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Back Cover Copy for my next book
A Serial Killer Stalking…
In the last of the bitter memories trilogy, a man believing he has amnesia walks the streets in Haskell trying to remember who he is; where he came from. In reality, Stan Clark has blackouts where one or more personalities take over Stan’s life, leaving him with no memories of that timeframe.
Numerous men and woman are vanishing from small area towns. Henry Frye, Munday’s police chief, is at his wits end after one of his own officers’ turns up missing and a “secret” town meeting is called. Henry fears his days as police chief are numbered. He doesn’t know a serial killer will soon be stalking his own backyard.
Jasmine Goldberg, a dispatcher Henry hires from Abilene is determined to find out all she can about the missing people. She uncovers an old Army report with a picture showing frightening, sadistic eyes of a Stan Clark, later nicknamed “Cutter” by the Army.
A car fitting Clark’s vehicle is spotted on the highway, but seeing the patrol car, he makes a run for it. Officers from area towns join the chase, pursuing the vehicle to a house high on a hill. Once inside, the officers stumble upon a delusional maniac hiding in the basement, and a gruesome sight upstairs.
Before years of lies from the past can destroy him, Henry opens his heart and soul to the two women he loves deeply—Lori, his new mistress, and Sarah, his dead sister’s daughter he adopted—praying Sarah can forgive him as she learns the truth.
"Cutter's Revenge" will be out in about 5 to 6 more weeks, if all goes well.
Back Cover Copy for Cutter's Revenge
A Serial Killer Stalking…
In the last of the bitter memories trilogy, a man believing he has amnesia walks the streets in Haskell trying to remember who he is; where he came from. In reality, Stan Clark has blackouts where one or more personalities take over Stan’s life, leaving him with no memories of that timeframe.
Numerous men and woman are vanishing from small area towns. Henry Frye, Munday’s police chief, is at his wits end after one of his own officers’ turns up missing and a “secret” town meeting is called. Henry fears his days as police chief are numbered. He doesn’t know a serial killer will soon be stalking his own backyard.
Jasmine Goldberg, a dispatcher Henry hires from Abilene is determined to find out all she can about the missing people. She uncovers an old Army report with a picture showing frightening, sadistic eyes of a Stan Clark, later nicknamed “Cutter” by the Army.
A car fitting Clark’s vehicle is spotted on the highway, but seeing the patrol car, he makes a run for it. Officers from area towns join the chase, pursuing the vehicle to a house high on a hill. Once inside, the officers stumble upon a delusional maniac hiding in the basement, and a gruesome sight upstairs.
Before years of lies from the past can destroy him, Henry opens his heart and soul to the two women he loves deeply—Lori, his new mistress, and Sarah, his dead sister’s daughter he adopted—praying Sarah can forgive him as she learns the truth.
Cutter's Revenge
A Serial Killer Stalking…
In the last of the bitter memories trilogy, a man believing he has amnesia walks the streets in Haskell trying to remember who he is; where he came from. In reality, Stan Clark has blackouts where one or more personalities take over Stan’s life, leaving him with no memories of that timeframe.
Numerous men and women are vanishing from small area towns. Henry Frye, Munday’s police chief, is at his wits end after one of his own officers’ turns up missing and a “secret” town meeting is called. Henry fears his days as police chief are numbered. He doesn’t know a serial killer will soon be stalking his own backyard.
Jasmine Goldberg, a dispatcher Henry hires from Abilene is determined to find out all she can about the missing people. She uncovers an old Army report with a picture showing frightening, sadistic eyes of a Stan Clark, later nicknamed “Cutter” by the Army.
A car fitting Clark’s vehicle is spotted on the highway, but seeing the patrol car, he makes a run for it. Officers from area towns join the chase, pursuing the vehicle to a house high on a hill. Once inside, the officers stumble upon a delusional maniac hiding in the basement, and a gruesome sight upstairs.
Before years of lies from the past can destroy him, Henry opens his heart and soul to the two women he loves deeply—Lori, his new mistress, and Sarah, his dead sister’s daughter he adopted—praying Sarah can forgive him as she learns the truth.
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TROPHY MURDERS, THE SEQUEL
TROPHY MURDERS has a little bit of everything a reader will want: action, suspense, drama, a love story, and more.
Short excerpt: Reaching for the door knob, he remembered he needed his key to get in. "No one locked their doors until these damn hoodlums arrived! Now everyone feels the need to lock everything. No one feels safe in their own homes, and everyone's scared to walk down the streets — day or night!"
Available in paperback and e-book.
