Atarah L. Poling's Blog: The world of writing... and much more

I recently had another interview done. If anyone does happen to read this then please check it out! Thank you.

Atarah L. Poling

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Scars of different sizes can be seen here and there, each with there own story to be told. When I look at them I am reminded of a setback. An error in my judgement. I am reminded that I have mental illnesses.

I've been told not to say "i am schizo effective. I am schizo typal." I am supposed to say that I have these illnesses. What am I supposed to say when I don't even want to admit up to having them at all?

I feel like I am becoming a fragile plant, each leaf, each flower slowly turning brown. Slowly coming to an end. That eventually I will be gone completely.

Right now, though I am struggling, I am trying to picture myself as this plant. I may have brown spots here and there but all I need is some water, some sunlight. I will be okay. I am not a lost case. I hope to remember this and keep it strong in this time that I am suffering.

Each scar may have been a setback but they are also a time in life I concurred. I could have done worse to myself like that one day...I could have tried so much worse.

Just give me some water. Give me some sunlight and I will grow tall, full of life. That's all I ask of God right now. Please give me some water. Please send some sunlight to shine down on me. Then I know I'll be able to find the courage and the strength to rid myself of this doubt that is whispering in my ears right now.

I think it's time for me to write another blog post... although I don't think anybody ever reads them.

Not too much going on right now in both my personal life as well as the writing life. My book Nadira's Happy Ever After is now available. I'm excited about that. But besides that one I haven't really been working too much.

Personal life. Hmmm... not anything new really happening. Still dealing with some personal health issues. The seizures and mental illnesses I have seem to constantly weigh down my life. Sadly enough.

Anyway on a good note... please check out Nadira's Happy Ever After. Thank you. Nadira's Happy Ever After

Nadira always felt like she was a freak with
unexplainable things that happened on a daily
basis in her life. She always cut it down to a
mental illness of sorts, never really telling
anyone about them. After making two new
friends in school everything slowly comes
together and the truth comes out in the open.
She is the reincarnation of Cassandra, the Greek
prophet. The question remains, will she be able
to experience love before she dies? Before those
who are after her kill her?

Yup that's right, that is the title of my new book. I just discovered what the cover will look like and I would love to share it with everyone. I'm not sure about the release date but will let you know as soon as possibe.

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Thank you.
Atarah L. Poling

It's hard to believe that I have been around here for twenty two years. This past year especially has gone by way too fast for me and I have accomplished the most with in this year than I feel I have in a life-time.

My first two books were published, which has been a big goal of mine for many years.

It's weird how time can fly by so fast, especially after you reach the age of twenty one. This years has been the fastest for me. It's been one of the hardest as well as the best year of my life.

I wouldn't have made it through all of the obstacles of this past year if it hadn't been for my family and my friends.

Here's to my twenty second birthday. Yippie!

I cannot help but notice how there are plenty of people out there that are dealing with the awful symptoms of a mental illness. The numbers are rising because life itself seems to be getting more difficult. Problems that we must face are increasing.

I myself have two mental illnesses and recently they have been acting up a lot, with out the proper medication I need and the proper help I need it's hard to deal with. I do, however, have a few words to say.

For some time things may seem like they are getting better. I know plenty of times I have thought that I was getting better and that things could only get better, not worse. Then it hits me as I'm sure it does many people out there. Depression, thoughts of self-harm, and lack of self-esteem. Anxiety. Hallucinations. It's hard and then I start believing that it was all a lie. I'm only getting worse. I'll never get better.

Wait. It may take a few days, even weeks, until you start to feel better. Don't ever believe you're not getting better and don't ever think you're falling into the grips of the mental illness that seems to control your life. Don't let it control you, don't ever. That's what it wants. It wants to make you it's little slave.

Try to think of the future, think about your dreams. Try to escape to a happy place even, remember a time in your life that you were very happy. The happiest memory you have. It will help. If you end up giving in to the mental illness, if you end up hurting yourself, don't start thinking that you'll do it again. Thoughts like that will lead to you doing it again.

Stay strong folks. Life is difficult right now as wars and earth quicks are happening. While our economy is getting worse. Stay true to yourself and always talk with someone if you feel the need to. Let's gather our hands and battle these illnesses. Let's start our little stand of our own before this worlds becomes a mental illness world.

While my third book is still in the works in the designing department I want to remind everyone about my books.

It's very difficult to be an independent author, hard to get people to notice your works. So if you can, please tell the people you know about my books. I'll do the same in return.

Thank you.

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I am excited about the release of my new book. I hope the readers really enjoy it. It's in the designing stage right now. I will let everyone know more information when I get some. Thank you.

Atarah L. Poling

I recently had an interview done. It'll help you get to know me a little more and learn more about the books. Check it out at the link below!

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Thank you.

Atarah L. Poling