darwinwatterson

“Really, though, what girl doesn’t? It looms over you, that threat of violence. They drill the danger into your head until it starts to feel inevitable. You grow up wondering when it’s finally going to happen.”
― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa

“Think of all the thoughtless pain we inflict. A mosquito on your arm; you don’t even hesitate to smack it dead.”
― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa

“My silence is so reliable.”
― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa

“How cautious he was, first angling his knee against my thigh, such a small thing that could have been an accident, then his hand on my knee, a little pat, a friendly thing people do to each other. Pat-pat-pat. I'd seen teachers give students hug before, no big deal. It only accelerated after that, once he knew I was okay with it—and isn't that what consent is, always being asked what you want? Did I want him to kiss me? Did I want him to touch me? Did I want him to fuck me? Slowly guided into the fire—why is everyone so scared to admit how good that can feel? To be groomed is to be loved and handled like a precious, delicate thing.”
― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa