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I just left the dentist and my mouth is numb. i cant eat and I'm hungy

i just really want some good friends in my life that I talk to almost everyday, I feel like I've been losing people and it's just really hard

⋆˙⟡♡astou♡⟡⋆˙ wrote: "i just really want some good friends in my life that I talk to almost everyday, I feel like I've been losing people and it's just really hard"

me too

✰ELLIE✰ wrote: "⋆˙⟡♡astou♡⟡⋆˙ wrote: "i just really want some good friends in my life that I talk to almost everyday, I feel like I've been losing people and it's just really hard"

me too"

me too <3

Same here. I only have a few friends. But it can be hard for me because I have a lot of trust issues. Tbh I only have 4 really close friends but I rarely sometimes see them.

my anxiety was is really high right now and I just get so tired of no one reaching out. of treating me like I matter . I'm so tired of all of it sometimes. I just wish I had a best friend.

⋆˙⟡♡astou♡⟡⋆˙ wrote: "my anxiety was is really high right now and I just get so tired of no one reaching out. of treating me like I matter . I'm so tired of all of it sometimes. I just wish I had a best friend."

I could be that potential best friend. I'm always open for a chat and I've been told I give really good advice

awww that would actually be so sweet of you

id like that :)

:)

Ya'll I feel so alone. Like I am not social at all. Like I really now only hang out with 3 friends. I am so like anti social. And I really have no friends. And my sister keeps telling me that she knew this would happen if I was home School. Even though I needed to leave the school because left from right I was getting racial comments. But like I feel so like no friends. Since I only have 3 hours of school I can never see my friends a lot cause they have like 7 and all.

Londonᥫ᭡ wrote: "Ya'll I feel so alone. Like I am not social at all. Like I really now only hang out with 3 friends. I am so like anti social. And I really have no friends. And my sister keeps telling me that she k..."

YOU ONLY HAVE 3 HRS OF SCHOOL?!?!?!

Yeah cause I only have 5 classes. And here the thing all of my friends are in high School so they are busy with HS stuff.

racial comments ?? oml, London pls reach out if you need anything.

Yeah like that I can't be christian cause I need to worship gods. or that I can only like Asian food. And since I am adopted I got a lot of comments on that. One time I said in 3rd grade that I like dogs then this girl was like but don't you eat dogs. Then I told her I will eat your dog if you don't shut up. She cried I didn't apologies principle got invovled.

Londonᥫ᭡ wrote: "Yeah like that I can't be christian cause I need to worship gods. or that I can only like Asian food. And since I am adopted I got a lot of comments on that. One time I said in 3rd grade that I lik..."

OOP

I’m so sorry that you had to deal with stuff like that. That’s sounds horrible

it was but then I left it so it is fine just lonely especially since my sibs don't live at my house I miss them too much. I went to do a sleepover with them so that was nice.

I’m glad you got to see them do they live far away?

Not really only 20. My friend he is in HS and he drives me there when he has time so.

*20 min

I hate being a HS Senior and not getting the chance to experience a high school relationship. Even though I am, yes, quite content with what I have...

For once I just want to be loved.

I want dumb dates at fast food places. I want holding hands in the hallways and walking each other to class. I was sweet kisses and awkwardness. And long texts after school. Study dates in the library. Watching each other's sports games and going to each other's competitions. And school dances together.

Since I'm graduating in like a month, I probably won't have that. :(

Ah, well.

awww sorry Leni!! That is so sad. But remember we all will find someone who will hold your hand in work/school. And gives us kisses and awkwardness. And long texts saying he miss you and you miss him.And yes it might not happen in HS but it might Happen in College. My brother he never dated in HS but he is now in College and doing everything he wished he could do in HS. Just have trust you will meet someone in College or work wherever you go.

@Leni: this is why I hate being so obsessed with romance books because I WANT what the people have in the books!! — I also never got to experience that, ever and I always wish I did! I’m with you girl, you aren’t alone at all!!

Embarrassing story to help cheer you up: I had a crush on my one guy friend in HS. We would go out to lunch together bah blah blah. Whenever we shared the same straw I would literally freak out to my mom and be like “oh my god we kissed.”

I was clearly so touch deprived and I was starving for it and delulu.

ᥫ᭡London_Ava-Joyᥫ᭡ wrote: "awww sorry Leni!! That is so sad. But remember we all will find someone who will hold your hand in work/school. And gives us kisses and awkwardness. And long texts saying he miss you and you miss h..."

Thank you so much, this makes me feel less alone <3

Ash ♡ wrote: "@Leni: this is why I hate being so obsessed with romance books because I WANT what the people have in the books!! — I also never got to experience that, ever and I always wish I did! I’m with you g..."

Ha ha same, the irony of a hopeless romantic whose favourite genre is romance

Np!!! And your not alone a lot of my friends are graduating and haven't dated. in HS. So I tell them this.

"God has a plan for you. maybe your soulmate or maybe the person your meant to date wasn't at this school. Maybe it will be at your Future Job or College don't give up hope buddy."

