Creation & Emptiness!
December 2013: I had just finished the first draft of my first book. Over the last four months, it had been my most passionate engagement. Any-one around me could catch me drifting back to my book every spare mo-ment I came by. I was shameless in my pursuit of selfishness but honest. As honest as the sparrow hunting the first worm that surfaced with sunrise.
I was done with what I set out to do – to put to prose, nuggets of my learning and practice as a manager in the profession called Management.
Now what?
Yes, I knew that I had to go through the final stages of finding a publisher, refining the book as best as I could with the help of a professional editor and launching it for my readers. But, that is not the same as creating the book. I knew that the raw product I had on my hands was the beginning of another journey. It needs to be reared with utmost care, dressed up like a doll and then presented to the outside world. But, that is not creation; that is development. What a pity! Why do I enjoy more the journey of creating roughs?
Creation is easier than facing the emptiness that envelops you once you have finished what you set out to accomplish. It is like walking up a hill through its winding track to witness a glorious sunrise. You huff and puff through the never ending bends and inclines with your head bent down. Once in a while, you look up to see how far more to go and wonder, isn’t it as distant as the last time you peered upwards. You overcome one hurdle after another only to find another boulder looming in front of you, challenging your capabilities and capacities. But, the vision and the mental state that awaits the warmth of the sunrise makes you carry on until you reach the top. But, having reached the hilltop and soaked in the warmth one realises how temporary a milestone a task fulfilled can be.
An emptiness hangs in silence, no more pregnant with any uncertainty or opposition. One may call you successful but you feel engulfed by desolation, success having rendered you purposeless. As long as I live, I need to search for something new, something that rubs off its significance on me and make my life more meaningful. As of now, that is the only way of life I know. That is the only way I understand…to go beyond any expectations!
I was done with what I set out to do – to put to prose, nuggets of my learning and practice as a manager in the profession called Management.
Now what?
Yes, I knew that I had to go through the final stages of finding a publisher, refining the book as best as I could with the help of a professional editor and launching it for my readers. But, that is not the same as creating the book. I knew that the raw product I had on my hands was the beginning of another journey. It needs to be reared with utmost care, dressed up like a doll and then presented to the outside world. But, that is not creation; that is development. What a pity! Why do I enjoy more the journey of creating roughs?
Creation is easier than facing the emptiness that envelops you once you have finished what you set out to accomplish. It is like walking up a hill through its winding track to witness a glorious sunrise. You huff and puff through the never ending bends and inclines with your head bent down. Once in a while, you look up to see how far more to go and wonder, isn’t it as distant as the last time you peered upwards. You overcome one hurdle after another only to find another boulder looming in front of you, challenging your capabilities and capacities. But, the vision and the mental state that awaits the warmth of the sunrise makes you carry on until you reach the top. But, having reached the hilltop and soaked in the warmth one realises how temporary a milestone a task fulfilled can be.
An emptiness hangs in silence, no more pregnant with any uncertainty or opposition. One may call you successful but you feel engulfed by desolation, success having rendered you purposeless. As long as I live, I need to search for something new, something that rubs off its significance on me and make my life more meaningful. As of now, that is the only way of life I know. That is the only way I understand…to go beyond any expectations!
date
newest »
newest »
message 1:
by
Sarit
(new)
Apr 15, 2016 09:47AM
The desolation, the solitude on arriving at the destination can often be the thrust one needs to make a move, begin another trek. Otherwise, the gratification, the satisfaction, the adulation would render you immobile.
reply
|
flag
