it's personal discussion

WHAT IF YOU SIMPLY DEVOTED THIS YEAR TO LOVING YOURSELF?


Self-love is a process. The journey never really ends, even after you're able to finally say that you love yourself. Self-care is something we need to implement into our daily lives, so devote this year to loving yourself and devote every year after to that same goal.

“If you're reading this...
Congratulations, you're alive.
If that's not something to smile about,
then I don't know what is.”
― Chad Sugg

“You are worthy.
You are capable.
You are beautiful.
Book the ticket.
Write the book.
Create the dream.
Celebrate yourself.
Rule your queendom.”

“that's the beautiful
thing about self love-
you wear it like a dress
and it becomes more and more
exquisite
with time.”

“Perhaps, we should love ourselves so fiercely that when others see us they know exactly how it should be done.”

“Work on being in love with the person in the mirror who has been through so much but is still standing.”

“I'm still
learning
to love
the parts
of myself
that no one
claps for.”

“Just taking the time to put your mental health first, acknowledging that it deserves respect and care, and accepting help when you need it, can save your life. You are worth saving. And you are not alone.”

"Well, let that lonely feeling wash away
Maybe there’s a reason to believe you’ll be okay
‘Cause when you don’t feel strong enough to stand
You can reach, reach out your hand

And oh, someone will coming running
And I know, they’ll take you home

Even when the dark comes crashing through
When you need a friend to carry you
And when you’re broken on the ground
You will be found
So let the sun come streaming in
'Cause you’ll reach up and you’ll rise again
Lift your head and look around
You will be found"

"No one deserves to be forgotten
No one deserves to fade away
No one should come and go
And have no one know he was ever even here
No one deserves to disappear"

🎶Yeah, maybe my head's fucked up
But I'm falling right back in love with being alive🎶

WARNING: THIS IS NOT UP TO DATE AND NOT ALL OF THE INFORMATION IS ACCURATE ANYMORE. IF YOU HAVE A QUESTION, FEEL FREE TO ASK.

me, an adult now: I'M TOO FUCKING SENTIMENTAL TO CHANGE ANYTHING EVEN THOUGH I WANT TO CHANGE EVERYTHING

Hello! My name is probably Erin and this is not Disney Channel or Cartoon Network or Nickelodeon, meaning this is not a kid's show. Whoa, shocking, I know. I am, however, a kid. Wow, another shocker. I'm fourteen years old. I'm kinda known as a stalker throughout my friends on this group because I tend to stalk random people's journal's for fun. Don't, however, request for me to just randomly read your journal because I'll probably feel like my reactions are forced and then I'll have an anxiety attack and because you're asking me through a screen you won't know that I'm dying, so yeah, let's not.

I'm a reader. Um, yeah, that's why I'm on GoodREADS. My favorite genre is probably fantasy.

I'm a writer. I write songs, poetry, short stories, longer stories, rambles, rants, random quotes that I feel like I'll use it the future, but almost never do, and other stuff! Currently I'm working on a musical. That's like my biggest project and my goal right now is to have it's draft finished by February. I've written for as long as I can remember but the time period that really hit me and told me I was a writer was second grade. I write for myself.

I'm a roleplayer. I tend to roleplay a lot. Like a lot, a lot. Like sometimes I'm up passed the time I should be on a school night roleplaying.

I'm a dork. YEAH DORK WHOOOOOO I'M A GREAT DORK!!!

What Type Of Content Will Be In This Journal?

My first post, as in the post above this, will always be a quote. Sometimes more than one. They'll change at random times, like when I feel like it. My process if writing, random thoughts, rants, reactions to other people's lives. I'll probably mention my musical a lot, especially since I'm spending more and more time on it these days. And the rest will be other random stuff so yay, random stuff XD

People I'll probably mention more than once that aren't my everyday people on goodreads.

Allison: my best friend/older sister.
Alec/Levi: my dorky lil bro
Mary: My older sister who lived in North Carolina for a year but she's back now so yayz
Mom: Um, yeah, she's my mom.
Matt: Mary's dad
Bill: moms EX boyfriend

Hannah/America: My writer/book friend.
Megan: My wacky cool artistic friend.
Destiny: a tomato friend.
Morgan: a friend that helps keep my sanity in check.

