Amedine's Blog - Posts Tagged "inside"

As I closed my eyes in a meditation session. Trying to seize my focus onto my breath. Trying to unplug from the world of voices. Still I can hear the screams and the horn sounds. Still I can feel myself annoyed that I am not in a peaceful place, in a still space. I was upstairs sitting near the satellite dish. That's the higher I can get in my place. That's the closest I can get to Prana.

I focused on my breath and rolled my eyes up toward the center of my brows. At first, and as usual it is uneasy to roll them. It feels unnatural but it is not. It is just that I never done it often. The reality is when you roll your eyes out focusing on the third eye spot, You are detached from the three dimensional world to see what lingers beyond. To travel through the depths of your soul.

Things started getting intense, I began breathing heavily and a thought pushed me to motivate the process. And I did. I felt a burn on my foreskin. my face was drawn by that energy I was unlocking. It was like something is pulling my face up as I breathe heavily. My stomach started to shrink and shrink. The air was swept out from it and the intensity suddenly wore off as another thought motivated me to relax and let go.

Seconds later I was laughing uncontrollably. I felt a sudden rush of ecstasy and happiness. I was laughing like I never laughed before. I swear it was the first time in my life that I felt such Ecstasy. And the proof of that is the hint of fear that struck me. I was asking myself what is happening to me? I was ignorant of the source of my unstoppable laugh, like if I took a drug or something. Right now I am remembering that moment and I feel the desire to laugh again. But at that time, another thought told me "Just let go there is nothing to be afraid of. let yourself laugh and don't question it"

As I kept laughing I felt a serene peaceful feeling inside my stomach reaching out for my chest. It was like a cold breeze filling me up after a warm ball of overwhelming energy. It was goodness indeed.

When the laughter stopped by itself. I was amazed, heavenly shocked and excited for what I discovered inside me. As I sat there for 25 minutes. The only thought that I witnessed repeating itself is "Happiness. Ecstasy. Joy" I was just here and now. I was in that moment. I was The Happiness Inside

I was The Happiness Inside