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My First Poem
My mother had been buried earlier that day, and I had so many thoughts; so many feelings running rampant. Not knowing how to quiet the noise inside my head, I grabbed pen and paper and just started writing whatever came to mind.
I hadn't cried since I'd been told of Mama's accidental death, but that night, when I'd finished writing, one lonely tear fell onto the page. The sadness that I couldn't share with another soul had gone down in black and white, and only then did the voices inside my head become silent...
Why Mama?
Mama, why did you go away?
I wanted to be with you
I wanted to make the hurt go away.
He told me you were dead
Then one day, you were there.
You said you looked for me for six years
You said you wanted to take me home with you.
So, why did you go away?
I never had a home
Then one day you were there.
You said, "Let's go back to Texas
That is your home, you know."
I remember the red dress
I looked for holes burned through
But there were none to find.
You were so pretty Mama
Why did you go away?
— Sue Julsen
My life before Mama's death helped inspire me to write my story. In upcoming blogs I'll tell a little more about what happened in my early life that led up to the writing of my memoir.
I believe: IF I FOLLOW MY DREAMS and DON'T QUIT, I will succeed...
And I won't quit until my story is in the homes of all my readers.
NOTE: Poem is copyright protected and may not be reproduced or copied in any form or by any means - graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, taping, or information storage and retrieval systems - without written permission of the author.
Who Am I?
A new life of: Happiness and Health
A new life without: Fear or Pain or Sorrow
Who am I?
I am a survivor of child abuse…
I am the author of Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival. Although my story is heart-wrenching, it’s also a story of my fight for survival in a world of hunger, abuse and fear while on the run from the police and my family left behind after I was kidnapped by my father in the middle of the night. I was only three years old.
My story is an unnervingly gripping account of the extremes of neglect and mistreatment a child can undergo — and still survive. However, I didn’t do this alone. I had wonderful guardian angels to help me. I was so terrified from the abuse that I split into multiple personalities just to survive.
My book tells all. I didn’t hold back any feelings whatsoever, using “colorful” language that went right along with these feelings. Bitter Memories took 40+ years to write because the pain of remembering was so powerful, so overwhelming, I had to change my name in the book, like I was writing about someone else, not me, just so I could write my life story. Names of everyone involved were changed to protect the innocent—and the guilty.
My story was told to help other child abuse survivors know they are not alone. There are others who understand and won’t look down on them. By sharing my life story, other survivors can come forward and find a path toward healing their pain.
My dream is to help rid the world of child abuse. By survivors telling our stories, the horrors of this national epidemic can be changed. Together we can help protect our children and keep them safe.
Who am I?
I am a survivor with a dream…
NOT TOO HAPPY TODAY....
There's a site making me unhappy.
My books are now on Kindle and I can't add my new book, or add the Kindle editions of the other books, because this site that claims to help authors, does not "allow" the number amazon assigns to Kindle books!
What's up with this? Why do they have to restrict what can be added to their site all because of a number? It's still a book...and a good book, too!
I have this blog, that I'm trying to be better at writing in, and I have four books that may or may not ever be found by my friends here on that site.
And, that, my friends, makes me unhappy!
Signing off for today to get back to writing more on my next book.
However.....
For anyone who wants to keep up with my books, I do have a website for you to visit. There's also a facebook LIKE button on it!
Just head over to:
http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen
and check it out!