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BITTER MEMOIRES, THE TRILOGY
My story exposes a life on the run after being kidnapped by my father——a life of hunger, fear and abuse. When the FBI finds me and I return home with my mother, I think my life is going to improve...but does it?
NOTE: Strong language and heartbreaking content in Bitter Memories is not suitable for children.
TROPHY MURDERS is the creative non-fiction/crime fiction sequel, and is an action-packed story about a sadistic gang of killers, and the life of the cop (my uncle/adoptive father) who tries to bring justice and solace back to his little town while struggling to keep his own family secrets hidden.
CUTTER'S REVENGE, although mostly fiction, completes the trilogy with another ruthless serial killer stalking our small town. But this time years of secrets and lies are finally revealed ... and an ending to die for...
While BITTER MEMORIES is the actual true story of my life, TROPHY MURDERS and CUTTER'S REVENGE have a little bit of everything a reader will want: action, suspense, drama, a love story or two, and so much more; both mixed with truth, making this a trilogy you will not want to miss.
After reading Bitter Memories you'll know truth from the fiction included in the sequels of this series.
Please visit my website for more about these books, my new poetry book (also in audio), as well as what will be coming out soon. Links to amazon are available on the site for your convenience.
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THE TRILOGY
Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival (non-fiction) is written like a novel for easy reading, as I tell the true story of my life after being kidnapped by my father, then living a life on the run, hungry, abused and terrified ... so terrified that I split into multiple personalities ... a truly unforgettable, unnerving story of extreme child abuse and my fight to survive ...
Trophy Murders (creative non-fiction/crime fiction) mixes fiction with truth for an action-packed crime story as I take you further on the journey of true events after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. A life I wouldn’t wish on any kid ...
Problems at school, continued nightmares from my past, and a narrow-minded, bigoted Olivia, brings me to a dangerous low in my life ...
After a gang moves into the house on the hill and a murdering spree begins, Police Chief Henry Frye (my uncle) is asking himself how many must die before he catches the ones responsible for turning our quiet, peaceful town into a place of terror ...
Still trying to hide his own secrets and lies, Uncle Henry is afraid if I find out the truth it will destroy me ...
Cutter's Revenge (psychological thriller/crime fiction) mixes about five percent truth with fiction, however, anyone who’s read the other two books will know truth from fiction instantly. Using many of the same characters, I introduce new characters—many you’ll love, some you’ll love to hate ...
While another serial killer, maybe more ruthless than the gang of killers, stalks our little town, I continue my story after my adoption, leaning more toward the way my life could have been IF ... turning tragedy into a fantastic and exciting read with a happy ending!
My Newest Book:
From The Heart (non-fiction) is a collection of fifteen poems from events in my life including short stories that inspired the writing of each poem.
Starting with my first poem written at age nine after the death of my mother, I expose feelings never shared before ...
Also available in audio with Beth MacEwan narrating, From The Heart is not only inspirational but truly awesome hearing my words spoken. Beth did an amazing job bringing life to each poem and story.
NOTE: Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival is NOT a cozy, feel-good book. It is a true story of extreme child abuse and my struggle to survive. It contains strong language and heartbreaking content, but it was my life.
Trophy Murders and Cutter’s Revenge are filled with action, suspense, drama, secrets, a love story, and more. The language is toned down and the abuse is not nearly as intense or as often, plus my fictional crimes are a bit twisted and sadistic, making for a very exciting, sit-on-the-edge-of-the-chair read!
All my books are based on or from actual events in my life and have received 4 and 5 star “not paid for” reviews. To learn more about the bitter memories trilogy, and my poetry book, plus other books coming soon (just waiting on cover art), please follow the link below to my website:
http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen
2013 — WILL BE A GREAT YEAR!
Happy New Year to all my friends, followers and fans! My continuing wish for everyone is: peace and joy, an abundance of love and precious memories, and for 2013 to be the greatest year ever!
Thank you, in advance, for your continuing support! I look forward to meeting many more new friends throughout the year, and bringing all of you many more stories to enjoy.
Books currently available:
THE TRILOGY
1) Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival (non-fiction) is written like a novel for easy reading as I begin the true story of my life after being kidnapped by my father:
Living a life on the run, hungry, abused and terrified ... so terrified that I split into multiple personalities ...
This is a truly unforgettable, unnerving story of extreme child abuse and my fight to survive ...
Dedicated to all survivors of abuse, Bitter Memories was written in the hope that exposing these horrors of my own life would educate people and help prevent them from happening to others.
This book is not suitable for everyone! Please read the "NOTE" at the bottom.
