We Are Unique discussion

Well, I guess this is a new group I've joined at Thomas' (Terrance) request. This'll be.... Interesting.

I wish things could be different. If I had been able to grow up in a different environment, and could just... I don't know. Understand why I'm such an awful terrible person. I wish I could do anything right, and actually end up helping anyone, but no matter what, I just cause bad ripples. And yet... People want to be around me. I guess they just don't realize how bad of an idea that it is. For their sake. I'm not a good person to be around at the best of times, so right now.... I don't even know. Everything is crashing down around me, but at the same time... I just wish things could be different. I don't know what to do about it, though. I've come this close to giving up and making unbreakable steel walls, but I keep trying. I feel bad for my friends, because I'll get mad without warning, and I can't even explain to them that I just... Can't. I can't have them wanting to be around me. I don't want them to be hurt. And... Selfish as it is, it'll make it easier to me when everything breaks and I have to go off on my own.

Hey. I think it's the first time I say something in this group (sorry people, not on purpose), but reading what you said reminded me that I used to feel like this once. And... honesly, I'm not the best at helping people, but I can say that, in my case, everything got better when I changed the way I saw myself. Try to think about the best in you, the things that you like about your personality (yes, they exist) and understand why others want to be around you. Even if it's a little detail, write it down if you need to, and allow yourself to be happy about it. Don't be sad people want to be around you, that's an amazing thing and you ARE capable of doing good to people, even if it's just existing.