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He said to himself: "I am looking for myself"
He screamed at the emptiness of the desert. He wasn't speaking to himself after all. If he is silent, then he is having a conversation inside his mind. He is speaking with his mind. After all It would seem that no one is actually speaking. It is just trying to avoid silence out of fear. Out of denying the simplicity of being alive, of existing. I am looking for myself he said. But you can't see yourself. You only see a reflection. And if you stared enough into that reflection. You would find that there is only an object which reflects the moment which is you staring. let it be a mirror, that object. Then you become the mirror. And the mirror becomes you. That is why you are only able to see a reflection. You can never see yourself because you don't exist the moment you wonder about your existence, and you exist the moment you stop wondering. You are here and you are not here. So he is not looking for himself. He is looking for something to distract him from his true essence. He is afraid to admit the emptiness that he is made of. The nothingness that follows the silence. He is afraid of his reality. which is no self ultimate self. He is recycling his emotions and feelings. his habits and choices. Just to convince himself that it is not that simple. That is why it would be the most difficult thing to do because he refuses that simplicity. He is born awakened but he was taught to glorify awakening, to see things as they seem. Slowly he begins to believe the image that was made for him. The image that is titled "You"
And for that there is only more sorrow and less happiness in this world of ours. Simply because we have been fighting our bond, unity and oneness. It seemed ridiculous without naming each portion of our home with different names and cultures. No one is actually looking for himself, including me. We are just looking for a way out. Each person of us is responsible for the identity. God identity, history and love identity. There are feelings, intelligence and instinct. Those are just a very tiny part of our identity. He is not looking for himself. He just doesn't admit to himself that he doesn't know himself