being extremely angry all the time, which I was. I was like:

"BELLA SMASH!!!!!" **Hulk voice**

and basically when I smashed to the ground I smashed my entire social life and friendships that I had worked so hard to build over the years before. For a while I blamed myself for it. I told myself everyday after that year that I wasn't good enough to be anyone's friend, that I would end up messing it up and ruining it for them and myself.

I told myself that I was a horrible friend and I shouldn't be with anyone...and my thought process stayed that way...For two years!

Now in this state of mind I went through depression and anxiety of feeling rejected. Turns out that Anxiety is what was keeping me from having any sort of friends because even though my mind was telling me that I didn't want to hurt anyone...I was actually looking out for myself.

Just today actually, I went to see a Psychiatrist. I have a pretty rocky background (that I may or may not get around to telling you) and I need some help psychologically. Today I was diagnosed with a mood disorder, basically I was all over the place with my moods and it was hard for me to keep the friends that I had because of it. So 4 weeks before this appointment I had met the psychiatrist for the first time and he put me on a medication to help me with my Anxiety (fear of being rejected was the main problem) and I am telling you, it has turned my life around.

As you know, my boyfriend moved to Utah, and before being on this medication I would have a meltdown, go into manic states of depression. But now I feel so happy and energized, that even though it is great during the day...I am staying up into 3 or 4:30 in the morning cleaning and watching tv. Which is not good because I need sleep!!! So today I was diagnosed with a mood disorder for that very reason...I need a balance in the chemicals in my brain..I don't have one at the moment, so I am taking another medication to help me out.


Getting back to the point I swear, so what I have learned in these last 4 weeks of pure happiness is that I don't need to try so hard to find friends. They will either come to me or don't, I can't force people to be my friend or do something stupid to get them to be my friend. These last 4 weeks I have learned to be comfortable in my own skin, I feel so much lighter and brighter now that I have started to help myself.

I am not ashamed that I need help, medications are known to do wonderful things for people. I feel fantastic. No longer am I feeling down about not having friends, or my seizures or my boyfriend being in utah! I FEEL GREAT!!! I feel like I can finally be the person that I always was...if that makes sense. I just needed a little bit of help exposing her.

I am a beautiful and confident woman who is never going to let a person bring me down, because no matter what anyone says, I am who I am. I love the person that I have become and despite the situations I had to endure, I would say I came out on top. I love me. and its not narcissistic to say.

For any of you feeling the way I felt please do the following because I do it every single day:
Before you go to bed.
1. Get a pack of sticky notes. (In whatever color you prefer)
2. Get a permanent marker or pen.
3. Write one great thing about yourself.
4. Place sticky note on mirror.
In the morning:
After getting ready for whatever it is you are getting ready for, look at the sticky note and repeat the words written on the note and look into the mirror. TELL YOURSELF YOU LOVE YOU!!!! SMILE AND TAKE A POWER POSE!!! SAY I GOT THIS AND HAVE A FREAKING BITCHIN' DAY!!

Because no matter who you are, you should love yourself.
Spread the love to those who look like need it, give compliments or even hugs! it'll make that person feel better! It will make you feel better about yourself.

I love you all and I want you to know that you are beautiful inside and out, if anyone ever tells you differently, just say: "Well thanks for your opinion, too bad it doesn't matter to me." **Hair flip and walk away*

STAY SLAYIN MY LOVELIES

QUEEN B

xoxoxo

Hi, I'm Aurrie and I just saw this journal today, it's really inspiring and makes me want to do something productive, it's awesome :)

Aw this was such an inspiring journal!

Thank you!! That is what I set out to do! Inspire!! I am glad to know that it has touched you so<3

Your welcome, I'm eager to hear more :3

Hehe:p I will have another journal entry up either today or Monday:)

Yes plz we all need some inspiration in our lives

Okay needed to write this as some sort of release because I know this guy isn't on goodreads.


So I am currently going to a new college. I am trying to make friends because at the other college that I went to just wasn't working out and I was absolutely miserable.

So anyway, I meet this guy who is in my theatre arts make up class. He is super chill, in his 30s and ya know I was like cool he is talking to me so whatever. We hung out last night with a bunch of our friends and I had a really good time.

He texted me this morning saying that he had a good time and that we need to hang out with all of our friends again. I said that it was fun and we totally should.

Then he said this:

""Definitely, your welcome. Yes we do....I would be down for taking you out just me and you too but we might not be able to control ourselves lol ;)"

LIKE WTF IS THAT!!!!! CONTROL OURSELVES WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?!?!?!?! I WAS NOT THROWIN OUT ANY KIND OF VIBES TO HIM AND I WAS JUST BEING FRIENDLY.

I feel so dirty right now and creeped out. Like I am having a anxiety attack over it. I have to see this guy every single friday at school and now I am dreading going to my favorite class.

I was looking for friends and he was just looking for some ass apparently....even though he knows I have a boyfriend who I have been faithful to for 3 years!!!!!!

THOUGHTS, RANTS, QUESTIONS, COMMENTS ARE WELCOME....I need to vent right now.

well I'm 14 so i probably won't be much help.
but OH MY GOSH THAT IS CREEPY BEYOND

WOAH WTF I WOULD SLAP THAT GUY THE VERY NEXT DAY

RIGHT!!!!!!! I AM LIKE FLIPPING OUT *shivers*

Seriously I wish I knew him irl and I could just tell him what weirdo he is

Lol I could give you his number :p Hahahaha!

XD nah just gimme his address and I will find him and I will kill u

Scene from that movie I can't remember the name of:

Ok man I don't know who you are or what you want, but if you continue being a weirdo to Belle, I will find u and I will kill u.

Yes!!! Taken!!! That's the name of the movie!!!

Thank you!!! Taken!