Problems with Life/Emos and Goths discussion

I don't know whats wrong with me...

I feel like i'm part of a dream, a story, or nothing at all....i've felt like this all day, not even pain seems to pull me out of it. Everything I hear or feel seems....distant, numb....

Have any of you felt the same? And if so....what do you do?

Oh...and another thing....It all started when I spent time with someone I love so i'm not sure if it's good or bad...

Reality is just a figment of the imagination...

truly im a cold hard bitch with a small weekspot.... but i try to pretect it so much that iv becommore bitter andcold...

But i wan't to know that things i do matter, the love i have for someone is real and if i kill myself, someone, someone real will care...

I happen to be very rel and I would care.a

Im...crying...so...hard... this... video... contains.... a horrible... b!tch... throwing baby... puppies... into.. a lake....
http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/08...

oh... phew, I found out that an old lady down the river saved them and they are alive :) STILL I WANNA KILL THAT POTATO SACK GIRL!!!

....I seriously couldn't tell if some of the puppie were even alive..

That's fucked...

yeah...

By the way, Drae joined earlier...

um, liz, whats 3rd phase deleria nervosa? ive heard of anorexia nervosa, but....

Have you read Delirium? Basically love is a disease, called Amor Deliria Nervosa and there are 4 phases. The third phase is critical and the fourth phase kills you...

Symptoms of Amor Deliria Nervosa

Phase three (critical)
Difficulty breathing
Pain in the chest, throat, or stomach
Difficulty swallowing; refusal to eat
Complete breakdown of rational faculties; erratic behavior; violent thoughts and fantasies; hallucinations and delusions

oh... im sorry....

Why?

it must be hard...

:) wait until you 'contract' it

Is it real if you can change it?

keep hanging on, liz. Through ice and fire... nature of stone.... you came alone.... with hopes and desires.... but now, you have us.... your friends, your family.... we help when life sucks. So PM me if ya need to, okay?

Thanks. I just got back to being me, though.

Liz, find something you love. Like music, sports, art, acting, cheerleading... if nothing makes you happy (I know some people who have said that) thenI really don't know what to do anymore.... you're like a BFF to me, but since we don't really know each other in real life, the only things I really can do for you is pray, talk to you, and try to help you through situations. But since you are the best friend you will ever have (because nobody knows you like you do) then you should treat yourself like a friend. Say, if your buddy said that they had the problems you do, then you would probably get help, right? Especially if you knew they could commit suicide at any given moment. Treat yourself like a friend, and get help. I do admit, counselors are creepy, but there's this one teacher who's super cool about issues that I talk to about my issues. Find someone who you can get help from, someone who really is involved with your life, like an older or even younger student, neighbor, or even an anonymous support group. I want you to know that I still love you, and I'm telling you this for your own good. I don't want you guys to have to be emo anymore, to have to cut anymore. And sabore made a good point on the conversation "done!". And I want to say, I'm tired of being emo. Sick of it. I haven't cut in over a month now, and haven't overdosed on pain-killers for a while, either. Did you know that there's still always a chance for you all, no matter how wasted you feel? There's a spark in you, for what you are truly good at, like music, sports, or what ever the heck you love. You just gotta ignite the light and let it shine for the whole world to see.

She loves music, sports, art, and acting, but she shouldn't be doing some of those things, at the risk of getting seriously injured and unable to help herself.

Drae wrote: "She loves music, sports, art, and acting, but she shouldn't be doing some of those things, at the risk of getting seriously injured and unable to help herself."

I don't care whether you think I should do something. It interests me, and the majority of the time, I'm able to control myself.

Not yesterday.