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So this is my first journal post, huh? I have a very boring life though...I can't believe other people will read this....errr...

I found a drama CD on YouTube for a group in the show Hetalia I like, but it's not translated. I could translated it myself, but translating Japanese though fun can be tiring sometimes....

Have I ever mentioned how much I wanted to visit Iceland? I remember we have a book, an old book from the turn of this century that detailed daily lives of families in several different countries, and one family was from Iceland. One of the daughters said her favorite thing to do was wade around in the hot springs, and they took a picture of her doing just that in her bathing suit, with snow all around her.

From that moment on Iceland seemed a magical place to me, a place where you could swim in a hot spring in your bathing suit with all the snow around you. That hasn't changed.

There's other things I want to see in Iceland though, it's a very beautiful country. I just hope I don't have to learn Icelandic.

It's a very beautiful language, several of my favorite foreign dubs are Icelandic, but it's appreantly really hard for English speakers to learn.

I've heard if an English speaker wants to learn a Nordic language, Swedish and Danish are the easiest. I MIGHT visit Denmark one day.

But Iceland is one of my top travel destinations. Not only do I want to sit in a hot spring, but I also want to see the bubbling paint pots, which are bubbling puddles of colorful mud. And the Northern Lights, and the coastline too.

I just hope I don't get sick or anything...that's always my biggest concern when traveling anywhere because I have a very weird digestive agenda....if I eat something foreign I might get really ill.

Oh! I never said this in my first post, but people can comment on this and ask me questions and stuff....if they want to that is.

Some Things About Me:

~I'm Elizabeth, and I'm 19 years old and start college in the fall....next fall. Next school year I guess I should say. I'm also American.

~I'm not very funny or awkward, so don't expect posts like you think you're going to get...I don't like to think about how little in my life I've seen and done compared to other people my age.

~I speak partial Japanese.

~My favorite color is pink, but I really love any color except dark colors, like brown, grey, black, dark green, dark blue, dark brown, etc.

~I play trombone.

~I collect dolls.

~I love learning about history and other cultures. I have plans to visit not just Iceland but Japan and Lithuania too! Some other countries too. My favorite time periods are the Russian Empire, the Great Depression, and Edo Japan.

~I'm agnostic, but agree with the Buddhist lifestyles and traditions....even if I don't follow them.

~I'm lactose intolerant. Despite that, my favorite food is macaroni and cheese! Expect me to complain a lot on here once I eat any sort of diary food, like cheese, yogurt, ice cream, etc. It's just so good!!!

~I love anime and manga. The one anime I'm obsessed with I'm sure some people on here will agree with is Axis Powers: Hetalia.

~My mom is a single mother and I have two younger brothers.

~I'm an author-in-training and also want to be a teacher.

~I'm scared of wasps, and thunderstorms.

~My favorite season is summer.

~My favorite fast food restaurant is Subway. I always get the cold-cut trio.

~I love staying up-to-date on current events! Expect lots of posts about things like that...

~I have Netflix and Amazon Prime, as well as premium subscriptions to both FUNimation and Crunchyroll.

~I think....and talk....a lot. So expect lots of posts in here about just things in general that I'm thinking of.

~My idea of a perfect date is a unique one. Take me out to lazer-tag or out on a camping trip. Or even out to a water park!

~I DON'T think Frozen is overrated and have two sets of Frozen jewelry: a pink necklace and bracelet with Anna, and a blue necklace and bracelet with Elsa!

I think that's it....goodbye for now! *Curtsies*

You know Japanese? Partial or fluent, I love Japanese!

Yup! But only partially, but I suppose partial fluency is better than none, but it's a pretty useless language here in America.

Well, if you knew enough, you wouldn't mind no subtitles in anime xD

Yeah there are certain things I watch without subtitles and translate myself, but it's harder than it looks, but it's also kinda fun when you're the only person who understands what's going on. XD

My grandparents renewed their wedding vows several years ago with a traditional Viking-style wedding. I don't remember very much since I was still really young when it happened, but I do remember it happened at dusk and afterwards we all had a giant campfire and ate dinner cooked out on it, like hot dogs.