Teachers(I gave most a nickname):

8th grade
Mr. Peggy: My homeroom/science teacher.
Mr. Hawk: My social studies teacher.
Mrs. Brown- She's my art teacher from last semester.
Mr. Wilds- my gym teacher, I'm not excited for him.
Mr. O- my math teacher
Mrs. Brown- my old algebra teacher before I dropped out.
Mrs. Hob- my financial literacy teacher from last semester.
Mr. Chan- my new computer applications teacher
Mrs. Creek- my language arts teacher, also known as my favvvv

9th:
Mrs. Cal- 1st Semester Study Hall
Mrs. Coffee- 2nd Semester Study Hall
Mr. More- Science
Mrs. Law- 1st Semester Career Search
Mr. Shalockner- 1st Semester Health
Mrs. Johns- PE BLK
Mr. Leebo- PE BLK
Mrs. Scal- Adv. English
Mrs. Day- Algebra 1
Mrs. Foostoo- Spanish 1
Mr. Rival of Campbell Soup (Disguised as Butler)- Adv. World History

10th:
Mr. More- Study Hall (had him last year for science)
Mrs. Scal- Drama (had her last year for English)
Mrs. Boggie- AP US History
Mr. Chin- Honors Algebra II
Mrs. Bull- Geometry
Mrs. Fire- Spanish II
Mrs. Gate- Honors English II
Ms. Fibers- Student Teaching in my English Class
Mr. Mags- Biology


11th:
Mr. Strings: psychics teacher| have him for two periods
Mrs. Am: honors english teach
Mrs. Bogie: ap gov teach/ my fav
Mr. Frue: honors chem teach
*insert study hall teacher here*
Mrs. Bowls: honors pre-calc
Mrs. Coop: spanish 3 teach

All of the following are my characters, and their names will probably appear a lot.

Aldora Carter, Asteria Carter, Alice Carter, Alisha Carter, Ryan Martin, Zane Leroi, Kachina Adams, Imari Matthews, Kyra, Chloe, Luke, Seth, another Alice, Harper- others will probably be mentioned.

And yeah, anyone can comment.

So that's it for now,
Erin

I don't know why I decided to go overboard with an introduction, but I did. But at least I can cross 1 thing off my to-do list, even though I made the list yesterday.

Why do I always mention stalking people like that's weird Erin people are going to think you're insane. Like you are but you can't let people think it.

And omg I am making fun of my answer to this week's question because "learn to swallow a pill" like omg Erin just take a pill and shove it down your throat until it's gone.

I know that I was like stop making fun of yourself Erin. In 2018, that's not allowed but I'm just so fun to laugh at.

And also the whole patience with my mother thing, ummm whatttt, but also me too. I say as I'm talking about myself. It's just that it's more like I should be giving patience to myself.

Yeah she sometimes deserves it and stuff, but I don't want the patience that I'm hoping for being letting her walk all over me until I'm an adult and can leave. That's just not my cup of tea.

Speaking of tea I want tea

But more so hot chocolate because it's my fav and I haven't had any like all winter.

Today is a good day.

For me, at least.

Though I'm just being lazy.

I don't like that.

I don't like not doing anything.

Or doing nothing.

I gotta go do something.

Don't know what yet, but something.

I read a book.

ERIN

KAVY

It's interesting the way words roll off of a tongue in comparison to the inky ones on paper.

It's also interesting how at a younger age, the sky always appeared to be blue.

Blue. Just blue.

Maybe in the future I'll miss this, these nights, these words, these moments, but for now I'll just long for the future.

Dramatic, I know.

Madison calls me annoying and I think I get why now.

It's because sometimes I talk in riddles. Sometimes I question things. Lots of things, the entire world. I make her think but not in the way I want her to think. I make it sound like I am speaking poetry and I repeat a lot. I use things against her and I don't listen.

I'm just trying to show her what the world really feels like, you know? What it should feel like?

I don't think she realizes but she makes me feel bad for speaking sometimes.

I guess I don't blame her.

But I am tired of her anger and attitude.

She needs to learn patience and control.

She knows that, too.

She just doesn't know how. Because how can you find something with the person who's supposed to cherish you, doesn't show you how?

It's like me with self love.

There's a reason why all her kids are depressed. Just saying.

But I'm gonna go to bed because it's already 2am so byeeeeeee

Ughhhhh

I had a terrible dream or a nightmare?

I barely dream and I hate when I do.

Six hours if sleep.

I should go back to bed. I have no reason to be awake, and yet here I am.

My eyes hurt so badly too.

I've already been yelled at today :D Today is gonna be greaaat.

Anxiety over the thought of answering the door so I messaged my sister and she still hasn't answered. She never answers. *Sighs*

They haven't came yet. I hope they don't. At least not until mom and Matt gets back.

AHHHHHHHHHHH

I can't wait for school to be back. Let's just let my anxiety get worse and worse and worse all because I can't swallow a damn pill.

There's other ways, other things that can help.