I feel really pathetic right now. I haven't seen my "best friend" in months when we live in the same town. I work 30 plus hours a week and I also go to school and she's also in school so our schedules don't align a lot however every time I try to plan something I get ghosted the day of and left on delivered for 24+ hours. today is her birthday so I've been texting her all day and we planned to go to a bar with some of her friends from class that she hangs out with and it's been almost 2 hours since we were supposed to meet and I'm still on delivered. I know it's her bday and it's her day to do whatever I just feel disheartened and like I'm not good enough anymore

sorry for the long rant I just don't really have anyone else to dish to

OMG Kaylie I feel so sorry about that. First off you should totally dump your "BFF" nobody should be in that toxic friendship. Go try to find other friends and get closer to them. And I am just going to say this YOUR A FREAKING BADASS WORKER/STUDENT!!!! You work for so long which is so admirable and you do school. Little to none people can do that. I certainly can't. Also about her bday. You just want to say Happy Bday and that shouldn't be ignore. I am so sorry you feel pathetic. You are not pathetic you are trying to keep this one sided friendship afloat! Repeat to yourself. I AM NOT PATHETIC I AM A FREAKING BADASS!!!!!

you're so sweet you're going to make me cry! ❤️ I'm about at my breaking point with her. I still love her to bits but I'm tired of being the last choice and feeling like a burden to her, I know that's not how friendships are supposed to work, but it's hard stepping away from a friendship that has meant so much to me

OMG Kaylie girl I am so sorry you felt that way. YOU ARE NEVER A BURDEN!!!! I know how it feels like. To be think your a burden or to think your the last person to be called. I am sorry your going through such a hard friendship especially now with all of the end of school stuff and work. And kaylie yes stepping away from a friendship that was for a long time your like life line or whatever can be hard. But take that leap and see what the other side has. Maybe the other side has a better more clean environment friendship. If that makes any sense. And also if you ever, i mean ever want to talk more please PM me!!! i would always love to help.

you're absolutely the sweetest!!!!

awww!!! Kaylie that is so kind of you!!! I just want for you to know your not alone!!! Sending Love♡♡♡

Kaylie wrote: "I feel really pathetic right now. I haven't seen my "best friend" in months when we live in the same town. I work 30 plus hours a week and I also go to school and she's also in school so our schedu..."

Aw Kaylie nooo
That definitely doesn’t sound like a good friend you should drop her! You don’t deserve people that won’t respect you and be true friends. You deserve someone who will treat you better. I know it’s hard, it’s happened to me but you need to try and let it go if it’s affecting you.

What type of job do you have? Maybe you can try talking to co-workers and maybe reconnect with old friends and talk to classmates?

I'm so sorry that this is happening to you too! I work at Lowes in the garden center and I'm the only girl on the garden team haha. I do talk to my coworkers but it's a work friendship more than something that can translate to after work. I'm also about to graduate so my hope is that I can get closer with people during my grad school career since it'll be a much smaller and intimate setting than the huge undergrad classes

You got this Kaylie!!! Remember just take that leap of faith and see what is on the other side!!!

Kaylie wrote: "I'm so sorry that this is happening to you too! I work at Lowes in the garden center and I'm the only girl on the garden team haha. I do talk to my coworkers but it's a work friendship more than so..."

You definitely will! Wishing the best<333 you got this im sure everyone will want to talk to you

so basically my dad died when I was in sixth grade, and I'm in high school now and I don't know how to process it. I miss him so much, and he was everything to me and my mom. he died in a car crash that me and him were in together and now I am scared to go into cars with my loved ones because I don't want to lose someone again like I lost him. I know that I'll never recover from what happened because he meant so much in my life, but it's been really hard right now because I'm struggling with school and he used to help me before he died.

Oh my goodness. Georgia I am so sorry. I am sorry but I am also happy you had that good relationship with him. Those relationships are like gold very rare and very hard to get. I am sorry you are struggling in what was sorta Dad and you time. I sorta can relate by being left by both birth parents. But I can never say I relate to one of those relationships with my birth parents. And also Georgia the fear of driving a car is scary. That is a traumatic thing. like for me I am scared of any heat cause when I was a baby I got burned really bad. I get those fears. But sometimes you just need to push through those fears. And HS is big. And I get it. Maybe you can ask your mom to go where he is berried. Sometimes talking to him can help. Like sorta set a date every week to go talk to him. And maybe if this might help go to a Therapist. I am always here for you girly!! Please don't hesitate to PM me!!

ᥫ᭡London_Ava-Joyᥫ᭡ wrote: "Oh my goodness. Georgia I am so sorry. I am sorry but I am also happy you had that good relationship with him. Those relationships are like gold very rare and very hard to get. I am sorry you are s..."

yeah, I've scheduled an appointment for a therapist because it has really been hurting recently. but I know that he's in a better place now because he was a very strong Christian and he helped me grow my relationship with the Lord. I'm just happy that we had som many great memories together.

Yeah and also maybe sometimes go to his grave. My friend lost her mom and she goes monthly to her mom’s grave to talk to stay a little for connected.

I sense great struggles over here

ᥫ᭡London_Ava-Joyᥫ᭡ wrote: "Yeah and also maybe sometimes go to his grave. My friend lost her mom and she goes monthly to her mom’s grave to talk to stay a little for connected."

yeah me and my little brother have done that. every time we go we bring white roses and put them by his grave, because that was my mom's wedding bouquet flowers. sometimes I go by myself and I just like to talk to him.

Georgia ♡ wrote: "so basically my dad died when I was in sixth grade, and I'm in high school now and I don't know how to process it. I miss him so much, and he was everything to me and my mom. he died in a car crash..."

im so sorry, hopefully you're doing ok and the therapist will help <33

thanks guys, y'all are the best <33

Ya'll so I been talking to my therapist about this very vulnerable spot I have in my heart. Where I am scared to be rejected. And just scared to try make friends cause I had have in the past horrible friendships where it was nice okay and the they used me and spread rumors bout me. And So I became scared. And also I am adopted and I am happy I live in a Christian base household but my birth parents literally drop me in a cradle or something and put me on the doorsteps of the orphanage. So I get so scared of getting rejected by my family. And so I feel like I have this debt I need to pay. So that why I been hiding my dreams and all from them so I can get a money making job to help them when they need help. And I feel like I can't live my dream like my sibling are doing. And it makes me feel horrible.

Thx for listening to reading my rant.

oh london, i'm so sorry you feel that way! i've always felt like that too, and we're all here for you!

Thank you