Flash-forward to Christmas 2016 and we visited them for the holiday and I picked up one of their cats, and Grandpa told me I found the cat who 'ate the sacred hot-dog at their wedding', but when I asked him to clarify he just said: "You know."

I was literally puzzled for the rest of the party, trying to figure out what that even meant. I remember I ate hot dogs at the wedding, but something ate one of mine and it upset me.

SO DOES THIS MEAN I HAD THE SACRED HOT-DOG?!

When I see him again I'm going to make him tell me....

It was supposed to storm today, but it didn't and the entire weekly forecast has been replaced with snow. Unexpected but cool to say the least, I vastly prefer snow to thunderstorms.

Today's a new day....let's see what'll happen.

Gotta go to the store to get some breakfast for my brothers and I. I was originally going to just get some for myself because my middle brother will just sleep for the remainder of the day and my baby brother doesn't really mind, but I'd feel guilty about spending so much money on just myself.

Finally had a good long night of sleep last night, and had macaroni and cheese for breakfast I made myself. It was the Velveeta kind, my favorite because it's so rich and cheesy!

That sleep worked wonders for me, I feel a lot more refreshed than I have in the past few days. Let's see if I can actually get stuff done.

I don't think I'll be eating anything until later on tonight though because that macaroni and cheese made my stomach hurt something fierce, as usual.

Apparently an Euro is worth an American dollar? Like 1 Euro=1 American Dollar?

That's good news because I found a bunch of Icelandic candy I wanna buy next month and the site prices are listed in Euros even though Iceland doesn't use Euros and I thought they were worth way more than the site said but I guess they're not.

The licorice especially looks delicious! I have my eye on an assorted bag of various licorice flavours.

Reminds me of when Mom had a friend from Norway a really long time ago named Astrid and for Christmas she sent my mom a box of Norwegian chocolates and my mom said they were the best chocolates she ever ate, lol.

I also have a really bad headache and feel dizzy. It might be because of how cold it's been around here. We have a wind chill of subzero and the normal temperature is pretty much just above freezing, emphasis on just.

School starts up again today! How I wish I could go too....

Now I'll be bombarded by all my friends on all my social media sites complaining about how hard their schoolwork is while I'm stuck here wanting to go to work or school or do ANYTHING but I can't!

So those people should effing enjoy their time in school while it effing lasts.

I wonder if that 'views' counter on the top of every topic is actual people viewing the topic or if it also counts your own visits to the topic...

I got really bad heartburn earlier after lunch and Mom finally decided to get me both Tums and Peptic-Bismol the next time she goes to the store, which makes me happy,

I could drink Peptic-Bismol by the bottle sometimes. It's like my alcohol. Plus it tastes like bubblegum, and is pink! My favourite color helps treat digestive disorders!

What's not to love?!

Yesterday was a terrible day in terms of weather. Super warm despite it being January, cold rain, and super fast winds. Our power went out several times.

Sometimes I really hate weather.

Also I lost my gloves earlier when I went out walking. Chances are I'll probably find them again if I retrace my steps since people in my town are always leaving their clothes behind, often for days with nobody else picking them up, but it's me, so probably not.

I found my gloves walking home! They were soaking wet from the rain though, but nobody touched them. Lucky!

I'm listening to a rock mix of Three Days Grace.

Oh wait, according to society since I'm really happy and popular and peppy and love wearing the color pink and skirts and jewelry, I'm not allowed to like this kind of music.

>_<

It's raining really hard outside right now and I had to walk in it....my shoes are soaking wet...

I'll be getting my first job in a couple of weeks! I'm super excited about it! Granted it's not some cute mall job or babysitting gig, but it's still a job that I'm eager to have because job=money=fun.

Plus the place I'll be working at hardly gets any customers during the shift I'll be working so I'll pretty much be paid for doing nothing.

Happy Lunar New Year! It's the Year of the Rooster!

I'm not a Rooster, nor do I know any though...

I remember my Japanese class would always make New Years cards featuring the animal of the year, and we would compete with other classes across the state and later the nation. I never won, of course, and I'm glad I don't have to draw a rooster this year.