2) Trophy Murders (creative non-fiction/crime fiction) mixes fiction with truth for an action-packed crime story as I take you further on the journey of true events after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. A life I wouldn’t wish on any kid:
Trying to deal with problems at school, continuing nightmares from my past, and a narrow-minded, bigoted Olivia, brings me to a dangerous low in my life ...
After a gang moves into the house on the hill and a murdering spree begins, Police Chief Henry Frye (my uncle) is asking himself how many must die before he catches the ones responsible for turning our quiet, peaceful town into a place of terror ...
Still trying to hide his own secrets and lies, Uncle Henry is afraid if I find out the truth it will destroy me ...
But, by not telling the truth, he's afraid his secrets will destroy his own life ...
3) Cutter's Revenge (psychological thriller/crime fiction) mixes about five percent truth with a lot of suspenseful fiction. However, anyone who’s read the other two books will know truth from fiction instantly.
Using many of the same characters, I introduce several new characters — many you’ll love, some you’ll love to hate:
A man believing he has amnesia walks the streets trying to remember who he is; where he came from. In reality, he has blackouts where one or more personalities take over his life, leaving him with no memories of that timeframe ...
As another serial killer, maybe more ruthless than the gang of killers from the previous book, stalks our little town, I continue my story after my adoption, then I lean more toward the way my life could have been IF ...
Officers from area towns join the chase, pursuing a vehicle to a house on a hill. Once inside, the officers stumble upon a delusional maniac hiding in the basement, and a gruesome sight upstairs ...
Henry opens his heart and soul, praying I can forgive him as I learn the truth ...
Turning years of tragedy into a fantastic and exciting read, I bring this part of my story to a close, and with a happy ending!
My Newest Book:
From The Heart (non-fiction) is a collection of fifteen inspirational poems from events in my life. It also includes short stories that inspired the writing of each poem.
Starting with a little background, then moving into my first poem written at age nine after the death of my mother, I expose feelings I've never shared with anyone before now ...
Also available as an audiobook, From The Heart is not only inspirational but truly awesome to listen to as Beth MacEwan, the narrator, brings life to each poem and story.
NOTE: Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival is NOT a cozy, feel-good book. It is a true story of extreme child abuse and my struggles to survive. It contains strong language and heartbreaking content, however this was my life and,
to tell it any other way, or to cleanup the language, would take actual truth and turn my story into lies — something I'm not, and wasn't, willing to do!
Trophy Murders and Cutter’s Revenge are filled with action, suspense, drama, secrets, a love story, and more. The language is toned down, the abuse is not nearly as intense or as often, and my fictional crimes are a bit twisted and sadistic, but all this only makes for a very exciting, sit-on-the-edge-of-the-chair read!
All my books are based from actual events in my life and have received 4 and 5 star “not paid for” reviews.
To learn more about the bitter memories trilogy, and my book of poetry, please follow the link below to my website:
http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen
One Book Turned Into a Trilogy
From my memoir that started the bitter memories trilogy to my inspirational book of poems, you'll find it all on my website.
Stop on by and take a look around when you get a chance.
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Make a Difference in a Child's Life
Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival took 40 + years to complete. Each time I sat down to write, the memories became overwhelming and I couldn’t continue.
For years I tried to write my story as "fiction" because I wasn’t ready for the world to know those bad things happened to me. But, that didn’t work. I wasn’t telling the truth and truth meant so much to me. I’d lived a life of nothing but hurt and lies, so how could I tell my story if it was all a lie?
I also had to keep the strong language I heard day in and day out, and I had to keep the explicit content as I remember it actually happened because there is no way to “sugarcoat” child abuse.
One day I sat down to try and write and I decided to change my name in the story. Everyone else had a different name to protect their identity, so why shouldn’t I have a different name, too? By changing my name to Sarah I was able to pull back and look at what I was writing through Sarah’s eyes.
By doing this, everything that actually happened to me, I was able to “pretend” it happened to Sarah, not me. In a way, I guess she was like an imaginary friend, guiding me to do what I needed to do.
Deep down I always knew I needed to tell what happened. I needed to admit I was a survivor of child abuse. I needed to find a path toward healing my shame. Yes, shame. I blamed myself for what happened. I felt ashamed and dirty. I felt I was a “bad” kid and that’s why Daddy, his brother and so many more did those things to me.
However, with Sarah’s help, I was able to look at my feelings. I was able to face all the horrible things done to me. But no matter what went down in black and white, I still loved my father so much. And I hated myself for that! Over the years as more and more memories returned, I began to hate him even more than I hated myself for loving him.
The things he did to me…things he allowed others to do to me, were unforgivable.
