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*muffled screaming* I need this book to come out so I can talk to people about it because I have thoughts.
Also I’d like to chat with whoever decided to market this book as like The Night Circus and not VICIOUS???? Vicious is the exact same ...more "
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"I would love to see this concept reworked as a weird novella like When Among Crows. I’m enjoying the reread but I’m surprised by how slow it feels considering its not a very long book" — Sep 04, 2025 08:43PM
"I would love to see this concept reworked as a weird novella like When Among Crows. I’m enjoying the reread but I’m surprised by how slow it feels considering its not a very long book" — Sep 04, 2025 08:43PM
(Possibly I was overthinking this. I do that; it’s the anxiety that comes with being a part-organic murderbot. The upside was paranoid attention to detail. The downside was also paranoid attention to detail.)
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“So, imagine we’re all born with a set of feelings. Some are broader or deeper than others, but for everyone, there’s that ground floor, a bottom crust of the pie. That’s the maximum depth of feeling you’ve ever experienced. And then, the worst thing happens to you. The very worst thing that could have happened. The thing you had nightmares about as a child, and you thought, it’s all right because that thing will happen to me when I’m older and wiser, and I’ll have felt so many feelings by then that this one worst feeling, the worst possible feeling, won’t seem so terrible.
“But it happens to you when you’re young. It happens when your brain isn’t even fully done cooking—when you’ve barely experienced anything, really. The worst thing is one of the first big things that ever happens to you in your life. It happens to you, and it goes all the way down to the bottom of what you know how to feel, and it rips it open and carves out this chasm down below to make room. And because you were so young, and because it was one of the first big things to happen in your life, you’ll always carry it inside you. Every time something terrible happens to you from then on, it doesn’t just stop at the bottom —it goes all the way down.”
― Red, White & Royal Blue
“But it happens to you when you’re young. It happens when your brain isn’t even fully done cooking—when you’ve barely experienced anything, really. The worst thing is one of the first big things that ever happens to you in your life. It happens to you, and it goes all the way down to the bottom of what you know how to feel, and it rips it open and carves out this chasm down below to make room. And because you were so young, and because it was one of the first big things to happen in your life, you’ll always carry it inside you. Every time something terrible happens to you from then on, it doesn’t just stop at the bottom —it goes all the way down.”
― Red, White & Royal Blue

“When I was in the water," Mephi said, "I didn't know where to go. I had to find someone to help me. I swam to you because I knew you would help me. I know who you are...You are the person who helps”
― The Bone Shard Daughter
― The Bone Shard Daughter

“Thinking about history makes me wonder how I’ll fit into it one day, I guess. And you too. I kinda wish people still wrote like that. History, huh? Bet we could make some.”
― Red, White & Royal Blue
― Red, White & Royal Blue

“How tremendous the agony of unmade decisions.”
― If We Were Villains
― If We Were Villains

“Not wanting to be destroyed by despair doesn’t make you a coward. It makes you a survivor.”
― The Empire of Gold
― The Empire of Gold

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