I miss our New Year parties in general. They were always the highlight of the new semester for me. We'd always try to change it up every year. We would do things like write calligraphy and write out our wish for the new year on real calligraphy paper, then we'd learn about new year traditions, such as all the games and presents given to children on the new year.

One of my favorite parts was that, every new year the Japanese would visit the shrine and get their fortune of the year. We'd make our own little fortunes, and if it was a 'curse', we'd have to hang it on the tree in our classroom to try and dispel bad luck, and we took it home if it was a 'blessing'.

We'd also eat zarusoba, which are buckwheat noodles and they are DELICIOUS! We'd eat them with chopsticks, and Jeon-sensei would always be disappointed if we couldn't get the hang of it, but I caught on really quickly. We ate the noodles because on the new year, their longness represented the wish for a long and happy year. Plus, they are one of the few noodles in Japan eaten cold, so don't freak out if you're served them in a restaurant ice-cold!

We'd also drink tea, which I never liked so I never drank the tea, but I could eat zarusoba all day long!

My stomach hurt super badly earlier this morning, like really super early. I thought something was blocked in my digestive tract, and Mom said it was because I had cheese pizza with hot cheese sticks and chicken Alfredo, and that now she's going to severely limit my diary intake.

I thought I wasn't sick, since the last few times I got really sick I was in so much pain I couldn't even walk, but I could walk last night.

I ended up throwing up all of the Pizza Hut I ate last night, aside from the Alfredo surprisingly, as well as some bile for good measure. My stomach feels hollow now.

I thought the food had gone bad, but I was the only member of my family who got sick or even felt weird after eating it last night.

Needless to say I am never eating Pizza Hut again for a long LONG time.

I threw up again! Dxxxx This time it was Mc'Donald's. I woke up early with a horribly sharp pain in my stomach, and I thought it was just indigestion so I took some Pepto-Bismol(thanks Mom!), and it worked a little bit, but later on in the morning I just threw up again.

I'm really worried. I normally puke about once every two years, but I've thrown up multiple times in the same week.

What's wrong with me?!

I've got things planned today, for once!

First I gotta go to my baby brother's school to drop off his medicine since the school nurse needs some more, then I'm going to spend the rest of my day at the library until it's time for my brothers to come home.

My stomach still hurts, but surely I'll be okay, right? Right?!

Ooooh...... did someone say a library? XD

XD

To the poor sap who got the unfortunate job of cleaning my vomit off the library carpet:

I'm sorry.

Doesn't it suck when you promise you're going to update a journal daily, then you keep forgetting to do it?

Today is Mardi Gras! When I was really little my parents used to bring me to New Orleans for Mardi Gras celebrations, and I used to get all dressed up in sunglasses and huge beaded necklaces! I had so many necklaces! I don't remember the actual celebration, but Mom said there were lots of parades where people threw candy and necklaces at the audience.

I wish I could attend a Mardi Gras celebration now that I'm older! And visit New Orleans while I'm at it! I have ties to the city, and it's so glorious in spite of that.

Obviously a big historical nut like me would like its long history of French and Spanish and Creole influence.

A long line of severe storms are in store for my region today and tonight, and when I say severe, I mean severe severe. We're expected to get large hail, damaging winds, and worst of all.....tornadoes.

I want to pray to God all I want that it will miss us, or that it won't be as severe for us, but I know I haven't been good enough for such a reward.

I can't shake my absolute terror though, since I know something bad will happen.

Every other time severe weather was scheduled for us, it missed us by a long shot, but somehow I get the feeling today will be different.

I mean, tornadoes weren't in the forecast for THOSE storms.

Mom got sick of my left eye constantly flaring up and getting all teary and burning and whatnot, so she got me some eyedrops from the doctor. According to her and the doctor it's a really bad form of pinkeye, which I don't believe since pinkeye doesn't flare up as often as this does.

I'm supposed to take them three times a day, two drops in each eye, and of course Mom has to help me take them since I can't see what I'm doing.

I have my doubts that this will actually help, but she made me take some when it flared up again earlier and it made the redness go away really quickly, so maybe it will work.

The storm didn't hit us! Well, it DID, but we didn't get the part with the tornadoes and whatnot. Someone was truly looking out for me last night!

