You have been roaming these lands for twenty four years of your life. But you are tired, pal. You are dead tired. I can still listen to your conflicting crushing thoughts as you doze into oblivion every single night after your soul gets wearied of cries and depression, and I can still see your ghosts shackling your soul. All I can do to you, and me, is scribe this list. Maybe if you stick closer to it, you will find the peace that you sought for long.

1. Try losing some weight, pal. I hear your heavy breaths as you ascend the staircase. Your health is degrading. We don't care about living at all, I know, but you are still alive, so don't make your dwelling a tougher journey than it already is. In addition, losing some weight will make the journey of buying clothes a little less troublesome.

2. Be a stranger. Pass by swiftly. Being overly friendly brought you nothing but heartache. And when you cut your mortal tethers, or get them cut for you, you will get the nicest of passing rites. "Goodbye stranger it's been nice. Hope you find your paradise. Tried to see your point of view. Hope your dreams will all come true." So don't fret, and just be there at the verge between shadow and light. Pass by swiftly, unseen, unnoticed like a thought without a form. And pray for the day of your departure.

3. Humans are a lost cause. Don't offer to help anymore. If you are asked to help, do help please. But if you are not, do not take the initiative. It appears that when you offer your help, you get rejected and shot down mercilessly without a second thought. And some will even go forth and call you a pervert SOB or a stalker. Maybe you don't have the looks of an acceptable helper, if such things exist. If only they would listen. Anyway, just do not take the initiative, but be there for when you are needed. Karma. You need Karma for those you still care about. And remember, empathy and compassion are what defines you as a human. Never lose those.

4. Stop seeking making friends, dear. Such things don't come that way. And making friends will only bring you the heartache of losing them. You know what happens. Your repellent aura, remember? Just have mercy on your greyed wearied heart. You are not created to please anybody, so stop seeking the signs. And when you remember your losses, just nod at them in awe. And when you remember the dead, when you remember her, nod in awe and mouth, "O convoy of the dead, O terrible convoy, I shalt accede to thine appeals in due course when the monstrous crushing wheel of fate taketh its final turn. Hac in hora, sine mora, corde pulsum tangite; quod per sortem, sternit fortem, mecum omnes plangite!"

5. Loneliness is a blissful bless. Enjoy it. Listen to your music more often. Read more, and learn more. You have a new job that you love. Prove your love to it. You don't have another to prove your love to, and that is trivial and irrelevant, believe me. Focus on your job and building a shell of a life that makes you a bit more comfortable until the day you get your rites of passing. And when you are down, none will understand you like yourself, so don't fret nor wish for something that won't make a difference anyway. You entered these lands alone, and you will leave alone, so take a lonesome road.

6. Your God has never forsaken you just as he never forsook David, so don't think otherwise. He is never so far from your cries of anguish. He just knows all and foresees all.

7. If you are going to learn the Violin, it is now or never. Get an instrument, dedicate an hour a day, and in a year or two you'll be able to play the tunes you love.