Feeling Broken?...
So... here I am after posting about positivity, and suddenly an onslaught of terrible happenings enter in my life. Sigh! I was kicked out of my home by my mother (she usually does this unfortunately) and i think that i have reached my witts end!!! I am tired and ready to give up was all that I could think as tears spilled down my cheeks in what could have been a fetal position of self pity, suicidal tendencies and self hatred!!! I was so done with life!
Eventually, after a few minutes of overwhelming negative emotions and loving consolations from my very caring boyfriend, I dusted myself off and discarded every bit of pessimistic energy and began to do what I always do - be happy!Now, the thing with this is, I am 22, single mother, recently unemployed and starting tertiary level education in September (2015). My mother was supposed to help me with the school fees, my bf and I were trying to save up money to build our home on a piece of land that he owns and my daughter is about to start pre school in September as well so every thing seems like it's totally falling apart. It's ridiculous!Because I have no job, I am basically a financial burden on my bf although he has told me he doesnt mind and things would get better, but we cant save shit and move forward because every cent he makes goes towards my daughter, me (to get around) and for him to reach to work. My bf also has a not-so-good living arrangement. I feel so terrible about this. So, you know every thing looks absolutely impossible right now.But as i stated in another post, just when it seems like things are at its absolute worst, is when it just magically turns around. So I cannot, will not, shall not lose my faith. I believe every thing happens for a reason to contribute positively to your growth in life and I stand by that. I know things willl turn around.So, here I am, on my grandmother's couch, declaring my faith and my happiness and I would never let this entire mess deter me from my full potential. I trust in the Lord. I will definitely upate this post and let you know how things turn out.Whatever or whoever you believe in, doesn't matter. The mere fact that you trust wholeheartedly is all that matters. Things will always work out. Hope I have inspired the lot of you. Once again, if you need an ear, I am here.
Eventually, after a few minutes of overwhelming negative emotions and loving consolations from my very caring boyfriend, I dusted myself off and discarded every bit of pessimistic energy and began to do what I always do - be happy!Now, the thing with this is, I am 22, single mother, recently unemployed and starting tertiary level education in September (2015). My mother was supposed to help me with the school fees, my bf and I were trying to save up money to build our home on a piece of land that he owns and my daughter is about to start pre school in September as well so every thing seems like it's totally falling apart. It's ridiculous!Because I have no job, I am basically a financial burden on my bf although he has told me he doesnt mind and things would get better, but we cant save shit and move forward because every cent he makes goes towards my daughter, me (to get around) and for him to reach to work. My bf also has a not-so-good living arrangement. I feel so terrible about this. So, you know every thing looks absolutely impossible right now.But as i stated in another post, just when it seems like things are at its absolute worst, is when it just magically turns around. So I cannot, will not, shall not lose my faith. I believe every thing happens for a reason to contribute positively to your growth in life and I stand by that. I know things willl turn around.So, here I am, on my grandmother's couch, declaring my faith and my happiness and I would never let this entire mess deter me from my full potential. I trust in the Lord. I will definitely upate this post and let you know how things turn out.Whatever or whoever you believe in, doesn't matter. The mere fact that you trust wholeheartedly is all that matters. Things will always work out. Hope I have inspired the lot of you. Once again, if you need an ear, I am here.
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