Mom got Pizza Hut again, even though the last several times I've eaten it, I've thrown up. I just barely ate the three pieces I got, then got a super bad stomachache afterwards. I finally took some Pepto-Bismol after I woke up for the fourth time tonight, and it worked, a little. My stomach still hurts a little bit, but it's nowhere near as bad as it was earlier.

Elizabeth♛ Everyone Else Has a Super Long Name With a Symbol So I Might as Well Do it Too♛ wrote: "Mom got Pizza Hut again, even though the last several times I've eaten it, I've thrown up. I just barely ate the three pieces I got, then got a super bad stomachache afterwards. I finally took some..."

Oh, we ate Indian pizza hHut while we were in India- the only time I thought I was going to get sick. And it isn't even pizza....

Hopefully your experience eating it was better than mine!

Blegh...... well, I survived it. Who wants to eat orange-colored pieces of spicy pizza dough with olives? No sauce, no cheese.....

Sounds like the pizza I had a few days ago that made me sick.

On the other hand, I've grown up on Indian food, and I was able to enjoy that. I'm also vegetarian, and pretty much all the food there is. My poor father, though, got sick of Indian food after week one.

I keep forgetting to post in here.....bleh...

I got an Easter basket for Easter, with lots of candy, including a cross made from white chocolate! I also helped Mom cook Easter dinner, and we were supposed to make cupcakes but she forgot. I hope we can make them tonight at least.

Someone on a group here on this site asked for recommendations similar to a famous book about a dysfunctional family, and one of them that was recommended I've read before, and I didn't like it.

It was called Breaking Night or something like that which was a slang term in the main character's group of friends she hung out with. It was a memoir, and basically the main character lived out on the streets homeless after both of her parents died from drug-related issues. She spends almost the entire book on the streets, occasionally attending a school specially-made for homeless kids.

At the end she comes across her older sister again and decides to move in with her against her sister's wishes, and the two wonder how they'll pay for their college education. Since the author had been telling people she met her story, a bunch of those same people decided to help her and her sister with whatever they needed. Some paid for the house, some paid for their education, some helped them furnish the house, etc.

Then one woman came to the author and said she wanted to help her but wasn't sure how, and finally decided to do the girls' laundry and bake them cookies every single day.

A total stranger.

I remember crying at this, not because it was totally selfless and nice and whatnot, but because I was jealous. This girl didn't deserve this kindness! She literally spent her entire life running away from stuff, and she's being given freshly-baked cookies and a free education because of it?!

This was the book that made me give up on everything in my life. This book showed me that it didn't matter how hard I worked or how much hardship I had in my life, nobody would care. Nobody would take care of me.

Who helped us when my dad was arrested because he stole money from his job just to feed us? Who helped us when Dad left us and refuses to give us child support? Who helped us when Mom had to work from 6 AM to about 3 AM to pay the bills, and my brothers and I only got the free lunch and breakfast we ate at school, then went to bed hungry? Who helped me when my bestest friend in the entire world wanted nothing to do with me? Who helped me when I developed an eating disorder due to bullying, and still has the remnants of one? Who helped me when I wanted to kill myself just to end it all?

Nobody. And that is why I will never get my hopes up that somebody will help me or be kind to me.

Because wow, I would've LOVED some freshly-baked. cookies while I listened to Mom throw the phone against the wall and break it after her parents refused to give us money after her divorce. Chocolate-chip, the kind that melt in your mouth.

But I'm me, so I never get any help even when I so clearly need it.

i think nobody really comments on your journal because its very serious and people are less likely to comment on serious journals.

Well thank you for making me feel like a killjoy, but my disclaimer up there is that I'm not a funny person.

And I wouldn't really call this serious, more random stuff that inflicts no emotion.

nobody but a few good friends really comment on my journal cause its got some pretty dark stuffs.

but hiyaaa my name is emi and i would like to be your frand. :P

There's lots of even more serious journals in this group that have tons of comments though :P

My throat hurts really badly, I'll try drinking some more stuff. I hope I'm not getting sick.

hmmm well then idk...

Elizabeth♛ Smart Girls Love Trashy Books♛ wrote: "My throat hurts really badly, I'll try drinking some more stuff. I hope I'm not getting sick."

teaaaa