A parent is supposed to protect their children, not hurt them or abuse them. My father wasn’t one of the good parents. He was cruel. He only cared about himself and his own “needs” that he forced me to fulfill.
The terror I felt the first time Daddy did “things” pushed me over the edge and I developed another personality. As I watched, from a safe place, the things Daddy made her do, I called her my guardian angel.
I believed in my angel who protected me time and again, but I didn’t believe God existed. All I could think was: If God did exist, why would He let me and my angel be hurt so badly?
As the abuse escalated, my angel couldn’t handle it all, so more personalities were needed to protect me. Like my angel, each new protector looked similar to me, and all but one was a little older than I was at the time. My angel became the guardian, not only of me, but the others as well. As time went on she had to protect all of us, and I know if it wasn’t for my angel and the others taking care of me, protecting me, I would have died.
When I finally finished writing my story, I prayed it would help others still suffering. I hoped it would help save another child from abuse. What happened to me was the most extreme abuse, but it doesn’t take extreme to mess up a kid’s head.
Not long after my book came out, my prayers were answered. I received a message from a reader after she’d finished my first book, and I learned all the pain I had to relive during the writing was worth it because one survivor was helped! She had found her path toward healing!
By reading what happened to me, she realized she was not alone and healing was possible for her, too. Today, she is living the life she’d been denied for so long. She is happy, maybe for the first time in her life.
Since that first message, I have received numerous more messages thanking me for having the courage to tell my story; thanking me for helping them. And, I’ve also received messages from people who didn’t know the damages child abuse could do to a kid until they read my heartbreaking story.
These people are now more aware of the children around them. They are aware of the signs that a child is possibly being abused. They can now help prevent child abuse just from their knowledge learned by reading my story.
Hearing these fantastic stories from my readers did meet what I originally hoped and prayed to achieve by sharing my life, but I have received so much more than I asked for in my prayers. I have received the best gift of all…everyone of these wonderful people who’s contacted me are now lifelong friends.
To learn more about me and my story, please visit my website. Read the bitter memories trilogy and tell others about me and my story. By you helping spread the word, knowledge will change the lives of so many still suffering; so many still being abused.
Join with me to help prevent many more children from having to learn what child abuse feels like. Together we can make a difference in a child’s life.
The trilogy: Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival, Trophy Murders, and Cutter’s Revenge
Newest book: From The Heart: A Collection of Poems and Stories
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From Memories to Survival
In order to help other child abuse survivors I knew I had to tell my story; all those bad things that happened to me as a child on the run, hungry, abused, and terrified.
It was 40+ years writing my memoir. Time and again I had to stop writing because those memories became too painful.
While writing that book I had to relive years of sorrow as I talked about and dealt with all those heartbreaking, painful memories.
But I am a survivor, and from that first book came three more books, listed below with a very short bit about each one:
THE BOOKS:
Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival is the book that started it all. Written novel-style for easy reading, this is a true story of a little girl (me) kidnapped by her father, living a life on the run, hungry, abused and terrified...
There is no way to “sugarcoat” child abuse, therefore be prepared for strong language and explicit content.
Other books in this series — creative non-fiction/crime fiction:
Trophy Murders is not only an action-packed fictionalized crime story, but I take you deeper into the journey of true events after going to live with Uncle Henry (the cop) and his heavy-handed wife, Olivia. A life I wouldn’t wish on any kid!
Cutter's Revenge continues my story after my adoption, mixing truth with fiction. Anyone who’s read the other two books will know what’s true and what isn’t. While another fictionalized serial killer stalks our little town, I write my story the way it could have been if...turning tragedy into an exciting and happy ending!
My Newest Book — non-fiction:
From The Heart is a collection of fifteen poems written from events in my life, including short stories that inspired the writing of each poem. This book is also available in audio with Beth MacEwan narrating. Beth did an amazing job bringing life to each poem and story. It is awesome!
NOTE: Bitter Memories: A Memoir of Heartache & Survival is NOT a cozy, feel-good book. It's a true story of extreme child abuse and my struggle to survive. It contains strong language and heartbreaking content, but it was my life.
The language is toned down in the other books in this trilogy, and the abuse isn't nearly as intense or as often, plus tossing in the serial killers does make for a very exciting (even a bit twisted and sadistic) read.
Turning to poetry for a time, in From The Heart I expose feelings never shared before.
All my books are based on or from events in my life and have received 4 and 5 star reviews.
To learn more about the bitter memories trilogy, my new poetry book, plus other books coming soon (just waiting on cover art to be finished), please follow the link below to my website:
http://sj2448.wix.com/suejulsen
